Unrequited Love

Luo Zhi didn't help much during the whole wedding. She got up early, and rushed to her uncle's house with her mother, and then set off with the motorcade as a family member of the man, crossing half of the city to Chen Jing's house.

The activities of stuffing red envelopes, smashing doors, and begging bridesmaids to let go were naturally assisted by a group of good high school buddies in Luoyang. She stood half a floor downstairs and looked up at the bustling groomsmen group at the door, and was gradually celebrated. The atmosphere is infected.

Chen Jing's house was not big, and suddenly such a group of people rushed in, and soon there was no place to stand. Luo Zhi wandered in the corridor to listen. Luoyang and his best man were already standing outside Chen Jing’s room begging the bride to open the door. The bridesmaid accompanying inside threw out a question asking Luoyang to say twenty four-character idioms to praise the bride and hand it in. You can enter the door only after you get your salary card.

Luo Zhi smiled and listened to the distant old brother racking his brains amidst the roaring sound to say more and more weird combinations of idioms.

After another, I don’t know how long, after completing a series of camera shooting and tea offerings, finally Chen Jing was hugged by Luoyang as a princess and went out. Under the direction of the camera, she stopped for a while on the next flight of stairs and took close-ups. Go very slowly.

According to tradition, the bride must wear red high heels, and her feet cannot fall on the ground until she gets into the wedding car and drives downstairs at her husband's house.

People were walking behind the bride's brother. At this time, Luo Zhi could finally see Luoyang who was at the back of the crowd, standing on the high steps, wearing a black suit with an ugly red corsage on his chest.

Seeing Luo Zhi's eyes fall on his chest, Luoyang put on a miserable look.

"Don't toss about it when you get married in the future, it's just desperate."

"Old people like to be lively, a little more traditional, the more cumbersome the better."

"Come on," Luoyang smiled, took the mineral water bottle in his hand and knocked her on the head, "It's just that the two families want face."

She thought of Zhu Yan again. The fairy tale is over and life has just begun.

The only wedding in the fairy tale is "I do" on the altar. In life, I have to book hotels, negotiate banquet menus, repeatedly confirm the number of attendees with guests, and consider who should be at the table; the emcee’s words are too annoying, and too few words are deserted; the team is too pompous and wastes money , It’s too simple. The bride and groom have no face; the mercy of the camera is boring, and there is no good memorial if you don’t listen to the mercy of the camera...

Luo Zhi patted Luoyang on the back sympathetically.

Since Luoyang did not set up a new house in his hometown, the motorcade drove back to the groom's house. Similar steps were repeated in Luoyang's house. Luo Zhi got out of the chaotic crowd and suddenly received a call from an unfamiliar number.

"I am Ding Shuijing."

In the custom of their hometown, the formal ceremony must end before 12 noon, so they arrived at the hotel less than ten. The guests were sparsely seated, Luo Zhi stood up and said to his mother: "I'm going to take a breath."

McDonald's is diagonally across from the hotel. The facade is small, with only a low-key M mark. Luo Zhi walked in and saw Ding Shuijing wearing a large dark blue hooded T-shirt, sitting on the seat by the window with her cheeks, dyed colorful nails, and staring at the children who grabbed the slide in the children’s play area. There was a shallow dimple on the corner of his mouth.

"Hair has grown so long."

Luo Zhi didn't know why he even said such an opening statement, but he didn't realize he laughed. He sat opposite Ding Shuijing and put the bag on the window sill.

Ding Shuijing smiled brightly: "Are you scared? You thought I was going to ruin their wedding?"

She immediately pushed the glass of orange juice in front of her to Luo Zhi: "I'll give you some."

"Thank you... how about the art exam?" Luo Zhi took a sip of orange juice and didn't rush to pick up her opening remarks.

Ding Shuijing was taken aback for a moment, but did not follow the wedding. "It's okay, but it's darker than I thought. It's not that you have to spend money to find relationships, but you can't stand the people who work hard. too much."

Luo Zhi smiled knowingly.

"It may also be that I often do graffiti, I am used to painting, and I can't draw the rules. Anyway, the school in Beijing is out of play, I am afraid I will go to Shanghai or Dalian. There is a school in each of these two places that entered the majors. In the top ten, as long as you don’t shake your hands during the college entrance examination, cultural classes are probably fine."

