I was raised in the simulator, and I’m really not a bad woman in Ark!

[But deep hatred must be repaid with tooth for tooth, blood for blood, not to mention that in Agor's propaganda, the conscripted deep-sea hunters' hunting of Haisi is a protection of Haicheng and the Agor people.]

[So even though she was reluctant, Skadi decided to become a deep-sea hunter after considering your harmonious relationship with your neighbors and the fact that Laurentina, the fish-stealing fish, would also take care of you.]

[And you, after trying to dissuade her to no avail and facing Skadi's true inner thoughts, could only reluctantly put on a smile after a moment of loss and agreed to Skadi's choice...]

[To be honest, your forced and fragile smile at that time made Skadi's heart clench for a moment, but in the end, her hatred for Haisi overcame the fleeting thought in her mind.]

[Pushing you and Skadi onto completely different paths, just like Gloria and Laurentina in the past. 】

[Finally, Skadi left, taking with her the wisteria seeds you prepared for her, a pile of luggage, and leaving you with reluctance and nostalgia...]

【You are alone again. 】

[After receiving the letter of enlistment in Laurentina, I realized this completely. ]

[To be honest, you are somewhat sad.]

[You know that they are all on the path they believe is right, and you know that they have all made the choices they believe are right and worthwhile.]

[As a sister who has accompanied them in their growth and sent them on the road of life, you should be happy for them and wish them well. ]

[But... it's not a good feeling to be alone, especially when you know that they all became deep-sea hunters after leaving you, you feel even worse. ]

[Although you don't want to admit it, but over the years, you have been secretly raising the Haisi that you picked up. ]

[The intimacy and calling from the bottom of your heart become deeper and longer, and you often see countless sea snakes swimming around you like a school of fish in your dreams.]

[It even makes you... gradually see 'yourself' with a weird smile from time to time in the deep and dark sea.]

[That strange 'you' is like the devil and siren in the legend that bewitches people's hearts. I want to invite you to join and return to the so-called 'big group'. ]

[With your strong will and heart, you have never been deceived, but you gradually realize that you may no longer be an ordinary Agor. ]

[Or rather... from a very long time ago, you were no longer an Agor.]

[You may even suspect that you are not Ikaros, but a 'Sea Heir' who has inherited Ikaros's memories and body.]

[But no matter what the truth is, you know that you can no longer be an ordinary citizen of Agor.]

[The broken memory fragments and the experience at some unknown time also made you no longer willing to trust Agor's official. ]

[You are undoubtedly caught in a dilemma. ]

[Agor seems to no longer be your place to stay. It seems that your only future is to return to the group. ]

[And this is one of the reasons why you felt bad after Laurentina and Skadi chose to become deep-sea hunters.]

[But to be honest, compared to the possibility that they might turn their swords against you in the future, you are more worried that you will receive news of their death someday in the future.]

[That’s what you really can’t accept…]

【Thinking about these complicated, fruitless, and chaotic things forces you to worry about and think about everything and the future. You sigh deeply while sitting in a wheelchair taking care of the flowers. 】

[After sending the letter of advice to Laurentina and the lavender seeds to the post station, he made a decision after a moment of hesitation...]

……

[Disagreement 1: I am under so much pressure, I can't bear it anymore. What strength do you Agor have? I can't bear it anymore. I want to bring Didi and the others back to open the Yinpakouya! (??)]

[Disagreement 2: Just start, a weak and frail elder sister with a delicate body who is easily pushed down should just wait to be kicked. Give up thinking, after all, it is meaningless.]

[Disagreement 3: You want to do something for the young hunters. Continue to investigate the truth of the past and try to get more useful information through the Kaiji that seems to be able to communicate...]

……

【Host, please make a choice. 】

Chapter 90: Lifelong regret, ready to start!!!

Classic divergence, choose one of three.

After a quick glance at the three disagreements, Ikaros chose disagreement three without much analysis.

