After deciding to give up, he started to gain popularity

Naturally, Xiachuan Zou, who had suddenly fallen into a low mood, had not escaped her notice. Now it seemed that her previous efforts were not completely in vain, but Zou Jun's knot in his heart seemed to have not been completely untied...

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053. Face your inner self

The sage once said, examine yourself three times a day...Can you be friends with someone you don't trust?

Natsukawa Kanade never thought that one day he would need to reflect on this, nor did he ever feel that he was insincere towards his friends until today when he faced his heart for the first time - and made such a willful request to Shiina.

It was indeed not a sincere act, but it was not that the request was not sincere, but because he had such a rude thought. Maybe Shiina would not think there was anything wrong, but his proposal was undoubtedly satisfying his own selfish desires.

He was simply trying to deprive the other person of the freedom to dress... and even control the other person's behavior.

However, in fact, it was just a novel and fancy outfit. It was natural to attract the attention of passers-by, but it was actually no big deal. However, Natsukawa Kanade had such an idea - he didn't want others to see the angel's cute appearance.

Ultimately, it's because he's afraid that she'll have contact with other people, afraid that she'll have a lover and thus distance herself from him...or in other words, he's afraid that she'll make friends and take away his attention.

But as a friend, shouldn't he bless them with a smile?

But I can't do it.

When he thought about Shiina being snatched away by someone who came from nowhere and taking away his care, his heart ached.

Of course it would be best if they were lovers, but just being friends would be fine too. He wanted to keep this close relationship with Shiina forever...

Xiachuan Kanade thought a lot, but the thing he thought about the most was this - whether he liked Miss Angel or not.

That must be his first love, his white moonlight, the one for whom he was willing to change constantly and do things he originally didn't want to do.

But is that an emotion of liking someone? Xia Chuan Kan didn't understand, but all the signs showed that it should be called "liking"...

He wanted to be by her side, wanted to gain her attention, wanted to gain her approval, wanted to be with her forever...but why was he so relieved so quickly after being rejected?

Isn’t it said that if your first love fails, you will never be able to let it go?

If you want to say you like someone, shouldn't it be love from the beginning to the end?

Then why, when he knew that senior sister, Eriri and others existed in this world, he could fall in love with someone else so quickly?

Could it be that all his efforts for "love" were fake? Or did he not even realize the scumbag nature hidden deep in his heart...

Anyone can be accepted, as long as they are willing to accept him - originally it could only be those familiar girls, but later when he found that they were not recognized, he had to settle for the next best thing and felt that other "passers-by" didn't matter...

But that's not like at all, right?

If you want to like someone you meet the first time, you have to truly like the other person first.

But does he really like them?

The gentleness of the angel, the ardent love of the senior, the inconsistency of Eriri, the tenacity of Yukino, the seriousness of Kaguya...it seemed that he only liked certain characteristics in them.

Maybe she also has these qualities, but because he is more familiar with them and understands them better, he has the confidence to contact and approach them.

……

…………

………………

Yes, that’s not love, it’s just... pure liking and appreciation.

I look forward to their interaction with the original male protagonist, and look forward to myself putting myself in their shoes.

He flaunted his love for so long, but in the end he found that it was all empty. The so-called love never existed from the beginning. He just wanted to be a despicable imitator and steal other people's achievements. He couldn't even face his real self.

So even if his confession was rejected, he was still willing to get close to them, and he was willing to just be friends. The only thing he was afraid of was that they would all leave him, leaving him alone again...

So that's not like...

It's dependence.

……

"Shiina..." Natsukawa Kanade suddenly spoke and looked at Shiina Mahiru who was sitting next to him.

"Huh? What's wrong..."

"There are some things I would like you to listen to me carefully..."

"..." Miss Angel did not reply, but the serious expression on her face was undoubtedly responding to him.

"I fell in love with you when I first saw Shiina."

"..."

"I like Shiina's seriousness, gentleness and hard work. I like Shiina's strength..."

"..."

"I like everything about Shiina...but not Shiina Mahiru as a person." As if talking about something insignificant, Natsukawa Kanade turned his eyes to the game on TV, picked up the controller and kept operating it.

"I'm sorry... the Natsukawa Sora who confessed to you back then wasn't the one who really loved you."

"He just relied on Shiina Mahiru, coveted her tenderness, and wanted to tie her to his side in the name of 'lover' and make her his lifelong approver..."

"He is just a despicable thief who tried to steal the pure feelings of the angel. He is not a guy worthy of your trust. You were right to refuse him..."

The words "game over" appeared on the TV, and the game was over.

"I'm sorry..." Xiachuan Kanade lowered his head.

This is the umpteenth time I have apologized to Miss Angel.

Maybe this will be the last time...

How will Shiina react after hearing this?

