Why Did I Become the Villainess?

"Lady Csille!" 

I immediately stand up when I see Princess Roese walking towards me with a wide smile. We have an agreement to meet today. 

"Lady Csille," Princess Roese immediately hugs me. "How are you doing? Do you know how happy I was when I received your letter? My brother even reminds me not to cling to you too much. Is that bothering you?"

I just smile at her. "No, of course not. Come on, let's sit first." I immediately gestured for her to sit in front of me.

We are currently in one of the pastry shops in the Saiven Kingdom. It's been days after the visit, and throughout the days that past all I did was to train and avoid Prince Fraser. It's a good thing Princess Roese sent me a letter yesterday asking if I have time for a meal. So, I take a break from training to enjoy the day with Princess Roese. 

Even the Villainess needs a break too.

Princess Roese looked around me. Probably looking for someone. Rufus perhaps? But Rufus is busy with his training today. I can see that Princess Roese tried to hide the disappointment in her eyes, but she failed to hide it from me.

"Lady Csille, how are you doing? I hope I am not interrupting your training for today. I heard that all the representatives from the other Kingdoms are training rigorously because of the upcoming Competition. Is your training going okay?"

I take a sip of the tea before I answer her. "It is going okay. I was too busy training all day for the Etiquette category. It's a good thing you sent me a letter. I was too bored training for a couple of days now."

"You must really be busy then. I heard from my brother that in every Grand Exemplary Competition, the Vrawyth Kingdom always tops it. All of you are probably training so hard."

I smile at her. Does she want to know about Rufus? "Yes, everyone is busy training for the whole day. Prince Fraser and Sir Farren are always busy training for the Physique category almost every day. Prince Rufus and Senior Leander are both busy reading in the library. They also sometimes train with Prince Fraser and Sir Farren for the Physique category too."

Princess Roese nods her head. She then started to play with the cake I ordered for her. I ordered food for her in case she was hungry. "Is Prince Rufus...okay?"

I smile. I knew it. She wants to know what is happening to Rufus. I take a bite on my prinsesstårta first before answering her. "Prince Rufus? He is okay. I guess?"

After the conversation, I had with Rufus last time. He comes back to his usual self. Happy go luck laid back guy. 

Princess Roese looks at me. "You guess? I thought you were close to him, Lady Csille."

"Yes, I am, but lately, everyone is busy doing their own thing. I don't even know what is happening to my own fiancée. All I know is Rufus is busy training for the Competition." I put the fork down and stared at her. "You really like him that much, huh?"

Princess Roese's face immediately becomes flustered. She then covers her face with her hands. "Lady Csille!"

I just laugh at her. I find her reaction too cute. I thought she was acting before, but now I realize she is truly an innocent girl. A naive one. A type of girl that is gullible. Now I understand why Prince Reeve is always worried about his sister. 

"You don't have to be shy. It's normal to have a crush on someone. I, myself, feel that too."

She takes her hand off her face and leans towards me. "You also feel shy when you're with Prince Fraser?" 

I paused to think. Did I ever feel shy when I was with him? I remember I felt happy interacting with him when I first came here because I could see my own characters in life. And then the happiness turns into frustration because Prince Fraser isn't following the script I made for him. Then it turned to elation when I realized I was starting to have feelings for him. But did I ever feel embarrassed if I was with him? I feel flustered, yes, but not shy.

"Not really. I feel elated when I am with him, but sometimes that elation turns into frustration. Because you know, boys can be frustrating at times." I chuckled.

Princess Roese sighed. "How great it must be to be engaged to someone you like. I envy you, Lady Csille. You are already engaged with the one you like, and he also likes you." 

Oh, girl. Why would you envy someone who will be discarded at the end? I might be Prince Fraser's current fiancée, but it doesn't mean he will end up with me. Prince Fraser is meant for Princess Paislee and no one else. Even if he likes me now, it won't mean anything in the future. 

"But my engagement with Prince Fraser is not official. Also, how come you know about that?" I frown. 

As far as I remember, only the noble families in the Vrawyth Kingdom know about it. How come the Crown Princess of the Saiven Kingdom knows about my engagement with Prince Fraser? 

"You don't know? Everyone knows about your engagement with Prince Fraser. I actually didn't know that it's not official yet. How come it's not official? You two act so sweet that I thought it's official already."

Everyone knows about my engagement with Prince Fraser? Who spread the news? Now that everyone knows it. It will be difficult for Prince Fraser to cancel our engagement in the future. 

Reputation is important in this world. And if Prince Fraser cancels his engagement with me to marry someone else, I'm sure his reputation will definitely be damaged. 

