Beng San, I have an unfinished date with her

Mei turned around and looked at the earth in the distance. After a while, all her emotions were combined into one sentence: "It's so...indescribable excitement."

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What does it feel like to be a Herrscher?

No one can tell him.

He had sought it before, but the herrist had not told him about the closest opportunity.

"Otto Apocalypse."

"A persistent clown on stage, pure evil."

"This is my evaluation of myself, Void Wanzang."

Otto was talking to himself in a unique space of imaginary numbers.

【You are a failure. 】A voice sounded in Otto's own head.

[It’s so rare, do you actually want to look back on your life? 】

Oh~ how familiar that voice is... almost exactly the same as Otto's own voice.

Living together day and night for more than 500 years...or Void Manzo thought it was complete imprisonment.

Let its soul be deeply tainted with the taste of Otto.

"Yeah, I'm a failure."

Otto said this, walking in this imaginary number space.

"Since childhood, I have been a failure. I am too weak to fight. I am cowardly and incompetent, so I cannot become a qualified leader."

[You had the opportunity and the ability, but you gave up. 】

[You seem to be a genius and have no inhibitions.Be bold, not afraid of the world, and dare to study anything. 】

[Actually, these are all false covers. You want to make it look like you are doing something or doing something for someone. 】

[However, the weakness in your bones finally made you lose her completely——]

【Karen Kaslana】

"..." Otto chuckled: "Old friend, your words are as precise and vicious as ever - Void Manzang."

"Yes, I'm weak."

"Spiritual weakness cannot be compensated by physical strength. A truly strong person is always a spiritual winner first."

"And I, Otto Apokalis, was the loser from the beginning."

"Weak, weak, looking at one person as the only light - but not caring about her thoughts."

"Selfish to the extreme."

[You are a very unqualified childhood sweetheart. 】

"right--"

"I couldn't climb that wall, I would just fall off - and cry in front of my brother."

"I'll never find that plane that went over the wall."

[In my opinion, it’s just that you have low self-esteem and are troubled by a sense of need. 】

[Your brother is also caring about you, he is also a "Kaslana"]

[But I'm afraid that in your memories, your brother's voice may appear that day, but the only image will always be that of the girl named Kallen. 】

[You crave "being needed" rather than the top-down "care" from your brother with Kaslana blood, even if he truly cares for you. 】

"..."

"maybe."

[Huo~ It's really interesting. It's rare to see you actually use "maybe", such an unrealistic and unstable word. 】

Up and down, going to the deepest: 261. The clown’s painful memory attracts the Herrscher.

They continued to walk in this unique imaginary number space, chatting, recalling Otto's past, and looking at his memories.

"Haha, old friend, I'm just a human being."

"Even if I live for more than 500 years...I'm just a stupid guy."

"But even so, I can't easily give a simple definition of myself...let alone [others] who are completely incapable of understanding."

"[Perhaps] sometimes it's more accurate."

Otto said with deep emotion: "Treating others as superhuman, or even perfect, is fatal."

"Even a being like the ancestor never feels that he can do everything."

[But you have always thought that way in the past and regarded her as a "superman" idol. 】

"Yes."

Otto's voice became longer and full of sighs: "When she tried to seek deeper spiritual needs and answers from me, I chose to escape."

"I subconsciously thought, how could [Superman] not find the answer?"

[You are obsessed with the so-called "tenderness and considerateness" and have not paid attention to what you really should do, or in other words - cowardice]

"Indeed, it is indeed the key to revelation, and it is quite accurate." Otto quickly replied, without any confusion or extra emotional fluctuations - that tone made people feel that he was not even talking about himself: "Single self-righteous [gentleness and consideration] simply cannot solve all problems."

"But that's when I really thought it was okay - it was a ridiculous time."

[But generally speaking, that does matter.The spirit of others is injected into it and becomes a source of support.It is also a very important influence on the subject. Your gentleness and consideration also have a big effect on her. 】

[Rather, it’s your fault that you don’t understand her heroic complex and the Kaslana family’s long-cherished wish. 】

[Especially I think you will never forget her father. 】

"Yes...Old friend, the death of Kallen's father was the beginning that changed everything."

"Kallen began to grow from then on. Until the failure of the Eastern Expedition, her lofty ideals had already left me far behind."

Otto took a deep breath and sighed: "Yeah... when she said [save the world], she really wasn't kidding. She will never waver in her belief on this point."

