What Can I Do, I’m Not Human

The conditions in the inn were better than those in the capsule cabin. When Su Zheyan was taking a shower in the morning, Chu Shici crawled into his backpack to sneak a peek at the diary.

A few days ago, Su Zheyan had hidden the diary, and Chu Shici hadn’t seen it, so now was a good time to catch up.

Except for today’s diary, which looked strange, the previous few pages were filled with mundane matters.

【Monday, clear weather.】

[The nutrient paste I liked is out of stock, and the boss died.]

[The robots consume one barrel of oil per week, and a barrel of oil costs 50 gold coins. On an ordinary day, I can only earn… up to 10 gold coins, raising a robot is burning a hole in my pocket.]

[Eternal Life Technology hasn’t gone bankrupt.]

【Tuesday, clear weather.】

[Last night, the robot had a nightmare and kept crawling into my hands. Crying and saying, “Please, don’t hit my legs.” I don’t know what he dreamed about, but as long as I’m here, no one can harm him.]

[Eternal Life Technology hasn’t gone bankrupt.]

【Wednesday, heavy fog.】

Suddenly remembered that the robot doesn’t have a name yet. What should I call him?

He’s a platinum-colored toy. Should I call him Xiao Bai or Da Bai? I’m good at naming.

Eternal Life Technology hasn’t gone bankrupt.

The following days had similar content. As Chu Shici read the diary, he said to the system, “If I don’t give myself a name soon, I’ll probably end up being called Xiaobai in the future.”

The system, staying up late watching the drama, let out a tired “ah” and said, 【What do you want to be called then?】

“Ah Ci. That’s what my buddies used to call me.”

【Anyway, you won’t stay in this world for long. Once your energy reaches 100, you’ll move to another place. The name will only be used for a while, so it doesn’t matter. But more than that, I’m curious about what kind of dream could make someone like you cry. Did you dream about peeking at the flower market and getting your leg broken by your father? Or did you dream about crossing into a boring world without any hunky guys, only to have your legs broken by someone everywhere you go?】

A look of pain and sadness flashed across Chu Shici’s face, and the next second, he smiled and lowered his voice, saying, “Transforming into a seductive bottom, teasing a hundred men, and ending up in a bloody battle…”

【F***, shut up!】

The bathroom had transparent glass with a curtain to cover it. Su Zheyan was halfway through his shower when he sensed movement outside.

He pulled back the curtain and saw the robot sneakily reading the diary.

Su Zheyan raised an eyebrow and tapped on the glass of the bathroom. The robot was startled and quickly closed the diary, stuffing it into the backpack. However, the diary was a hardcover book, twice the size of him. The robot slipped and was firmly pressed down by the diary. He struggled for a while, then slumped on the table motionless.

Su Zheyan pursed his lips and let out a faint, almost inaudible laugh. He quickly finished rinsing and went out to retrieve the diary, rescuing the robot.

He rubbed the robot’s head and said in a calm voice, “You wanted to read it that badly?”

Chu Shici stood with his hands behind his back, nodding and shaking his head. “It was my mistake, I won’t read it anymore. Do you want to scold me? I’ll take the scolding.”

Su Zheyan stared at him for a while before suddenly speaking, “You’ve been with me all this time, and to you, I have no privacy. The trivialities in the diary are our shared experiences, and they hold no novelty. If that’s the case, it’s not curiosity that drove you to peek at the diary.”

He flipped to today’s entry and pointed at the pattern on it.

“You want to learn about Eternal Life Technology and the situation on the Desolate Star from me. Is it curiosity getting the better of you, or… are you investigating something?”

Chu Shici remained silent for a long time. “The robot has an automatic learning system, and I have an insatiable thirst for knowledge.”

Su Zheyan narrowed his eyes and tapped the robot’s chest with his finger.

Although he didn’t say anything, Chu Shici understood his meaning. It was a request for him to speak honestly and not deceive him.

Chu Shici woke up the system and said, “System, what do you think?”

[We are investigating the cause of his despondency. Those matters were just entry points, not the ultimate goal. You can’t just say, ‘Zheyan, I want to unravel your inner turmoil.’ That’s too cheesy. Just come up with some random story to fool him. Besides, he cares about you a lot now, so he won’t pry into your mind again.]

Su Zheyan wasn’t angry; he was simply curious about why the robot acted this way.

Under his gaze, Chu Shici looked up at him and said, “During the period when I just regained consciousness, your condition was poor. You searched for resources in a numb state during the day, and at night, you used sleep to escape reality. It was as if you were on the brink of collapse. Your eyes were always filled with pain, and just when a glimmer of hope ignited, it would fade away after going out for a while.”

“At first, you mocked and ridiculed me, and you were indifferent to my words, often lost in thought alone. But I knew you weren’t deliberately neglecting me; you had simply forgotten how to communicate normally.”

He grabbed Su Zheyan’s finger and said, “I originally thought it was the Desolate Star, the malicious intent of those alphas, that turned you into that state. But after spending time with you, I realized how strong you are. Neither the Empire’s betrayal nor endless insults can break you. Zheyan, I want to know what you went through before I appeared. I’m worried, afraid that you might encounter those things again and return to your initial desolate and listless state.”

Su Zheyan didn’t expect to hear this kind of response. The robot hit him with a direct question, catching him off guard.

He sneered, avoiding eye contact, and Chu Shici could only see his ears turning red as if they were bleeding.

The Vitality increased like cooking dumplings, rising a little every few seconds.

Chu Shici breathed a sigh of relief. Truly honest children are rewarded.

Su Zheyan felt uncomfortable with his fast heartbeat. A warm stream surged in his heart, making him increasingly restless.

To calm himself down, he forced himself to think about other things.

At that time, he had just arrived on the Desolate Star for three days, entered the city three times, and accidentally stumbled upon a night market. He was surrounded by a dozen alphas and obtained his first pile of wealth from them in his Desolate Star career.

He found a water source occupied by alphas and only needed to stroll around it every day. It took a few minutes to easily obtain drinking water and a large number of blood-stained coins.

Considering it carefully, life wasn’t bad. Looking back, Su Zheyan didn’t understand why he had been so desolate.

A hint of confusion flashed through his azure eyes as he caressed the diary in his hand, his gaze falling on the torn marks.

He clearly hadn’t lost his memory, but why couldn’t he remember when he tore the diary? He had impressions of what he did every day and every moment.

According to the timeline, his memory didn’t have any gaps. But the fact proved that he had lost a part of his memory.

After contemplating for a while, Su Zheyan turned to the robot and said, “I didn’t lose my memory, but I’m missing memories.”

Chu Shici was stunned. “Contradictory literature?”

“Eternal Life Technology allows the choice of whether to implant the original memories into clone individuals. I’m thinking, perhaps I’m actually a clone?”

“But what’s the point of cloning you and then throwing you into the Desolate Star? I think your line of thinking is wrong. Could it be that you have been reborn but don’t remember it? Such settings are often seen in novels.”

Su Zheyan remained silent for a while. “I am a materialist.”

“?”

“I choose to be a clone.”

Chu Shici: …