Hikigaya doesn't want to be a force of strength

After all, although he can remain absolutely rational most of the time, if he is allowed to enter a beautiful girl's room and something overly exciting happens, even he may not be able to control himself.

If you are tricked into going to Class B for no apparent reason, you will regret it terribly later!

Of course, Hikigaya didn't care too much about these things.

The appearance of Ichinose was just a small episode for him. More importantly, he had already obtained the key prop to deal with Class C.

Looking at the video and medical certificate in front of him, Hikigaya thought of many ways to deal with Class C.

If he wanted, he could even take this opportunity to directly destroy the entire Class C, making Class C's ranking drop directly behind Class D, making the current Class D become Class C.

However, he was not too enthusiastic about class promotion, so he naturally would not make such a ostentatious choice.

"It's better to just blackmail and get some points."

Since he had just slept for too long in the health room, Hikigaya still didn't feel sleepy afterwards, so he just lay there the whole night.

Early the next morning, he set out for the classroom.

When he was about to walk into Class D, an unexpected figure appeared in front of him.

The silver-haired girl, Shiina Hiyori, seemed to have arrived here very early and had been waiting for him at the door of Class D.

"Hikigaya-kun!?"

At this moment, seeing the figure appear in front of him, Shiina's face suddenly showed a shaken expression, as if he didn't know what to say.

Through her eyes, one can clearly see the panic and anxiety on the girl's face.

"Shiina, why are you here?"

In his heart, Hikigaya had actually already guessed the reason why Shiina Hiyori came to find him, but he did not show any expression on the surface.

After all, when he thought about what he was going to do to Class C next, he didn't know how to face the girl in front of him.

It might be a good thing to just forget about me...

"Hikigaya-kun, I'm sorry..."

As soon as Shiina Hiyori saw him, he immediately lowered his head and apologized to Hikigaya, "After I learned everything from Ibuki yesterday, I wanted to find you as soon as possible. I must apologize to you."

"This has nothing to do with you." Hikigaya didn't think Shiina had any need to apologize and shook his head, "Shiina, you don't have to apologize to me."

Hikigaya's words came from the heart.

After all, if Shiina got involved in this matter and affected the actions of Ishizaki and others, Hikigaya's plan might not go so smoothly.

If it wasn't so shameless, Hikigaya would even have planned to thank Shiina.

However, Shiina himself obviously didn't know what Hikigaya was thinking.

In her eyes, it was because of her that Hikigaya was beaten up by Ishizaki and his men.

"No, no, Hikigaya-kun, this happened because of me, I must apologize to you..."

Shiina Hiyori obviously couldn't accept Hikigaya's words so easily. Her face was full of anxiety and guilt, and she was almost crying.

Seeing her performance like this, Hikigaya didn't know what to do.

There is no way. Shiina is a too gentle person. When a gentle person encounters a gentle attitude, he will feel more guilty and at a loss.

Alas, that’s why I hate gentle girls.

In this case, there is only one choice.

"Yeah, it's all your fault, Shiina."

Hikigaya directed cold words at the gentle Shiina.

He gave up the meaningless disguise and no longer intended to pretend to be gentle.

Or in other words, haven't I always been this kind of person?

Since when did I start to learn meaningless tenderness?

Hikigaya laughed at himself, looking at the confused Hiyori Shiina in front of him.

"It's all because of you that those guys targeted me. It would be fine if I didn't know you, so let's end it here. I am a lonely person. You don't have to sympathize with me, nor do you have to feel indebted to me... If you come to talk to me because you feel guilty, then there is no need. I don't need that kind of hypocritical gentleness."

After saying these words that were at the maximum level of self-destruction, Hikigaya didn't dare to look at Shiina again and silently turned his gaze away.

Chapter 199 I forgot to tell you, I’m a member of the Student Union!

After Hikigaya finished speaking, he didn't dare to look at Shiina Hiyori anymore.

He knew very well that what he had just said would definitely hurt Shiina, or in other words, he said those bad words with the intention of hurting the other person.

This is no way.

When facing a gentle person like Shiina, if you show an equally gentle attitude and consider him from his perspective, there is a possibility that the matter will never end.

Because Shiina thinks she has hurt Hikigaya, she is eager to atone for her sins. The more friendly you are to her at this time, the more she will have no way to vent her guilt.

Things will become unmanageable.

Therefore, Hikigaya's choice was to attack the opponent by means of self-destruction, sacrificing his own image in Shiina's heart, so that Shiina would no longer feel guilty about himself.

Just by making almost non-existent sacrifices, he was able to make the other party accept it all with peace of mind. I am indeed a genius.

So many thoughts were surging in Hikigaya's mind, and they were all rational and logical.

However, Hikigaya felt inexplicably anxious at this moment.

Even my vision started to become blurry...

Ah, this won’t work. What am I so anxious about?

It's not a big deal at all.

Hikigaya scratched his head subconsciously, not knowing whether to look at Shiina's expression, but the silence that had enveloped the scene from the beginning was really uncomfortable.

