Leader of the Ark Raiders

She seemed to want to say something, but stopped after all.

It seemed that Shen Cangye was unwilling to let Shen Cangye know more about her.

Xu Yu is unwilling to open her heart to others, and is unwilling to have contact with others.

Because she is afraid that the inevitable death and oblivion accompanying her racial identity will hurt those around her.

"So what?" Shen Cangye asked.

Xu Yu hesitated for a moment, smiled, and said, "Nothing. Let's go? Well, the next step is..."

She hurriedly tried to change the subject.

Seeing her like this, Shen Cangye sighed, and stopped talking.

200. Climbing together?

The two walked along La Rambla and boarded the Monzac Hill in the urban area.

On this high mountain overlooking the whole city, they took a rest in the soft wind.

Surprisingly, there was a cafe on the top of the mountain, and they sat down at a small table outside the cafe.

"Here, Mocha."

Shen Cangye handed the hot coffee to Xu Yu.

"Thank you." Xu Yu took it over and held it in her palm.

She didn't seem to have recovered from her climb to the top of Monzac just now.

Xu Yu's physical fitness made every operator in Rhodes Island who knew about medical common sense worried.

Hundreds of steps were enough to make her out of breath.

The last dozen or so steps were almost dragged up by Shen Cangye.

"Sorry, I'm a boring travel companion." The water-blue Agor shook his head apologetically.

The request to climb Montzac Mountain was proposed by Xu Yu himself.

At this time, they were already preparing to go home.

However, an inexplicable impulse in my heart to hope that the trip would last longer made Dr. Agor request to climb the mountain.

But she didn't expect that she didn't have enough physical strength to support her to climb to the top of the mountain while chatting with her traveling companion.

"Come up and have a look, it's not bad." Shen Cangye looked at the cathedral in the city of Catalona.

Xu Yu took a sip of coffee, looked at the people around her, "Actually, you want to come with Miss Platinum, don't you?"

Shen Cangye smiled, "That little pegasus just likes new things, and she will never be interested in climbing mountains. If I come with her, she will definitely stay on La Rambla and refuse to leave—those wandering entertainers It will keep her entertained all day."

"Doctor Shen, you are very welcome in Rhodes Island." Xu Yu said, looking a little lonely.

"You're joking." Shen Cangye hurriedly shook his head, "Miss Xu Yu, you are the same. Your superb first aid skills have won the trust of the operators, and everyone hopes to make friends with you."

"Really?" Xu Yu's lowered eyes were filled with anticipation and restraint.

But after all, she didn't answer any more, and only responded with silence.

201. Memory Fragments, Links of Thought

Shen Cangye decided to break the silence, "Miss Xu Yu, I'm actually very sad about what you just said."

Xu Yu was stunned, "What do you mean?"

Shen Cangye said: "You stopped talking halfway, is there any secret you don't want to tell me?"

"what……"

Xu Yu obviously didn't expect Shen Cangye to say it so directly, and was speechless for a while.

After a while, she calmed down and said, "I'm used to this."

Shen Cangye turned to look at her, "You are used to rejecting everyone who tries to communicate with you."

"I just..." Xu Yu stopped after speaking halfway.

She raised her head and closed her eyes, her slender eyelashes trembling slightly.

She bit her knuckles.

After a long time, she said: "I'm just afraid that one day, I will forget my good friends because of memory loss... For those who regard me as friends, being forgotten by friends is a kind of harm. "

"Isn't it hurting to refuse?" Shen Cangye asked back, "When others want to express their gratitude to you, when others want to be friends with you and establish a bond with you, but you choose to close yourself, isn't this hurting others? ?”

"At least when I forget about them—"

"Why are you so sure you'll forget?"

"I..." Xu Yu was momentarily at a loss for words.

Nor does she know the answers to these questions.

But she did so almost automatically.

She always gives people an ethereal touch.

Just like her code name, Xu Yu, is a fluffy drizzle.

Xuyu, strands and strands, but untouchable, only the slight coolness that seems to be lingering.

Even, she feels more like fog than rain.

She is a vapor that is about to dissolve, like a ghost that dissolves in the sun.

...a ghost with no connection to the world.

"I've seen people who lost their memory before." Shen Cangye said, "Rosemary, you know, that film girl...she is the same."

"I know, I know..." Xu Yu clenched her palm unconsciously.

She looks miserable.

Shen Cangye tried his best to explore Xu Yu's state of mind at the moment, trying to empathize with her.

Excluding the case of Dao Ke Tower who lost his memory for no reason at all, Shen Cangye has also seen many patients who lost their memory due to disease or trauma in his previous life.

...In other planes, Shen Cangye mostly stays for a short time.

Only the experience of the previous life made him feel that he had truly lived and had the deepest memory.

