Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Let go of regrets.

Just like that girl, only the tenderness of the last moment was retained, only the beauty was retained so that those who are still alive can continue to live.

"Alicea, I'm sorry, my memory of you is starting to blur. I can't even remember your smile. I can only restore it by deleting it."

“Although this blessing was incomplete from the beginning, I still hope you can accept this belated birthday gift.”

"At least... you should come to my funeral, right?"

"..."

Alicia's fists clenched unconsciously, her long pink nails digging into the soft skin.

——She did not attend.

——She didn’t dare to participate.

It was like she clearly wanted to deceive herself, but she didn't even dare to leave the boy's body behind. She watched them arguing and going through a lot of formalism. Because of the boy's status, she wanted to consume even his last existence.

Buried in the tombstone they prepared, one honor after another aroused people's empathy for the boy, thus giving rise to anger towards the collapse.

As long as they do this, they can ignore the decline in people's livelihood caused by their own problems in governance.

They even argued with each other over where to be buried.

Some people say Arlington Cemetery, because the boy's greatness transcends nationality; some people say New Saint Cemetery, because he is as noble as a saint.

He asked for almost nothing in his life, just accepted a villa.

Some wanted to bury him in the Pantheon, some said Westminster Abbey. A bunch of people were vying for posthumous honors for the boy and were even almost fighting each other, gradually eroding his achievements and research notes.

Finally, at Mebius' request, the boy was buried in the ruins of the Engineering Department.

He was even considered jealous and disrespectful because of this behavior, and his reputation had dropped to the point where even young girls could feel it was weird.

"Then I will assume that you came here, rather than being transferred by some other means. At least I believe that you took the initiative to find it."

"Don't worry, this death is not painful. I have done everything I can. It won't be long before the technology is fully deployed."

"Humanity will definitely defeat the Honkai. Even if there may be tragic people like me and Velvet, tragedy is there and we must overcome it."

"If I have any message, it's that I hope this world will not become a dirty world after death, giving birth to countless Vivi."

"After all, after coming into contact with the Herrscher, I always feel that some people may become Herrschers because they are persecuted by humans and the world and feel no hope."

"If that's the case, it would be a bit too ridiculous for my weapon to be used by one victim to attack another victim."

"In fact, I can't be considered a gentle person. I just happen to have some morals, some empathy, and you were with me when I was a child."

"After all, there are probably very few people in this world who would abandon their own position, their own dignity and their own buttocks to speak for the oppressors."

"There won't be people who are so bad-headed that they would use their imagination to oppress others. If there is, you must stay away from them."

"To have mean ideas about gentle people is something that essentially teaches ordinary people to be different, and it is impossible that this is the majority of human beings."

"Well... I said a lot of useless things. After all, when I thought that you would hear these words, I couldn't help but say some of my thoughts on this world."

"I'm sure you must have gained a lot from your travels. Although I haven't been to many places, even if it's a small place, as long as there is emotional integration, it is true happiness and comes from spiritual freedom."

——My travels had long ceased.

Because we want to pursue the paradise, want to find the real paradise, the place of eternal happiness, that is why we travel, that is why we pursue it like in fairy tales, make friends, and search together.

But the paradise has actually been around us for a long time. The real paradise is the one that can bring happiness and beauty.

It's just that I stupidly forgot.

You don't regret it until you lose it.

"This world may encounter many disasters in the future, but I believe you can face them. You are an absolutely romantic fairy who lives in paradise."

"No matter what kind of difficulties you encounter, they can't defeat you. They will only become stepping stones for you to reach paradise, perfect and self-consistent like a god."

"so……"

"Even if the world is cruel, I still hope you can find your paradise."

……

……

……

What were you thinking when you finished listening to the whole thing?

At this moment, Alicia had instinctively forgotten and lost, and did not want to recall the past anymore.

because……

No matter how many times she recalled it, her body would be filled with pain and her heart would feel as if it was closing, making the girl really want to stop breathing.

Even your hands and feet will become stiff, and you will feel as if you are back in the woods again.

As weak and powerless as a baby, even being hit by a tree branch might be very painful. All they can do is open their eyes and look at this unknown world.

This time, the young man will bring himself to a beautiful world.

——no longer exists.

In those ignorant eyes looking at the world, there is no longer the young man who would cut through all obstacles, stand in the sun, stand in the shadow, turn his back on the darkness, face the leaves, the flowers, the breeze, and the flying birds.

The distant starry sky, the slanting spring breeze, the green forest, and the flowers blown by the wind.

But I lost the most important thing.

——Jiangcheng.

The flowers and the girl are still there, but the starlight has faded.

……

The girl stretched out her hand. The authority of Origin was not enough for continuous use. After excessive consumption, even the boy could not be saved. But at least she could create that shadow after everything was over, a shadow that could be pursued.