Ding Shuijing's tone was very free and easy, and her attitude towards Luo Zhi was very peaceful, which was very different from when she met at school last winter. To know the end of the last meeting, Ding Shuijing cursed fiercely: "Does your family have this problem?"

Luo Zhi did not know whether this change was related to Luoyang's marriage.

"Congratulations to you in advance, cheer." She concealed her doubts and smiled and encouraged.

Ding Shuijing no longer satirized Luo Zhi's hypocrisy, and accepted with a smile: "Okay! I will."

Luo Zhi's phone buzzed and vibrated on the table, and the screen displayed "Mother". She picked it up, lied to be uncomfortable, and turned around outside.

"I will go back at the beginning of the ceremony."

"It's about to start!"

"Good, good, I get it!"

She simply shut down.

"Don't directly set her mobile phone number as "Mom" in your contacts," Ding Shuijing reminded, "Otherwise, if your mobile phone is lost, others will follow this clue to cheat."

Luo Zhi thoughtfully: "Indeed, I should change the names of relatives that can be seen at a glance to their real names."

"Boyfriend also needs to change his real name, don't just call him "husband"."

Luo Zhi almost choked: "How can it be so numb."

Ding Shuijing's fingers tapped on the table: "Are you with Sheng Huainan?"

Luo Zhi nodded.

"In winter, I ask if you have anyone you like, and you are still stiff."

"Yes, I didn't know that the handle was in your hands at that time. I didn't have the obligation to tell the truth. Speaking of which, my diary, should you return me?"

"How do you know it's in my hands?"

"Otherwise that matter," Luo Zhi felt that the story was so clumsy that she didn't want to repeat it, so she had to replace it with "that matter", "How did you plan it? You told Sheng Huainan that I had a crush on him for many years."

Ding Shuijing raised her eyebrows: "It looks like you don't seem to be very angry. I don't think I can understand people like you in this life." She continued her efforts, leaning forward, and seriously emphasized, "We framed you. ."

Weird, do you have to force me to beat you? Luo Zhi shook his head dumbfoundedly: "Since the result is good, I don't want to care about the process. What can I do if I care about it?"

"Your words are really hurtful. It's too unfulfilled." Ding Shuijing's voice was flat for a long while, but she laughed with Luo Zhi.

"Actually, the whole thing was because in October last year, I was very depressed after I dropped out of school and I met Ye Zhanyan on the Internet. She talked about it, and I said yes. Then, they complained to each other. She told me about it. The legendary Zheng Wenrui came to stimulate her and said that Sheng Huainan and you were about to get together."

Ding Shuijing paused and looked at Luo Zhi: "Doesn't Zheng Wenrui like Sheng Huainan? What is she doing? Is she psychopathic?"

Luo Zhi smiled bitterly: "In fact, I think that each of us has different degrees of psychopathy."

Ding Shuijing didn’t get to the bottom, and continued: “Ye Zhanyan cried in a mess that day. She told me that she had broken up with Sheng Huainan. It was broken up by Sheng Huainan’s mother, but because of the incident in Sheng Huainan’s family, she was alone. I have taken it all, but my heart is really bitter."

Luo Zhi smiled, and didn't correct Ding Shuijing. The breakup itself had nothing to do with this matter, but if you get back together, you can take advantage of this difficulty.

"At that time I didn't know why I hated you so much. Maybe because you didn't make friends with me and didn't give me face, maybe because I knew you and Luoyang's girlfriend, oh, wife," she stopped for a few seconds and laughed Laughed and continued, "The feelings are very good. Anyway, I can’t tell. I happened to take your diary out of my horrible voyeuristic desires. I always feel like I’m actually looking down on your secrets, but you dare to be there. I can't stand it in front of me."

"Are you a horrible spy? Don't say that to yourself."

"I didn't say this, it was Luoyang." Ding Shuijing was commented by Luoyang, but she was not angry. There was a bit of satisfaction and pride in her smile when she talked about a confidant.

Luo Zhi was taken aback. Will Luoyang say the same thing?

Ding Shuijing waved her hand: "Anyway, I told Ye Zhanyan that you liked Sheng Huainan in high school, and Ye Zhanyan was furious. I wanted to remind her that although the handsome guy is her boyfriend in high school, the law does not stipulate that others cannot like him. Especially others have done nothing. You can't control what others think, right?"

Luo Zhi didn't know if Ding Shuijing was talking about her or herself.

