Use My Life For Your Happiness

He lightened his smile and grasped the steering wheel with both hands.

"I'm sorry, Lin Xia. I don't think we can go back to the past, and I don't want to go back. You have 200% love, but I don't have it. You don't need me to be fair to you. However, I'm a stranger. I'm personal and I have a feeling. I'm sorry for Lin Xia."

The car stopped at the traffic lights and stopped abruptly.

I don't want to be cruel, but I'm cruel to you.

Why don't you wake up early from your dream.

I took off my seat belt and got off. Beijing is still so hot and dry in summer night. Walking under the bright lights, I am so small and lonely.

Even if I am lonely all my life, I will not enjoy your 200% love, because I can't repay you.

Don't want to go back too early, maybe he's in, maybe he's not.

Sometimes there is no mobile phone, it is really a happy thing, so you can let yourself decide where you want to go.

Slippers are very comfortable to wear. They are suitable for walking a long way. They go around a few streets. Some days when they are not in Beijing, they are very familiar with the right way.

In the past, I used to drive a taxi. I have been to almost all places in Beijing. At that time, I was lonely waiting for someone. Now I feel warm.

Long wait, no fruit, originally just to give up.

Qinrui's winery, not far away, asked for a bottle of Erguotou and tasted it slowly. It's strong. It's really enjoyable.

"Oh, why drink this wine? Why, no money? "

Qin Rui and Dongzi came together. Seeing me, they began to flirt.

I poured two cups with a smile and pushed them: "Erguotou has the taste of Erguotou, not red wine."

Qin Rui sat up and said, "when did you come back? Why didn't you give me a call?"

"If you can remember the phone number, it's not moqianxun."

"Ha ha, it's Dongzi who knows me. Besides, what's the relationship between us? I'm tired of calling when I come back. Of course, I have to come to find it myself."

"What kind of moth are you going to do when you come back?" Dongzi drinks a cup and leans on the sofa to be extra lazy.

"Lin Xia told me to come back for divorce." I told them honestly.

They were all stunned. Dongzi sighed, "it's not like him to do things."

"I know his kindness to me is very heavy. He doesn't want to leave. That's what I am. Dongzi, I'm a bad man. I can't pretend to love him very much, so you can despise me."

People all over the world say that I owe Lin Xia's love.

But there is no way, I was indifferent to the feelings of the people.

"Let's not talk about these things, it's a happy thing to come back. How about our daughter?"

I caught up with Qin Rui's shoulder and sniffed, "perfume." Ah, the smell of women's perfume, so he began to feel red in the face, but he put on a poker faced way: "nonsense, talk about the little cloud."

"Oh, you're not tired of watching videos every day. It's a little monster. When you're good, you can't help crying because you want to give her all the best things in the world."

After drinking a lot of wine, maybe I haven't drunk any more for a long time. After that, I got very drunk. Dongzi opened a room for me in a nearby hotel, so I didn't go back to stay.

As soon as I got home, I used to answer questions. There were 20 missed calls. Seventeen of them were Lin Xia: Chihiro, you didn't come back. Because you called me, press one button.

There are three more. It's Bai Lingling this morning.

"Why haven't you told him that you are dragging like this? What do you mean? Do you think Lin Xia is not hurt enough?" That's a simple sentence.

Well, anyway, I'm a sinner all over the world, I smile. Starting to call Lin Xia, the girl voice without feelings said, "sorry, the phone you dialed has been turned off.

Lin Xia will never turn off his mobile phone. His mobile phone number is on all day. But I don't rule it out. It's for people to turn it off.

After dialing a phone, Bai Lingling answered: "hello."

"I am moqianxun."

There was silence for a while, and then lightly said: "you say."

"Call Lin Xia on the phone."

"He just fell asleep for a while. You can call back later." She lowered her voice, too.

"Right now, right now, if you don't want me to go straight to him."

After a while, the microphone was probably in Lin Xia's ear. Lin Xia said in a hoarse voice: "what time is it?"

"Lin Xia, it's me, Chihiro."

"Chihiro, have you come back yet?"

"I'm back. Are you free today? Let's talk about divorce. " Like a sarcoma, the longer you drag on, the more painful it is. It's better to cut it with a knife to make you better.

He was silent for a long time, so long that I thought he would not give me any answer.

He said, "OK, I'll contact you."

His contact is that there has been no news.

I borrowed Qin Rui's car and went to several places in Beijing. I ate and drank with them every day, but I didn't go out very often at night. Beijing is still so quiet. I don't know what will happen or how many grudges there will be.

Moved into the hotel to live, counting the days, I almost come out for seven days, Lin Xia has not informed me, there is no news.

I miss the cloud, I still want to go back first.

When Ji Zhixian called France, she cried, "when will you come back? Your daughter wants you so much that she can't sleep until she looks at your photos every day."

I'm speechless, this... I'm still alive, but I let her sleep by looking at the photos. Ji Zhixian is a rough nerve.