"It's just that...limited by the limitations of time and knowledge, she never discovered the source of all the hardships in people's lives."

"Oh no, she has actually discovered something is wrong, and made a subconscious choice from the bottom of her heart to become a phantom thief to harass high-ranking people... But she still did not set her target higher - destiny. The whole and the highest, without any action on the way society operates as a whole.”

"But at that time, I was still focusing on the so-called tenderness and consideration."

......

[I really don’t understand why you were acting like that at that time. 】

[Will you tell her all your thoughts directly?Entire history will change as a result. 】

"Maybe." Otto's tone was full of sarcasm, and his unique smile couldn't stop showing up with his words: "But what do you want me to say to her at that time?"

"Say I'm researching new drugs through human experiments?"

"Or do you want me to inspire her thinking by quoting theories of political economy and so on that would only appear hundreds of years later?"

"If that's not the case, what's the use of telling her the reason why I do everything? Haha——"

"Will she change herself because of this? Or will I change myself because of this?"

[…But in fact, none of you have changed anyone. 】

[Words cannot convince anyone. 】

"Of course...at that time, I thought that I could do it. As long as I continued to study, I would have more ways to protect her secretly." Otto's tone returned to normal and he sighed at himself. Take off your smile.

[But she is the most powerful Valkyrie by destiny. At that time, you actually thought about protecting her with your own strength? 】

"After all, at that time, I thought that my abilities and hers were complementary, and I always wanted to use my own abilities to make up for each other's shortcomings in secret."

"I have been frail and sick since I was a child, but I think very highly of myself when it comes to things like this."

"I still pursue [being needed], even if it is just a one-way [being needed] that I have constructed myself."

"But history has proven that I was basically unable to do anything at that time - my father who was extremely pursuing the way of existence of a secular monarch, my sister whose heart was ten thousand times stronger than a poisonous scorpion, and so on."

"What they did perfectly proved my incompetence at that time."

"The so-called making up for shortcomings is completely a fool's wishful thinking."

[The funny thing is...you, who was the least recognized at the beginning, became their master a few hundred years later. 】

[No matter how hard your father works, he can't possibly match your power concentration. 】

[No matter how vicious your sister is, she is not as vicious as you. 】

[Of course... Tianming will do a better job in protecting the world in the future than ever before. 】

[Let’s not talk about these irrelevant things. 】

[Back to just now... You even accelerated her break with her original living environment - and the price was ultimately her life. 】

"Yeah...after that, the trajectory of our lives was completely out of control."

"The subsequent story completely evolved into a tragedy wrapped in a layer of [absurdity]."

"I finally made the stupidest judgment in my life."

"..."

【Karen Kaslana. 】

【Until her complete death...】

[You have just begun to change and understand where the people's suffering came from before the collapse occurred. 】

[Understand where her will and hero complex lie. 】

[This is the will that you most directly inherited from her at that time - the origin of the birth of the new destiny. 】

【….】

[I didn’t expect you to really evaluate your life so objectively. 】

【…】

[Why, are you afraid of coming into contact with the reality of the world and the disappearance of yourself? 】

"Ha--it's natural to be afraid. After all, I am also a living thing." Otto said with a slight wave of his hand.

[If you really think that, that’s a good thing. 】

[But I think - your objectivity comes from a higher level, not equality. 】

[The form of biological existence has not prevented the improvement of what you think is your own essence - you are becoming inhuman. 】

"It's just transcending oneself, and there is so much emptiness."

"In a philosophical sense, spiritual power and self-transcendence do not mean that I no longer have human thinking abilities and methods. Old friend - I am still a human being... It's just that I have become more transparent."

"[Superman] will not be separated from everything. He transcends all old social relationships, but after all he has the social attribute called [human] and has connections with people. And what I want to do is the same."

"My beliefs have not changed."

【...】

[So you are disgusting, Otto. 】

[The extremely selfish "superego" can be said to be completely opposite to the originally imagined "superman" - almost extremely evil. 】

"Ha ha ha ha--"

"You're absolutely right, old friend."

"So, I set the tone for myself from the beginning."

"I am a villain, a heinous clown on the stage."

【...】

[No, no, no, Otto.You can fool other people, but you can't fool me. 】

[You are extremely selfish, but everything is for the sake of that woman's re-existence. 】