My sick girlfriend can't be my wife Yuno

For a full two years, the diary was written like this.

Except one of them said that the "Naruto Ninja" drawn by Amano came out with a special bank card, and she got one to save all her money.

Tens of thousands of other diary entries are filled with pain, discomfort... and wanting to die.

Amano Kazuhiko looked at the words written down by Yuno, and couldn't help but feel pain in his heart.

——It turned out that the pain that Yuno experienced was so heavy.

The harm Yuno suffered before he imagined was still too much for granted.

Only after seeing the details of the written records, can one know how unacceptable it is.

Pain is scary.

And years of pain will make people numb and make people unable to see the colors of the world.

This is Yuno's colorless life in the past.

Amano Kazuki couldn't bear to look forward.

He thought that going forward, it was the record of being hurt by his mother during the middle school period.

But when he turned to the diary from 20X0 years ago, it was completely beyond his expectation.

Kazuki Amano directly dragged the diary to 20X0 and scrolled down.

[20X0 years

3/1. 8:23. (School)

The new semester is divided into classes.

You must keep the first grade so that your mother will not be angry, otherwise she will be locked in a cage. 】

[3/7:14 (School)

Kazuki Amano in the class performed better than me in the entrance exam, so I will be punished by my mother today.

What should I do, Kazuki Amano is very famous in school, I didn't expect to be assigned to the same class with him. 】

[5/7. 9:11. (School)

How is it possible, the midterm exam results are still No.2, but I have obviously worked very hard. 】

[5/7. 20:35. (at home)

Sure enough, I was punished by my mother, and it was so uncomfortable to be locked in a cage.

I must not lose to Kazuki Amano next time.

That classmate obviously fights with other people every day, why is his grade so good?

Does he have any special learning methods, I have to observe carefully. 】

[5/22. 13:50. (School)

Amano-san is amazing!He can help students with problems they encounter, and he is also very good at sports.

If only I could be as good as him, my mother will definitely agree with me! 】

[7/30. 18:20. (at home)

After the holidays, I won't be able to see Amano-san.

I heard that he participated in the school's summer vacation volunteer activities. I don't know if I can go secretly. 】

[9/1. 8:10. (School)

school starts!Very good!

I haven't seen you for more than a month, but Amano-san is still so good-looking. 】

【9/23. 22:30. (at home)

Today my mother put me in the cage again.

Without dinner, I may be hungry again.

But it doesn't matter, I want to be as strong as Amano-san.

If I become a good person like Amano-san, my mother will definitely understand me. 】

[10/31. 15:20. (School)

My high jump performance was excellent in physical education class today, so my mother should not punish me.

However, Amano-san did not achieve excellence, which is very surprising. 】

[10/31. 16:30. (School)

After class, I didn't see Amano-san. It turned out that he went to the stadium to practice high jump.

I don't know how long he practiced.

Start here from me.

He has been practicing for almost 10 minutes and broke his leg.

But he still didn't give up, really strong.

I will work hard to learn from Amano. 】

[12/23. 13:30. (School)

Everyone prepared presents for Christmas, and I prepared a pen to give to Amano.

It's a pity that Amano-san is really popular, everyone surrounds him, and there is no chance to get close to him.

……

Can someone like me really get close to Amano-san? 】

[20X1 years.

1/18. 7:30. (at home)

My mother hit me yesterday and I had to find a way to cover up the marks.

If Amano-san sees this, I will be in a bad mood.

I will continue to work hard. If I am like Amano-san, my mother will be happy. 】

[3/1. 17:20. (School)

There are no classes in the new semester, but why didn't I see Amano-san in the class, where did he go! ! 】

[3/2. 14:50. (School)

Amano-san actually transferred schools, why, why did this happen, where did he transfer to! ! 】

[3/3. 23:20. (at home)

I didn't pass the exam at the beginning of school, so my mother beat me and put me in a cage.

Where have you been, Amano, I miss you so much. 】

[5/1. 17:40. (next door school)

Why not!There are no Amano classmates in the surrounding schools!

It hurts me not to see you again! !

Amano-san!Amano-san!Amano-san! ! 】

……

[7/30. 23:30. (at home)

It's so painful, my mother hit me again today. 】

[11/7. 22:50. (at home)

My mother locked me in a cage, and the tatami crumbs were hard to swallow. 】

…………

Kazuki Amano quickly swiped through one record after another, his face constantly changing.

It turned out that Yuno had been paying attention to him when he was in the country.

He was wrong.

Yuno's liking for him didn't start with that hug.

It was an earlier middle school.

At that time, he used himself as a time traveler and was mature in mind. Compared with other peers, he could learn everything faster and do everything well.

And at that time, the family was relatively harmonious, and my father was still there.

Everything is fine, he is a relatively well-known cashier in school.

So Yuno, who was in the opposite situation, happened to notice him.

Yuno regards him as a role model, and when she is punished by her mother, she fantasizes about him in her heart to cheer herself up.

Unknowingly, he became more and more important in Yuno's heart, and even became the girl's psychological support.

My wife Yuno imprinted him in her mind like a negative of a photo.

Whenever she was sad and wronged, she took it out and washed it once.

Then all the grievances and all the sorrows are over.

But at that time, he had no idea that there was such a girl watching him.

He has little attachment at school and moved away with his mother two years ago.

It was also at that time that Yuno never saw him again.

When she was punished by her mother, this poor girl no longer had the spiritual support to unravel herself.

After that, Yuno's psychology became more and more distorted and suppressed uncontrollably.

"Yuno...why didn't you tell me then...

Even if you take a knife and chop it on my desk, I can still remember you..."

Kazuki Amano held the phone in both hands, his nose and eyes squeezed together.

His expression at this time was simply distorted and ugly.

But anyone who reads it will feel sympathy.

The kind of sympathy that comes up to ask - "Sir, are you okay?"

On the mobile phone, lines of writing flashed across Amano Kazuki's eyes.

He gritted his teeth, holding back the whimper that was about to escape from his throat.

It would be nice if we could know it earlier, and it would be nice if we could cherish it sooner.

Now this is really the most painful.

—When a person is dead, can no longer speak, can no longer embrace.

Once again, she discovered that she had a deeper and more unforgettable sincere feeling for herself.

But what's the use of this?

Now I know that there is only endless sadness.

Even if the tears of regret flowed into a river, the girl would never get up and say a word.

My wife Yuno's diary contains very little of her own, and very little of anyone else's.

Except for the simple and clear ones when referring to mothers-punished, hungry, painful, uncomfortable, such words.

All other pages are used to record Kazuki Amano.

Just such a diary spanning six or seven years and writing tens of thousands of entries, all of them are very simple girls, with no rhetorical admiration.

From curiosity when she first met a boy in middle school, to longing, to liking.

All are the simplest love for a girl.