Why does the Ruined King still fall in love?

In this space surrounded by a dull atmosphere, I finally saw Yukinoshita's figure clearly again.It was exactly the same as when we met for the first time—perfect, indifferent, as if the distance between me and me had widened a lot in an instant, but the distance of these few steps seemed difficult to cross.

At this time, the correct way was to leave this place without saying anything, but he couldn't control his feet—even his voice.

I slowly looked down, stared at the place where Yukinoshita was standing, took a deep breath, and said in a voice that I couldn't hear clearly

"...There is no reason for such a thing..."

"That is to say, did you admit it...Admit the fact that you have started dating."

When she said that, I felt very harsh. It was not because the indifference in the tone made me feel like a stranger, nor was it the sense of distance, but the "admission" she said.

...No, this is not a fault, so there is no need to admit it. Even I have the normal right to associate with others.However, when I raised my eyes and looked at her again, the original thoughts disappeared unconsciously.

Even the rhetoric prepared in my heart turned into a weak explanation when it came to my mouth

"...The facts you mentioned are just what happened last week..."

"Yes... What about the answer? It has nothing to do with time. What I'm asking is why you started dating that person."

Yukinoshita remained the same as before, maintaining that unwavering expression, and continued to question coldly.

The last time Yang Nai called her out of this classroom, she never thought that it would become like this.With the mentality of being pranked, I kept playing sloppy to fool the past. I can only say that I have done it myself.However, if we faced it with a serious attitude at that time, would the result really change?

The answer - no.

Whether it is serious or casual, as long as the words and events do not change, the result will also remain the same.So now, I can only breathe heavily, and turn my eyes away from Yukinoshita's body

"Why... I can't tell you the specifics. It's just that I have thought about some things clearly. The relationship is just an incidental result."

I can't tell Yukinoshita what I really think, and I can't fool it at will, so I answered this question in a general language. I didn't lie, but it wasn't correct either.

Yukinoshita smiled and blinked

"Yeah... that's your answer."

Then, she looked at me, and focused her eyes on me without moving, as if she wanted to see through.Slightly shaking his trembling lips, there was a hint of pain on his expression, maybe it was a relationship that could be hidden, I'm not sure if it represented pain or not—or hesitation was fine.

"...you like my sister...do you really like it?"

The tone of this sentence is very light, without the indifference I had before, it can be said to be as fragile as a candle in the wind, which may go out at any time, as if my breathing will make it disappear if I breathe a little harder.Because of this, I couldn't help but hold my breath.

Is this kind of thing worth caring about?At least... I wouldn't care.Two people who become lovers and start dating—whether they really like it or just a short-term impulse, it has nothing to do with other people. Yukinoshita would ask this question, probably because I can’t imagine the scene where a person like me can communicate with others. And Or, just simply worried about various aspects?

I smiled at her, leaned against the classroom door again, and slowly slid down to the ground like this, and Yukinoshita's eyes followed me slowly.

"Well... After all, I can't say what you mean by "really liking". It's like—everyone has their own advantages and disadvantages, but in different people In my eyes, those advantages and disadvantages will have differences, if you regard the advantages as the parts you like, and if you regard the disadvantages as the parts you don't like, everyone's definition of likes is different..."

Until now, I still can't explain the definition of "like" in my heart. The only thing I can be sure of is that there is indeed something I like in Yang Nai.However, what I can't figure out is why two people can date as long as there is something they like each other?

"It's just part of it..."

I looked at Yukinoshita who was thinking, and said the answer.

"what?"

Perhaps, hearing the unexpected answer, Yukinoshita looked at me with something other than indifference—doubt.

"What I like is just the appearance. Probably most boys will like this when they see it? That ideal appearance. For her, what I really like is the appearance."

"...Are you saying that it's your sister's appearance that you like more than...?"

Yukinoshita seemed to realize something and frowned, holding her hands gently, looking at me in disbelief.

I nodded and confirmed again

"Ah...Because I don't know anything about her other than that. That person..."

As I said that, I gently shook my head and leaned against the door, looking at the empty ceiling, the scene at that time slowly emerged in my mind... At that time, the love that Yang Nao said. .....Can it be called real again?Then flashed the picture of Yang Nai kissing him suddenly, I couldn't help but shake my head lightly, in the end... which side is the real...

After finishing the short recollection, when I looked at Yukinoshita, she was also looking at me in a daze, and my eyes met in the air, and she gently pushed aside to finish, I spoke again

"Well, I'm actually surprised."

"......what?"

