Hikigaya doesn't want to be a force of strength

Sakayanagi's idea was indeed wrong.

Hikigaya has a clear understanding of himself, so he knows very well that he is unlikely to be a match for Sakayanagi and Ayanokouji, and it will be difficult for him to compete with these two guys.

However, Hikigaya has one very good advantage, which is that his definition of victory is different from that of others.

The victory that most people pursue is often the exploitation of benefits and the improvement of status, but Hikigaya is different. He never pursues such boring things.

What I have always pursued are often something simpler and purer.

Because of this, Hikigaya can often do things that others want to do but cannot do, and can flexibly change his target bottom line to win in another way.

Of course, he would not take the initiative to talk about these things, nor was there any need to say them.

After all, the Mavericks are all handsome and taciturn guys!

The boys who don’t initiate conversations are the coolest!

Thinking about something very Chuunibyou in his heart, Hikigaya said silently: "Anyway, Sakayanagi, I will not help you in this sports meet. I may even become your enemy."

"That's really exciting."

Sakayanagi smiled, looking forward to it from the bottom of her heart.

Her unpredictable attitude gave Hikigaya mixed feelings.

The two of them didn't have any conversation afterwards, letting the leisurely time pass slowly.

Come to think of it, the two hadn't seen each other since the summer vacation.

After not seeing each other for a while, she gave me a very different feeling. Perhaps it was because she spoke so little today - no, it might be more correct to describe her as steady.

It seems that Sakayanagi really wants to fight Ayanokouji, and for this reason she is very serious about leading Class A and standing on the battlefield where she can face Ayanokouji.

I really can't understand what kind of attraction Ayanokouji has that makes the other party so fascinated.

I'm afraid only geniuses with sick brains can understand this kind of thing.

A fool like me is destined to only be able to think about things that ordinary mortals can think about.

For example, this store doesn’t put enough sugar in the coffee. Damn it. I might as well add some sugar myself.

While drinking coffee, Hikigaya was looking for an opportunity to escape from here.

Sakayanagi had said everything she wanted to say, and she also understood Ayanokouji's general situation, so there was no need to stay here any longer.

However, Sakayanagi herself did not seem to intend to end it like this.

Not only did she not suggest breaking up, but she took out a hardcover book from her bag, propped her cheek with one hand, read the book spread out on the table, and occasionally took a sip of coffee.

The way she quietly reads is full of a special charm.

She is neither as cold as Horikita nor as quiet as Shiina, but even without making any unnecessary movements, she has a special attraction out of nowhere.

From the fingertips turning the pages, the white neck showing when drinking coffee, to the eyes narrowed to study the words in the book - it is impossible to take your eyes off the other person.

"Hmm?" Sakayanagi seemed to notice his gaze and turned her face slightly.

Hikigaya was so frightened that he quickly spoke:

"…Nothing, I just wanted to ask if I can leave now."

"Don't you want to be with me?"

"That's not the case...it's just too conspicuous."

As time passed, more and more students entered the cafe, and Hikigaya was worried that someone he knew would appear in front of him later.

In fact, there were already quite a few familiar faces in the coffee shop just now, but they just didn't come to disturb us.

Seeing this, Sakayanagi nodded and smiled, "Is that so? Then we can only say goodbye."

"Oh."

Hikigaya didn't expect Sakayanagi to let him go so easily. For some reason, he felt a little unreal.

It was not until he walked out of the coffee shop and nothing special happened that he realized Sakayanagi really let him go.

Through the glass window, he could see Sakayanagi sitting in a seat reading a book.

Although they were in a coffee shop, the other party seemed to be isolated from everyone, so lonely and empty...

Thinking back to how Sakayanagi Arisu was determined to win against Ayanokouji, Hikigaya couldn't help but have a guess in his mind.

Could it be that what Sakayanagi desires is not a fight to the death, but simply a desire to find someone like her?

That little devil is essentially just a lonely little girl?

This thought only lasted for a moment before Hikigaya put it behind his mind. He didn't want to think about this question that was destined to have no answer.

Chapter 443: How to help Horikita Suzune achieve real growth?

What happened yesterday caused Class D to fall into a strange sense of tension.

Horikita Suzune's overly strong personality once again made her ostracized by the class, but compared to the purely impulsive behavior of Class D at the beginning of the school year, this time they ostracized Horikita Suzune because Horikita herself had indeed made an unforgivable mistake.

Of course, although it was called exclusion, Class D also knew that if they wanted to win the sports festival, they still needed the help of Horikita Suzune, so they were willing to accept Horikita at any time.

The current situation is more like Horikita Suzune alone has squeezed out the entire D class.

In addition to the conflict between Horikita and Class D, this incident also inevitably brought about a conflict between Hikigaya, as the person involved, and Horikita Suzune.

When the two met in the classroom, they were unwilling to even look at each other, and their expressions were filled with unhappiness.

However, Hikigaya was obviously the one who was even less favored. Horikita Suzune looked at him as if he were an annoying insect.

By the way, did the other party look at you like this before?

So actually nothing has changed, hahaha!

With all sorts of random thoughts in his mind, Hikigaya habitually used divergent thinking to escape reality and prevent his stomach from churning.

The other members of Class D were also understanding and deliberately did not disturb the two during the process.

Although these guys probably just don't want to get involved with troublesome people like Horikita and Hikigaya, this can be considered a special kind of kindness.

After all, if a student were to come and repeat what happened yesterday at this moment, Hikigaya would probably be so ashamed that he would be ready to jump off the building.