It was the first time that Hikigaya felt that silence could be so uncomfortable.

He obviously thought he was mature enough...

"So...um...how should I put it..."

Hikigaya opened his mouth almost instinctively. His purpose was not to express anything, but simply to break the silence that was about to penetrate his stomach wall.

Anyway, it's more important to say something now, but I can't put my finger on it.

The scene fell into a kind of absolute silence that was almost at freezing point.

Finally, it was Shiina Hiyori who first showed a silly smile on her face.

"Yes, that's right, ahahaha... It's all my fault that Hikigaya-san got hurt like this. Why did I become such a bad woman?"

Hearing the voice, Hikigaya finally turned his head.

Only then did he realize that although Shiina Hiyori's mouth was smiling, her face was lowered at a loss. He couldn't see her expression from the front, he only knew that her weak voice was trembling.

"I'm sorry... No, I have no right to say such things. I hate myself more than anyone else..."

Shiina Hiyori's voice became softer and softer, but it made Hikigaya's chest tear slightly.

Shiina Hiyori is the most gentle girl he has ever met, but he does not think he is qualified to accept her kindness.

What's more, if the truth is cruel, then lies must be gentle.

So, gentleness is just a lie.

What Hikigaya hates most is gentle lies. What he desires is the truth that is cruel yet real, sad yet unchanging.

"Feel sorry……"

In the end, all Hikigaya could say was meaningless apologies.

This was not his apology for what he had just said, but an advance apology for what he would do to Class C next.

Although he didn't know whether his actions would accidentally hurt Shiina, there were some things he had to say now.

On the other side, when Shiina Hiyori heard Hikigaya's words, her body suddenly trembled and she raised her head slightly.

Hikigaya noticed that the other person's eyes were filled with tears and he was looking at him intently.

He couldn't bear the pressure and instinctively looked away.

"..."

Shiina Hiyori's eyes became completely dim, and she turned around and left with a dejected look on her face. However, she had only run a few meters before her steps became heavy again and she walked lonely.

Hikigaya looked at Shiina's departing figure and shook his head silently.

Shiina might feel uncomfortable for a while, and maybe she will never come to meet me again.

But that has nothing to do with me.

No matter how the other party tried to get over the loss, Hikigaya could not retract his statement.

Because what I did was correct.

If you have experienced something like this and still continue to create a hypocritical illusion and pretend that you can get along well with others, that would be a state that would make people want to vomit.

A wrong relationship should be ended immediately, and false tenderness should be exposed directly.

A gentle lie was still a lie, and Hikigaya hated lies.

Therefore, he also hates gentle girls.

They are like the moon in the night sky. No matter where you go, they will follow you, but you cannot touch them or grasp the sense of distance.

Just saying hello would start to make me have wild thoughts; sending each other an email would make me feel uneasy; and the whole day when I received a call from the other party, I would smile foolishly at the call log.

However, that is just a kind of gentleness. Those who are gentle to themselves will also be gentle to others.

This is a truth that must never be forgotten.

So, he hates gentle girls.

……

After arriving at the classroom, Hikigaya spent the whole morning with a calm expression.

He felt that he had come out of his previous state of anxiety and could calmly accept the new reality and embrace his lonely life again.

However, before he could declare so confidently, Horikita Suzune behind him frowned and asked, "Did you step on dog poop on the way here this morning?"

"??? Why do you scold me as soon as we meet?"

"Just telling the truth."

"Uh, well, it's nice to be able to speak the truth whenever you want."

How great it would be if everyone could be like Horikita Suzune, expressing their thoughts without hesitation and without any emotional fluctuations.

If you like someone, just say you like them directly. If you hate someone, just stay away from them decisively. This way, there will be no misunderstandings and you can just give up on the idea.

This alone can bring salvation to the vast majority of poor men.

At this moment, Hikigaya inexplicably hoped that all girls in the world would become like Horikita. Uh, is this idea of ​​his a little too perverted...

On the other side, after hearing what Hikigaya said, Horikita Suzune's brows furrowed even more.

She stood up and walked to the front of Hikigaya's seat, staring at his face.

"What happened to you? Why are you so weird?"

"Ah? What's wrong with me?"

"If it was before, you shouldn't have responded to my words like this. Although it may sound strange for me to say this, you seemed to enjoy it before... So, even in the face of my belittling, you shouldn't have given up on yourself like this."

"I'm not a masochist, how could I possibly enjoy it?"

Hikigaya tried hard to deny Horikita Suzune's words. He didn't want to be considered as a pervert who gets pleasure from being treated coldly by others.

I guess I'm not that twisted yet.

"Oh, that's right. I've known you for less than two months, so maybe you are normal now." Horikita Suzune was silent for a few seconds, then nodded slowly, "Anyway, your essence is just like your eyes, you are just a dead fish."

"You are a pervert if you can still insult me ​​at this time."

Is Horikita more aggressive than before?