"But I think she scolded you and made me feel really comfortable, so I fanned the flames and asked her to take the handsome guy back. After she heard that, she turned around and left. I guess she should go to contact Sheng afterwards. Huainan, right?"

"It should be," Luo Zhi realized, nodding, "I saw her contact him."

The text messages from the amusement park, let go of your hands, retreated with the sadness at that time.

"But I guess she didn't succeed. I know something about Sheng Huainan. After all, I had a good relationship with Ye Zhanyan in high school. This boy became a master of Tai Chi. Ye Zhanyan was about to explode, but he was helpless, so Tell me on QQ, there was one thing she didn't tell me at that time because it involved you, and she thought I was friends with you."

"It's... that thing?" Luo Zhi felt incredible.

Ding Shuijing nodded: "That's it. What crystal, break up letter."

Luo Zhi smiled, "But, Ye Zhanyan told me that you made up this story and taught her."

"Why should I care about this stall?" Ding Shuijing sneered.

"But you sent the text message to Sheng Huainan."

"I asked her on QQ if it was fake. She insisted that this was the case and hoped that I would send a text message to Sheng Huainan in the voice of an insider, so that it would be more credible."

Ding Shuijing started to laugh as she talked, "Believe it or not, anyway, I have a chat record. I thought it would be good for you to do it once, so you can take the initiative to come to my Xingshi for inquiries, and then I will Slap the diary on your face and avenge you and Luoyang."

When Luo Zhi heard this, he couldn't get angry at all.

Ding Shuijing looked like a child proud of a prank.

"Really," she took a hard sip of Coke, her cheeks dented, "I also took a "Xinhua Dictionary" and practiced the action of throwing a diary many times," she said in a drawing. Even a little excited, "By the way, your diary is really interesting."

Luo Zhi just looked at her and shook his head a little tolerantly.

"Mentally healthy people should pour orange juice in my face when they hear this," Ding Shuijing looked at her, "what about you, are you really psychopathic?"

"I'm so tempered by you. The wicked person sue first."

Ding Shuijing chuckled, "As a result, after the text message was sent, Sheng Huainan still ignored Ye Zhanyan. Even when you came back to school and met me, you looked like the world was peaceful and didn't mention it. At that time, I felt I was really excited."

"Later," she stared at Luo Zhi, "Later, I can be regarded as a remedy. If I remember correctly, it should be midnight on Christmas Day. Sheng Huainan called me and asked me what was going on. I asked him back. , What do you think? All I want to say is in the text message, what else do you want to know?"

However, Sheng Huainan kept repeating "Impossible, you lied from the beginning" on the other end of the phone.

After all, there was only one sentence. Luo Zhi touched his forehead. He vowed to her at the beginning that he could find out the truth, but instead he called Ding Shuijing.

Ding Shuijing said as if she had remembered the scene at that time, she smiled: "I thought at the time, Luo Zhi really has the ability, what a boy, he was tossed like a brain."

Luo Zhi's heart warmed.

She suddenly didn't want to return to the wedding scene. From the day she met Sheng Huainan, she rarely had the opportunity to mention him to others. Zhu Yan may be considered one, but she can’t provide the same happiness as she does now-Ding Shuijing knows Sheng Huainan, she is the same age as her, and she is happy. Sheng Huainan, who was talking about the other side, seemed to be upright talking about her boyfriend.

Sometimes, when you talk to people you like, listen to their comments, gossip, and collect everything you already know or never know, it can bring you great happiness.

Please tell me about him.

I know him well, but I just want to mention it and want to hear you talk about him.

Tell me about this person I like.

"Then, I showed kindness and told him the truth."

Ding Shuijing stopped and looked at Luo Zhi. Luo Zhi smiled: "Why, are you waiting for me to say thank you? It was you who caused it in the beginning?"

She let out a cry and continued reluctantly: "After a while, Ye Zhanyan told me on the Internet that she finally met Sheng Huainan and dated it very politely without mentioning anything. The other party said to her, let's be friends."

Ding Shuijing flew the chicken wings's packaging bag: "So, I didn't tell Ye Zhanyan, I had already done it."

Facing her pleasing eyes, Luo Zhi thought over and over again, and finally surrendered.

"Although... well, thank you."

Ding Shuijing bit her straw for a while, and suddenly raised her head and said softly: "In a moment, can you take me to see the wedding?"

In Luo Zhi's impression, Ding Shuijing was always very clever, and she had never looked at people with such straight-forward eyes.

