Why Did I Become the Villainess?

"I don't like her. I only agreed to be her partner because I had no choice. Why do I need to deal with a selfish and immature person like her?"

I feel Csille's body tremble. She covers her mouth and glares at where Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee are standing.

You told me you won't ever hate me, Fraser. But why? Why do you say those words at me behind my back? Do you hate me this much?

Csille glared at Princess Paislee. 

It's his fault. After you met him, everything changes. You started hating me. But why? I am your fiancée, Fraser. Why do you hate me but not him? 

Csille glares at Princess Paislee one last time before she storms off the garden. She immediately went back to the venue and tried her best to control her tears. 

"Purplany, you're here already. Where is my cousin?" He looks at Csille's back and frowns. "Eh? He's not with you? You didn't find him?"

Csille sits on the chair and grabs the glass of alcohol Rufus is drinking. 

"Hey! You can't drink that! You're still young for you to try it!" 

But Rufus' words become futile because Csille doesn't even listen to him. She drinks it in one gulp and rests her head on the table.

It's all useless. Even if I am the most beautiful lady in this world, Prince Fraser still doesn't like me. What's the use of this beautiful face if the only person I want to be charmed by it hates me? What does he want me to do so he could just love me? 

"Uh, Purplany, are you okay?" Rufus asked worriedly.

Csille looks at him and pouts. "Rufus, am I ugly? Why does he hate me?"

I don't know what happened next. Maybe Csille got too drunk because my mind became fuzzy. When I came to my senses, I found myself laying my head on the table. I still couldn't move my body, but I could hear the conversation between Prince Fraser and Rufus. 

"Fraser, what did you do to Csille? Look how messy she looks right now." Rufus asks in annoyance.

"Why are you asking me that question? Who's the one who let her drink like that? Am I? I didn't do anything to him, Rufus." Prince Fraser responds in a cold voice. It's so cold that I can feel shivers on my spine.

Does she hate Csille this much? He isn't worried about his own fiancée? His fiancée got drunk, but he didn't even bother knowing why.

"Aren't you too much? She's your fiancée, Fraser! Have you forgotten that?" Rufus asks in a controlled voice. I can hear a tinge of anger in his voice. 

I feel touched because Rufus really cares for Csille. He even argues with Prince Fraser because of me. He doesn't usually go against Prince Fraser.

"Hey! Can you two chill, or else everyone will know that you're arguing. We don't want everyone to know that, right?" I heard Leander gets in between the two.

I heard someone chuckled. "Yeah, how can I forgot that I am now stuck with her even if I don't want to. I am now engaged with her even if I don't want to. Do you know how difficult it is for me?" I heard his voice break.

I feel my heart shattered to a million pieces because of his words. He doesn't want to be with me? I know I am only the Villainess, and I will never end up with him. But it hurts. It really hurts.

I can feel the real Csille starts to wake up from her nap. She looked up and found Prince Fraser glaring at Rufus. She blinks her eyes. 

"Prince Fraser? Wha—"

Csille's words were cut off because the host said something. "Ladies and gentlemen, the traditional dance is officially started."

Half of the representatives immediately stand up with their partner and start to dance in the middle.

The traditional dance of the Banquet for the Grand Exemplary Competition? It's one of the most awaited events in this competition. They said if you dance with someone here, you'll end up with that someone for sure. 

Csille beams and drags Prince Fraser towards the middle. Prince Fraser was so shocked that's why he didn't react immediately. Csille immediately put one of her hands on his shoulder and took one of Prince Fraser's hands and raised it like they were dancing.

Prince Fraser sighed at her. "What are you doing?" He asked in an annoyed voice.

Csille controls the anger that wants to get off from her mouth. I can feel the surge of emotions from the real Csille. She's mad at the same time, sad. 

"I'm dancing with my own fiancé. Why? Is there something wrong with that, your highness?" 

Prince Fraser stares at Csille for a couple of minutes before he sighs. "This will be the last time I will let you involved me in doing things I don't like."

I can feel a lump on my throat starts to form. Is Csille on the verge of crying? 

The dance didn't last long. After one song, Prince Fraser pulls Csille to our table. He then just sit there as if Csille isn't existing. She tried to talk to him, but he just ended up ignoring her. He only talks to others but not Csille.

Fraser, why are you doing this to me? What did I do to make you hate me? 

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It's already past midnight, and I'm still not asleep. The Banquet ends earlier than a typical party. It ends at nine o'clock in the evening. 

They end the Banquet early because the Competition will officially start tomorrow and we need to wake up early for our matches. It also means the real Csille is the one who will control my body again.

