I was raised in the simulator, and I’m really not a bad woman in Ark!

Returning to the empty room, Tao lay limply on the small bed he and Shu shared, feeling the tearing sensation all over his body and the hunger rising in his stomach, and his voice couldn't help but have a hint of crying.

Tao didn't cry. Compared to cannibalism, the pain was nothing. It was just that she hadn't felt pain for a long time, and this sudden pain almost made her faint.

"I have to be more careful next time. But how could those evil spirits recover so quickly? Never mind. Let's cook for Shu first. Judging from the time, she should be back soon, right?"

Tao struggled to get up from the bed, roughly estimated the time, and walked into the kitchen with a staggering step, holding on to the wall.

She couldn't let Shu starve, even though she felt uncomfortable all over.

After all, Tao likes to see Shu’s smile when she eats her favorite dishes. That will make her very satisfied and will definitely be a good medicine to relieve her pain.

She started cooking dinner skillfully.

Although I fell off the small stool several times due to physical discomfort, fortunately, the food was not burnt after Tao's rescue. Although the taste was a little worse than usual, it was still delicious.

Although Tao was not very satisfied with this, he wanted to make a new dinner.

But now Tao feels that his body has almost reached its limit, his consciousness is starting to become a little fuzzy, and he may pass out at any time.

Taobian could only reluctantly bring the imperfect meal to the table, then fainted in his seat.

She needed rest to curb the evil that was devouring her body and relieve the hunger that came from her soul.

When Shu returned home, the food on the table had turned from steaming hot to lukewarm.

"Tao, I'm back. Things went well today... Eh? Did you fall asleep?"

Pushing the door open, Shu walked into the living room smelling a familiar fragrance. He wanted to share his energy and things that happened today with Tao, but he saw the silver-haired girl who usually welcomed him home with a smile was now lying on the table motionless.

Although Shu felt a little strange, thinking that Tao's health was not good, she just sighed, smiled helplessly, and gently put a gown on Tao.

Then Shu sat next to Tao and started eating the meal with light movements.

After leaving Tao with enough food and the food he liked, he propped up his chin and looked at the sleeping Tao.

"It's rare. I thought you would never get tired, Taomei." Murmuring softly, Shu looked at the girl who was always taken care of by him on weekdays, but always took care of him in the details. He unconsciously lifted up a strand of Tao's silver hair.

The silver hair had a bright luster and felt as smooth as silk, with a faint scent of lavender, which made Shu unable to let it go.

And at the moment when Tao Ra was not awake in front of him.

Shu also unconsciously looked at Tao's figure in a daze.

People tend to think about many things when they are quiet, at least that's the case for me now.

In fact, she has been troubled by one thing recently, that is, she found that she seemed to have developed a taste for gluttony.

This kind of love is not the ordinary love between family members, but a kind of love similar to that between men and women.

But this was undoubtedly absurd. After all, not to mention the relationship between herself and Tao, the fact that both she and Tao were women was already against the secular world.

But when I think of the old farmer's sudden words after he agreed to move, "You must like your sister very much, right?" Although I know that the old farmer's meaning is different from what I think, I have to admit that I am overthinking, or just thinking nonsense.

After all, Tao has taken care of me for such a long time, and they have been in close contact for such a long time.

Shu felt more and more that she could no longer leave Tao. She felt that the few years she had spent with Tao were more meaningful than the hundred years she had spent with him in the past.

This liking is not a passionate love, nor is it a lingering affection.

Rather, it is a warmth that allows for long-term companionship, mutual understanding, mutual familiarity, and mutual care.

In the dim candlelight, Shu unconsciously recalled the past when she and Tao lived together...

It was after sowing in early spring. Under the moonlight, the girl looked at the rice fields presenting her with a beautiful crown of flowers, and smiled with pure happiness as she swung her legs, expecting her acceptance and praise.

It was a sun hat given to me under the scorching sun in summer, because I was worried that I would get sunburned. It was a bowl of herbal tea that soothed my inner depression in the hot afternoon.

It is the person who silently accompanies you during the autumn harvest, and who silently watches over you and listens to you when you are worried about the poor harvest.