The look in his eyes was sad for no reason.

"I told you everything you wanted to know, and didn't hide a word. Can you take me to see now? I won't let them find out. Just take a look."

But Luo Zhi still held back, it was after all the wedding of Chen Jing and Luoyang.

"I'm afraid not."

As if it was her expected answer, Ding Shuijing nodded and did not insist.

"You all know it? Did Luoyang tell you?"

Luo Zhi shook his head: "I guessed it myself. In fact...I am not very clear about your specific matters."

Ding Shuijing curled her eyes and pursed her mouth, smiling so embarrassedly.

I don't know if it was because I was shy to ask about this directly, or because Luoyang didn't mention her in front of Luo Zhi.

"Are you anxious to go back and go to the wedding? I'm so sorry, I actually asked you to come out, just hope you can help me get this thing..." She said, and took out a thick graffiti book from her bag, with a cover Above is a photo of the Eiffel Tower, which has worn out half of its corner.

She turned to a certain page and tore it off in front of Luo Zhi without hesitation.

"Help me to your sister-in-law."

On that piece of paper was a portrait of two people standing side by side. It was a few strokes, but it was very vivid.

Ding Shuijing and Luoyang.

The following is a line of Junyi's pen writing: "Let's meet each other and hate it late."

It is the handwriting of Luoyang.

Luo Zhi frowned: "What do you want to do?"

Ding Shuijing patted her head and said, "I'm sorry, I forgot to show it to you." She took out a pen and succinctly wrote the words "Meet and hate late" beside her.

It is exactly the same as Luoyang's handwriting.

"I used to go to your sister-in-law with this fake painting and handwriting and tell her not to be stupid. Luoyang has liked me a long time, but only because of being responsible has never dared to tell her. I asked her, it's already this age. , I still bear the humiliation when encountering this kind of thing, how boring a woman is doing this."

Luo Zhi was surprised.

"I thought she would make trouble with Luoyang for at least a while. As a result, she gritted her teeth and endured it without frowning in front of Luoyang."

Ding Shuijing looked at the bright weather outside the window that was not suitable for telling these stories, and said lightly: "She really has a kind."

Luo Zhi sighed, not knowing what to say.

"The showdown with her has no advantage at all, because no matter what I say, she didn't respond. The only thing that stimulated her, I am afraid I asked her:'You chased him all the way from high school to now, even if you catch him, he Do you really love you, have you ever been tempted by you, are you so interesting?'"

Luo Zhi thought of the bright incandescent lights in the subway and the black hole tunnel outside the car window.

"Your sister-in-law had red eyes at the time. It turned out that no one except me knew that your sister-in-law was chasing Luoyang."

She maintained Chen Jing's face in front of everyone, but she told the truth in front of Ding Shuijing to protect her face.

Luoyang in Luo Zhi's impression has always been young and mature, but he did not expect that he was just a teenager in front of the girls who tempted him.

Ding Shuijing laughed proudly and lonely: "I saw your sister-in-law's reaction, and I knew that Luoyang had told me everything."

I said everything, except I like you.

Ding Shuijing was lying on the table. From the beginning, she sang a one-man show anxiously, not letting Luo Zhi interject a word, but was afraid to stop, she couldn't be free and easy.

Luo Zhi squeezed the thin piece of paper in his hand, wondering how many times Ding Shuijing had practiced to write those four words smoothly and easily, so lifelike.

How many stories have been between them—not even stories, but more unforgettable than stories.

Luo Zhi could suddenly imagine Luoyang in front of Ding Shuijing.

As if right in front of you. She and Chen Jing had never seen it before, but they were as clear as they were right in front of them.

She must be very energetic, she must love to tell jokes, she must be a little jumpy, a little stunned, will laugh with Ding Shuijing and do a lot of bold and reckless things.

He will definitely lower his head and light a cigarette at some point, skilled and unfamiliar, with content in his eyes that no one else has ever understood.

Without warning, she was able to experience that feeling, that kind of uncontrollable overwhelming love for someone who knew it shouldn’t be born, rolling in, but she could only press her heart on the flames. Put it out.

That's a feeling you will never have with Chen Jing.

However, Luoyang must know that if it weren't for Chen Jing, he would never have arrived.

Can one person fall in love with two people at the same time?

Luo Zhi didn't dare to think anymore.

"In fact, you don't need to show Chen Jing. She is different from you. She doesn't ask for a clear result in everything. Since she is buried in my heart, I don't need to take this to tell her anything. Yes. Really."

