Something's wrong, they're not NPCs?

If she had such strong feelings, why could she be so calm when facing me even though she had taken the lead and knew everything?

I have never expressed any hostility towards myself.

Even if we meet in the company, we will say "Mr. An, good morning" with a very calm smile.

In contrast.

I, on the other hand, feel guilty, jealous... and have an inexplicable sense of superiority. I feel that if time goes on longer, I will be the winner.

With this mentality, I was able to calm down only when I heard my colleagues talking about Mr. Su Ming and Xia Ye holding hands and exposing their relationship yesterday.

I can bear receiving the message from Mr. Su Ming saying "You will be the same". I don't think too much.

I sorted out a key idea from my messy thoughts.

"Xia Ye...know you're here?"

"do not know."

"What if you knew?"

“…I won’t say anything.”

The feeling of losing is getting stronger and stronger.

What am I most afraid of?

To be honest, I can tolerate Mr. Su Ming's cheating like he did in the shelter. It was only physical cheating, which I can tolerate.

But it’s different when your heart is unfaithful.

What I’m afraid of is that there’s a third person who’s just like me.

I lost.

In the contest of tolerance without knowing it, although Mr. Su Ming didn't know the despicable thoughts in my heart, I did lose.

A different experience than mine.

I kind of, I hate hearing that. I'm supposed to be special.

No one can compare to me.

"……if."

"I said, I disagree. Must Mr. Su Ming choose one?"

"It's simple. I'll do it until you agree."

"..."

That's too much.

"You answered Xia Ye in the same way..."

"She didn't ask. She didn't say anything until I said I wanted everything."

"..."

Really, that’s too much.

Why could she just hold back and not say anything?

My body trembled uncontrollably.

"What if...she asked?"

"I will do whatever it takes to make her soften her heart and agree."

"Aren't you like me, doing it until she agrees?"

"Different."

"I don't have a choice?"

"No."

"You really...are going too far."

Tears inexplicably blurred my vision.

Didn't I come first?

Even if we are in a relationship, I will be the one to agree...

"Do you remember? I called a few days ago... and hung up again."

"remember."

"I hung up... because I was right at the door. I heard it."

"..."

"That's too much. I'm right at the door... How much courage do I need to be able to open up to you and even be looked down upon and treated like a bitch?"

"..."

"I always thought that no matter what, I was special... In the end, there would only be me. Not only was I lying to you, but I was also lying to myself. I always just thought that in the end, there would only be me. So I could endure anything."

Ungraceful sobbing.

But I am not a tolerant woman. I never thought that Xia Ye would exist until Mr. Su Ming and I actually had our wedding.

"I will not... agree to share!"

"There is still one wish left, the third wish..."

"No, the final right of interpretation of the wish lies with me."

"..."

The buttons of the carefully prepared cheongsam were unbuttoned.

Had I kissed Xia Ye many times like this the day before yesterday when I didn’t show up?

"I...hate this."

"Then why are you holding me so tight?"

"..."

I remained silent.

miss you.

Mr. Su Ming knows very well how to control me, not only my body but also my mind.

I have never had the right to choose in front of Mr. Su Ming.

But this is all based on the fact that your heart will always be with me.

"Just think of it as... a trick on me."

"Tell me, I am your favorite."

"..."

"Hiss! Why are you biting me after I told you so?"

What should I do in the future?

I had always rejected the idea of ​​a life without control before I was 18. After I turned 18, I was in a daze and couldn't find myself anymore.

If I were the me in the past and fell in love with Mr. Su Ming, I would definitely push Mr. Su Ming away. It's either me or him.

"Ouch... that's too much."

"They have all been chosen for me. It's like I'm here to let you know."

"I am, so... unimportant?"

"Of course you are important, but I want to sort things out before I tell you."

"That's right! I'm just jealous, petty, and intolerant... I can't compare to her! But, why didn't you say it earlier... How did you know that it was me who couldn't do it?"

"..."

"I was here first, wasn't I?"

"..."

"My third wish... Never leave me again, and don't miss her when you are with me. Today, I will live here."

"The wish is a bit long? Little Pearl, if you can take it in, I can consider it."

"I'm just jealous! Don't you just like to bully me and see me cry?! It happens many times."

It is no longer possible for me to be the proud person I once was.

At least in front of Mr. Su Ming, I have no choice. Do I have to turn my face and scold Mr. Su Ming, and then regret it?

I don't want to continue visiting the graves on Qingming Festival and April 4th.

"I've waited for you for six years... Why do you think I can't stand it?"

"Ugh."

"I'm already...very strong. I've grown a lot."

"..."

why?

After hearing these strange words from me, Mr. Su Ming seemed even more excited.

"Ahem, does this count as a confession?"

In Mr. Su Ming's eyes, am I like a masochist?

"If I agree... I'll do as you say."

I can't help but agree.

I can't accept losing again after losing and regaining.

So, I will hold you tight.

I don't know how to choose, but Mr. Su Ming has already helped me choose.

"No, I'm not unwilling..."

"Because you are by my side, and I am by your side. As long as it is like this..."

"I can too."

If she considers Mr. Su Ming so wholeheartedly, I can do it too.

It's just that I can't reach that point now. One day in the future, I will hold her hand with dignity. Tell Mr. Su Ming that although I am jealous and envious, I will not make a choice that will make him sad and tormented. Mr. Su Ming can't do anything about this. It's all a dream.

I am me and she is her.

1 month 25 day.

early.

Su Ming felt relaxed, and so did his body.

After all, An Shiyao was too easy to satisfy. Even if she didn't use her ultimate treasure, she would be extremely distracted. Many times, she would collapse before it really started.

Now that's all said.

As expected, An Shiyao accepted it.

The bed is huge.

"Wow--"

I heard the sound of boiling oil and frying something outside.

You can see it as soon as you go out.

An Shiyao was wearing an apron and frying eggs.

"Is Mr. Su Ming awake yet? You can sleep a little longer."

It was still early indeed. Just seven o'clock.