Use My Life For Your Happiness

"What you said at the beginning, I think you can still remember. Darling, dad is really busy and can't play with you."

Darling tears DC, a pair of big black and white eyes looking at me: "is it all because of this small three?"

"Good boy." Qiao Dongcheng was not happy: "how can you talk like that?"

"It's all her. If it wasn't for her, my father would be with my mother, and we would have a home. Everyone has their parents to pick them up, but they don't have them." She sobbed, the more she cried, the more sad she was.

"Lin Jing, I don't know how you teach her, but now my father tells you that even without Chihiro, my father won't be with your mother."

Lin Jing picked up her daughter and cried: "enough, I don't want to hear you say these hurtful words any more. Do you want to tell darling that it was a mistake to give birth to her?"

He moved his mouth and said nothing. But stubbornly tight, do not let go of my hand.

Lin Jing bit her lip, hugged her and turned to leave.

In the car, he finally sighed, very tired.

I don't know what to say or ask about him.

But he took the initiative to say: "darling, it's really a beautiful mistake, but I don't want to say that child, she is not sensible."

I think I can understand, I know why there is a darling, Qiao Dongcheng and Lin Jingfen, she refused, so use means pregnant with a child.

Children, can let a man take some responsibility, but want to use to hold a man's heart, is really a very silly move.

The car didn't go far, his cell phone was screaming.

He didn't have the heart to press it as soon as it rang.

But I couldn't listen. I grabbed his cell phone and pressed hands-free when it rang.

Lin Jing's voice was furious: "Qiao Dongcheng, if you don't come back, I'll jump from here with you."

The sound in the car reverberated so stuffy, Qiao Dongcheng gritted his teeth and still grasped the steering wheel.

The car sped up, almost to a hundred and six, then began to slow down, slowly stopped and leaned on the side of the road.

He said in a low voice, "Chihiro, I'm sorry, I have to go back."

I unfastened my seat belt and pushed the door open.

He said, "Chihiro, wait for me. I'll be back soon."

The car turns at the intersection and goes back.

I looked up at the burning sun on my head, and sighed gently, waiting for him, oh, he won't come to pick me up.

I can't do Lin Jing's way.

It's another person walking, even without an umbrella. After a while, his whole body is sweating.

No matter when, no matter who I'll be with in the future, I think I'll get used to being alone. I've learned to be strong for a long time. Now these things won't be sentimental.

Stop the empty car and ask him to take me back to Qiao's house.

If he comes back and tells me that he can't let go of Lin Jing's mother and son, I will leave.

As long as he opens his mouth, we can do everything before we get married.

Back to Qiao's quiet house, I turned on the TV in my room and played it casually, letting the sound fill the room.

I have been waiting, noon passed, afternoon passed, evening passed, Qiao Dongcheng, he has not come back.

The sound of the mobile phone cuts through the silence now.

Yawn, drag some tired body to answer the phone.

Still not Qiao Dongcheng, but Lin Duan.

"Chihiro, it's me."

"I know. The mobile phone has a display. What's up, Lin Duan?"

"You come out, I'll wait for you at the foot of the mountain."

I know what he told me to go out and talk about.

Can he not worry about his mother's suicide?

I think he would persuade me to give up again. I was always the one who was advised to give up. After a long time, HuR became a little numb.

They all think that a lot of my decisions are unimportant. They all think that I don't care about a lot of things and a lot of people, so I should let go, every time.

Sitting in the coffee shop, leisurely English songs, I don't want to tell him I don't understand.

Because my English level is really low, separated too long, can forget, almost forget. Lin Duan knew how careless I used to be in my studies.

He mixed some fresh milk for me in the coffee: "Qianxun, it's better to add some milk and sugar in the coffee."

I picked it up and took a sip. It tasted just like before.

Pulling, chin in one hand, looking at him.

He said with a smile, "what are you looking at? Chihiro. "

"I'm waiting for you to talk."

"As naughty as ever." He looked at me with some exclamation.

But I will not be addicted to such eyes, I think, I really began to mature, more sensible, not thinking about Lin Duan every day, looking forward to him every day, he came back, I found that I really do not think so crazy about him as I think.

I've thought about all the consequences.

He forgives me. We're together.

He didn't forgive me, so I could only look at him from afar and warm him with our memories.

I thought that in my whole life, besides Lin Duan, I was Lin Duan.

I know what he wants to say, so in the face of him, I really feel that my heart is as light as water, without too much fluctuation.

He said: "Chihiro, this morning, Lin Jing was holding a good girl and wanted to jump off the building."

I'm silent. I know about it.