She pushed the piece of paper back to Ding Shuijing in a gentle voice. I am afraid it is the first time that she has been so sympathetic and honest with Ding Shuijing.

"Whether you believe it or not, I suddenly feel that I understand you." Luo Zhi said.

Ding Shuijing looked at her, her eyes reminded Luo Zhi of Xu Riqing for a moment.

One day, Ding Shuijing will jump off the back seat of someone's bicycle and stand on tiptoe to smell the cloves, right?

"Don't you think it's hateful for me to be a third party?" Ding Shuijing asked, tilting her head.

"If I tell you the truth, you don't think I am hateful."

Ding Shuijing was silent for a while, nodded, and said, "Let's talk, I haven't heard you tell the truth yet."

Luo Zhi laughed.

"In fact, deep down in my heart, I hate such things as responsibility, morality, blood relationship, family, and rules. I have seen too many people crushed by these things. For the rest of my life, I am always entangled with these things, which is called waste."

Luo Zhi paused and took a sip of the orange juice, as if he had the courage to continue to rebel.

"What's the meaning of loyalty? What people really should do is to be loyal to their own feelings and emotions. You can choose what you think and feel. Success and failure, gain and loss are the results of choices, but they should not be The reason for the choice."

Ding Shuijing's eyes were full of tears: "You are helping me justify myself."

Luo Zhi smiled: "What can I do for you? This is the truth."

I am just convincing myself so that I have the courage to face the same rebellious future.

Luo Zhi and Ding Shuijing said goodbye, and when they rushed all the way to the entrance of the hall, they just heard Chen Jing say: "I am willing."

She found herself wrong. At any time, the three words "I do" are so moving, even at a wedding that is not so moving. The emcee was too noisy, most of the guests did not know each other, and the children cried too noisy during the dinner-but the phrase "I do" always contains either happiness or tragic courage.

The human heart is unpredictable and the world is impermanent. But I don't want to surrender everything about myself to these uncertainties. There are always things that I do, regardless of the consequences, follow my heart, willingly.

Before Ding Shuijing left, Luo Zhi asked her why she dropped out of school.

There are many college girls who are not loved, and not all of them end up by dropping out, let alone she has no compelling reason.

"It's actually quite simple."

Ding Shuijing irritated Luoyang, saying that he was a coward and did not dare to follow her true heart. Luoyang on the other hand, with the kind of lenient attitude that made Ding Shuijing love and hate, said calmly: "You also said that you love painting, but you still sit here in the class of the International School of Political Science and write incomprehensibly. Thesis? Because you heard that it’s easier to go abroad for this major. As for why you want to go abroad, do you really know in your heart? You are so talented, so unwilling, why not go to the Academy of Fine Arts? Because there are not so many impulsive adventures in the world Things, everyone with each other."

Luo Zhi was speechless: "So, you quit school and retake the exam?"

"Go to go through the formalities. The school counselor took turns to talk to me. My mom and dad threatened me to jump off the building, and I survived. At that time, it was not that I was not afraid or didn't want to regret it, but I didn't know how to survive. I don’t know. Maybe it’s crazy."

She just wanted to prove it to Luoyang.

Luoyang is now married.

"But I don't regret it."

Ding Shuijing gritted her teeth and cried.

"Luoyang didn't tell me anything, he didn't even hold hands with me. There was no ambiguous behavior, no outrageous words, so in the end, he said that I misunderstood, he only regarded me as a good friend, I There is nothing to refute him, and even to find his girlfriend to make trouble, you have to forge evidence yourself."

Ding Shuijing actually laughed when she talked about it at the end.

"But he doesn't know. If he really said anything, even if it were these four words-I would hate to see you late, I would even step aside contentedly to complete his wedding with her. He just thought he didn't leave evidence for me. It's not going to be good, in fact I never wanted how to.

I just want him to admit that he likes me.

That's it.

Luo Zhi picked up the wine glass and stood up. Chen Jing, who had taken off her wedding dress and put on a red cheongsam, took Luoyang's arm and walked to the table where she was to toast and winked at her.

In fact, Chen Jing is not brave. Swallow everything, grasp what you want, never complain or pursue.

Luo Zhi was dizzy by the banquet. She shook her head, put aside all her thoughts, laughed wholeheartedly, said auspicious words, and drank the red wine in the glass.