Why we meet so late

After dinner, Li shunmin took my hand and asked me to take him to see my mother.

"Grandfather, I'll call my mother first." I'm really not sure if my mother would like to see Li shunmin. It's a complex feeling. I'm not my mother. It's also respect to call her. She and I, in the long years, the most lacking is two words... Respect.

Fortunately, she and I have really settled our differences. It's really not easy“ Grandfather, just a moment. "

I picked up my cell phone and thought about it. I went to the back garden and dialed my mother. Before I spoke, my stomach cooed a few times. It was hungry. I have a good appetite recently. I can eat a lot at every meal. To be honest, today's lunch didn't arouse my appetite at all. It's not just coarse grains, it's also bad sweet potato wine.

I think people who cook in old houses should not make coarse grains for a long time, so their skills are very poor. But I'm not in the mood to eat, either. My focus is on communicating with my grandfather. During the dinner, my grandfather did not ask about Li Shaoqiu. Well, I can't hide it. My grandfather will know sooner or later. It's just that Li Shaoqiu is dead, so he must not be able to repay the large sum of money he owes his grandfather.

At this time, I am not sure what kind of feelings my grandfather has for Li Shaoqiu. It's just the love lost relationship that we can talk about? Or something else? I don't know anything about that. My mom's cell phone is on. She responded to me in the first place. It's like, she's been waiting for my call, she knows, I'll call.

I haven't explained it in detail. My mother first told me that she speaks very fast. It seems that she has considered these words and memorized them subconsciously, so she speaks very fluently“ I know what you're going to say. Mom doesn't want to see anyone today, but you can. Some words, you say for mom. Anyway, you are my daughter, you say, or I say, it's the same. "

I am bored for a while, the tone is astringent: "but the person that grandfather wants to see is you. You are his only daughter after all

My mother stopped: "I said, not in recent days. I've never met him. I can tell by a picture left by your grandmother. I have... No feelings at all for him

"I understand, I know..." my tone is a little urgent, "but emotion can be cultivated..."

"Yes, feelings can be cultivated. But it's too late for me. To be honest, I'd rather not know him, I'd rather not know him all my life, I'd rather he died in a foreign country. In this way, my heart can be calm. In my life, it is because of the absence of the role of father that I have gone through so many detours... "

She said this, a long sigh, tone, showing regret for the past.

"Mom, you really don't want to see me?"

"I'll talk about it in a few days. You have to give me a buffer."

I feel a little sorry for her. If she would appear in front of me, I would hug her hard. It's like, what I'm holding is not my mother, but a sister of mine, a sister in need of comfort and help in conflict.

Mother, sometimes, and we are sisters.

Mother, although older than us, but sometimes more vulnerable than us.

"All right." I know I can't force her.

She is nearly 50 years old, but she has been living like a young girl, not knowing the hardships of the world. Until now, she has just come to the top of her mind, as if to understand that people's life is not only to enjoy, but also to pay their own responsibilities.

Even if a woman is weak, she must shoulder her own responsibility.

"Thank you." My mother Wang Huilin said thank you to me for the first time. I was a little surprised, but slightly moved.

She is now, in personality, on an equal footing with me.

To be honest, this state of equality makes me feel comfortable.