Why Did I Become the Villainess?

Chapter 364 : Worries

A day has passed, and the whereabouts of the three leads are still unknown. Father sent an update this morning and informed us that they still haven't found any of the three. So, they are planning to search each and every nook of the forest to find them.

Ever since we received the news, all I ever did was walk around the house, trying to calm myself down. However, no matter what I did, I couldn't help but worry about them. I was about to walk outside our garden when I heard the conversation of the maids.

"What do you think have happened to his highness, Prince Fraser and Prince Rufus? Do you think they are still safe?"

"Safe? I don't want to say this, but I think they are not. You know the skills of Prince Fraser and Prince Rufus, even Sir Farren's skill is unparalleled. They will immediately finish all their enemies and return home. I think the reason why they haven't returned yet is because someone or all of them are in a perilous situation."

I heard a gasp after, and then their voices became soft. They probably don't want anyone to hear their conversation. "Do you mean their life might be in danger now?"

"Yes, do you really think his highness will stay outside, knowing how dangerous it is? The reason why he is still outside is that he might be injured right now, and he doesn't have any choice. Or worst..."

"Are you saying there's a possibility that his highness is already dead?"

I cover my mouth and shake my head. No! He is not! How can the male lead die? It cannot be! I lean on the wall and close my eyes. My mind then starts playing the scene where Prince Fraser, Rufus, and Princess Paislee are lying lifelessly on the ground. Their blood dyed the ground red. I shake my head repeatedly. No! It cannot be! How can they die? The story hasn't even reached its climax? How can it end like that?

I was too engrossed with my thoughts that I didn't notice that I was already gasping for air while sobbing. I feel a hand touch my head. I look up and find Mother looking at me worriedly. It was only then I managed to hear what was happening around me.

"My dear, what happened? Why are you crying?" She then guides me to sit on the sofa. "Csille, what happened?"

I shake my head and just hug her. I don't even know why I am crying right now. I don't know if it's because Prince Fraser and the other probably died already or because I know what will be the consequences of their death. But no matter what, all I know is I am currently in pain just by thinking about it. I feel Mother gently caress my back while saying things to calm me down. "My dear, tell me what happened. Why are you crying? It hurts me to see you like this."

I hug Mother tightly. "Mother, what if... what if the reason why they can't find Prince Fraser and the rest is because they already left this world? What—"

All the words I wanted to say were cut short when Mother broke off from the hug and stared at me with horror. "Csille! How can you say something like that about your fiancée? Do you want to get widow immediately?"

There is a saying in the Vrawyth Kingdom that talking about one's husband's death is a bad omen. Because most of the time, it usually happens. I shake my head. I know Mother said that because she is worried about me. After all, once a lady gets married or engaged at the least, it will be difficult for her to remarry again. So, it's really a rule for any ladies not to spout anything about their husband's death.

"Mother, I don't want to. How can I wish for his highness death? I just..." I shake my head. "I just couldn't help but think, what if..." I feel my voice trembles. "What if something already happened to them? What will I do, Mother?"

Mother got silent for a moment before I heard her stand up, and a second after, the lamp was turned off. I softly heave a sigh of relief. I open my eyes, and darkness welcomes me again. The only light in my room is the moonlight that is passing through my window.

I look at Mother, who is now sitting beside me. "Thank you, Mother."

"Are you okay, Csille?"

Am I okay? I smile bitterly. How can I be okay knowing my life is hanging by a thread? But I know I couldn't tell that to her.

"I am okay, Mother. Don't worry about me." Mother gently caress my head. "My dear, you don't have to pretend if you are not okay. I am your Mother. Do you think I wouldn't know you are lying?"

If she knows, why does she still ask about it? I didn't say anything and remained quiet. How should I respond to that? Admit that I am not okay? Wouldn't that worry her? I heard Mother heaves a sigh. "I know you don't want to worry me, but it will worry me more if you keep lying to me about what you are feeling. I want to know how you are doing, Csille. I want to know what you are feeling."

I get up from lying and stare at Mother. She wants to know what I am feeling? I am dead worried about the three Royalties. But what can I do? What can we do? I shake my head. "I am okay, Mother. Does Father send an update already?"

Mother got silent for a couple of seconds. She is probably contemplating if she should pursue the conversation about how I feel.

I heard her sigh after. "Your Father hasn't sent any updates. Maybe they are still busy searching for the three of them. Don't worry. I'm sure once he finishes his work for today, he will immediately update us."

Does it mean they still haven't found the three royalties? But if they don't, doesn't the chance of finding them decrease every hour? "Mother, what if... What if it's too late already—"

Mother gasp. "My dear, what are you talking about? We already talk about this earlier, right? Take your words back. Nothing will happen to them, okay? They are probably just hiding somewhere."

I shake my head. I know it's not good to be pessimistic in this kind of situation. But how long are we going to keep denying the fact that there are people who want to harm the Crown Prince? If the Vrawyth Kingdom doesn't have any heir to the throne, it means...

I stare at Mother. "Mother, until when we are going to refuse the possibility that maybe... maybe they were already gone? Do you think his highness will keep lurking outside if he already knows it's dangerous? We also know how many guests have arrived in the Vrawyth Kingdom already, and some of them are nemesis. Do you think they wouldn't grab the chance to harm the Crown Prince?"

Mother got silent for a moment. She's probably thinking about what I have said. She knows there's a big possibility that what I am saying might be true.

A moment after, I saw her shake her head. "Csille, don't speak like that again, okay? Especially if you are with other people."

I heave a sigh. In the end, she still dismissed the idea. Although I don't want to think that way, I couldn't help it. It's been two days already, and we still haven't heard a thing about the three royalties. My mind couldn't stop but think about what could have happened to them. "Mother, when can I join the search? I couldn't stand staying here anymore. I don't want to just wait for updates about them. I want to help them search for his highness. I want to look for them too. So, please, Mother. Allow me."