It was also in the winter snowstorm, when she was happy for her because of her words "auspicious snow means a good harvest", and her face flushed as she stood on tiptoe to put on a thick sweater...

Spring goes and winter comes, the years pass by.

This is the ordinary and warm daily life between them, but it makes Shu feel the feelings and warmth that she has never experienced in the past few hundred years.

It made Shu truly feel like she had entered this worldly world, and these few years, which should have been short in her eyes, seemed longer and more worthwhile than the past hundred years.

In recent years, she seems to laugh more, and seems to know more about herself and the cycle of "cause and effect".

So she gradually realized that she might have fallen in love with gluttony?

Although this emotion is just a sprout, Shu also understands that once the crops have sprouted, they are destined to bloom and bear fruit unless they are destroyed artificially.

And whether it is Tao Yi or Shu himself, it is impossible for them to actively distance themselves from each other and ruin their relationship...

But Shu felt that he would probably never have the chance to express this love in his entire life.

After all, she didn't know what Tao was thinking. Maybe Tao simply regarded her as a sister and had no other feelings.

Plus the guilt deep in my heart towards Tao.

Shu felt that he had no face to express his feelings to Tao.

But will Shu give up?

Obviously not, she would just suppress this feeling deep in her heart, and if one day she could really express this feeling to Tao.

Shu would naturally seize that opportunity. Even if she failed in the end, at the very least she could still be Tao's sister for the rest of her life.

She was greedy for the warmth that Tao brought her, but because of guilt she did not dare to get too close to that warmth.

Just like she is saying now that she doesn't want Tao to help her solve the disaster.

It was out of guilt for the past, but also because Shu didn't want to appear incompetent in front of the person he liked.

She wanted to protect the ordinary yet warm life between herself and Tao with her own hands...

Then, get closer to that warmth, take care of Tao, cherish Tao, and finally love Tao...

This is true even though I know that this relationship is destined to have no results.

"It would be great if we weren't sisters..."

Gently picking up the sleeping Tao, Shu stared at that flawless face and sighed, yet couldn't help laughing out loud at his own ridiculous words.

After all how is this possible?

Their relationship started out as sisters, so how could they not be sisters?

If we really weren't sisters, then there probably wouldn't be a chance for this fate and love to arise...

I can only say that it is fate that plays tricks on me.

But at least... now she can get close, can touch, and can wait for this little happiness that does not belong to her, right?

"Tao, your sister Shu may be a little in love with you."

Lying in the bed with Tao, Shu looked at the girl who was sleeping soundly, spoke softly in a voice only he could hear, and gently hooked Tao's smooth and delicate hand with one hand.

Feeling the warmth and reassuring breath coming from Tao, Shu looked at Tao's profile for a long time before finally closing his eyes and slowly falling asleep with an uneasy heart.

But Shu didn't know from the beginning to the end, sometimes, even the little happiness that remained would be a luxury...

……

Chapter 43: If you leave without saying goodbye, you will be arrested in the future~

[You relied on the means of restraining your own aura and authority to avoid being noticed by Shu during your sleep.]

【When the sunlight of the next morning shines into your room. 】

[Exhausted, hungry and weak, you finally wake up under the temptation of a fragrance. 】

[Your body instinctively goes to the kitchen and sees Shu preparing food.]

[But the fragrance in your eyes does not come from the breakfast that Shu carefully prepared, but from Shu itself. You approach Shu, and the authority silently and automatically relies on your hunger and weakness to make you commit an unforgivable sin.]

[Without a doubt, it is the most perfect container for the dark side and resentment of the age. ]

[Even though it has been broken, even though your body is extremely weak, your authority is still extremely deadly to the fragments. ]

[As long as you want, you can take advantage of Shu's unguarded state and turn Shu into a part of you and eat him.]

[But... your broken authority's instinct to devour other fragments ultimately underestimates your perseverance.]

[Even when you were in a trance, tortured by the emptiness brought by endless hunger, you were not controlled by the instinct of authority.]

[You have long been accustomed to this endless feeling of hunger, and have become oblivious to the tempting "fragrance" coming from the millet.]

