I participated in the development of EVA

As soon as I walked in, I saw my grandfather wiping the family heirloom knives.

If it was just tidying up and maintaining the family knives, there would be nothing wrong with it, but taking out the katana used exclusively by the kaishakunin was not normal.

Professor Yamaki was not surprised to see Ibuki Emi, and he obviously expected her to come.

"Emi, you're here."

"Well, Grandpa... why did you take out the sword?"

Professor Yamaki continued to wipe his sword.

"Today I met the little guy Ikari Fumihiko that you always mentioned. He is really an amazing junior."

Ibuki Emi was a little worried.

"It's not your fault for what Grandpa did. They sacrificed their lives for all of humanity. Even if you weren't there, the outcome wouldn't have been any different."

Professor Yamaki obviously didn't want Ibuki Emi to worry.

"I'm fine, just taking care of these things."

Ibuki Emi naturally didn't believe this. The old age emanating from her grandfather made her very anxious, and she couldn't even control her words: "Why are you so stubborn? No one blames you, and no one asks you to be responsible. Those are reasonable and necessary sacrifices. Even if it were someone else, it would be the same. Moreover, those people all volunteered to participate in the experiment. No matter how you look at it, it's not your fault."

Professor Yamaki stopped wiping the sword in his arms.

"I'm really fine."

Others may not know, but Ibuki Emi should know that her grandfather has always forced her to do things she doesn't want to do, and she is suffering from it.

She rushed forward, snatched Huai Jian away, and interrupted him, "Can't you just let yourself go? Leave yourself a way out... Even if you let yourself go, please consider me, okay?! You are the only relative left by my side in this world, how can you bear to leave me alone!?

This is no longer the era of samurai.

The damn samurai spirit has long been thrown into the trash.

wrong!

This is not some bullshit samurai spirit, it is just cowardly, cowardly, irresponsible, selfish behavior that only considers your own feelings!! "

Professor Shanmu did not try to snatch the sword, but just listened quietly, feeling his granddaughter's outburst of emotions.

"I'm really fine, Huimei, you're too sensitive. I'm still waiting to see you put on your wedding dress and find your own happiness."

"really?"

"Yes, really. You are my only relative in this world. I can't lie to anyone but you."

044. There is a gap between ideal and reality

When Professor Yamaki first came into contact with the E-Project, he judged that this research would result in the sacrifice of many people.

The excitement that surged in my heart at that moment even suppressed the grief of losing my children.

Yes, just excited!

He has been growing up with the Bushido instilled by his elders, and he expects to become a strong and handsome samurai like his ancestors when he grows up. However, as he grows up, he has new insights. Bushido is not about fighting with the enemy or how strong one's own martial arts is, but a spirit of protecting something at the cost of one's life.

He had found this feeling in his past life, but he always felt that something was missing and could not satisfy his long-standing fantasy of Bushido.

The occurrence of the Second Impact and the emergence of Plan E fulfilled all his fantasies about Bushido.

Fight to protect all mankind!

This is so cool—

No matter it is to complete mankind's understanding of EVA or there are many dangerous researches that must be carried out in the subsequent research and development, no one is willing to take over these tasks. At that time, he thought very simply, since no one dared to take it, then I will take it, and I will bear the sin alone... At first he thought this behavior was very cool and completely in line with the samurai spirit of his fantasy.

but--

He overestimated himself. It was not because of his lack of R&D capabilities, but because he did not realize how heavy the burden was.

Watching the lives passing away before my eyes, especially those caused by my own mistakes... it was pain, nothing but pain, tormenting others and also tormenting myself. There was no such romance as I had imagined. It was obvious that the consciousness supported by fantasy alone could not bear all of this.

He had thought about committing suicide countless times in the past two years, but when he thought of the fate of all mankind on his shoulders and the support of his granddaughter, he gritted his teeth and persevered.

That is exactly the case.

Only then did he begin to treat this granddaughter, whom he had always looked down upon, as a real family member.

"Okay, you're already that old, why are you still crying? I'm really fine, I just stayed up late lately and I'm a little tired today."

Ibuki Emi was still worried.

"You take a rest. I'm not going anywhere today."

"it is good."

……

Naoko Akagi commanded everyone to salvage the prototype. She wanted to fix it on the cross as before, but when she gave the order, she thought of Fumihiko Ikari's previous words. The failure of the start-up test was because the synchronization rate was too high, which amplified the external perception and stimulated the manual pilot to cause a runaway.

"Hang up the cross as a support and place the test machine flat on it to reduce external stimulation as much as possible."

In addition, some other places have been modified.

For example, LCL liquid temperature. In short, the influence of external factors is minimized as much as possible.

Fumihiko Ikari sorted out his thoughts in the office, organized the theories he had talked about today, and used his authority to submit the research on terminating artificial pilots to the top management.

Ritsuko Akagi hesitated for a long time but still couldn't help but ask.

"How's that kid doing?"

Ikari Fumihiko looked up.

Ritsuko Akagi hurriedly explained her behavior.

"I didn't peek on purpose. It was just a little too noisy, so I was a little worried and took a look."

What Fumihiko Ikari was concerned about was not Ritsuko Akagi's peeping behavior, but how he could pass the information to Ryosuke Kaji through her without anyone knowing.

"She's fine. She just fell into a coma due to the reverse flow of nerve impulses."

