I was raised in the simulator, and I’m really not a bad woman in Ark!

She hopes that her little killer whale can live happily forever.

After all, he is the first child that Ikaros raised in the true sense, so it is impossible not to have some special feelings for him.

Looking at the long silver hair that was coated with a layer of light gold under the faint light coming through the window, Ekaros felt that Skadi's long hair must feel great, maybe even more comfortable than his own hair.

The silver hair, which was like a layer of light snow, splashed in the winter sun, was really extraordinarily beautiful.

And those blood-red eyes like gems, calm and magnificent. Ikaros could see beautiful flowers in her eyes. Although the two silent people had no communication, Skadi seemed to know that Ikaros was looking at her. She would always pause longer in front of the flowers that Ikaros liked, allowing the flowers to float more in her eyes.

I don't know whether I hope Ikaros can look at more flowers, or I hope Ikaros will look at me more because of the flowers.

The number of flowers is limited.

Watering and cultivating cannot last a lifetime.

After the flowers have been carefully cared for, the gardener must eventually stop his work. Otherwise, excessive care for these creatures with strong vitality may actually stifle their lives.

The gardener wouldn't allow this, nor would Skadi, and Ekaros, who taught Skadi this, would certainly not allow this.

"You know, Sister Ikaros, I don't like these flowers..." When the last green leaves were stained with water droplets by the mist from the shower and became full of vitality, Skadi put down the shower head and shovel and told Ikaros what she was thinking.

Ikaros was stunned for a moment, obviously not expecting Skadi to say such a thing. She remembered that Skadi liked flowers very much.

"Sister Ikaros, when I saw the 'flower', it rushed towards me and my teammates frantically. Then, as the blocking failed, blood and severed limbs appeared around me, along with the unwilling expressions and screams of my teammates whom I just met."

Skadi spoke slowly, reaching out to touch the white Lycoris radiata in front of her which was stained with some bright red for some reason. Her expression did not change. Although she was talking about this extremely cruel and bloody thing, there was not the slightest emotional fluctuation, as if she had already gotten used to it.

It was as if he was simply hiding the bad mood brought about by this incident deep in his heart to avoid being noticed by Ekalos.

"That feeling must be terrible, right?" Ikaros looked at Skadi, who was silently stroking the flowers with her head slightly lowered. He felt inexplicably distressed and spoke slowly.

Skadi didn't answer, or didn't know how to answer.

During that period of time, when the blood of her teammates entered her nasal cavity through the cold sea water, the smell of rust filled her mouth, the coagulated plasma splashed on her face, and the residual value floated past her, Skadi was naturally angry and hateful in her heart.

But along with it comes a hint of fear and cowardice.

Yes, Skadi, who should have rushed forward and taken her first revenge on Haisi, hesitated and retreated. That feeling was really bad.

Later, she did kill the flower-like Haisi and avenged her teammates.

But that teammate died after all. A carefree, kind-hearted girl who hoped to earn money and get married and have children in the future died in her first mission. She couldn't come back, and even her body was incomplete.

Skadi, who had cut open Haisi's stomach for the first time and tried hard to piece together his torso but couldn't put it together completely, didn't eat for three days.

From then on, Skadi hated flowers.

Except for the wisteria flowers given to her by Ikaros, which she had been taking good care of because of their emotional attachment, she never wanted to get close to or touch the various flowers blooming in the flower beds around the hunter's apartment.

Only the striking color of wisteria can alleviate Skadi's inner anxiety and fear.

It was as if she had Ikaros' silent company during those days of anxiety. Finally, with the help and guidance (physics) of Gloria, she gradually got used to the taste of death and strengthened her belief in revenge.

Skadi could not forget the words that Goletia left after she defeated him that day: "If your hatred is limited to this, you should quickly return to Ikaros' flower shop and become an apprentice."

It was these words that inspired Skadi's faith and hatred, making her the first newcomer among that group of hunters to undergo a complete transformation and growth.

Since then, Ikaros has completely become the absolute pillar in the heart of this young hunter, and the original accumulated family affection and inexplicable emotions have become stronger under the influence of time and distance, and even developed in another strange direction.

But anyway.

All in all, for Skadi, even though she hated flowers, she would never hate Ekaros who cultivated those flowers.

