Yu Xingyue Hunts the Evil Me

"I said...It is against human nature to take pleasure in one's own pain and the beauty of others."

"you..."

Lai Yue Subaru's eyes widened and he stared at the young man in front of him. At this moment, his mind was almost blank.

"do you know?"Lai Yue Subaru's voice trembled.

He could not tell others about his return from death, which was one of the sources of Lai Yue Subaru's pain.

No matter what feats he had done that were beyond the reach of ordinary people, he had endured pain that was unbearable for ordinary people, and he had sacrificed so much for ordinary people, No one knows the price that cannot be paid.

Silent dedication is not worth promoting. Others just accept it with peace of mind. This is a trampling on dedication.

"If you are referring to the abnormality in you, I do know"

"In fact, if you observe carefully, you can quickly find clues about something strange about you. After all, you still don't know how to hide yourself."

After receiving the confirmation, Laiyue Subaru couldn't be more excited. He subconsciously wanted to talk, but thinking of the death that controlled his unexplainable return of death, Laiyue Subaru shut his mouth again. He still couldn't speak on his own. The truth cannot be revealed, but at least someone knows his situation and everything he has been through.

"I paid a lot...."Lai Yue Subaru's eyes are a little red

"Such dedication is not worthy of praise, Lai Yue Subaru."

But looking at Lai Yue Subaru's appearance, Feng Jianxi still didn't say some words.

"But no matter what, you did change something and saved some people."

"Although doing these things caused me extreme pain, it would be too cruel if I was ridiculed for the result of my desperate efforts."

"Is this your comfort? Kazama, you don't know how to comfort people at all."Lai Yue Subaru wiped the corners of his eyes.

Feng Jianxi shook his head:"In my perception, including this time, you have only returned three times. But there are certainly more to come back than that."

Feng Jianxi spoke. Words can soothe the soul, and they can also be used to test.

Lai Yue Subaru's ability to return to the past through death has certain limitations.

Lai Yue Subaru cannot take the initiative to speak out his ability, and directly speak out. His own power is prohibited. As for indirectly revealing his own power, it is probably impossible if he has his own"subjective" will.

If he wants to know Laiyue Subaru's ability, he must either use the book in Roswaal's hand. The gospels that can make predictions either follow Lai Yue Subaru and make inferences through the abnormal details of his behavior, rather than Lai Yue Subaru himself revealing the power of death. For now, at least this is allowed. The scale did not publicize Lai Yue Subaru's abilities, nor did he directly tell Lai Yue Subaru that the specific manifestation of power was allowed.

After spitting out the word 'return', Lai Yue Subaru did not appear abnormal. Feng Jianxi did not feel any danger in this place, which allowed Feng Jianxi to determine a relatively wide threshold area for information exchange.

After confirming this matter, Feng Jianxi continued to speak:

"Giving up is easy - I wouldn't say that to you. Because judging whether giving up is easy requires knowing the effort before giving up."

Feng Jianxi lowered his voice:

"Lai Yue Subaru, you are a talented person"

"Even if you can't appeal to other people's abilities, they are talents you have mastered."

"Many people decide the direction of action because of their talents. Just do what you are good at and you will be successful easily."

"But if you rely solely on talent to do something, although you can succeed, it is not necessarily a good thing. Too much is not enough, anything exceeding a certain limit will have negative consequences"

"The same is true for talent. When applied beyond a certain limit, it will kill your own ideas and set you on a fixed path."

"‘The idea that you should do something is wrong. When you see a tragic ending, you have the ability to change it, so you should do it, even if you die."

"If it really comes to this, that person is doomed."1

"We must save because we can save. This is not greatness and kindness, but arrogance and hypocrisy."1

"Do you understand this? In my opinion, you were very arrogant many times before."

Feng Jianxi's words were like a hammer hammering in his heart.

Are you hypocritical and arrogant?

Because you have the ability to return after death, you should do something.

When Roswaal was there before, Rem After being plotted by the Demon Beast user and dying, he stood up bravely. When he chose to commit suicide, he really thought that he should do something when he saw Ram's anger, so he thought that he should save Rem. Come back.

Indeed, maybe he has had an arrogant attitude since then.

Feng Jianxi's analysis of him seemed to be accurate, but Lai Yue Subaru had an impulse in his heart. Maybe he did deviate from his original idea..

But the idea at the beginning was not that

I should do something, but that I wanted to help Emilia. This was the original motivation for my actions even now....

I chose to give up, but there was still some wavering and reluctance in my heart. Is the reason for such wavering and reluctance stemming from the inability to give up the ability to return after death?

No, it's not that.

It's because, even now, I still haven't given up on the idea of helping the girl.

After understanding this point, Lai Yue Subaru suddenly became enlightened.

"Really..."

"Obviously you are trying to persuade me to give up, but now I suddenly don't want to give up."

Lai Yue Subaru stood up from the steps.

"Kazama, you are right, I am indeed proud���of. It's clear that using my ability is painful, but I still use it. In the end, I blame all the pain on the ability itself. This is indeed arrogant."

"However, wanting to stand by Emilia's side is not arrogance, but a desire from the heart."

"Starting from this point, continuing to rush to dangerous places and continuing to use this ability will be self-inflicted. I understand this. But now I want to try again."Lai Yue Subaru swept away the haze and spoke.

Then, he met Feng Jianxi's gaze.

This gaze made Lai Yue Subaru very uncomfortable.

"Kazama?"Lai Yue Subaru asked tentatively.

Feng Jianxi shook his head.

"You were thinking about something just now."

Feng Jianxi did not deny:

"It's nothing, I just think of my hometown and my brother."12