Human, am I evil?

This moment has come. I hope that there will be no conflict between Mama Cocolia and Sister Di Ruiji, and everyone can have a friendly dialogue.

"When did she come here? Today? Or yesterday? Xier."

"Eh? Well~ It's been a while, it seems like about a month? Xi'er doesn't remember clearly, do you want Xi'er to check the calendar?"

"...no need."

It's been almost a month, that is to say, she came here not long after she left last time.

You really know how to choose the time. Did you come here just when she was leaving?The purpose is to take the children as hostages?

At this time, Di Ruiji, who was telling a story, noticed Cocolia's gaze. The story that stopped suddenly brought the children back to their senses. Following Di Ruiji's gaze, they finally saw Cocolia not far away. .

After not seeing Cocolia for a month, the children ran towards her happily, and the scene was the same as when she came back in the past.

This made Cocolia unable to understand, didn't Di Ruiji do anything to the children during her absence?Like brainwashing or something?

Although there were many doubts in her heart, Cocolia still wanted to hand over the things in her hands to the children as usual, and took some things off the car with the help of several older children.

While the children were taking things, Cocolia noticed someone she hadn't seen just now—Raiden Mei.

Raiden Ryoma's daughter, she will never forget this important matter. As a family member of a member of a hostile faction, she also studied her who was kidnapped by a terrorist group not long ago.

Originally, he thought that Leiden Ryoma would protect her well, but he didn't expect to let her come out with such a dangerous person, and even ran to her territory.

Cocolia's eyes were fixed, different from the kindness she had when getting along with the children. At this time, her eyes were the eyes of a representative of the radical faction when she was anti-entropy.

Facing the aura created by Cocolia, Di Ruiji didn't feel anything, and looked over with one look, which immediately shocked Cocolia.

Although it was only for a moment, the thick breath of death made her unable to breathe, and after only a few breaths, her body was already covered in cold sweat.

"It's finally here, you really made me wait, Cocolia."

Di Ruiji came to Cocolia with Leiden Meiyi, and gently pushed away a child who came to him with a gift: "You guys play outside first, I have something to talk to Cocolia, wait to talk to her I'll tell you a story when I'm done talking."

"...I see."

The children didn't know much about the atmosphere between Di Ruiji and Cocolia. As good children, they chose to be obedient.

Xi'er, Xing and the few children who saw the problem looked at them worriedly, but they all knew that they could do nothing by themselves, they could only watch as Cocolia took Di Ruiji and Leiden Mei to her office .

Cocolia's office is very simple, and there are things Cocolia usually needs to deal with.

Cocolia first came to the refrigerator in the room, took out a bottle of vodka from it, and poured herself a glass of courage. To be honest, she was really worried that Di Ruiji would kill her right here.

But she is a person who likes to gamble. Seeing that she came to the office with him so calmly, Cocolia decided to take a gamble to see what Di Ruiji wanted to do.

"You...what do you want me to do? [Black Plague]."

After drinking for courage, Cocolia finally plucked up the courage to ask Di Ruiji the purpose of coming to her.

"Come here to see what your purpose for taking in orphans is to use them for experiments."

As he said that, Di Ruiji took out a bunch of documents from the storage space and threw them towards Cocolia. This was what she had shown Xing before. Besides those, there were other more extreme ones.

Considering that Xing is still just a child, the content that is too extreme is too exciting for her, so she stayed.

Cocolia glanced at it roughly, and found that they were basically things she had done, without any embellishment, and some were even detailed enough to make her sigh [so I did these things back then].

But, what is the purpose of her showing these to herself?Simply looking at her is not pleasing to the eye?Think she is a villain, so you plan to come here to kill her?

"No, I just want to see what your purpose of adopting these children is. Is it simply to use their high adaptability to the collapse to do some kind of experiment, just like the experiments you did on other people."

Did she use her motherhood as a cover to coax the children in the orphanage, and after gaining their trust, push them to the experimental table.

On the surface, he regards them as his own children, but actually treats them as his own experimental subjects. This is all Di Ruiji wants to know.

"I..."

"You didn't? You can't fool me, Cocolia. You've experimented with children, haven't you?"

After Xing showed an abnormal expression in her room last time, she asked her avatar to investigate this matter. Although no relevant information was found in the orphanage's office, it does not mean that there is no record.

Even the Archbishop of Destiny has the habit of keeping a diary on the database, so how could Cocolia have not recorded such things.

"...You're right, I did involve the children in some experiments."

Cocolia sat on the office chair and said bitterly.

"Are those experiments a threat?"

"Dangerous, there is a high probability that people participating in the experiment will die."

"Do you know the dangers of the experiment?"

