Something's wrong, they're not NPCs?

But I was distracted.

This is a very low-level error.

"boom!"

A step slower. Although he managed to escape successfully, the elder brother's arm was grazed by a bullet.

An injury of that magnitude could easily be dealt with by me.

But why?

When reporting the situation, I would stare at my elder brother’s serious face and think about various issues.

"fine."

"Didn't you immediately make arrangements to evacuate me?"

"..."

wrong.

Even though my treatment methods have reached a good level.

But it still hurts.

There is a risk of death.

The eldest brother is not only interested in making promises, but is also interested in many things. But I seem to have always just wanted to stay with him longer, and I have made many appointments. Too many for ordinary people to understand.

4 month 8 day.

The elder brother is recuperating and resting.

I take good care of you.

I held back and didn't make the promise.

4 month 10 day.

My abnormality was discovered.

"In fact, I can tell that something might be wrong with you."

"Hmm... It's probably because you like me more than normal now."

what does that mean?

More than normal liking?

I asked again if I still had any doubts about the issue of 'fertility'.

I deny it.

I do care about this, but I don't have to endure the idea of ​​letting other female humans make a pact with my big brother to have offspring.

He was hurt because of me, but he still wanted to satisfy my thoughts.

I feel sad. This is not what a wife should do.

4 month 11 day.

I suggested going to an orphanage alone to see if there were any good cubs.

But the real purpose is to stay away.

Once someone touches my head or pinches my face, I can't help but get close to them.

I understand what my elder brother means. My love is too much, too much, and abnormal.

4 month 13 day.

"Ah? You want to abstain from sex?"

"Well... Xiaoye wants to be restrained by big brother."

I want to change.

I couldn’t keep thinking that I could do whatever I wanted just because my older brother said it was okay.

"Okay, but if you feel bad just say so right away."

With my insistence, the older brother agreed.

4 month 14 day.

So sad.

I couldn't sit on my big brother's lap all day. I couldn't make any promises.

4 month 16 day.

"What would you be interested in?"

"In fact, maybe if I devote myself to something again, I won't feel so bad. The promise... This is also my responsibility. But it's not too late to find my own fun again."

"..."

What would I be interested in?

If I think about it carefully, everything I do, making money, learning medicine, language, cooking, aesthetics... are all closely related to my older brother.

That's the only thing that keeps me interested.

What I am looking for now has nothing to do with my elder brother, it is simply because I am interested in it.

found.

But there is no such extra interest.

"Yes, learn more languages. I can't learn those minor languages. I can only rely on you to be the translator."

Can I hold it back?

4 month 19 day.

Can't help it.

When I came to my senses, the agreement had been fulfilled.

"Forget it. There's no need to endure it."

I do not want.

This is a bad thing and must be corrected.

4 month 26 day.

I found a way.

I used to view it as a meaningless human entertainment activity.

But I found that it actually helped ease the consciousness.

self-comfort.

I could even imagine that my older brother and I were making an effective agreement to have cubs.

4 month 29 day.

Was discovered.

My older brother was very surprised. And for some reason, I found it very difficult to face him.

This is not abstinence at all.

It is what humans often call a crooked path.

"Come on. This will not only torture you, but also torture me."

"My lovely wife is doing this next door, and I have to endure it."

"Do you want to torture me?"

"..."

Of course I don't, I just...

Well.

It's much better than self-consolation. No need to imagine, it's real.

"I think you've completely forgotten that it was me who first proposed making an agreement with you."

"I am the one who really should abstain from sex but I have absolutely no intention of abstaining from sex."

"..."

"It seems that apart from those abstract vows in the church, I have never seriously confessed my feelings to you."

"cough."

"..."

It was a very natural smile. He held me in his arms and whispered in my ear the words humans use to court a mate.

I had already completed this ritual with my elder brother.

But I still, inexplicably and uncontrollably, want to be hugged tighter.

"Come on. How could I not feed you?"

4 month 30 day.

The eldest brother slept until night time.

I didn't move from the bedside and just watched quietly.

I understand.

My way of thinking is still wrong. But big brother can help me correct it.

Promises do not have to be long or frequent to achieve ultimate satisfaction. Just like yesterday, when I heard that sentence, I felt that it was enough, and my chest felt light as if feathers were floating. A feeling that is more satisfying than satisfaction.

"Xiaoye, you still need to listen."

"what?"

"I like it, Xiaoye's words."

"..."

But why didn't I say anything? Why did I feel satisfied just by seeing my older brother avoid looking at me?

"Xiaoye wants to listen. I like Xiaoye's feet and drums..."

"I'm holding back."

Of course I know that only the first "confession" is serious, and the latter part is just to tease me.

But I would also feel satisfied if I teased my older brother with these words and observed his reaction.

it's wired.

5 month 3 day.

Occasionally, I would go to the welfare home with my older brother to see if there were any outstanding cubs.

My standards are different from my older brother’s.

He wants to find someone with blonde hair and blue eyes or someone with outstanding eye color, but I want someone who is excellent in all aspects such as physical fitness, not likely to die young and worth cultivating.

But in essence, if the big brother I find doesn't have a "good eye" for me, I won't take him. But if the big brother finds someone who has a "good eye" first and doesn't meet my requirements, I will take him too.

Is this also a kind of love?

5 month 5 day.

"Are you really ready to be a mother?"

"Ok!"

"A bit..."

"?"

whee.

Moreover, I know something different from what is said online.