Will Of Chaos

A day has passed since Vallar left saying that he would ask the God of Spirits for guidance on what to do. 

I took advantage of this time to read books about Spirits, everything that happened on this mission made me realize that deeper knowledge was necessary, what encouraged me to do this was precisely the Spiritual Source ability of the Chaos Element. 

I didn't know anything about this ability and Nix didn't know anything, my sisters might know something, but I don't like to turn to them about everything, so I tried looking for it myself and discovered that there is no mention of Power Sources of any element. 

I searched the entire library until the moment I had another attack, my entire body was vibrating, this time I could more clearly feel my body moving as if trying to find an ideal position, even my mind was a little confused while trying to coordinate the flow of information that my new perception brought to me. 

In the end, I had 3 attacks throughout that day, always with the same symptoms but with each attack the symptoms were milder. 

Today I was checking on Freya, I thought I would spend a few hours alone with her, I was very worried about the state she was in, but that's when someone came in, someone I recognized. 

"Good to see you again, Zenos." (Stella) 

"It's my pleasure, Stella." (I) 

"Does Nyx know you're here?" (I) 

"Yes, I arrived through the Spiritual Gate, she asked many questions, some of these questions are the same ones that you also seek the answers to." (Stella) 

"Vallar sent you?" (I) 

"No, I volunteered, I was lucky to be nearby when Vallar went to meet the Spirit God." (Stella) 

"I may be relatively young compared to other Spirit Kings, but I possess more knowledge by retaining the memories of my previous life and the life before I was Mother of Nix." (Stella) 

"You know what I'm going to ask, so let's leave that question for later, tell me the reason for the God of Spirits' absence." (I) 

"For the last 43 years he has been creating something, a Divine Weapon capable of withstanding his full power." (Stella) 

"I thought all the Gods..." (I) 

"It may seem like that, but it's not that simple, compatibility is very important as is the intention which later becomes the will which in the end will become the essence of the Divine Weapon." (Stella) 

"The Essence of a Divine Weapon is your Soul or if you prefer, your consciousness, you created yours in a rudimentary and primitive way, which does not make your Divine Weapon faulty, but the God of Spirits needs something much more refined and precise like he is one of the Great Gods." (Stella) 

"I think I understand..." (I) 

I had noticed the lack of this God a long time ago because I have found many Gods until now, but I didn't find the God of Spirits either when I saved Nix or when he left me with this last mission. 

I even tried to pray to him in the Temple, I did it yesterday without getting any results, it was clear that the God of Spirits did not want to contact me or could not contact me, at least now I know that it is not the first option. 

Sigh 

"Can you tell me something about that?" (I) 

"..." (Stella) 

I raise my right arm showing the marks or tattoos that appeared on my body after integrating the Divinity Fragment with me. 

"There's not much to say, the Fragments of Divinity 80% of the time correspond to the essence of universal laws, of those Universes that were destroyed or from where the Evil Gods fled, the Essence of these places does not correspond to that of our Universe causing it to break." (Stella) 

"Cases of Deities from this universe breaking into Deity Fragment are rarer, usually associated with the death of a God." (Stella) 

"When a Divine being finds these Divinity Fragments they must first find out if they are compatible, for example, the Goddess of Life would not be able to do anything with a Divinity Fragment of Death." (Stella) 

"But if the Goddess of Life finds a Nature Divinity Fragment she would be able to refine it using her Life Essence, thanks to this this Fragment would become Nature Essence in accordance with our Universe." (Stella) 

"But in my case that didn't happen, or at least that wasn't the only thing that happened." (I) 

"This is due to your Chaos Power, something transitory, something between creation and destruction, Chaos cannot create something perfect or completely destroy something." (Stella) 

"That makes sense..." (I) 

"You have high compatibility with many Divinity Fragments because of your power, but not all of them will be compatible with each other, so be careful in the future." (Stella) 

"Thank you for telling me so much." (I) 

I was in doubt about this, the Spirit Divinity Fragment had turned into a Spiritual Essence of the Chaos Element, it didn't make sense with everything I had learned so far from Elizabeth. 

"I want to know more about the Spiritual Element of Chaos, I've never heard of this element." (I) 

"Why does this element not exist, Chaos itself is an ethereal type of unique energy like Blood Energy, Life Energy, Death Energy, Holy Power, and Demonic Energy." (Stella) 

"All these forms of pure energy can be represented as single elements, there are Demon Spirits, Blood Spirits, and even Death Spirits, none of them are normal becoming Single Element Spirits." (Stella) 

I already knew some of them, Nix for example has the Unique Element of the Moon and there are Blood Spirits that were born in my Dungeon. 

"The Chaos Element is something that does not exist or should I say did not exist until now, thanks to you Spirits of Chaos must begin to exist, not even the God of Spirits knows what they will be like, but he is very happy." (Stella) 

"So what should I do?" (I) 

"You don't need to do anything, you created a new Universal Law, you brought a new essence into existence." (Stella) 

"What you have been going through, this suffering that Nix told me about, is actually the Chaos Element still synchronizing with the universe, I can feel it and I understand what is happening, so I am explaining that in the next few days, everything will be fine and you may proceed with Nix's Divine Awakening." (Stella) 

"Do you know anything about this Divine Awakening or this Chaos Element Spiritual Source ability?" (I) 

These are my biggest doubts, I didn't know what to think about these two things, I'm afraid of doing something unknown with Nix and more afraid of a skill that I can't even understand what it does. 

"The Source of Power is what it says, you are the source of this element, your Aura spreads this Element wherever you go, the God of Spirits is the Source of Spiritual Energy itself, he also has children who are Minor Gods who are Sources for all the various Spiritual Elements of Nature such as Fire, Wind, Thunder and so on." (Stella) 

"You and probably Nix will soon be Sources of the Spiritual Element of Chaos, Infant Spirits mature and are born in environments with Spiritual Energy, those who remain close to you for long periods of time will become Spirits of Chaos." (Stella) 

"..." (I) 

"You must also know that you will need to do some things, the universe has an eternal balance, something you have broken, so you must acquire the Source of the Ki Element of Chaos and the Source of the Mana Element of Chaos, the trinity of Nature must maintain the balance." (Stella) 

"Wait! You mean the Universe is at risk because of me?" (I) 

"No, at least not yet, but if you become a God one day or many Chaos Spirits are created, it will cause a great imbalance in nature, in fact, you will soon feel this imbalance around you on a reduced scale." (Stella) 

"The Gods will give you an opportunity to fix this in your missions since the alternative would be to kill you." (Stella) 

"(Why can't I stay out of trouble for a damn second!?)" (I) 

"(I was just curious if I could acquire the Divinity Fragments, I wanted to be stronger so I wouldn't be afraid of the Church of Light anymore!)" (I) 

"(I never wanted to disrupt the Universal Laws or whatever those damn Divine rules are!)" (I) 

Sigh 

"It looks like it's going to be a difficult time..." (I) 

I didn't like knowing this at all, but I can associate it with some things, most of the universe has what is called an energy flow that connects each Galaxy and each Planet made of raw energy from the 3 Energies of Nature, also all Planets have a flow of Energy that is divided into several elements for each of the 3 types of energy in nature, Mana, Ki, and Spiritual Energy. 

These three energies are in balance because they have the same elements in the 3 variations, but now I have created a new element in just 1 of these energy strands, I understand the logic, but I don't want to face Evil Gods. 

"I have the gift of the God of Spirits for having fulfilled your mission so perfectly, take..." (Stella) 

"Wait! Wait! Wait!" (I) 

"This is not the kind of thing you give as a gift!!!!" (I)