Why Did I Become the Villainess?

"Ysavel, Ysavel!"

I open my eyes and feel like something is sucking me. It feels like a vacuum, and I have no choice but to let it.

When I open my eyes, I am already standing in front of the man I was talking to a while ago. I look around, trying to find a way to go back to the real world. I miss Lena. I want to go back now.

"I guess you have decided now, Ysavel. However, I will ask you again. Do you really want to go back and leave all this world behind? I will remind you, Ysavel, although you are the one who made this world, all the people living in here are living beings. If you choose to go back, then you will kill those innocent people, Ysavel. Would you dare to go back?"

What does he mean? All those people I met here are real people? They are not just my characters in the story? If that's the case, if I really go back then.. I shake my head at what I thought.

Would I dare to go back?

"Ysavel, the time is ticking. What will be your choice? Go back now? Are you really sure?"

Memories of my stay in this fictional world suddenly flash to my mind. The time I spent with the Count and the Countess, my parents. The parents I never had in real life. Rufus, Prince Fraser, and Princess Paislee, the friends I made here. Friends that I wouldn't see again if I leave now. Can I really bear to leave them behind and let them died because of my selfishness?

"Ysavel, if you choose to stay, then you will need to finish the whole story as Csille. It also means that you need to be the Villainess of the story. You will hurt all the people you love because of Csille's selfish behavior. Can you bear to do that? To the Count? The Countess? Princess Paislee? Prince Fraser? Will you let the person die? It's all on you, Ysavel. It's all on you."

I take a deep breath. If I choose to stay, then I have no choice but to the villainess? But if I don't, everyone will die in this world.

I don't know what to do. I just want to go back. Please let me back. It doesn't matter where. I just want to get away from this place.

"Okay, you just made your decision, Ysavel. I hope you wouldn't regret it."

I look at the man. Confused. "What do you mean? I haven't even made a decision."

"You already did, Ysavel. You want to go back, right? You want to get out of this place, right?"

"Yes, but I haven't decided what world I want to go back to."

The man chuckles. "Ysavel, the notebook knows. It knows what your heart really wants. You want to go back? It will bring you back. I hope you wouldn't regret the decision your heart made."

"Wait, I still have questions. What do you mean I need to finish the novel as Csille? I still haven't finished writing it-"

"I couldn't answer all your questions, Ysavel. Not right now. But soon. I will just leave you a word. Someone will give you a gift take care of it. I will see you soon, Ysavel Vlahos."

After the man said those words, darkness engulfs the place, and I feel myself floating. Floating? It's feels like there's no gravity.

I tried kicking my feet, but it's no use. I'm still floating. After a minute or so, I feel the gravity came back. It's pulling me, and I feel myself falling.

I'm falling!!

My body jerk and I fell on a soft surface. I open my eyes and sigh. It's the room of Csille on the ship.

I'm back! I choose the fictional world? I sighed. At least, this world wouldn't collapse, and they wouldn't die.

But you need to be a villainess, Ysavel! My mind shouted at me. Yeah, yeah, I have no choice. It's better than to let these people die.

I look around. There's no one around besides me. They are probably busy worried about Farren's health.

I walk out of my room and try to navigate myself through the ship. I haven't got the time to walk around since the moment I step in. I immediately walk straight to my room.

I see some maid walking around. They are agitated. I followed where are they walking and saw that they entered a room. It's probably Princess Paislee's room. She's probably still unconscious now.

When I saw everyone entered the room, I walk towards the room and try to eavesdrop on what is happening inside. However, I couldn't really hear anything. I opened the door slightly, enough for me to hear and see what is happening inside.

I see Prince Fraser sitting beside Farren and holding his hand. Ow, another BL scene? I guess, it isn't that bad to choose this world. I get to see these scenes.

"What did Doctor Marcus said about Farren's condition?" Prince Fraser asks the maid.

"You're majesty, Doctor Marcus said that it's probably the fatigue that's why he loses consciousness. Since Sir Farren just came from surgery, it wouldn't be good to make a long journey. Doctor Marcus said that he just needs some rest, and he will be okay after."

Prince Fraser nods his head and continues to stare at the unconscious Farren. I could see anxiety in his eyes. He is worried about Farren's condition. He is blaming himself now because if not for him, Farren wouldn't be in danger.

I know what he is thinking because I write this. It's the start. Prince Fraser thought that he is just worried about Farren's health because he was saved by him. However, he is wrong. He is worried because he is already starting to like him. Probably not the like he is expecting.