The reason was very simple. After all, he wanted to make the three little hunters he raised in this simulation regret for the rest of their lives. If 'he' didn't do something to trigger the event, how could he make them regret for the rest of their lives?

Humph~, it would be best if I could die in their arms, be killed by them personally, or even be torn apart or dismembered in front of them. Otherwise, it would be too unfair to the "self" who was so beautiful in this simulation...

Lying on the bed, enjoying the twisted scene, Ikaros unconsciously lifted his cute little feet up and down, with an expectant smile on his face.

……

[After inner thinking and struggle, you, who once could only sit at home and wait for your parents, who were deep-sea hunters, to return, but could do nothing, now no longer want to be as powerless as before. ]

[You don't want to wait helplessly in a flower shop in the back while the girls you love are fighting with Hai Si outside.]

[You don’t want to suffer from ignorance and worry in the cocoon of information. ]

[You don’t want to receive any news that someone you care about has died when you are unable to do anything and are powerless. ]

【You feel from the bottom of your heart that you should do something, instead of just waiting in a rut. 】

[But...even though you want to do something. ]

[But after you make this decision, think about it seriously and ask yourself, what can you do for Laurentina and Skadi, who have become deep-sea hunters? ]

[Subconsciously, you fell into thought. ]

【Send them clean clothes and flowers, and do the logistics?】

[…No, now that they have become deep-sea hunters, let alone whether they have enough time and opportunity to receive the items you mail, but after becoming deep-sea hunters, all their food, clothing and daily life are taken care of by the officials of Agor. Your concern for them seems redundant, even meaningless.]

[So... use the relationships of my parents' former teammates to get those experienced hunters to look after them? ]

[…That seems meaningless. Although nearly twenty years have passed, perhaps because of your good memory, you still remember the internal structure of the Deep Sea Hunters that your parents once mentioned, and you also understand the ridiculousness of the so-called "relationships" in the Deep Sea Hunters organization.]

[Although it's a bit blunt, you know that the Deep Sea Hunters, a special organization in the Agor Army, is undoubtedly the most law-a-fairy and mysterious organization. Even if you use the network of connections that belonged to your parents in the past, you will hardly gain anything, and it may even bring them unnecessary trouble. ]

[Why not just join the Deep Sea Hunters and fight alongside them? ]

[Heh... As soon as you had this thought, you shook your head and laughed bitterly at your wild idea. After all, if you had the qualifications to become a deep-sea hunter, you would have probably already reported to the military camp when you were an adult.]

[To be honest, for a weak Agor like you, being alive is a blessing. How could you possibly have the chance to go to that battlefield and fight those monsters in the deep sea?]

【It's just wishful thinking.】

[Just like you want to help them who have become hunters...]

[After thinking about it, you find that you really don’t seem to have any way to help them, and you can’t think of any way to help them. ]

[This makes you who want to help them feel discouraged, and you find that your gentleness and past achievements and pride in housework, counseling and education have become worthless at this moment. ]

[At this moment, you can't help but imagine how good it would be if you had a healthy body. ]

[Perhaps in that case, you wouldn't have to be confined to a small flower shop in Shuicheng and be powerless.]

[Perhaps your parents will also retire early and will not die. ]

[And you may also be able to receive a completely different life...]

[But unfortunately there are not so many ifs and possibilities in this world. ]

[You are an adult and no longer have the passions and fantasies that children and young people have. ]

[You clearly understand that you are completely unable to help them with their qualifications and methods as they have been accepted by the Agor military as deep-sea hunters.]

【Perhaps the best thing you can do for them is to take good care of yourself and write a sincere and comforting letter when they write to you.】

[But...how can you be willing? ]

[It is indeed simple to take good care of yourself, but you have already lost your parents who loved you. ]

[So now you are really afraid that one day you will receive not a letter from them, but a cold funeral notice or a death letter. ]

[But you also know that you can't do anything. You have no power and no capital. ]

[You clenched your fists unwillingly, but you didn’t even have the strength to dig your nails into the flesh of your palms.]