But when she finally found an opportunity to come back and see Ikaros, she almost witnessed the death of perhaps the most important person in her life.

It was as if the world was playing a crude joke on the young hunter, trying to turn her into a clown who could not be happy and could be ridiculed by everyone in the world, and make them lose the precious things they still possessed because of the so-called revenge.

Isn't this cruel?

But this was indeed the nightmare that Skadi almost experienced. She couldn't believe that the usually optimistic and gentle Sister Ikaros would choose to end her own life, and she couldn't imagine what would happen if she arrived a step later and happened to see Ikaros' body falling from the sky. At the end of the other's life, the gentle and regretful gazes in her beautiful blue eyes happened to intertwine with each other, and Ikaros finally opened his mouth to welcome her back with a smile, but the next moment he fell from the sky like a bird with a broken wing and turned into a pool of rotten meat in front of her.

Skadi promised that she would go crazy.

She didn't even have to witness Ikaros' death with her own eyes. As long as something happened to Ikaros, Skadi would definitely collapse and go crazy.

When the moment the only pillar of a building collapses, no matter how magnificent, dazzling, tall and solid the building is, it will turn into useless ruins and wreckage, making people sigh that this place was once beautiful and great, but can no longer touch the starry sky.

The feeling of almost losing the most precious mistake was really terrible. It made Skadi feel more pain and despair than the death of her teammates that day.

——After all, as long as he still has this concern, he will never become a good hunter.

This was the first sentence Skadi's captain told her. Skadi didn't want to admit it at first, but now she seemed to understand the meaning of this sentence, and also understood what the captain wanted her to pay attention to and care about.

"Skadi...are you okay?" Seeing that Skadi looked at him but didn't say anything for a long time, Ekalos continued to ask with some worry.

"Why don't we eat first? After all, it's getting late. You must be very tired from being a deep-sea hunter, right?"

"What happened in the past has already happened... Even though it was terrible, the dead are gone, and you still have to go on with your journey, right? So don't be sad, okay?"

Ikaros had always felt a sister-mother relationship with Skadi, who he had raised. He also felt guilty and naturally couldn't bear to see Skadi unhappy. However, when he was thinking about what to say to comfort Skadi, he was silent for a long time. Finally, he looked left and right, lowered his head, and whispered to himself:

"And... I'm sorry for letting you see such an embarrassing scene of me. I just felt that my existence would be a burden to you, Skadi, so..."

As he spoke, perhaps because of guilt, Ekalos wrapped his arms around the fair thighs and gradually buried his little face between the white legs. His voice gradually became muffled until he could not make any sound at all. It was not known whether it was because his voice was too soft or because Ekalos himself could not utter the last few words.

"No." But Skadi obviously couldn't agree with what Ikaros said.

Ikaros was stunned for a moment.

"No, that's not the case." Skadi repeated her words again, as if she was emphasizing something.

Ikaros raised her head from between her legs, her blue eyes met Skadi's bloodshot eyes. Skadi looked at her angrily, approached quickly, put her hands on Ikaros's thin shoulders, looked firm, and said sternly: "You will never be a burden to me, Sister Ikaros, you understand this, you should know this better than anyone, even better than myself."

Faced with Skadi who suddenly approached and became serious, the unprepared Ekalos seemed a little embarrassed. Skadi had never treated her like this before, which made her feel that she had made a mistake and she dared not look Skadi in the eye.

However, Skadi's hands stopped Ikaros's movements and thoughts, like an admirer who was pinning his beloved against the wall, or like a hunter who had drawn his bow and string with his aim at his prey. After noticing Ikaros's escape, her expression became more serious, and she stared into Ikaros's uneasy eyes with more anger and determination.

She spoke word by word, as if she was talking to Ekaros, to herself, and even more so to the world:

"You will never be a burden to me, never."

Everyone views the value of the people around them differently, just like it is natural that every person is born different.

Perhaps in Ikaros's own eyes, the trouble she would bring was far greater than the value she would bring to Skadi and the others. Coupled with her inner confusion and fear, the misfortune she encountered and her disability caused her to think that she was a worthless burden.