Should I scold him harshly and then slam the door and leave? Or should I keep silent and expose the truth that he is a scumbag to the public...

But no matter what the result is, it is the punishment he deserves.

Natsukawa Kanade was now feeling extremely calm, and even recalled several times of conversations he had with Kato.

Kato is indeed a considerate girl, but even she probably couldn't imagine that he had already done something extremely willful.

Approaching others with impure intentions, creating all kinds of personalities just to gain recognition...isn't this a willful act?

Not only to Shiina and Kato, but also to others. He must have disappointed them, right? If they knew the real purpose behind all his actions...

No, maybe he overestimated himself, maybe they had already noticed it?

After all, he is not a master of imitation, so his so-called character setting must be full of flaws.

……

"I'm sorry, Shiina. I've been lying to you all along. You have reason to be angry..."

"I am indeed very angry!"

At some point, Miss Angel picked up a pillow and kept throwing it at Xiachuan Zou.

"Stupid Kanade, stupid... You're telling me all this now, you don't trust me at all, right?"

“……” Xiachuan Zou really wanted to explain that it was not like that. He only realized this recently.

After being rejected by everyone, even after being rejected by everyone, you can still gain everyone's trust and recognition.

But saying it this way would seem like a cover-up, so he silently endured the angel's "punishment".

"Idiot, play this idiot..."

Tired of hitting, Miss Angel simply threw the pillow aside, used a rocket headbutt on Natsukawa Kanade, and kept punching him.

But rather than beating or scolding him, it would be more appropriate to say that he was "flirting".

The fist that was swung at me was weak and powerless, and I could catch it with a light grip. The pleasant fragrance of hair kept coming from below, and the chest was not as cold as I imagined...

"Shiina..."

"Zou... have you ever liked me?" The voice was muffled and unclear.

"..." Xia Chuan Zuo remained silent for a while before shaking his head, "I'm not sure either..."

After digging deep into his heart, all his previous determination vanished, and he could no longer say such things without hesitation.

"Bad guy... I'm glad I rejected you back then."

"What?" Xia Chuan Zou asked.

This time I really didn't hear it clearly.

"Idiot, I'm going back." The angel glared at him fiercely and turned away.

“……” Xiachuan Zou could only watch her leave without stopping her.

I am still hated, he thought.

But the next moment, I received a letter from the angel-be prepared! Stupid Kanade!

"..."

054. Now is Kaguya (my) time!

Time passes and the dark night turns to light.

The next day, in the Student Union Room of Shuchiin.

As usual, Natsukawa Kanade sat in the main seat and handled official business.

The election will be held next week, so there will be a lot of things to do this week. In addition, he also has to consider writing down the precautions for the handover, etc. Although he is adept at the actual work, it is still quite troublesome for him to recall the things that need attention and write them down.

Therefore, the best way is to stop thinking about those things and just think about how to beat those competitors.

"Shinomiya, could you please let me see the information of this year's candidates?" Xiachuan Zou looked up and asked.

Only by knowing yourself and your enemy can you win every battle. Just because he didn't care about it before doesn't mean he really doesn't care at all. It is necessary to take this last-minute measure.

"Yes." Kaguya Shinomiya responded with a slight smile on her lips.

She finally got the chance!

For some reason, the president had been in a bad mood last week and she had no chance to meet with him alone. When she asked Hayasaka about it, she refused to tell her what had happened. She really cared about what the two of them had talked about in the bookstore on Monday!

What happened to your promise to fully support her relationship? Xiao Ai is such a liar!

Well, it doesn't matter. As long as today's plan goes smoothly, we can take down the president in one fell swoop! By then, let alone what happened last Monday, she can even ask why the president resigned the Monday before last!

This battle must be won!

"President, this is for you." Picking up the list of candidates that had been prepared long ago, Kaguya Shinomiya slowly walked over and handed it to Natsukawa Kanade.

Then he pretended to make a small mistake accidentally and dropped an eraser with someone's name on it on the main table.

perfect!

Her movements were so smooth, as if she had rehearsed them 100 times at home! She is indeed Kaguya Shinomiya!

The next step is to wait for the president to find the eraser, and then when he picks it up and looks at it, she will act shy again...

So Shinomiya Kaguya picked up a financial statement and pretended to review it, but in fact all the attention was focused on Natsukawa Kanade.

Watching him writing and drawing on the paper, and then taking out the next one...

Another one...

The flowers were about to wither, but the president still didn't pick up her eraser to take a look!

So Kaguya Shinomiya couldn't help but become anxious, thinking that if this continued she would have to take the initiative to bring it up.

The next second, Xiachuan Zou stopped what he was doing and looked at the table, as if he was looking for something.

Shinomiya Kaguya immediately held her breath and started to get nervous.

Closer, closer! The president's hand is getting closer and closer to the eraser... and he has it!