Neuroscientist Ritsuko Akagi knew that there was also a concept of pulse, but it was a little difficult to understand when these two terms were linked together.

"????"

"It's just... forget it. It's a little difficult for you to understand this with your intelligence and knowledge."

"Damn it - you bastard! You're treating me like a fool again! When the school was still there, I was always number one in my grade. No! I was in the top ten in my grade nationwide."

"There is such a ranking among the top ten in the country???"

"Why is there no more?"

Fumihiko Ikari didn't intend to win the favor of Ritsuko Akagi. He just wanted an acquaintance. He didn't need her to know about the follow-up plans. Even if the relationship wasn't very good, it wouldn't have much impact. He just used her as a stepping stone to contact Ryosuke Kaji. Therefore, he had no concerns about joking and bickering with her. "Sorry, I'm rude. I didn't pay attention to this aspect when I was skipping grades in school."

After failing again, Naoko Akagi lowered her head in frustration and started doing the test questions.

After a while he raised his head again.

"Is she really okay?"

Fumihiko Ikari didn't know the answer either, but he certainly wouldn't add any psychological burden to Ritsuko Akagi, an irrelevant person.

"Yeah, it's all right."

After hesitating for a moment, Ritsuko Akagi couldn't help it.

"She looks only five or six years old?"

"Correct."

Akagi Ritsuko cautiously suggested: "Can't we change someone else...she's still so young..."

Ikari Fumihiko shook his head.

“This is not something I can influence.”

After hesitating for a moment, Ritsuko Akagi spoke again.

"Aren't you the project leader?"

"I am just a team leader in a temporary position now, and I don't have any real power here."

"Really? I see that normally other people are quite afraid of... respecting you. It doesn't seem like you don't have real power."

“Authority and power are two different things.”

Ritsuko Akagi did not mention her mother, and Fumihiko Ikari tacitly did not mention Naoko Akagi, because Fumihiko Ikari knew that Ritsuko Akagi chose to communicate these things with him instead of asking Naoko Akagi, because Ritsuko Akagi was afraid that communicating these things would make her mother unhappy and thus completely lose her mother's love. That's why she studied so hard, trying to gain her mother's care in this way.

however……

All this was in vain. No matter how hard Ritsuko Akagi tried or how well-behaved she was, she could not get a response from Naoko Akagi.

Just like Shinji Ikari in the original work.

Sadly, however...

This situation is very common in the EVA world, and it happens to almost every character.

Ikari Fumihiko thought for a moment and then spoke.

"I'll deal with this matter later. I've just submitted my opinion."

Hearing this, Ritsuko Akagi breathed a sigh of relief.

"I think I can pass it, right?"

Fumihiko Ikari knew that this opinion letter would be passed to appease people's hearts and stabilize himself who had shown his usefulness. However, it was not certain whether the research on artificial pilots would be terminated. Of course, it was impossible for Ritsuko Akagi to know this. A high school student should just study his major and there was no need to bear so much.

"Who do you think I am? I am a genius doctor!"

"How dare you say that? I feel embarrassed for you."

"If it's not to give you confidence, do I need to emphasize this little achievement that's not even worth mentioning?"

"No! I think you just want to feel superior to me."

"Would I do something so tasteless?"

"Don't doubt it, you are the one who would do such a thing."

This kind of bickering exchange was of little nutritional value, but it made Ikari Fumihiko feel a little more relaxed. At least he didn't have to think too much about whether saying this would leave any handle.

045. Name is the basis of emotional connection

Naoko Akagi arranged the follow-up work and walked into the office. She looked at the two people talking and laughing and didn't say anything. As a mother, she knew that she cared too little for her daughter. It was her husband who took care of her daughter before the second impact. Now that her husband was dead, she really didn't know how to get along with her daughter.

It’s not that the couple has a disagreement, but that she is not good at this kind of thing.

"Order is almost restored outside. I'll make some contact to see if there are any rebuilt high schools. There should be entrance exams by then so you can prepare for them."

"Ah."

Ritsuko Akagi is happy to be able to go to school.

She was not happy because of going to school, but because there would be performance assessments after going to school. Before the disaster, her mother would be happy every time she got good grades in school.

“High school is really a nostalgic year.”

"What year? High school is clearly..."

It was only halfway through the conversation that Ritsuko Akagi realized that Fumihiko Ikari was bragging about how he was able to get into college after only one year of high school.

Naoko Akagi did not expose Fumihiko Ikari's lies.

He came to the computer, sorted out his ideas about the Three Sages supercomputer and entered them all into the computer, then submitted it as an appendix to the proposal. A supercomputer like the Three Sages is not a project that can be completed by two or three people. Without the support of high-level resources, no matter how good the idea is, it cannot be realized.

As Naoko Akagi returned to the office, the two lost the desire to communicate.

One is preparing for the entrance exam, and the other is getting back to work.

Time passes quickly.

At nine o'clock in the evening, Naoko Akagi went out to answer a phone call. After looking at Fumihiko Ikari, she returned to her seat and deliberately made some noise.

Only then did Fumihiko Ikari realize that it was already nine o'clock in the evening and it was time to get off work.

The paper had been finished by dinner time. There was really nothing to do and he could not go home early, so he could only check the paper word by word at his post and kill time. Not only him, but everyone else in the project team did the same. All the work on hand had been completed and there was no follow-up work arranged, so they were just killing time at their posts.