Unrequited Love

After three consecutive days of missing classes, she finally woke up in one day, white and glaring outside the window, just like a lifetime.

The phone on the bed vibrated suddenly, and it was my mother calling.

"Lolo, how are these two days? I watched TV and said it was snowing in Beijing. Is it cold?"

"not cold."

In fact, Luo Zhi didn't know whether it was cold outside, because she had not gone out. Zhang Mingrui sent a text message to ask her why she didn't go to the law instruction class. She joked that she was dying of illness, and he actually said that he would come to see her in the dormitory building, but she finally gave up with all sorts of evasions. In the evening, he called and said that he had gone to Jiahe Yipin to buy porridge and wanted to bring it up. Luo Zhi was taken aback and could only turn to Belle for help. As a result, Jiang Belle, who went downstairs to meet her, laughed gossip and asked her to confess when she got the chance.

This is how I came here these days.

"What's wrong with your throat? It's so dumb, you have a cold?"

"It's kind of. It's okay, it's not serious, it's not a fever, just a cough. Don't worry, I'm taking medicine."

"It's weird if you can take medicine well. No wonder, I dreamt last night that you dyed your hair and caused allergies, and your mouth was swollen like Zhou Xingchi in "Kung Fu", so I couldn't speak. The more I thought about it. Something's wrong, I called to ask you if you were okay, and I was really sick."

"Mother and daughter connect hearts," Luo Zhi grinned, his voice as ugly as a duck screaming, "You always miss me too much, and then have weird dreams. Don't be superstitious, you can't believe this thing. But I would rather prefer The mouth is swollen, so I don't have to talk."

"what happened?"

"No. It's just a sore throat."

"Is it very tired to teach those two kids?"

"Not tired, just to coax the children. It's very simple. The two children are quite sensible."

She asked Zhu Yan for leave, and the other party directly sent a driver to send her donkey-hide glue and the bird's nest in a thermos.

"How could it not be tired, you fooled me!"

Luo Zhi suddenly wanted to cough, shut up and suppressed it, giving up arguing.

"One of our colleagues here is the Aunt Fu you met during the holidays. She is going to Beijing to send her son off-she asked someone to find a job for the child in the hotel. I just asked her to give you some food, and A down vest, you can wear it in the dormitory. I wanted you to pick her up at the train station and send them to the subway, just to take the things back. You are so ill, I don’t think so."

"It's okay, you tell me the time of the train. Just send me a text message to save me from forgetting. Is it okay to go to work?"

Her mother used to stand at the counter all day long. Last year, she was diagnosed with minor varicose veins. After being introduced, she went to the plastic mold factory canteen to cook for the employees. When Luo Zhi listened to her mother telling her about the personnel disputes, right and wrong in the cafeteria, he would also express a few opinions, sometimes persuading, sometimes amused.

Speaking of the work unit, my mother opened her conversation box and hung up after talking for a long time.

Luo Zhi still remembers that when she was five years old, her mother went to petitions everywhere with her on her back. After being threatened, she was still stiff and reassuring. She embraced the child in one hand and held a kitchen knife in the other, calmly facing a light game. The director said, I carry it to work every day, and I can carry it all the time until you kill me.

Time flies. She grew up, and her mother was old, and started to talk to her about trivial things on the phone. She knows that her mother is too lonely. A woman in her forties has no good friends who can talk about herself without taboos or disobedience, and she has no husband.

No matter how many troubles Luo Zhi faces, after all, there is still a future to be pinned on. Most of her loneliness comes from narcissism and pride, and of course there is also hypocrisy. She can change her mentality and easily get rid of loneliness, and she can also expect someone to help her out one day in the future-but her mother's loneliness is real, when her life is nearing the end and finality, she returns to home and faces a simple emptiness. When the wall of the house, the endless desolation entangled in his breath.

Every week on the phone, from her daily life report, her mother gradually talked about her life like a primary school student, and she responded on the other side: um, um, yes, what is going on, how is this person like this, Don’t share his general knowledge...

Luo Zhi squeezed the phone, his smile gradually changed from sweet to bitter.

She raised her head and held back the tears. Recently, the index of her tears is close to Jiang Baili.

Suddenly the phone vibrated again.

"Lolo, after thinking about it, I still feel that something is wrong. That dream is always circling in front of my eyes. Are you really okay? Don't hold it in your heart, just say it."

Luo Zhi's suffocated tears finally hit the lap of his clothes.

"Mom, it's really okay."

Mom, it turns out that there really is a mother-daughter connecting heart in the world.

"How are you preparing for IELTS?

"no problem."

"Oh...It's really okay, then I'll hang up."

"Mom, it's your fault," Luo Zhi said easily, and laughed out loud.

"I dreamed of your dad."

She heard the sound of the wind blowing outside the window, and although the few dry leaves remaining on the branches were shaking violently, they still did not fall. What is the use of lingering to this day?

"Mom," Luo Zhi heard his voice trembling, "Have you ever regretted marrying your father?"

"No." The voice on the other side of the phone calmed down a lot when hearing this question.

"but……"

"In the first few years, the family of three was so happy, although later your dad was gone, we survived hard times until today... Of course, life now can’t compare with others, but I will remember the good days at the beginning. Clearly, no matter how much I hate those people, these are two different things. And, without these, there would be no you. Maybe, your father and I are here to welcome you in this life."

Luo Zhi was holding the phone, tears like broken beads, she covered the receiver, not daring to speak.

"Lolo, to be honest, you can support yourself at such a young age. I feel distressed and proud. Your parents are not capable people, and their lives are not good, but God gave you to me, I have no reason to complain. .But, there are some things that have not been told to you. I don’t want you to bear my life, and you don’t feel that you owe me anything. Your life is your life, and I know you can’t miss me, but don’t mind Too tired. I sometimes blame myself very much. I patronize you to educate you to be sensible and eager, but it turns you too sensible and cautious. Mom remembers you not only for fear of accidents, but also for your illness. I always wonder if Lolo is unhappy, stressed, or worried? But I know, you won’t tell me a word."

She squeezed her phone tightly and buried her head deeply in the pillow.

Finally struggling to get up and sit on a chair, she wrapped her greasy hair with her hands and stared out the window blankly. It's already mid-December, and the land is white. In four days, she will go to Beiyu to take the IELTS test. Accidentally, a few tears appeared on the Cambridge test paper in his hand, and it wrinkled and bulged out after drying. Luo Zhi stared at the tears, smiled inexplicably, then curled his lips again.

She was sick because she took a breath in her chest and couldn't spit it out.

Sorry.

She said to the mirror on the wall. A short period of three months flashed in my mind.

Sorry.

I used your treasured memories to disguise, perform, discover treasure, and please others.

When Belle entered the door, she happened to see Luo Zhi leaning over to do the question blankly.

"It's snowing outside," Belle said.

Luo Zhi did not reply.

Belle was a little embarrassed and said: "Is it possible to take IELTS in a few days?"

Luo Zhi still did not speak.

Belle took a closer look at Luo Zhi and found a headphone cord hidden in her long hair. She walked over and pulled it off and pulled it off: "Miss, go downstairs and have a look, it's snowing!"

Luo Zhi raised his head, a big smile appeared on his pale face.

Jiang Baili took a half step back in astonishment, isn't she crazy?

Under the nose, Luo Zhi's calculation paper spread on the table is densely packed in Chinese.

"Aren't you listening to hearing?"

"Listen to songs and practice calligraphy." Luo Zhi spread his arms around Belle's waist, "Jiang Belle, I really like you."

It was crazy. Belle slapped Luo Zhi on the forehead.