Use My Life For Your Happiness

Those memories, are too dark to see light, can only be harbored in the deepest heart. I sit outside the operating room, a person, is a world, belongs to my own cold world.

Lin Duan finally came in a hurry and stepped into my world.

"Chihiro, what's the matter with you?" He asked me anxiously.

"It's not me. It's Feiyan. She's in there. Ectopic pregnancy, so the child can not keep, is doing abortion

He sighed and sat next to me.

His hand, gently want to cover my hand, I shrink away.

Looking at her toes, she said word by word: "Lin Duan, a woman who is willing to give birth to a child for you, that is to love you very much. Therefore, it is worth cherishing. A woman who has lost the child of the person she loves most is very sad. You should take good care of her."

"Chihiro." He gave a rustle.

I looked up and laughed at him: "Lin Duan in my memory, no matter what it is, takes it seriously. She is a person with a sense of responsibility. I, sister Feiyan, will be happy."

My past feelings don't matter, because they are gone.

Stand up, hand pat his shoulder: "Lin Duan, goodbye, I think I have to go, fly smoke elder sister now most need is your company."

He took my hand, and the warm touch made me sigh. It was this hand that took me when I was in love. We went all over the streets and alleys. We went to eat our own food together, we went to do volunteer work together, we went climbing, skiing and climbing trees together.

How familiar, how warm hands ah, at that time has been leading me.

But, can't be attached to, can't indulge in the past, can't come out.

Gently pull back: "promise me, let me fly smoke sister happiness."

He shook his head: "I do not promise you, because I also want my happiness, my love."

"Lin Duan, we can't go back to the past. Lin Duan, if you really have me in your heart, I will lose more things. You know, I have almost nothing now. When you are not in Beijing, I use memory to burn for warmth. I always think that you will come back, and you are looking forward to your coming to me. The mobile phone number has changed, the address has changed, and all contacts have been broken. I'm afraid you can't find me. Working in a taxi company, I go to the airport line every day, because I want to meet you again. "

He closed his eyes and his face ached.

I said: "Lin Duan, forget it. I've adapted to the present life. I've also learned to forget a lot of things in the past. Whether I'm sad or happy, it always belongs to the past. We can't always think about the past and live. My father paved a way for me to marry Qiao Dongcheng. In this way, I will not be afraid of wind and rain all my life, and I will not be alone. Even if this home is not very warm, it can be a home after all. "

"Chihiro, I'm sorry. I should have come back earlier. Is everything different?"

I nodded gently: "yes."

It's good to come back earlier. I always give myself a deadline. I'll find you for one month, two months, one year, two years. It's like I don't give up until I get back to you.

"When I tell you this, I just want to tell you that when you come back, I feel that you are not as important as I think, so Lin Duan, you should not live in the past."

I left alone, some relaxed, some painful.

Such as peeling, the layer of skin in the heart, take off will be painful, but also new skin.

Love is like fireworks, blowing bright, smoke, or will smoke eyes pain tears.

I really can't be selfish to enjoy your love.

Feiyan sister miscarriage, I do not want to hurt her a point.

Sorry, Lin Duan. Let's bury our first love forever.

Whether you like it or not, at least I will not look back, even if the love once was unforgettable, it also supported me through a long and lonely three years.

I'll wave and say goodbye to you.