Something's wrong, they're not NPCs?

I was faced with things that were beyond my expectations and embarrassing situations.

How do you say that?

It doesn’t matter if you deceive yourself, but no one can continue to deceive others in the face of results.

I definitely felt it. I was still not good enough.

If it were Mr. Su Ming, what would he do?

Also splashed.

He may not hesitate at all, take out a tissue to wipe his face, get in the car, and wait until he is clean, then find a suitable way to solve the problem instead of standing still.

At that time, no matter what you said or what expression you made, it was futile.

'I'm fine.'

Who would think I'm okay?

smile.

That inappropriate smile only makes me look more shaken.

Which is easier, hard work or happiness?

The latter.

Because I know Mr. Su Ming cares about me, and I am afraid that he will use practical actions to tell me that he is by my side.

I also like to hear sweet words occasionally.

He would also say it, although it was always at a strange time. But it didn't stop me from being happy.

And the price I had to pay was just to stay at home.

When clothes are dirty, I wash them.

If the carpet is dirty, I will brush it.

I'm not too interested in food for now, but I can order takeout.

'Don't stuff your socks into your shoes.'

'Put it in order.'

'...'

There are countless housework tasks to do if I want.

Renting a house is also a house.

It can also be used as a home for Mr. Su Ming and me.

So, I can clean the bird droppings on the windowsill. Even though no one cares about the exterior windows, I can clean them.

White porcelain is not resistant to dirt. If you don't clean it one day, there will be some dirt on it the next day. It is very troublesome to clean.

There are always all kinds of hair in the floor drain. Not just hair...

Put on rubber gloves and work around.

When I am tired, I can sit on the sofa and take a rest, watch TV, or tune into a yoga program and follow it.

I don’t know why Mr. Su Ming insists on exercising every day even though he is so tired.

If you say that you just want to flirt with me, or make me tremble with you, or something like that...

will not.

You don't even need to tell me about that. Just run into me and tell me you want that... I can't refuse.

Leave all the troubles to Mr. Su Ming.

I woke up in the middle of the night and found him secretly working on his computer. All I could do was sit beside him quietly or take out a blanket and put it on his shoulders.

'Are you still sad?'

Mr. Su Ming asked this question on the third day after the incident.

I don’t know whether I am still feeling uncomfortable or not.

'With one snap, the pain will be gone completely.'

Before I could answer, he answered it for me.

Mr. Su Ming is still willing to hug me.

And willing to kiss me.

Why do I still feel anxious even though I know in my head that Mr. Su Ming would never dislike me?

On a deeper level.

I wonder, can I really do this?

Can I become the ideal woman who is excellent in every aspect and whom Mr. Su Ming cannot let go of?

Can I make my family's business better?

Or can I give it to my sister?

I am not an only child, I have a younger sister. Should I just choose to be a simple wife?

Don't try to be brave.

I know... I have inexplicable depression and anxiety.

Hiding the medicine bottle at that time didn’t mean I was okay.

It doesn't mean that Mr. Su Ming will never find out.

"I told you to tie your tie like this..."

"Is that enough? Wearing this thing always makes me look like I'm pretending."

"Can't you just pretend for your wife?"

'If you say so, I surrender.'

I am no longer Mr. Su Ming's boss.

Just a wife.

I practiced in the living room how to teach mine and Mr. Su Ming's child to walk.

'Xiao Xiao Ming, please slow down.'

"Stairs... Come on, great, I got up in no time."

'...'

Maybe I'm of two minds.

To the left, it means wanting very much to become a woman with full self-worth.

To the right, I feel that even if you grow up in a privileged environment, you don’t necessarily have to become an outstanding woman.

The former is very strong when dealing with Xia Ye. I must do this and that... I think like this.

Now, I am gradually leaning towards the latter. Maybe I have lost my confidence.

"Hubby, after the little bitch comes the big bitch, then what comes after the big bitch?"

'Abstract question.'

"I want to know..."

Actually, what I want to say is that sooner or later, people will get tired of little sluts, and the same goes for big sluts. Will they be thrown away in the end?

'Why do you always think so far ahead?'

'Do I look like someone who is easily disillusioned with his old love and then discards it?'

I obviously didn't say it out loud, but after being together for so long, Mr. Su Ming would have guessed it easily, right?

"If you want, come back in."

'...'

However, after cooling down, I still can't help thinking about it.

Can I do this?

Staying in the supermarket-like home, I am still protected as I was then. But at that time, Mr. Su Ming was really going to do something very dangerous, but now he is just protecting me.

If I really want to continue like this, there are many things I need to consider.

How will the family view it?

What would my father think?

Will my sister accept a responsibility she doesn’t want to take? I remember she said she wanted to learn photography, drama… many, many dreams. But she didn’t want to become an entrepreneur.

Mr. Su Ming knows a lot about me.

But he certainly doesn't know that I'm actually a very despicable woman.

I have thought about it.

I wonder if Xia Ye is better than me, so I have the motivation to pursue my career and surpass her.

Now I think again, she is so outstanding but because she is too outstanding she cannot get Mr. Su Ming's company. After I stopped being stubborn, I can live happily every day.

I get sick, which isn't necessarily a bad thing.

I really think so despicable.

My brain no longer thinks about anything complicated. Maybe it was Mr. Su Ming who made me like this, or maybe... I am not an upright woman. I am not a woman born with much talent.

I have some cleverness, but it is far from enough to take on the main responsibility.

Mr. Su Ming once said that as long as I am still sick, he will always be by my side...even if this disease can never be cured.

Because he said that, I can continue to think in such despicable ways, right?

I can live easily.

I can stop being anxious.

That's all false.

Mr. Su Ming will never be by my side every minute of every day. One day...

4 month 5 day.

Night.

I know.

Mr. Su Ming also loves Xia Ye and will not give up.

I need to accept.

She had already accepted it, but I was still a little shy.

video call……

It's far worse than what she did, letting me see that scene with my own eyes.

I gave up most of my thoughts and just wanted to make Mr. Su Ming happy for the time being.

"When I talk to her on the phone, I either don't talk to her at all or we always use video calls."

"Hang up! I'm really getting mad! I'm going to bite someone!"

For me.

It's embarrassing to say it's okay to call at a time like this.

video?

Can I do it? Can I not waver?

"Yao."

"..."

I closed my eyes and dared not look. I waited for a long time but did not hear the expected joking tone from Xia Ye.