But for the whale that had experienced despair, but at the most desperate moment was guided towards the light by the moonlight that swept away the darkness in the dark night, even if the initial encounter was perhaps just a coincidence, or perhaps the initial kindness was just a momentary impulse.

But when the fate intertwined, when the man named Ikaros brought her home, when she fell ill because of him but still did not forget to get out of bed to cook for her, and even when he often had a fever and looked for her everywhere because he was worried that she would leave.

Ikaros will never be a burden to Skadi again in his life.

Instead, it is the bright white moonlight that always hangs high in the heart of the young hunter, guiding her to find hope and future even in the dark night shrouded by the endless abyss.

"I need you, Sister Ekaros."

Skadi spoke seriously to Ikaros who was sitting on the chair, explaining the facts that would never be changed.

Maybe life will age, maybe time will pass.

Perhaps the vows made in the past will become full of holes under the corrosion of time, perhaps the mountains and seas that once existed will collapse and dry up with the passage of time.

But this moonlight will never disappear from Skadi's heart.

This was the first ray of light she had ever received from the darkness of despair. Even though it was faint, it illuminated her life and was therefore always worth cherishing for her entire life.

Chapter 106: Agor's Lolita friend was severely teased (sad)

"Skadi..."

Listening to the sincere words spoken by the young hunter in front of him, Ikaros stared at her blood-red eyes, which seemed like the sky dyed by the setting sun, and was slightly absent-minded.

The emotion contained in those eyes was so firm and profound, as if it could cross the long river of time and the torrent of space. It seemed that it would never change. Even the ruthless erosion of death and time could not shake the girl's firm determination.

"I... am I really not a burden to you?"

Inexplicably, Ekaros spoke subconsciously and felt a huge sadness and strong bitterness filling her nose and heart. Ekaros didn't know where this feeling came from. She only felt that she was about to be drowned by the vast cold and gloomy darkness. She shook her head and said to herself:

"I am not necessary to you. I am just a patient who may die of an illness at any time. I am worthless and powerless. I can't do anything for you. I may even bring you misfortune..."

When these discouraging words came out of his mouth, Ikaros did not notice the self-pity and crying tone in his voice, nor did he care about the pain in his torn vocal cords and his gradually hoarse voice, nor did he notice Skadi's gradually gloomy face.

However, this is indeed the inferiority complex that Ikaros has been pent up in her heart and has never revealed to anyone. It is a scar and a disease that is deep in the bone marrow of this gentle and sickly girl beneath her gentle appearance.

Skadi can be said to be the first person to witness this side of Ikaros. Even the old nun who was like a mother to Ikaros did not have such good luck, let alone Gloria and Laurentina.

"No... You are more important than the world." Ikaros raised his head suddenly, and what he saw was Skadi's serious and determined face after a gloomy expression, as well as a small notebook that Skadi had held upright beside him.

"You are not a burden, Sister Ikaros, never will be, (*?▽?*)"

"Perhaps anyone in this world may one day dislike you, but I feel that I will love you forever, until the day the sun no longer rises." These were Skadi's resolute and calm words, as if she was stating a fact, but when she said these words, under the dim light, she seemed so extraordinarily reliable and trustworthy. Then Skadi continued to speak to the stunned Ikaros's blue eyes, as if she wanted to express the most firm and true things and feelings in her heart, and said the words that would never be changed.

"You won't be a burden to me. I told you, Sister Ekaros, you never will be."

To be honest, Skadi knew that his brain sometimes did not work very well, and he could not speak as politely as his compatriots who graduated from graduate schools. His every move was elegant and calm, and he could talk about everything under the sun and at the same time, he could use all kinds of beautiful and gorgeous words to the people he cared about and liked.

But the only thing Skadi can guarantee is that it doesn't matter how mediocre her vocabulary is, how shallow her knowledge is, or even if she can't speak.

Only this emotion needs to be firm enough, sincere enough, and passionate enough, and it is enough to be conveyed through eyes and heart.

Goletia is reserved and wanted to wait until she became successful before expressing her inner feelings, but she slowed down after discovering everything about Ikaros.

Laurentina was enthusiastic and optimistic enough, but her immature mind and family upbringing did not allow her to express her deep feelings before she was able to take responsibility for Ikaros.