He added: "I didn't jump, but I was scared. I vomited and screamed, and I was admitted to the hospital."

"Well."

"Today you are with Qiao Dongcheng, aren't you?"

"Yes."

"Chihiro, don't be like that. I still like what you used to do. I feel very guilty when I ask about something and talk to you like this."

Don't you feel guilty if I ask directly?

To him, I can not say too much angry words: "Lin Duan, you say it, it doesn't matter. Although this matter has no direct relationship with me, it has a continuous relationship."

"Chihiro, you are really sensible. Chihiro, marry Qiao Dongcheng. Although I know that you have won the lawsuit and got something back, Qianxun will not be happy if you have no feelings with him. I don't think I will be happy in my life, but I hope you are still happy, Qianxun. " He took my hand, some sentimental: "my happiness with happiness, OK."

I don't want to open my face. I want to draw back my hand.

"In fact, Lin Jing is a little extreme. She likes Qiao Dongcheng and insists on giving birth to a good girl regardless of the opposition of the public. A young lady of an official family is so reckless regardless of her face. She really loves Qiao Dongcheng and raises her good girl independently outside."

"Lin Duan, Qiao Shibo really wants me to marry Qiao Dongcheng. He doesn't have much time."

He was a little surprised, I said: "Qiao Dongcheng and Lin Jing, I'm an outsider. I can't get involved too much, and I'm not qualified to say anything. You say your marriage will not be happy without feelings. Lin Duan, what about Lin Jing? What about Qiao Dongcheng? Do they have feelings? " If there is, it will not break up, it will not always be like this.

He was silent and took a big sip of his coffee.

This is the man I'm obsessed with. I wanted to ask him a question, but I still couldn't help asking him: "Lin Duan, do you think you still think of me because you don't want me to marry Qiao Dongcheng, which hinders your sister's marriage to Qiao's family?"

"How can you say that? I have you in my heart, which has nothing to do with everything."

Oh, I'm glad to hear that.

"In fact, I'm not qualified to say too much. I just want to see you, Chihiro."

"It's not good. You should accompany sister Feiyan more. Is she better now?"

He nodded: "fortunately, only a few days off to get busy with the wedding."

He and she are really getting married.

I think this time, nothing can stop it.

Lin Duan, as I think, is a responsible man. However, this kind of responsibility is heavy, which makes my heart tired and painful.

If only you would keep me then.

When I was at the airport, I just wanted you to say, "Chihiro, don't go."

I will not go, I will be by your side.

People always think about what they should do at that time. If they constantly regret it, they will be constantly sad.

"Good." I rustled.

"Chihiro, I'm sorry."

"Why did you suddenly say that to me?"

"I always owe you a sorry for saying that in France."

Close your eyes, the hot tears whirl under your eyelids.

Let it fall to the bottom of my heart and smooth all the restlessness and bitterness in it.

"Sorry, Chihiro."

I can't help but stand up, smile but tears slide down, holding a handbag is still elegant to say: "I go first." I don't want to cry here in front of so many people.

I've been waiting for many years, Lin Duan. It's been painful for many years. I really can't afford too much for a while.

Run fast, run out of breath, will be more comfortable, run so that I can not breathe, pain will be less.

I always can't forget, your surprised face in France, you said: "Mo Qianxun, why are you so cheap."

You don't know how wronged I am.

You don't know, you're not me, and I'm not you.

Since then, as soon as you leave, even for more than three years, I can't find you, and you won't come to me.

When we were together, you never said a heavy word to me, you spoiled me, you taught me, you taught me to do a lot of meaningful and good things.

We have a lot of romance, a lot of sweetness together.

Do you know how difficult it is in France? My mother and I have nothing left. My passport, card, most of the cash and luggage have been stolen. I can't speak French, and my mother won't get much.

In my school in France, I didn't have a friend. Many people bullied me. I was a Chinese. The landlord wanted to take the house back. Our relatives in China avoided us like snakes and scorpions. No one answered the long-distance call. I washed dishes and toilets for others, and I didn't cry. No matter how hard I was, I thought of you, I felt everything could survive.

But mom can't stand it, mom jumped down from the upstairs, how can I watch her watch her waiting for her to die, my favorite mom, my favorite mom.

She fell heavily, bleeding a lot, but I didn't have much money to buy blood, so I begged the hospital to take my blood. My mother was broken like a rag doll, but she was conscious.

How much is an operation? Money is not everything, but it can kill people.

My most valuable thing is my body.

He fell on the road and his knee began to hurt sharply.

I hold my hair in both hands and shake it hard.

I want to forget those dark past, don't want to go, don't want to go.