Yukinoshita squinted at me.

"You will ask such a question, and it is the first time I know..."

She closed her eyes and straightened herself up again,

"Is there something wrong? Your contacts are my family members, so the questions I ask can be taken for granted? Although, I have no right and no reason to interfere with anyone's freedom, but if Mr. Qigu If your dating partner is your sister—”

Her words stopped here, and she stared at me with her eyes wide open. The slightly dangerous gaze made me become cautious

"I don't know what's unexpected, Hikigu-kun."

His tone gradually became milder, and he couldn't feel the cold attitude before, and it was more... a rhetorical question like a prank.

"Um, ah, indeed, indeed..."

Maybe it was because the contrast was too big, so I didn't organize the language of the answer for a while, and looked at her blankly, as if looking for the answer to all these, but still found nothing.

"Da, da, da" Yukinoshita walked towards me, stood in front of me, looking down at me condescendingly, after I exchanged glances with her, I opened the door and walked out.

...so, what the hell is today...why?

"Aha..."

My weary sighs were heard throughout the classroom.

As a result, when I returned to the classroom, I realized that I had completely forgotten about lunch. I looked at the time and saw that the lunch break was almost over. I sighed helplessly and returned to my seat, leaning back on the chair tiredly.

Although I'm not very hungry, I don't think I'm physically exhausted, but I still feel exhausted - it comes from the spirit... Well, speaking of it, what happened recently is quite a lot...

"Small business?"

A familiar voice came from behind, and looking up, it was Yu Bibin.

"oh oh."

With a worried expression on his face, he said hesitantly with his hands behind his back:

"Are you all right? Xiaoqi...you look a little pale?"

"...It's okay, I'm just a little hungry...I don't have enough time to go to the commissary."

When I said that, I also put my hand on my abdomen lightly. To be honest, I am really a little hungry now, so even my voice seems weak.

However, as expected, I still felt a sense of guilt...ah, what a disgusting feeling. To be able to tell lies to Yuigahama so naturally, it seems that I have fallen too... ...

"Then... this is for you."

Strangely enough, I saw Yubihama quickly take out her hands behind her back—by the way, she put a piece of butter bread and a can of hot orange juice on my table. Before I could speak, she stood up straight explain loudly

"Ah, because, I bought a lot, so... this is the leftovers! Um, the leftovers!"

"...Yes, thank you very much... How much?"

I couldn't help but smile. Speaking of which...is this a lie?However, no matter how many times you encounter such a lie, you will never feel deceived... Therefore, a white lie can always be forgiven and affirmed by anyone.

"No, no, it's a big help for Xiaoqi to eat all of these!"

Yuigahama shook his head vigorously, on the contrary, I started to feel a little embarrassed...

"No... As expected, it should be..."

"Then next time! If there is a chance next time, just treat again!"

...why are you so excited...

However, the words have already been said here, so it is not easy to continue. After a soft sigh, I thank you very much

"Then...thank you, Yuigahama."

"Well, it's almost time for class, so hurry up."

"Ah, don't worry about that, I'm pretty good at eating."

"hey-hey."

With a cute laugh, Yuigahama seemed to be in a good mood, and then shook his hand at me

"I'll go there first, you eat slowly."

"Oh"

After separating from me, Yubihama returned to her work, joined the group of Miura and Hayama, opened up the topic, and turned into a state of talking and laughing, maybe talking about some happy topics Well, but I didn't pay attention to it, and I didn't need to pay attention to it. It was just a coincidence that I saw this scene. My eyes followed Yuigahama's departure and I saw it by accident, that's all.

I turned my gaze back to the bread and juice on the table

"Phew...forget it"

......I'm gonna start now.

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After school in the afternoon, the club activities were the same as yesterday. The three of us spent time in that well-heated classroom. Yukinoshita and I mostly read books, and Yuigahama played with his mobile phone, bringing up some topics from time to time, and then we I agree with Yukinoshita. However, the real conversation between the three of them is rare. Yukinoshita's attitude is similar to that at noon, and he can only occasionally pick up the conversation with me. But Yuigahama is very eager..... .Probably, I feel guilty because of the lie at noon today...

By the way, when it comes to guilt, am I not one of the victims...

At [-]:[-] p.m., the club activities ended without anything happening. Yukinoshita first walked out of the teaching building on the grounds of returning the keys, and I walked towards the bicycle parking place. Yuigahama greeted me Afterwards, I went to Yukinoshita, because both of them were sent by the tram, and if I chose to take a short detour from here, the two of them could take the same tram... However, it seems that the one who was in the classroom today At that time, Yuigahama had said that she was going to stay overnight at Yukinoshita... Well, whatever, it's not something I can handle anyway.