[You should know that the hunger in you was a thousand times stronger than it is now, and the temptation of the fragments to you was also more terrible than it is now. At that time, you endured even the whispers of the beast, let alone now. ]

[It's just that you haven't used authority for too long, and haven't experienced this heart-wrenching hunger for too long. You think you will get used to it soon. You have already adapted to endure torture and suffering. ]

[Anyway, all this pain is worth it in your opinion. After all, you just hope that your brothers and sisters can live well. ]

[Besides, compared to the hunger and instinctive impulses from the broken authority, you would rather hug the Shu who prepared breakfast with great care in front of you, and say good morning to her.]

【And you then did the same.】

[Your sudden 'attack' and closeness startled the attentive Shu. ]

[On weekdays, although you two are very close to each other, it was mostly Shu who took the initiative. For example, this morning you suddenly greeted Shu intimately, which was the first time.]

[This surprised Shu for a moment, but then came happiness and a hint of joy in his heart.]

[She then turned around, picked you up, and greeted you warmly.]

[You look at Shu's smile and feel a sense of satisfaction in your heart. You hope that Shu can always smile like this.]

[——Of course, the same is true for everyone else.]

[Afterwards, you had a delicious breakfast together. Shu continued to relocate the farmers and started to work on getting rid of the evil spirits in Dahuang City.]

[While you were taking care of Shu as much as possible, you kept going to the wilderness outside of the Great Wilderness City, devouring the evil spirits left by your past self and the resentment that gave birth to the evil spirits.]

[Even though you were able to hide it, I still didn't notice anything strange about you. ]

[And because you gradually began to adapt to the backlash brought by authority and the impact of swallowing evil spirits, apart from the first swallowing, you never showed obvious weakness afterwards.]

[However, as you devoured it, you also discovered some strange things. ]

[Those evil spirits that could have been easily digested by you and at most gave you a stomachache for a while actually began to adapt to your "digestion."]

[This is actually caused by the shattering of your authority, but after you carefully checked the undigested evil spirits in your body, you no longer worry.]

[Even though they have indeed begun to adapt to your 'digestion', your authority will continue to grow. Although the fragmentation of authority has caused the speed of strengthening itself to slow down countless times, as long as they are still in your 'belly', they will sooner or later become your food.]

[But the price is that you cannot shut down your authority until you have completely digested them, and you must always endure the hunger for higher things.]

[But you don't care. After all, you have long been accustomed to this torture. Now you are just experiencing it again.]

[At the same time, after you devoured nearly half of the evil spirits in the northern part of Dahuang City. ]

[In order to prevent Shu from noticing anything unusual, you tore off some scales from your tail, relying on the formations you learned from playing chess with your second brother, and the images you experienced when you were painting with Xi, as well as your understanding of your own authority, and planted these scales mixed with evil qualities and auras in the field like rice.]

[And those farmlands were once again polluted by the aura of 'evil spirits'. ]

[You looked at this scene with a sigh of relief and a relaxed smile appeared on your face.]

[This is the best of both worlds solution you thought of. You devoured the original real evil spirits, and then left the fake evil spirits. This way, you can not only save Shu from the real danger and temper his character and grasp of power, but also prevent Shu from suspecting you.]

【For you, this is truly the best of both worlds. 】

[As for you, you have never thought about it. As for why, you have never thought about it, but if you have to say it, it is that you are used to it...]

[I am used to only thinking about my family, not thinking about myself, and enduring suffering and torture alone. ]

[After doing all this, you, who had left a farewell letter to Shu long ago, took one last look at the Great Desert City where you had lived for nearly ten years.]

[Turning around, carrying with him suffering and disaster, he left this city that had made him feel warm and slightly happy. ]

【You believe this will only be a short separation. 】

[One day, you will come back. ]

[And when you leave, you sincerely hope that Shu's wish will come true. ]

[I also sincerely hope that the next time I see Shu, I will always be able to see the gentle smile that Shu reveals when he touches the heavy ears of rice.]

……

"Ahem... ahem, luckily I left the envelope today, otherwise if I went to see Sister Shu in this state, I'd probably be detained and brought to see Fourth Brother, right?"

In the uninhabited wasteland, Tao, who had completely eliminated the evil spirit in the Great Wasteland City, walked towards the area where Xi often stayed.