But Skadi does not have those worries, because Ikaros is her sky, her everything, and the only pillar and support that maintains Skadi as a deep-sea hunter.

Therefore, Skadi can express her inner feelings and words without any worries or reservations at the right occasion and opportunity.

Show your true heart and hidden love.

"Skadi..."

At this moment, Ikaros looked at the serious-looking hunter in front of him, and felt an inexplicable emotion emerging in his heart, which made the girl's fair face turn a barely noticeable red, and hazy tears reappeared in her slightly swollen eyes.

Ikaros's emotions were surging inside her like the uncalming waves before a storm. She suddenly had the urge to throw herself into the arms of the reliable girl in front of her and cry loudly. This was the first time she had such an idea, to let herself completely rely on someone instead of relying on her own fragile body to get through it.

But Ekalos pursed her lips, trying to suppress the surging waves in her heart. She didn't want to lose her dignity as a sister in front of Skadi. It was one of the few things she cherished. If possible, she didn't want to lose anything again.

But how can the wave be suppressed?

The first wave can be ignored, the second wave can be laughed off, the third wave can be endured with gritted teeth, but as the fourth, fifth, and sixth waves continue to stir up waves called "emotions".

How could Ikaros's so-called sister's dignity, a thing that perhaps no longer existed, suppress the surge in his heart?

Skadi just stared at him earnestly, with eyes that were firm but also gentle and a little dissatisfied. She just stood there, as if she would never leave the giant. She was as beautiful as a picture in the dim light and flowers outside the window.

And the emotions in Ikaros' heart completely surged out, like an unstoppable tide, and the surging waves called emotions were released for the first time from the deep sea of ​​depression.

"I... wu, I, I..."

"Skadi... wuwuwu, I, ha, I'm so scared. I'm so scared that one day you won't come back. Ahem, I'm so scared that you will suddenly disappear like mom and dad."

"And everyone in the monastery... everyone is dead, killed by Hai Si. I'm so scared. I'm so scared that I've lost you just like I lost them. I'm so scared that I'll be the only one left in the end. I really can't find the courage to live anymore."

"Sister, I'm really, really scared. So scared..."

She lowered her head slowly, and the crystal tears first slid down slowly, dripping onto Ikaros's white dress and wetting a piece of fabric. Then, it was like rain, and with that fragile, hoarse and distressing voice like a elegy, Ikaros, who subconsciously wanted to wipe them away with both hands, found that the tears could not be wiped away.

Her ethereal and gentle voice trembled with sadness, and she gradually curled up in sorrow, making her, who had already lost a lot of weight, look even more pitiful, like a flower that was about to wither, which was enough to make anyone who knew how to appreciate beauty feel distressed.

Not to mention Skadi, who already knew this flower and grew up under the protection of it.

The faint light outside the window illuminated not only Skadi in Ikaros' eyes, but also Ikaros in Skadi's eyes.

The flowers are surrounded not only by Skadi, who is taking care of them temporarily, but also by Ekaros, who has been taking care of them since they were still seeds.

The glimmer of light gently stroked Ikaros's head, gently wiped the tears from the corners of the girl's eyes, and covered her long blue hair with a layer of holy and soft light gold, but found that he could not hide the sadness in the girl's eyes.

The flowers surrounded Ikaros, trying their best to bloom their brilliance to heal the wounds in Ikaros' heart, but they also found that Ikaros, who was sobbing sadly, seemed to be abandoned by the world and was grief-stricken.

This scene deeply touched the soft spot in Skadi's heart, and she, who was originally still upset about Ekaros's suicidal behavior, suddenly became panic-stricken and completely at a loss.

She had never seen Ikaros cry, nor had she ever seen the gentle and strong Ikaros look so fragile and sad, like glass that would shatter at the slightest touch.

But when the helpless Skadi heard Ikaros' words full of sorrow and grief, and saw her sister, who used to stand tall and proud with her sick and disabled body, now thin and crying, the helplessness turned into a kind of courage at this moment, and Skadi let go of her hands on Ikaros' shoulders.

And the next moment when Ekaros looked up at her in tears, Skadi took a step forward and for the first time hugged Ekaros's thin body tightly, instead of being hugged by Ekaros.

"It's okay, it's okay, I'll be with you."