"I know, before the experiment started, the relevant researchers have already told me."

"But you still decided to let the experiment continue, right? Even if they would die, even if you knew they would die in pain, you didn't stop."

Di Ruiji looked at Cocolia with a cold face, not only her, but even Lei Dian Mei, who was listening, had an ugly expression.

During the period of living here, she could clearly feel the trust that the children in the orphanage had in Cocolia. Although they were not related by blood, they really treated Cocolia as a mother.

But what did the person they regarded as their mother do to them?She used these children to do experiments, and the mortality rate was quite high.

"Damn you, Cocolia."

Although the tone was still the usual, Leiden Mei could hear the killing intent in Di Ruiji's words. At this moment, Di Ruiji was really suppressing the impulse in her heart, and she really wanted to kill Cocolia.

"I know what you think, but this is to allow more people to live. They all voluntarily participated in the experiment, and I have asked them about their wishes."

Cocolia still insisted on her own ideas, saying: "Their sacrifices can let us better understand the power of the Houkai. In order to eliminate the Houkai, these are necessary sacrifices."

"...Stubbornly obsessed with obsession, what you say is nice. Isn't it the task of an adult to protect children. You say sacrifice is to protect more people, why don't you do it yourself?"

"Oh, you're sure to say those kids are more suitable than yourself. If you had kids of your own, you'd let her do it, right?"

Anyone would say that, but does Cocolia have any children?No, that's why she can do this without any psychological burden.

"Don't you like experimenting with children? If so, let me let you experience it."

To treat another person in the same way as another person, before formally dealing with Cocolia, she must be made to fully feel the pain.

Honkai 2: 105: You are so hypocritical, Cocolia

She is a very ordinary mother, without any outstanding talents, and she has lived a very ordinary life.

The happiest thing about her is that she has a lovely daughter. She has intelligence and talent that she does not have. Since she was a child, she has shown talents far beyond her peers.

She is happy for her daughter's talents, proud of her talents, and feels that she will become a great person if she continues like this.

But at a certain time, a terrible disaster broke out in the world, and everyone around died, even her husband died in this disaster, leaving only herself and her daughter alive.

Despite the pain, she survived for her daughter and planned to live with each other.

At this moment, government officials came to her home, saying that her daughter's talent could help them find ways to deal with disasters. Although the experiment would be dangerous, I hope she can consider it for more people.

She can't accept such a thing. In her opinion, her daughter is the most important thing in the world. What does other people's lives have to do with her? She just wants her daughter to live well.

She was unwilling, but her daughter unexpectedly accepted the proposal. She didn't want another child who lost his father like herself.

When she was taken away by the government personnel, she still said goodbye to her mother with a smile as before, telling her not to worry. Although the experiment was dangerous, it was not impossible to survive, and she would definitely come back when she had time.

The daughter's comfort didn't help. Since that day, the mother seemed to have lost her soul. If it wasn't for seeing her daughter again, she wouldn't even have the motivation to live.

Finally, those government officials came again, but this time they held a box of things in their hands, and the daughter saw the things inside, which were her favorite teddy bear, and the hairpin she bought for her.

These are the things my daughter has always carried, why are they in this box?This... what the hell is going on here?

"Sorry, your daughter died in the last experiment, ma'am."

The government officials silently said what she didn't want to hear, as if the sky was falling, and the woman's heart died at this moment.

The moment her heart died, the world around her began to shatter, and her appearance began to change, from an ordinary woman at first to Cocolia at the back.

Her brain began to accept memories, and besides the one just now, there were dozens of different lives in which she lost her children as a mother.

She has experienced heart-wrenching pain in every period of her life, and just one period was already unbearable. Now dozens of memories came together, causing Cocolia to collapse on the ground, unable to even wail.

"How? Although it's just a simulated life, those girls are indeed your children. They are your daughters who have been pregnant for ten months, about 300 days, and are related to you. They are just like you said, for Saving more people at the expense of their own lives."

"..."

Unable to answer, the unspeakable pain caused Cocolia to lose control of her body. She should not be able to hear anything in this situation, but she could clearly hear Di Ruiji's words.

The only reason left was telling her that Di Ruiji was punishing her. In order to let her understand how stupid the theory of sacrificing the few to save the many was, Di Ruiji let Cocolia experience the pain of sacrificing herself. The child saves other people's feelings.

In order to let her understand this feeling better, she didn't just let her go after finishing the Cocolia experience hastily, but let her experience it 79 times.

This is a rather huge memory, and at the same time, the superimposed power of those emotions is extremely huge, and the power in it has reached the point where a person like Cocolia with an extremely hard heart can break through the defense in an instant.

