Hikigaya doesn't want to be a force of strength

"This……"

After hearing what Shiina Hiyori said, Hikigaya hesitated for a moment.

With just this one action, Shiina Hiyori's expression immediately dimmed, and even the light in her eyes lost its luster.

Ah, don't be so heavy...

We've only met twice.

The more he felt the problem with Shiina Hiyori, the more he was able to confirm that the girl in front of him must be one of the weirdos that abounded in this campus.

"Hikigaya-san, don't you like the food I cook?" Shiina Hiyori hesitated, and as if she mustered up all her courage, she spoke slowly.

"No, I just feel a little embarrassed." Hikigaya scratched his head, "After all, we have only met twice, I can't trouble you like this every time."

If people knew, they would think I was here just to eat for free.

Moreover, Shiina Hiyori's attitude also made him feel very strange. He had only met her a few times, but the attitude she displayed was unimaginably enthusiastic.

If I were a handsome guy, that would be fine...

The problem is that Hikigaya has a clear self-awareness of his appearance, and there is no reason for him to directly attract the attention of the opposite sex.

Because of this, Hikigaya had an instinctive resistance to all of this from the bottom of his heart.

"Is...is that so?"

Shiina Hiyori's expression changed slightly. She seemed to realize that her attitude was too enthusiastic, but she didn't know how to maintain a distance.

It is obvious that in the eyes of Shiina Hiyori, Hikigaya and in the eyes of Hikigaya, the relationship between the two seems to be completely specious and completely different.

"Then...I'll just have one bite?"

Hikigaya couldn't help but sigh when he saw Shiina Hiyori lowering his head and looking lost.

"Really?"

All of a sudden, Shiina Hiyori, who had been as silent and lost as a dried fish, showed joy on her face.

The two of them sat down like this, using the books as a dining table. Shiina Hiyori handed over the chopsticks very seriously and placed the lunch box on the books.

"If the librarian saw what happened here, he would probably kick us out on the spot..." Hikigaya sighed after taking a bite of his bento.

"No, but there's a high chance that some class points will be deducted."

Shiina Hiyori responded with a smile.

"Class points?" Hikigaya looked confused when he heard this concept for the first time.

"Didn't Hikigaya's homeroom teacher tell you?" Shiina Hiyori looked puzzled. "Our homeroom teacher told us on the first day that we must not break school rules or violate school discipline, otherwise we would lose class points and affect the distribution of points next month."

"Is there such a thing?"

Chabashira Sae had never mentioned this topic in Class D, and although Hikigaya had some guesses, he was not sure of the specific form.

Therefore, it was not until now that he fully realized what the so-called chaos that would occur on the first of next month actually referred to.

With the mess of points deducted from Class D this month, I'm afraid the points issued next month will become 0!

In fact, all this should be inevitable.

After learning such important information from Shiina Hiyori, Hikigaya suddenly felt a little embarrassed. After all, he had taken advantage of the other party again and had unilaterally obtained the information.

I always feel like I have become a spy in a spy movie, relying on beauty to obtain intelligence...

Uh, it seems that I don’t have any beauty.

"Shiina-san, do you like reading?"

"Like it."

Shiina put down his chopsticks and smiled, "My favorite thing in this world is books... Hikigaya-san likes reading books too, right?"

"Well, that's right."

Because of his solitary life, animated movies and books are the things he uses most to kill time. He can definitely be said to be the kind of person who likes to read.

"Yeah, so I like it too." Shiina Hiyori nodded a little shyly.

Why repeat it twice?

Do you like reading so much?

Hikigaya was slightly stunned by Shiina's words and didn't understand what the other person meant.

Then, as the two of them finished their lunch boxes bit by bit, the sky gradually darkened, and Hikigaya realized that he should leave.

"I'm leaving, are you ready to go?"

"I plan to stay a while longer."

Shiina Hiyori spoke silently, and at the same time raised his head slightly and looked at Hikigaya, "Hikigaya-san, next time, can we still read together?"

"Well, if you have time..."

Hikigaya did not agree directly.

How to put it, although Shiina is a cute girl and Hikigaya doesn't dislike the atmosphere of the library, he always feels that there is something weird about Shiina Hiyori's attitude.

Whether it was the enthusiasm shown towards me when I first met him, or the attitude of being too concerned about my gaze, it made people feel uneasy.

Hikigaya is a person who has an absolute understanding of himself. He doesn't think that he has any special appeal that can attract the attention of people around him.

Or to put it the opposite, most of the time he is the least noticeable one.

Therefore, he felt that the attitude displayed by Shiina Hiwa was very abnormal. Because it was abnormal, he wanted to find the source of this abnormality from the bottom of his heart.

After all, he couldn't accept the tenderness that came without reason, and couldn't imagine that such good luck would fall on his head out of nowhere.

If the truth is cruel, then lies must be gentle.

So, gentleness is a lie.

Hikigaya used to believe in the kindness of the world and other people's unwarranted kindness, but after so many years, he will no longer be fooled again.

Perhaps Shiina Hiyori has some special purpose, or perhaps he has a special personality brought about by his special experience.

Regardless, Hikigaya didn't believe that the other party would be friendly to him for no reason.

Or rather, he hoped that Shiina Hiyori was so gentle to him for some reason.

