Which One Is My Daddy

"Rui Rui!" Susie called the little guy's name and her eyes were wet.

"Where has Mommy gone these days? Neither daddy nor ruiruirui can find you, and both daddy and Ruirui Miss Mommy!" the little guy lowered his head on Susie's shoulder in a pitiful tone. It's like the abandoned child finally returned to Mommy's arms. However, the little guy is not sure if Mommy will leave.

"Mommy misses you too, Ruirui, come on!" Susie raised her feet and walked forward, took the little guy to the quiet swing area next to the playground, sat on one of the swings, and she held the little guy in her arms.

"Mommy, what are you going to do?" the little guy looked at Susie's face, his voice was low and pitiful.

The little guy had a hunch that mommy wouldn't stay and left soon.

Susie looked down at the little guy, smiled and said, "ruiruirui, mommy has to work now and can't go back to daddy's villa for the time being. Would Ruirui like to stay with Mommy?"

"Why can't Mommy go back to the villa?" the little guy blinked his big eyes.

"..." looking at the little guy's clear eyes, Susie's heart was blocked badly. Would he be very sad if she told him she was going to take him away from dad?

"Mommy goes back to the villa and asks dad to send mommy to work every morning and send Mommy back after work!" the little guy's voice is particularly pleasant at this time.

Such a life of going out to work and going home from work was once Susie's life vision, but now it seems impossible.

Over and over again, she felt that the best way to deal with their relationship was to leave.

She took the little guy away, and they returned to their previous lives. They were at peace, without quarrel, no contradiction and no misunderstanding.

"Mommy?" seeing Mommy thinking deeply, the little guy straightened up his small body, looked at Susie's face with clear eyes, and his small eyebrows frowned tightly. Obviously, the little guy couldn't guess mommy's mind.

The little guy's eyes were so clear that adults couldn't bear to lie to him. Susie paused and finally decided to tell him the truth.

"Rui Rui... Mommy wants to go back to the life with Rui Rui that she hasn't met dad before. How about Rui and Mommy?" Susie asked her heart. She couldn't bear anything?

The little guy blinked. "Mommy, don't we want dad to compare?"

"... Ruirui, we can't depend on dad all our life!" Susie looked at the little guy and touched his head.

"But, Mommy..."

"What are you going to say?" Susie asked softly, trying to take into account the little guy's feelings.

"Dad is better than Ruirui and Mommy. Before, dad was looking for Mommy because he didn't go to work for three days. Dad was so angry..."

"..." the little guy's innocent and pollution-free words made Susie feel overwhelmed.

Has he been looking for her?

What happens when you find it?

"Mommy, daddy plays with ruiruirui, tells stories to Ruirui, sleeps with ruiruirui, and doesn't let other children bully ruiruirui..."

"These mummies can do it!"

"But Dad can teach ruiruirui to play adventure games and have a water war with ruiruirui!"

"... so can Mommy!" why does the little guy only remember Lei Ye's good? Wouldn't she be so kind to him?

Susie is a little unhappy.

"Mommy, but if you leave daddy, Ruirui won't have daddy..."

"You..." Susie paused and looked at the little guy's small eyebrows, which was really pathetic.

Both were silent.

Susie was thinking about how to make the little guy understand a truth: Daddy will leave us one day, and he will have his own life. They still have to live their own life together.

The little guy bowed his head and began to hesitate.

"Mommy... Don't you like Daddy?"

“……”

"Why doesn't Mommy want daddy to compare? Is it because Daddy is not Ruirui's own daddy?" the little guy never forgot that daddy is not his own daddy, but the daddy he met halfway, which is very similar to Uncle Dabai.

"... Ruirui, Mommy will try to give you the best life!" Susie didn't expect that the little guy remembered that Lei Ye was not his biological father. She thought he had forgotten this long ago.

Obviously, after this, the problem will become much easier, but Susie felt more and more frustrated.

However, she did not know what blocked her heart.

"Well... Shall we go and say goodbye to dad?" the little guy knew that Mommy would not change her mind. Although he was very sad, he was still obedient.

She is his dearest Mommy!

"Ah?" Susie was surprised by the little guy's words. "No, no!" not no, but no.

Lei Ye shouldn't let her take the little guy! At least for now, he won't allow Ruirui to leave the Lei family. He hasn't taken over the Lei family's business yet.

"Well, can ruiruirui take away the toys dad bought for Ruirui? In this way, I will take them out to play when I want dad to play, so I won't be sad..."

"Ruirui..."

Susie suddenly couldn't bear it.

Is this little guy so dependent on Lei ye?

"Mommy, I'll be with you..."

"This parent, our activity time is over and we are going back to the classroom. Is there anything we can say in the classroom?" the teacher interrupted the little guy.

Susie turned to the teacher and smiled, "well... No, I'm finished!"

"Well, Ruirui, come here!" the teacher waved to Ruirui.

Susie put down Ruirui and said, "will Mommy pick you up tonight?"

"Mommy, I want to stay with dad for another night. Come and pick me up tomorrow!"

"... OK!"

The little guy turned around and walked to the teacher. The teacher took his little hand and walked forward.

Susie watched the little guy's back disappear into the sun, and her heart was inexplicably melancholy.

On the way back, Susie didn't choose a taxi, but walked a distance.

As she walked, the words and expressions of the little guy appeared in her mind. She actually felt that there seemed to be something wrong with her decision.

"In that case, Ruirui won't be compared with his father..."

This sentence sounded clearly in her mind again, and Susie twisted her eyebrows.

After leaving Lei ye, the little guy can't compare with his father... Can she find a man who loves him as much as Lei ye? She expressed doubts about this.

Unknowingly, I walked to the bus boarding and alighting station, and Susi stood next to it.

She breathed a sigh of relief and finally found a reason to convince herself, "Ruirui, no matter what, he won't be your forever father... So don't blame Mommy!"