It's like when a person is angry and suddenly someone yells at him/her, "Why are you angry?" That will definitely only add fuel to the fire.

Even if you know that the other person's words are out of tenderness or concern, you will still uncontrollably get angry.

Everyone knows that a gentleman does not stand under a dangerous wall. The smarter a person is, the less likely he will get close to others.

Because as long as people communicate with each other, they will sow the seeds of dispute.

Therefore, only the Lone Ranger will not cause any special trouble.

If everyone in the world were a lone ranger, humanity could even avoid war!

Long live the Mavericks!

Of course, due to the existence of the sports festival, no matter how much trouble there is, when it comes time to train, all students still have to train as usual.

Even though Hikigaya extremely didn't want to waste his energy, faced with this situation, he had to force himself to start exercising.

The only one who could completely ignore all this and act casually was probably Koenji.

For him, let alone being deducted 10 points in the midterm exam, even if he was deducted 50 points, he could still pass easily, so he didn't care at all.

The most important thing is that he doesn't care about the attitudes of other students in Class D at all, and lives in his own world.

Thinking about it this way, Koenji might be a lone ranger of a higher level, because his 'loneliness' is no longer on a physical level, but on a spiritual level.

Even if this guy talks to other people, he actually doesn't consider what other people think at all.

To be honest, Hikigaya was quite envious of Koenji. Although he knew that he could never reach Koenji's level, this did not prevent him from worshipping Koenji as a lone ranger idol of a higher level.

……

Another day of training was over, and Hikigaya rubbed his sore arms tiredly, but he was not so tired that he couldn't stand up.

Thanks to the student council president's private training, his body had long ago gotten used to the aches and pains of exercise, so even when he suddenly started training for the sports festival, he showed no obvious fatigue and performed just like before.

In contrast, many people in Class D had never participated in such intense exercise. After a day of exercise, they were so tired that they could not stand up at all and needed help from others to return to the dormitory.

The most obvious example is the three idiots. Not to mention Sudo, Yamauchi Haruki and Ike Kanji have absolutely no special skills in sports. After a day's training, they wish they could just lie on the ground, unable to move.

Ayanokouji was still disguising himself as he had done in the past. Although there was nothing wrong with the details of his body, his face looked as if he was out of breath.

The acting is really bad.

As for the girls, the contradictions with Horikita Suzune still exist. Many girls can't stand Horikita's overly stubborn character and don't want to cooperate with her.

However, in order to win the sports festival, they had to train with Horikita Suzune, and everyone had to deliberately behave as usual, and convince themselves that everything was normal by showing that their lifestyle had not changed.

This kind of self-deception is actually a very important necessity as a lubricant. It is the superficial effort that any team needs to maintain unity.

But as a lone ranger, Hikigaya never needed such a thing.

It will only make you feel anxious and unhappy.

The Lone Ranger never talks to the other party out of consideration, and never even gets close to them.

Because of this, half of the Lone Ranger is made up of gentleness. No, it’s all gentleness.

It seems that Sakayanagi's evaluation is still wrong.

I am not a gentle and kind person at all, but I am the gentlest and kindest person in the world!

Hikigaya thought about things that comforted himself and returned to the classroom silently.

Just then, Shinohara Satsuki happened to leave the classroom and ran into him.

Shinohara seemed to be troubled by Horikita Suzune's matter. She looked at him helplessly and said in an almost pleading tone: "Hikigaya-san, can I ask you how to get along with Horikita-san?"

"Even if you ask me that..."

I myself don't know how to get along with Horikita at all!

Otherwise, I wouldn't be hated to this extent now.

"Feel sorry……"

Shinohara seemed to realize that he had found the wrong person, and he was a little desperate and tried all sorts of methods, but finally shook his head helplessly.

Next, Shinohara seemed to want to talk and expressed his troubles to Horikita Suzune.

She had been at odds with Horikita Suzune ever since the deserted island exam, but she was on the wrong side at the time and was criticized for it.

Now, the positions of the two have been reversed, and the person who made the mistake has become Horikita Suzune, but Shinohara still doesn't know how to face Horikita.

In a sense, this is the difference in capacity.

If it was Horikita, even if she made a mistake, she would never admit it, and might even go so far as to discredit the other party.

It was precisely because Shinohara lacked this kind of obsession that he ended up in this state.

Of course, Hikigaya would not tell these words to Shinohara, and he didn't know how to give him any advice. He could only listen to his mumblings in silence.

After saying everything, Shinohara Satsuki said with a relaxed look on her face: "I don't know why, but after saying these words to Hikigaya-san, I feel a lot more relaxed. Can I still talk to you about my troubles in the future?"

"Well, if I had time..."

Although he really wanted to refuse, seeing the distressed look on the girl's face, Hikigaya gave her false hope and covered up his rejection with vague words.

After all, Hikigaya saw the heavy burden that Shinohara was carrying.

Completely different from the time on the uninhabited island, Shinohara Satsuki's style of doing things has changed significantly.

Although she would still stand up for her friends, her attitude was not as tough as in the past where she had to force the other party to accept her ideas. She even appeared vulnerable like she does now.

In Hikigaya's opinion, a person will not change so easily.

If someone allows himself to change easily for any reason, it means that he has no self at all.

People who have self-awareness will definitely refuse to change themselves at times.

Because maintaining self-identity is the attitude that human beings should have.

Even so, if a person still wants to change himself, there is only one reason.

After being bruised and battered by failure, he felt the pain for the first time, and then instinctively avoided it, and finally changed.

So, does this mean that Shinohara has grown and become better than before?