I groan and roll on my bed. It's exhausting being stuck inside Csille's body without having the ability to move. It felt like I was chained, and no matter what, I did, and I could not break it off.

I get up from my bed and walk to the balcony. Everything that happened at the Banquet is what I have written. Prince Fraser getting annoyed with Csille is part of the story.

He couldn't forget how Csille got angry with him because he is close to Sir Farren. He founds it absurd because why would Csille even think something like that? She's jealous over a guy? 

He is also annoyed with her because of her immaturity and selfishness. Csille thought that everything should go on her way, and if not, she would do anything to make it go on her way. Even if she is hurting someone. Just like what she did when Csille talked to Prince Fraser while he was training. The way Csille called Sir Farren as a lowly Knight is really unacceptable for him.

He couldn't believe that the daughter of the Count would act like this. It's as if Csille becomes a different person.

I sigh. That's what I have written in my novel. It's the reason why Prince Fraser said those words about the real Csille. He hated how arrogant and immature Csille was. It's the same reason why he won't like her no matter what. 

"If Csille only knows that her personality is the reason why Prince Fraser won't like her." I look up at the sky. "Will she change just to be love by Prince Fraser?"

I sigh. What's the use of it? Csille Lauretré will always be the Villainess no matter what she does. Even if she changed her personality and all, Prince Fraser wouldn't fall in love with her. 

I gently knock my head. "Wake up, Ysavel. You cannot change Csille's destiny. Prince Fraser and Csille will never end up together."

 "I don't like her. I only agreed to be her partner because I had no choice. Why do I need to deal with a selfish and immature person like her?"

I suddenly remember the words Prince Fraser said. Although the Prince Fraser who said that is the Prince Fraser based on the novel, I still know that there will come a day that Prince Fraser will hate me. Just like how he said.

I feel tears start to fall to my eyes. I cover my eyes with my hand and cry out the pain I am feeling.

I am too dumb to fall for someone who can never be mine. Now, I need to bear with the consequences of my feelings. 

It hurts. It really hurts. It's even painful compared to the time when Jared, my ex in the real world, broke up with me. 

I hug my knees and cry. However, my crying session was interrupted by someone who was knocking on my door. 

I look at the clock. It's already two in the morning. Who is still awake? Should I open it and pretend that I am already sleeping?

"Purplany, I know you are awake. Can I come in? I need to talk to you."

It's Rufus. But what does he wants to talk about? I sigh and open the door at him. Rufus stares at me intently, and he shakes his head. He then takes something out of his pocket. It's a handkerchief. He starts to wipe the tears on my face that I forgot to wipe. "I knew it. You'll be crying." He went inside my room and closed the door. 

I just look at him with teary eyes. Did he come here just to comfort me? Because he knows I will be crying after what happened in the banquet?

Rufus sigh. He then drags me to my bed to sit. He pulled me towards his chest and hugged me. "You can cry it out, purplany. I'm just here for you."

I burst into tears after hearing Rufus' words. Everything that happened today flashed through my memory. Prince Fraser ignoring how I look. Prince Fraser saying he doesn't like me. Prince Fraser not worrying why I cried, and Prince Fraser hating the idea of dancing with me. And it also reminds me how painful it is. To be neglected. To be not wanted. To be hated.

I cling to Rufus's shirt and cry my heart out. It really hurts. It's too painful, as if I am dying right now. 

Rufus caresses my back gently. "Cry it out, Csille. Cry the pain, and I promise you after all of these, you'll feel better." He gently said to me.

I almost laugh because of his words. I will feel better? I doubt that. It's just the start of Csille's torment. It won't get better. Rather, it will become worst for her. 

What can I expect for the Villainess? 

I look up at Rufus. Still sobbing. "Rufus, am I a terrible person?"

Rufus got silent for a moment. He then shakes his head. "You're not. I mean, you can be mean and rude at times, but you're not that bad, Csille. You're just a true person. If you don't like the person, that's when your bad side shows. However, I don't think you're a terrible person, Purplany. Why did you ask that? Did someone said that to you?"

I shake my head and smile sadly. He's right. The real Csille is not a terrible person. She just needs someone to remind her that what she is doing is a mistake, but no one made her realize the mistake she did. It was already too late for her when people remind her about what she is doing.

"Csille, everyone has bad sides. Even the King and the Queen of each Kingdom have bad sides. It's just a matter on how we deal with our own bad sides, and as I can see that you're maturing, Csille. So, don't think like that. You're not a terrible person."

I sigh and lean my head on his shoulders. Although Rufus is younger than my original age, but his mentality is way matured for someone his age. 

 If only I fell for him instead of Prince Fraser. I think it will be better.