From the very beginning, I hated those friendly girls, because girls who were gentle to me were often gentle to others.

I hate gentle girls the most...

Chapter 50: The life of this class is like a candle in the wind

The time since school started always goes by quickly. Before I knew it, three weeks have passed since the start of the school year.

For three whole weeks, everything was changing in various ways without anyone noticing, but the atmosphere in Class D seemed to be like the tilapia in the freezer, and there was no change at all.

Most of the people in Class D showed monkey-like discipline and caveman-like intelligence in any course.

It can be said that it makes people want to sigh at how low the lower limit of human intelligence is...

Correspondingly, teachers of every subject condoned private talking, lateness or dozing off.

This further indulged the students in Class D, causing some students who were a little reserved at first to start doing whatever they wanted. In the end, only a few people like Hikigaya and Horikita were still studying seriously.

No matter how you look at it.

The life of this class is like a candle in the wind.

At the same time, Hikigaya himself also experienced a lot in these three weeks. Not only did he have to go to the student union as a corporate slave every week, but he also had to be careful of harassment from other classes.

Yes, although Class D did not react at all to Hikigaya becoming a member of the Student Council, correspondingly, people from other classes mostly paid attention to him because of this matter.

Hikigaya has felt that someone is following him more than once, but fortunately his presence is very low and he can easily get rid of the pursuit.

In addition to these things, Hikigaya would occasionally go to the library to read, but because of his complicated feelings towards Shiina Hiyori, he never stayed there for very long each time.

There was no way. As a lone ranger, he was not good at accepting other people's kindness, especially the kindness from which he could not see clearly, which was his biggest enemy...

No matter how innocent Shiina Hiwa appears to be, he will never take it for granted.

This is also the gentleness that is unique to Hikigaya.

"It's Monday again."

Picking up his schoolbag, Hikigaya sighed deeply.

Monday is an extremely uncomfortable day for many people. Not only does it mean that the beautiful weekend is gone, but it also means that the hard life of school and work is about to begin.

If possible, Hikigaya really didn't want to go to the classroom, but given his condition, no one would be willing to help copy notes and get handouts, so even if he wanted to take a leave, it would be impossible to do so.

In a sense, this is also the core reason why Hikigaya completed three full years of perfect attendance in junior high school.

……

Just before the morning class meeting, Hikigaya entered the noisy classroom.

The classroom has been divided into several colonies: the first group of men and women who are just pretending to be there, the second group of people who want to pick up girls, the athletes who join the club but are not official players, the otaku group, the core female elements, the quiet girls, and the few lone rangers.

These lone rangers can also be broken down into different categories…

But there is no doubt that these people are not very similar to Hikigaya.

Everyone was so immersed in their own conversation that no one noticed him coming in, so Hikigaya was able to shuttle between the islands in the classroom and get to his seat.

However, before he could sit down and enjoy the quiet time, a cold voice like that of a hellish jailer sounded from behind him.

"You don't seem to have made a single friend in all this time."

Horikita Suzune spoke calmly while looking down at a book.

"It doesn't matter. Having no friends means everyone in the world is my friend. After all, anyone can come and talk to me. I simply have friends all over the world!"

Hikigaya had long been accustomed to Horikita Suzune's speaking rhythm, and retorted without any concealment.

"Yes, but unfortunately, in the whole three weeks, has there been more than one person in the class who talked to you?"

"This……"

Once again knocked down by Horikita Suzune's vicious words, Hikigaya could only swear in his heart and curse the little man with Horikita Suzune's name written on it.

At the same time, Hikigaya also noticed that Ayanokouji unexpectedly made a lot of friends in the past three months, not only the three idiots in Class D, Sudo Yamauchi and Ike, but also other boys, to the point where they would occasionally eat together.

Although Hikigaya didn't think that someone like Ayanokouji would have any true friends, the fact was that he was far ahead of him and Horikita in terms of making friends.

Perhaps because of his unwillingness or his inexplicable desire to win, Hikigaya suddenly spoke to the black-haired girl behind him:

"Well, Horikita, do you want to go eat together?"

Eating symbolizes the simplest interpersonal relationship.

Hikigaya had eaten alone for three years in junior high school, so he had never had this kind of experience. Now he couldn't help but want to know what it felt like.

"This..." Horikita Suzune unexpectedly hesitated a bit at Hikigaya's proposal. He thought the other party would reject it instantly.

"Huh, I'm not interested in that."

Unfortunately, I rejected it in the end.

Hikigaya could only nod awkwardly and didn't insist on anything else.

Next came the break time, and the class once again began to make a lively noise like a vegetable market in the evening. The boys mostly talked about girls' topics or dirty jokes.

Although Hikigaya did not participate in the topic, he could not stop the conversation from entering his ears.

"Oh yeah... Is this true? Hirata already has a girlfriend? That's amazing."

"Hirata and Karuizawa are dating after all."

Over a few weeks, with some deliberate dissemination and fermentation, the fact that Hirata and Karuizawa were dating had become a consensus among the class.

Although Hikigaya knows that the truth of this matter is not simple, he will not take the initiative to reveal anything, or no matter what he says, the people in Class D will not believe it.

In fact, although he and Karuizawa had had several contacts before, they hardly spoke to each other since then.

All I can say is that a tool like me is unlikely to get into the other party's sight.