[Fragile legs, weak hands, frail body, tired organs...]

[All these misfortunes have shaped you into who you are today. You, who finally found and savored happiness and peace, can only let that happiness and peace disappear without a trace like quicksand on your fingertips, and you don’t even have the power to retain or retrieve it. ]

[At this moment when your heart fell into powerless silence, you couldn't help but recall the strange and beautiful scenes in your broken dreams, and you couldn't help but think of the sea urchin that you had raised for many years. ]

[For some reason, an impulse arises in your powerless heart. ]

[It is true that you seem powerless at this moment. ]

【But it seems that you do not have no other choice. 】

[After years of secret investigations into the officials of Agor, you have discovered many suspicious points and no longer have absolute trust in them.]

[Plus your instinctive affinity and affection for that sea creature from deep in your blood.]

【Combined with the impact that dream has had on you over the years. 】

[Under the combination of various factors and influences, you are desperate to change your own powerless reality, like a drowning person grasping at a life-saving straw. ]

[Even though I already have a sense of vigilance and hatred towards Hai Si, and even though my suspicions and some of my speculations about the Agor officials have not yet been confirmed.]

[But somehow you came to the shower room that you had always hidden and sealed.]

[For the first time, you came to the creature with the crazy idea of ​​communicating with Hai Si.]

……

Chapter 91 A More Realistic Simulation

"Haisi…"

"It's indeed a good breakthrough point, but this reason is really helpless. Wanting to protect your own happiness but not having the power makes people feel desperate."

Scanning the narrative composed of words, Ikaros' eyes were slightly complicated.

I feel that the 'self' in this simulation is even more miserable than the 'Tao' simulated by Dayan.

After all, at least Tao still has the power to make choices and the ability to protect his own happiness. The Grand Duke in the first simulation chose his future through his own power and resolved his own regrets, and finally died in happiness.

In contrast, in this simulation, her childhood powerlessness prevented her from avenging her parents like the Grand Duke did.

Her physical weakness and the pain of having no strength made even walking a test for her. She was unable to make a choice to change everything like the powerful Tao.

There is nothing good but gentleness, nothing to do but smile, nothing to do but hide hatred and scars...

The self in this simulation really fits the character of the heroine who is about to be killed in the "White Moonlight" literature in many ways.

"Well... it's probably because of the talent I chose. Otherwise, it shouldn't be a problem for the 'me' in the simulation to be a deep-sea hunter."

"But, in the end, I'm doing this for power."

With a slight sigh, although Ikaros knew the difference between simulation and reality, she still felt a little depressed when she looked at her own emotions and choices in the simulation and thought a lot.

She felt a little sympathetic towards herself in this simulation.

But precisely because of this, Ikaros cannot be soft-hearted in the subsequent divergent choices.

After all, Ikaros also needs enough power and capital to protect her own happiness, and as a price, she will naturally not be merciful to herself in the simulation.

Anyway, simulation is fake and won’t affect reality, right?

...Or in other words, what if the simulation can affect reality?

In this land, power is everything. Only with power can people have the qualifications to obtain and protect their own happiness.

A hint of sadness and reminiscence emerged in the light golden eyes, but it disappeared in a flash.

Ikaros sighed, suppressed his aggrieved mood, and continued to watch the next simulation.

At the same time, perhaps it was out of curiosity about Hai Si, or perhaps it was just to relax.

The girl also turned on the first-person mode and entered the simulated water city.

……

As usual, after a brief blur of vision, everything returned to normal.

However, after entering the first-person mode this time, Ikaros clearly felt that his body had become much weaker. The occasional soreness in his muscles and the tingling pain in his blood vessels were particularly obvious.

This made Ikaros, who had entered the first-person mode this time, feel something unusual.