Anyway, there's nothing to look forward to.

Packing things, at noon about a meal Lin Duan, waiting in the downstairs hall for a while, the heat wave outside feel uncomfortable.

He also bought a bunch of flowers, taro.

I raised my eyes and looked at him with a smile: "how can I change this way?"

He laughed: "before you like peony, now I know you like potato."

"Yes, it's very careful. The flowers are very fragrant. Thank you."

No wonder I've been moved for him. My eyes are really good. The men I fall in love with are actually very attentive to me.

Everyone is not young. Maybe there are some confidants and girlfriends around. Or still clinging to not getting married, not afraid of losing their value, but are looking for, looking for a woman they love.

Just about to go out, the front desk called: "Miss Mo, please wait a moment."

"What's the matter?"

"You call."

Sorry to see Lin Duan: "wait for me."

After answering the phone, I was even more sorry: "Lin Duan, I'm really sorry. I guess I'll stand you up at noon today. Lin Xia called. "

"What a small thing it is to have a meal. I'll send you where he gives you."

"Right here, he said he would come later... To discuss the divorce."

Lin Duan patted me on the shoulder: "well, sometimes you have to be selfish and more persistent, even if everyone thinks that it's your fault and you owe someone, but Chihiro, you are proud of Chihiro. Why care about others? Do whatever you want."

I gave him a smile: "well, OK, I know. If it's OK, I'll treat you to dinner in the evening."

Waiting for Lin Xia's arrival in the hall, I thought a lot, but when I saw him, I couldn't say it after all.

Comfort, in order to need comfort, I have the right to comfort him what?

He is haggard, he does not give up, he is attached to, why to say, can see.

Sometimes, it's painful to make a decision, but I hope I won't be hurt by such pain in the future.

He knows better than anyone, but he never gives up. He thought more than once that if I love him, I will be the happiest person in my life. Under his wings, there will be no rainy day.

Ordered a cup of coffee, in a quiet place, from the carved flowers and trees porch, you can see the crystal dyed by the sun, such as dreamlike beauty.

"This is the divorce agreement. You left it." He said, "Chihiro, I don't want anything. I'll give you everything. In the future, but I hope you don't leave Beijing. You don't have to hide from me. This is your root, your home, and the blood of yearning and stability flowing in your bones. "

I don't want anything. Our divorce doesn't make us blush like others.

"Lin Xia."

He took the ring out of his pocket and said, "Chihiro, this is from you. Can I keep it?"

"Sure," I nodded

"Thank you. Give me some souvenirs. Can you wear this ring, too? Don't give it back to me. "

If you refuse, you can't say it.

I gave him my hand. He gave me the ring with a smile.

"The last request, I want to hold you, kiss you again, and cut off all my thoughts. Your eyes, which I have never longed for, are not by my side. Even if I stand in front of you, even if I give you a cage, I can't stop it. I'm willing to let go of everything and let you pursue and make you happier. If one day, you feel that your life is not as happy as you think, when you want to come back to me, I will remove all my obstacles as long as you

I bit my lip and my eyes began to wet.

He came over and bent down to hold me tightly. I reached out and gently folded his waist.

If there is a next life, Lin Xia, let me run after you in the next life, punish me to love you, OK?

His cold lips, fall on my cheek, gently, and then fall on my lips, the last kiss, with not give up, thick enough to let me feel his grief.

Kiss gently, kiss so sentimentally, finally, hard to bite my lips, the kind of pain, such as the pain in his heart.

My hands, still gently put my hair behind my ears: "my baby Chihiro, in the future, you are no longer my wife. Think about it, or your heart is like a knife. I once wanted to trap you selfishly for a lifetime. What I can't get, no one can get, but Chihiro, what's your smile? Fate has never been sentimentally attached to you. I'll guard you well. "

I cry low, he said these words, let me incomparably moved.

In his arms cry a mess, his clothes, also cry wet.

When he left, his steps were so heavy that he left the signed divorce agreement with their names on it. I put my things in my bag. I feel very sad.

With tears in my eyes, I turned to look out of the window. The white sunshine confused everything in the world.

When Ji Xiaobei came over, I still didn't know. He knocked on the table. I looked up at him and wiped away my tears.

"When I put on the ring, I kiss and hug. It's just like crossing the ocean. It's a complete set of foreign devils. What's the matter? I'm not willing to give up and shed tears. Tut tut."

His sarcastic tone made me uncomfortable.

"My business is none of your business."

He nodded, his eyes cold frost doubt knot: "but also, your business and I have nothing to do. But Ji Xiaobei is always nosy. His disposition has never changed. How bad is it? "

I didn't say a word. At this moment, a waiter came over with a bunch of Taros and said with a smile, "Mr. Ji, this flower is for this lady."

"No He said coldly, "just give it to the most beautiful lady at the front desk."

He glanced at me in disappointment, turned around and left.