When We Were Perfect

An eerie silence filled the office as Silas was still sitting looking at his friend while Daniel finally shifted his gaze to Silas, his eyes a whirlpool of emotions.

"I blamed you, Silas, many times because if you had been here, she would be happy with you and I would at least have my best friend. But I can't blame you anymore because what you did was for me but I wished you discussed this with me and found an appropriate situation to tell her that you don't want to marry her. There was a reason I never expressed my feelings to her, I was afraid of losing our years old bond, our friendship. I was afraid of losing her Silas, she was light in the darkness, the reason for my smile, my happiness. I did the one necessary thing because I wanted her to be happy and my friend's happiness was loving you not me. I would never be anything other than her true friend, I would never be the one she will love, admire and want to have a life with, I am just a substitute, an obligation that she never wanted and it will continue this way," He breathed with glistened eyes as he muttered every word with pain evident in his tone.

"I would be happy seeing you both together because I was getting used to it. It would have been much better than enduring her hostility without knowing my mistake. To see her every day walk past you like you never existed. I was afraid of losing her Silas and now I think I lost her, our friendship, everything we had in the first place just drained down and you know throw irony I wasn't even worthy of an explanation," Silas gulped the lump that formed in his throat, stung by the fact that Daniel suffered all this alone. This wasn't why he ran away, he wanted him to be happy in his life with Amy but it looks like everything happened oppositely. He stood from the chair edging closer to his friend who stood there still.

"I am sorry Daniel, I j-just thought you would be happy. That she will get used to this, realize your love for her and settle with it because believe me I couldn't give her an ounce of that love you have for her. It would be a miserable relationship if I got married to her, she wouldn't have been happy, " Silas said in a sympathetic tone, placing a hand on his shoulder. Daniel hated it when people showed him sympathy and pity, he never wanted this from anyone.

"Don't look at me with that look Silas, I hate it!" Daniel uttered, blinking away the tears and removing his hand from his shoulder.

"Why didn't you tell me that you love her? Maybe I would have done something, I am your buddy after all!" Silas voiced his thoughts.

"Like you helped me now by running away from the situation instead of facing it!" Daniel grumbled.

"Arghhh, you wouldn't let go of this thing easily right!" Silas muttered rolling his eyes. Daniel shook his head, just how much he missed this idiot.

"It doesn't matter Silas, not now and not even then. She would have rejected it and at that time I thought you loved her too. I didn't have the slightest idea that you were faking it," 

"It wasn't easy bro, you know how stubborn she is," Silas grumbled staring at him.

"I know that...!" Daniel trailed off.

"It's unbelievable you know!"

"What?" Daniel asked, raising his brows.

"How much you love her, it's visible in your eyes whenever you talked about her back and even now but that emotion is mixed with longing too," Silas expressed his thoughts deep down feeling sorry for his friend but not showing it for his sake.

"Does it matter Silas, how much I love her? It would always be a one-sided and unrequited love…" he rasped voice thick with emotion.

"You know who suffered the most from these things, Ozan. He didn't deserve to be unloved by her mother, to be rejected by her. He is too small to suffer from any of this turmoil!" He rasped, taking a deep breath to swallow his emotions. He didn't want to reveal everything but he was tired of holding everything within his heart.

"She rejected her son?" Silas asked in disbelief. What has happened to Amy? Deep down he was feeling anger towards her for treating Daniel and Ozan like they were nothing. How dumb can she be to not realize how much this person loved and cared for her?

"Not directly but her lack of interest and presence in his life says the same thing. I bet she didn't even know what his full name is. But there is nothing that could be done except hoping and praying because I have tried everything possible to make her talk to me and if she doesn't want anything to do with me accept Ozan at least. " He sighed, not even knowing why he was pouring his heart out to Silas but he was tired of holding everything in his heart. He did this all his life masking his emotions and burying everything within the depths of his heart but now everything was resurfacing.

"I don't fully blame you for what you did but it would have been better if you think about it in detail. You cannot force someone to love you, you can't tell someone to love a certain person, it's something that happens on its own. This marriage meant nothing to her and it will remain the same. Let's just hope for things to get better. " Daniel muttered sadly, infinite nameless emotions flooding in his grey blue orbs but he looked away not wanting to let his emotions flow more than they already had, there was no use of such revelations, Daniel turned to walk towards his chair but Silas enveloped him in a strong embrace.

"I am sorry, I am so sorry Daniel. I left you alone brother. If I had the slightest idea about what you are going through, I would have returned earlier," Silas mumbled with teary eyes hugging him, his own heart clenched hearing him and about Amy's behaviour, ever the dramatic person. Daniel wanted to hug him back, he needed to be hugged by someone but he wasn't going to welcome him easily, he was worried sick about him all these months and he could have at least dropped a message about himself. He pushed him away, not so hard.

"I am not going to forgive you so easily Silas, although I may not blame you for everything that's going on but still you have a part in this. Besides I was worried about you all the time since you escaped, so you better start making up for those things!" Daniel said and went to sit on his chair, deciding to focus on some work before Ozan woke up again.

"Should I kneel before you for forgiveness, forget it I will beg!" He said before going on his knees before him, making Daniel facepalm himself.

"Your majesty! I know what I have done is the worst thing and I shouldn't have run away like that leaving everyone behind and my job but I had no option and my stupid brain cells could only advise me this in two hours. So please can you forgive me, I beg your forgiveness." Silas said kneeling, his face swelled and his shirt crumpled. Daniel would laugh if it was any other situation.

"Silas, stand up. It's not a joke!" Daniel reprimanded.

"Not until you forgive me!" He said in a determined tone.

Daniel sighed, raking his hair already feeling tired from all the drama that happened today. From Silas's unexpected return to revealing the facts about his life, he had enough for one day.

"Fine! But leave for now Silas. I have enough of today!" Daniel muttered, turning to his laptop but Silas hugged him again making the chair move back a little.

"Thank you so much!" Silas squealed.

"Silas! What the hell! Have you lost your remaining brain cells?" Daniel uttered, pushing him back straightening his tie.

"I am just happy that you forgive me, bro!" Silas muttered trying to lighten the emotional situation.

"By the way does this mean I can come back to work tomorrow. I am kind of broke these days.!" Silas asked in a hopeful tone.

Daniel's nostrils flared, does everything seems to be a joke for him.

"Silas! Get out of my office before I literally throw you away!" Daniel sneered at him. Silas raised his hands up in surrender.

"Fine! No need to get your boxers twisted. We will continue about it tomorrow," Silas retorted, backing away towards the door.

Daniel shook his head and flipped his laptop on, not wanting to work at all, his whole mood was already ruined. Silas stared at him for a while. He really looked tired and run down, the pain that fell from his words when he told about his so-called marital life, the hurt when he said that Amy didn't even care about his son. Just what had happened in this one and half year. One thing was sure, he surely loved her beyond everything to still hope for things to get better after what she had done. Now he felt guilty, Daniel didn't deserve to be treated this way or be a victim of Amy's hostility just because he made her come out of his imaginative love Just as he was about to walk out.

"Be on time tomorrow. I don't tolerate tardiness if you remember!" Daniel muttered sternly not staring at him, eyes focused on the laptop. Silas grinned at him 

"You know I love….." He started.

"Get out!" 

Silas laughed walking out of his office but still, his mind recalling Daniel's bitter reality.