I sigh. I just hope Csille's sin will be enough to forget that Prince Fraser was once engaged with her. Although I know Prince Fraser won't choose me in the end. I still hope that he will be a great King in the future. A King that every Vrawyth will be proud of.

"It's because the King and my Father, the Count, thought that it would be too early for us to be engaged officially. Our parents decided about our engagement when we were nine years old. That's why they decided to announce the official engagement after my coming of age." 

It's a good thing that our parents didn't officially announce our engagement, or else it will be impossible for Prince Fraser to cancel his engagement with me. 

Princess Roese clasps her hands. "I didn't know you were childhood sweethearts. It must be great to have someone like that. Imagine you already know each other since you were young. You both see each other grow and mature. How romantic it could be?" She said dreamily, and I almost wanted to roll my eyes at her.

If she only knew. It's not romantic at all. The young Prince Fraser is sweet, yes, but the current Prince Fraser now is difficult to read. One moment he is sweet, and then one moment, he will be yelling at me. 

Although these past few days, I noticed how Prince Fraser isn't yelling too much. It seems like he matured already. I just hope it continues. Also, I hope his stubbornness will be lessened. Sometimes he can be a pain in the ass because of it.

I take a sip of my tea and laugh. "Not really. I sometimes think I don't know him anymore. The more we get old, the more it feels like we're drifting to each other. Maybe he got tired seeing me." I chuckled. "Although I know it's part of maturing. He cannot always be beside me. Just like how I cannot always be with him." 

Princess Roese looks at me for a couple of minutes. "You probably really like him. I can see that you're sad because of the distance between the two of you, but I can also see that you're happy because he is growing."

She's wrong. I am sad because I know at the end of all of this, Prince Fraser won't choose me. I am happy for him because at least the pain I have cause him through these past few months will be worth it because he will be happy with Princess Paislee. 

A happiness that only her can give.

I shake my head. "Let's not talk about us. Let's talk about you." I smirk at her.

As much as possible, I don't want to talk about him for now. It still hurts me to think that I will not end up with him. 

Princess Roese avoids looking at me. "About me? What do you want to talk about me? There's nothing special about me aside from my title."

"What do you mean there's nothing special about you? You're a nice, kind, and humble person. You're true to yourself, and you're innocent. It's rare to find someone like that now. Most noble ladies I know are full of hypocrisy and schemes. They thought they could do anything because they have their puny titles."

Just by remembering those nobles ladies made me shivered. I don't understand how they can bear to be hypocritical with each other the whole day. 

It's a good thing that the real Csille is not like that. Although she is mean, she isn't the type of person that will pretend she likes someone. If she hates her, she will show it.

I look at Princess Roese and find her face is all red. "Lady Csille, you're flattering me too much. But thank you for the compliments. I didn't know that's how I am for you."

I just smile at her. Her personality traits are actually traits of a potential female lead. A kind princess who is naive with things. A Princess that is loved by everyone. All she needs is her own night in shining armor Prince. 

"You don't need to thank me. I am telling the truth. I know every guy would like to have you as their fiancée."

Princess Roese bows her head. She then starts to play with her fingers. "Do you think Prince Rufus thinks the same way?" She then looks at me.

Rufus? Liking her? The possibility for that is zero. Rufus will only love one person, and that is Princess Paislee and no one else. Although Princess Roese is a nice lady but I doubt if Rufus will like her. And even if I want to matchmake them, I cannot do that. Rufus' role is essential for the development of Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee's relationship. 

I cannot let Rufus likes someone else. Maybe after Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee got married. But for now, I won't let Rufus likes anyone besides Princess Paislee.

I clear my throat. I don't know how to answer her question without hurting her feelings. I sigh. But I don't have any other choice but to answer her. "How can someone not like you? You're a nice lady, Princess Roese. All you need is to spend time with that person, and I'm sure he will like you."

I can see that Princess Roese's eyes become lively after I answer her. "You really thinks so? Do you think Prince Rufus will like me if I start talking to him?"

I smile at her. I cannot tell her that Rufus won't like her no matter what she does. "Maybe yes. Maybe no. We can only know it if you interact with him. But we both know that everyone is busy training for the competition, right? I think it will be difficult to talk to him."

Princess Roese got silent for a moment before she suddenly snapped her fingers. "I know a way to have a chance to talk to him," she beams at me. She really looks happy and excited.

"What do you mean? What way?"

Princess Roese winks at me. She then stands up. "I'm sorry, Lady Csille, but I think I need to go now. I still need to plan what will I do to make Prince Rufus notice me. Thank you for your time Lady Csille. Let's have a conversation like this again."

After saying those words, she immediately rushes out of the pastry shop. She didn't even let me say my goodbyes to her. 

Oh, oh.. Did I make her hope for something that is impossible? I just hope whatever she is thinking, it won't affect the plot.