"Please be okay, Farren." He whispered to Farren while holding Farren's hand dearly. Like the one, he is holding is the love of his life. Well, technically, Farren is. But Prince Fraser still doesn't know about this.

I should be happy. I mean, yes, I'm getting flustered with the scene happening in front of me. However, I don't understand why I feel opposite emotions right now. I feel sad. I feel disappointed.

I sigh and take a last look at Prince Fraser and Farren before I walk back to my room.

I don't understand why I am feeling like this. Why am I disappointed? Shouldn't I be happy? I was the one who made them as my lead characters. Shouldn't I be happy because my lead characters are interacting in real life now?

I lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling. Why did I feel like this? Maybe because I miss Lena right now that I become sad when I see him with Farren. At least Prince Fraser has Farren now. But who do I have?

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"Aunt, Uncle, Csille, welcome back home." Brother Pascal welcomes us with a big smile.

We just arrived from the six hours sail. Prince Fraser was sent home in the Palace straight from the port. I didn't have a chance to talk to him. Although I don't really plan to talk to them for now.

Brother Pascal helps us with our baggage. "I've prepared your room and a feast for your homecoming. Come inside, so you could take some rest. I know you are all tired because of the long sailing."

"I hope we didn't bother you, Pascal." Mother clings her arms on Brother Pascal's one arm. While they walk inside our house.

I followed them behind and slumped my body on the couch. I still feel tired and exhausted. It's not because of the trip. I know it. It's because I couldn't control my body the last time.

"Are you okay, Csille? You look drained." Brother Pascal walks towards me and checks my pulse. He then put his hand on my forehead. "You have a fever. When did you start having it?"

Brother Pascal looks at my parents. Mother instantly walks to my side and touches my forehead. "Oh dear, you really have a fever. She didn't have a fever when we were on the ship. However, she isn't feeling good the whole trip. She was sleeping most of the time we're sailing. Is she okay?"

Brother Pascal looks at me. "I'll just prescribe her medication for her fever and some vitamins. She just needs to rest."

Mother asks some maids to walk me through my room, but I refused. It's been a long time since we have a meal together with Brother Pascal.

"I can handle it. How could I bear not to attend this feast? Mother, father, please. It's been a long time since we all eat together."

Mother and father look at each other before they ask for Brother Pascal's opinion.

"If it just the feast. It will be okay. She also needs to feel his tummy before taking her medication."

My parents just agree then. They are probably just worried about my health. Who wouldn't? I am their only daughter, and it will kill them both if something happens to me.

We all walk towards the dining hall happily. Father and Brother Pascal are both catching up with what happened in the capital and in our stay in the western region.

Mother is by my side. Assisting me although I don't really need so. I sigh in my heart. If I didn't choose this world, then these amazing people will die because of me. The family that I never had in the real world. Good thing I made the right decision.

"Oh, I remember." Brother Pascal then calls one of our maids, and they bring a piece of paper. "It's a letter from the Vrawyth High School of the Nobles. It's Csille's subject and lesson plan. The teachers also send school papers that she needs to study and answer. She didn't need to go back to the university and could enjoy one week of stay here as long as she does what is written in this paper. They also included the one month absence of Csille in this."

I stopped eating and looked at the paper Brother Pascal is holding. Are you serious? I am still having a fever here, and now I need to finish all the things written on the paper? Do they want me to die? Come on, give me a break!

Father took the paper and read its content. "This is good. At least Csille could recuperate with this one week. And bout this, we could just hire a tutor to teach our Csille these. It would be easy."

Father? Are you serious? That's a month of school works and lessons? How could I finish it in just one week? I'm also sure, it's not just lessons. It probably includes tests. How could I survive this?

Can I say I regret my decision now? Jeez, it's like when I was studying in the real world. But it's probably worst because it's one month of school work. How can I finish it? I think these school works will finish me before I could even finish them.

Mother holds my hand. "Don't worry, dear. We wouldn't force you to do these things. Just rest first and recuperate with your fever before you do these, okay?"

I nod my head at mother and continue eating my food. I don't think I could get over this fever. I hope not. Please, no!

"I heard the Crown Prince would be staying in the Capital too for three days before he gets back in the dormitory." Brother Pascal said.

Three days? I remember now. He will stay in the capital because the King said so. The King is still worried about the safety of his only heir. Because of this, he will test the waters first before letting Prince Fraser go back.

Within these three days, the King will also bestow Farren a knight position. And after the King personally sees the abilities and skills of Farren, he will then assign Farren as the royal guard of the Crown Prince.

And this is when the love story of Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee will start. A love story without me, Csille Lauretré, because I am the third party. I am the villainess.