Shen Cangye remembered that when he was in the hospital, he often received some patients who had lost their memory.

Some of them have brain compression caused by trauma; elderly people with Alzheimer's disease; and patients who have lost memory for no reason due to severe depression and other mental diseases.

Shen Cangye looked at the itinerant doctor in front of him.

He felt compelled to say something.

202. Open your mind (in every sense)

Shen Cangye looked at Agor in front of him and said: "Amnesia is very painful, especially for those close to you. You don't know what years and emotions you have gone through with him, but he Remember. When he wants to hug you, you can only give him a smile like a stranger."

"I understand." Xu Yu sighed, "I think I have hurt others more than once."

Shen Cangye turned his eyes back from a distance, and landed on Xu Yu who was beside him, "The patients who have lost their memories I told you just now, their relatives and friends—the relatives and friends they have forgotten , Many people turned around and left in pain, but there were also people who stayed behind, and they chose to re-understand the world with patients."

He gently put his hand on the Agor girl's hand, "If you avoid all those who desire to build a bond with you, you will never know who is willing to face the strange world after losing your memory with you, who I am willing to stay by your side after you lose your memory, so that you can get to know them again."

"I..." Xu Yu was stunned for a moment.

She turned her face and looked at Shen Cangye with some hesitation in her expression.

"Those who know your racial characteristics and are willing to approach you, don't they deserve your more serious treatment instead of avoiding them?" Shen Cangye said.

Humans are social animals.

Sometimes, crying and hesitating all night alone can't compare to a warm hug from others.

Before letting go of the Agor girl's hand, Shen Cangye gently squeezed her palm, "Miss Xu Yu, you might as well try it, no one can completely not establish contact with anyone. Because they are afraid of hurting others And avoidance, this is the barrier you set up for yourself, which will only make yourself painful."

The Agor woman looked back at Shen Cangye with her purple eyes.

Her lips twitched, but no words came out.

"Maybe I haven't experienced your experience, and I can't empathize with you." Shen Cangye said, "If my self-talk offends you, I apologize."

"No...you didn't offend me...it's just that I didn't think so much before..." After Xu Yu finished speaking, she fell into silence again.

After a while, she muttered to herself again, "I haven't talked to anyone about these things..."

"I was the one who was abrupt." Shen Cangye said.

Xu Yu turned her face away, and said in a barely audible voice: "No, if the person to talk to is you... Maybe, it's not bad..."

203. What a Big Mountain

Shen Cangye didn't expect Xu Yu to accept his suggestion immediately.

In fact, everyone has their own comfort zone.

Rushing out of your comfort zone can be painful.

When Shen Cangye said these words, he didn't intend to force this introverted Agor girl to take the initiative to socialize.

He just hopes that she can accept kindness and gratitude from others when she is suitable, instead of avoiding it forever.

Before Xu Yu could reply, two flower sellers jumped over.

The lovely Li Boli child squeezed to Shen Cangye's side, and hugged him with a smile, "Sir, buy a bunch of flowers for Madam!"

I don't know if the children put the flowers themselves.

If so, then these children must have received a good art education since childhood.

The bouquets in their hands are fresh and elegant in color, and the lengths are scattered, which is very beautiful.

Shen Cangye looked helplessly at the expectant children, so he had no choice but to buy a bouquet of flowers.

The two children laughed and said something in Iberian, then ran away fighting.

"What? What did they just say... what salt?" Shen Cangye frowned.

Xu Yu finally couldn't help laughing, "Doctor Shen, your Iberian is really bad, it's not 'salt', it's 'forever', they say, wish us eternal love."

"Ah, okay..." Shen Cangye scratched his hair in embarrassment.

"Let's go." Xu Yu said.

She put her hand on Shen Cangye's arm lightly, "When you go down the mountain, can you hold me a little bit, Dr. Shen?"

"Forget it, I'll carry you on my back, don't fall and cause trouble." Shen Cangye said, squatting down slightly.

The way down the mountain is quite far.

He was really afraid that if this fragile Agor fell, he would fall apart.

"This……"

The thought of refusing lingered in Xu Yu's mind for a few seconds...

But in the end, she still carefully lay on Shen Cangye's back.

Even though one arm was around Shen Cangye's neck, she still held the bouquet of flowers very dearly.

Shen Cangye was also very embarrassed in front.

When going up the mountain, he just supported Xu Yu, but now it's different...

The extrusion force in one part of the back is obviously greater than in other areas.

He began to regret giving the proposal of carrying Xu Yu down the mountain.

The two walked in silence for a while, and Xu Yu suddenly took a breath.

As if she had made up her mind, she asked, "You were in Iberia at the time, what else happened? If you want, can you tell me about it?"

Shen Cangye was a little surprised, she actually took the initiative to start the topic.