So, after I walked out of the school gate, it was time for me to go home alone.

Slowly pushing the bicycle on the road, occasionally the cold wind blowing from both ends made me slow down, thinking about whether I should not ride a bicycle to class recently. The cold alone can probably be tolerated , but there will be light rain recently, so the ground is likely to freeze. In case of falling on the way to school or home, it is not worth it.Anyway, it's not too far from the school, and there's no need to take a tram.

I pushed the bicycle like this for a while, and I didn’t start to ride until I crossed the street. There were almost no people along the way, only a cold breath of assembly.

Perhaps it was stimulated by the cold, which calmed down the originally chaotic thoughts, and gradually recalled what happened at noon today in my mind.

——Why did Yukinoshita lie?Did he not want Yuigahama to know... If that's the case, it's not incomprehensible.But, is it really just that?In addition, the most incomprehensible thing is...why, I will answer those questions she raised.

There is no obligation and no reason to answer, just keep silent to quickly end the conversation between us, but because you can't ignore those questions and try hard to explain things that you can't even understand...It's very Strange isn't it?Myself......

Why...you have to explain so much to Yukinoshita... Sure enough, is it because of "sister"...or... simply afraid of being caught misunderstanding?No, it's okay even if I misunderstood, and it's not something that needs to be explained clearly... But...

An unbearable hot irritability continuously rose from my heart, in order to vent——

"Uh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh"

I made a strange yell while riding on the bicycle, and I tried my best to pedal the bicycle... Fortunately, there are no pedestrians around here... Otherwise, it will definitely be regarded as strange Guy came to see.

The cold wind kept hitting my face, but the feeling of irritability did not decrease at all. I just felt like I was out of control, pedaling my bicycle indiscriminately, and then ran wildly on the road until I reached the door of my house. This state was relieved. After parking the bicycle, he took a few deep breaths before opening the door. He took off his shoes in the hallway, walked quickly to the sofa and threw himself on the sofa before he breathed a sigh of relief.

"......I want to cry......"

Please, someone lend me your shoulder...

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After the weekend, there is a new Monday.

Then, in another two weeks, we will have the placement test.Therefore, the school's club activities will also end this week, and will not be held until the new semester begins after the holiday.Moreover, as a second-year high school student, I feel more or less nervous. After all, this time is also a step to determine the future, whether it is future interpersonal relationships, or career path and employment issues. The Met starts here.

To sum it up in one simple sentence - in a few weeks, the time of parting will come.

I don't know if it was affected by the dreary atmosphere in the class or something else. I kept staring out the window during class. Although the radiance of the sun at the end of winter was warm, I couldn't take it out unexpectedly. The cold breath that has penetrated into the body makes people feel that this kind of sunshine is just warm on the surface.

After school, I greeted Yuigahama, who is a student on duty, and came to the classroom of the service department alone. The electric heater inside was working very well, so the moment I stepped in, I felt a sense of comfort. In order not to lose this warmth, I quickly closed the door after entering, walked to my place and put the schoolbag aside, took out a library and opened it as usual.

And before me, someone seemed to have been here for a not-so-short period of time.

On the chair by the window opposite, Yukinoshita was quietly flipping through the book in her hand. My arrival did not attract her attention, and even the rhythm of reading was not affected until I was ready to enter the reading state. A small voice came from the other side

"Snapped"

It was the sound of Yukinoshita closing the book. I looked over suspiciously and heard Yukinoshita casually say:

"Where is... Yuigahama-san? Didn't you come with me?"

"No, she is on duty today, so she probably won't be able to come."

"Yes, is it..."

After saying something in a weakening voice, Yukinoshita's eyes were a little erratic, and after meeting my doubtful gaze, he "huh" looked away, and then simply closed his eyes.

Ah... This is to say that my current appearance is simply unsightly... Of course it will be thought so, after all, she has always been disgusted with my relationship with her sister Emotions are looking at it... Well, I think, no matter who I associate with, she will look at it with the same eyes...

However, even so, I didn't want to explain too much. After sighing in my heart, I refocused on the book.

"Hmm."

Two throat-clearing voices interrupted my movement again. When I looked over with a questioning gaze, Yukinoshita also just put down the hand covering her mouth, put her hands on the book on her lap, and gently Glanced at me, then stared straight ahead, hesitantly said

"Bi, Biqigu-kun..."

"Oh......"