It's just that when the stars gather again, the pink ones, the flawless ones, have the power to rewrite everything, with the realm of true self as the ultimate center.

The figure of the dead boy reappeared, his eyes like the starry sky, whose meaning the girl only remembered when she looked at the night sky years later.

Just when it was about to fall, it suddenly collapsed, and even the bowstring broke with a "click".

what……

Still can't do it?

Can't you even create a shadow?

Can't I even deceive my inner self and cover my eyes and ears to get the cigarette?

Crystal tears fell from the corners of her eyes, her pink-blue eyes were filled with moisture, her pupils gently turned in her eye sockets, trembling slightly, as if in that flawless paradise, it was raining heavily at this moment.

That was a fragile gesture that shouldn't appear on a perfect girl.

It shouldn't happen to a girl who can face anything.

--cry.

That should only belong to a weak girl.

--sad.

That should only belong to those who are powerless.

But the girl was indeed powerless, even though she was not a human at all, but a monster, a Herrscher who brought natural disasters, the enemy of the entire world, a person who had been hurt countless times and hated her own incompetence countless times.

But monsters shouldn’t cry, and I shouldn’t be sad.

It's been painful so many times.

Is it time to become numb?

right?

……

……

……

……

[Your heart completely breaks down.]

【You literally lost everything.】

[Because you think you can deceive yourself and pretend that the boy is still alive, but in fact you cannot deceive your own heart, even if you already know this, even if you also know that if you don’t pretend that you don’t know, you will seek death.]

【After all, the concept of the world is not that grand to an individual.】

[For those who have been trapped in a small mountain village all their lives, the world is the village they have seen and the neighbors they have met. Even if they try their best to leave, they will not be able to go far after spending their whole lives.]

[Then when no one tells him about the vast sky, dense forests, boundless earth and turbulent ocean. ]

[Will he think that the town is the entire earth, the hill next to it is the difficult-to-climb mountain, the low bushes are the boundless forest, and the stream at the door that can be stepped over by tiptoe is the source of all water. ]

【The word world for an individual is what he sees and what he has. 】

[It is sad to impose broad concepts on individuals, because individuals are so insignificant. They know there are mountains and seas, but what does that matter?]

[Even though I know there are more than six billion people in the world, a number that is hard to imagine, it is still an understatement when I actually say it.]

[More than six billion people, so what? ]

[Even if there are 10 billion, 100 billion, 1 trillion, or even more, even if they are as numerous as the stars, as numerous as the hairs on a cow, when piled up, they are bigger than a planet and wider than the ocean.]

【so what? 】

[The number of people that a person can see with his or her own eyes in a lifetime is probably only millions, even if that person travels all his or her life.]

[How many of these millions of people can really remember their names? ]

[If we go a little further, how many of them will leave a deep impression in our memory? How many of them will still be able to generate intense emotions in our hearts? ]

[The world of an individual is made up of the mountains, seas, and people that he sees. ]

【Lost the mountains, lost the sea, lost the people. 】

【Then the world...】

【It collapsed.】

[There is nothing to say further, and nothing to feel pained about. You feel like your heart has stopped beating in a sense.]

[What flows in my veins now is just a tiny life conveyed for a promise. ]

[——You want to leave. ]

[——You can’t leave.]

[Because the boy doesn't want you to die, he gave you the cruelest curse and punishment, leaving you alone as the only person left alive, looking at this cold world, living in a cruel world without him.]

[You can no longer find any friends in this world. Your only relative, the only boy you loved, has died in front of you.]

[——You want to be numb. ]

[——You can’t be numb.]

[Because you are not a human, but a fairy born in a beautiful and romantic world. Your eyes are always for seeing beauty, your strength is always for helping others, and your body is always for pursuing paradise.]

[That means I will never become numb, and I will never give up saving others just because I have seen too much...]

【——The goddess of stars and moon. 】

[This soul will not be worn out or eroded, nor will the memory fade due to the length of time. Every smile and every emotion will last forever, always existing in the most beautiful and complete form.]

[It is a flower that does not belong to this world, forever in full bloom, forever in its most gorgeous and thorough state of bloom.]

[These configurations are actually excellent, and countless people are pursuing them, but countless people are looking for them but cannot obtain them.]

[But it has become torture and shackles on you. 】

[With a gentle heart and delicate emotions, you can feel any slight changes, allowing you to clearly realize how many mistakes you have made. ]

[It will never fade, will not blur, will not lose its color due to the wear and tear of time, and no matter how strong the wind is, it will not destroy the memory in the slightest, allowing you to repeatedly recall the beauty of the past. ]

[Let the cruel world in front of you, where you can't even find anyone to talk to, be compared over and over again with the happiness in the past that was shattered by your own hands. ]

【ah……】

【Eternal torture.】