"Can you now understand how ridiculous you were before? How stupid it is to sacrifice children in order to let more people survive, do you understand?"

"Oh, you may not understand. Because you are not the mother of those children at all, and they are just tools used for experiments to you. From your point of view, even if they die in the experiment, they can be in other places Find new kids to supplement."

"....Do not."

"They are not your children, sacrificing the lives of people who have nothing to do with you is like the experiment you do on other people outside. There will be no psychological burden at all, just give them false tenderness, give them a little You can make them willingly sacrifice their lives for themselves, and hope that you will not be sad when the experiment fails. This is their own choice and has nothing to do with you."

Di Ruiji came to Cocolia, looked down at Cocolia who was shaking constantly, and concluded: "It's hypocrisy, Cocolia. The children give everything to you and trust you with all their hearts. And you But face them with such an attitude, you really deserve to die."

"I don't...I don't!"

Cocolia bit her lip, using the pain to give herself the strength to speak, and refuted Di Ruiji in this way.

She didn't treat the children as tools, everything she gave to the children was sincere, she...she really regarded everyone as her own children.

Di Ruiji kicked Cocolia away: "No? You are really stubborn, Cocolia. Then you answer me, the child who was pushed to do the experiment by you last time and then died, you are sad for her departure How long? When was the last time you were sad for her?"

"I...."

"It's very rare, or not at all. I walked around the neighborhood this month. Apart from seeing if there are any Houkai beasts nearby, I also want to see if you have erected a monument for those children. Even if their bodies need to be disposed of due to the erosion of the Houkai energy, it would be good to erect a monument for them nearby, so that they can be near this so-called [home] after death. Then what?"

"No, I found nothing, saw nothing."

Even if she searched the place, she couldn't find any tombstones with the children who had passed away.

She didn't do anything, she just tidied up the children's remains, at most, she remembered the departed children with the children in the orphanage, she did nothing else, and she actually denied it here her words.

Grabbing Cocolia's face, Di Ruiji really wanted to know how stubborn this guy was to say such a thing.

"I didn't...I really...really didn't."

Cocolia wanted to say that she didn't use those children as tools, but anyone with a conscience would doubt what she did.

She had never thought that she had done anything wrong before. Honkai was inherently dangerous. In order to understand the power of Honkai, some sacrifices were necessary.

The previous children also voluntarily participated in their experiments to protect other people in the orphanage. She did nothing wrong, she never did anything wrong, at least that's what she thought before.

But after living through those 79 mother's lives, she understood how arrogant that thought was, and why Di Ruiji was so angry after knowing what she had done.

Looking at the tearful Cocolia, Di Ruiji didn't continue to clean her up. She casually threw Cocolia on the ground and threw her out of this special space.

Cocolia who left the space immediately fell on the table, and the feeling just now would not disappear with her leaving the space.

Raiden Mei looked at Cocolia who was lying on the table in puzzlement, she was fine just now, why did she suddenly look like a disconnected robot?

"Don't look at it, just like I pulled you into the consciousness space before and let you fight the Houkai beast in it. I also pulled her into the consciousness space, but instead of letting her fight, I let her experience some matter."

"Experienced something?"

What was it that made Cocolia react so strongly?Raiden Mei is very curious, but it is definitely not a good thing for someone like Cocolia to become like this.

The smart girl didn't ask any more questions, and obediently followed Di Ruiji out of the office, leaving only Cocolia in the office.

Oh, Di Ruiji didn't plan to let Cocolia go, she didn't plan to punish him all at once, there were other punishments waiting for this guy later.

Before that, let her get along with the children who are worried about her situation. Only when she feels the hearts of the children for her, will Cocolia be hit the hardest.

She kept feeling the situation around her. Not long after she entered the office, two breaths came near the office, and they kept guarding outside.

When she left with Raiden Mei, they came to the office at the same time. When they saw Cocolia lying on the table, they hurried over to check the situation.

Cocolia opened her eyes weakly, and looked at Xi'er and Xing in front of her. She seemed to see those children who were taken by her to do experiments, and they believed in herself the moment before the experiments.

Their smiles gradually appeared in her eyes, and she could see this trust in other children in the orphanage. As Di Ruiji said, they believed in themselves, and they regarded themselves as trustworthy mothers.

But...but she trusted her children so much, but she pushed them into experiments with a high mortality rate in order to save more people.

She is an adult, and she is a mother. Isn't a mother's responsibility to protect her children? In order to protect her children, she should give everything.

Ahh...why, why do I only know this now?Why didn't you understand these principles before?What did she do?What did she protect by so-called protection?

"I'm sorry, Xier, Xing. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."