Zerg Swinger

"September 12. The sky is overcast, the night turns to light rain

It has been a long time since that nightmare. Recently, I feel restless, and I woke up in the dead of night, sweating profusely.

Only the light can calm me down, and the light keeps the darkness out, just like his sunlight takes me out of the clouds.

He was lying next to me, always sleeping soundly. Since he was pregnant, he has been a good night's sleep. I don't have to worry about waking them up.

Yes, I like to use "them" as we are about to welcome a new member. Maybe this new member will sleep soundly at night like my love.

This reminds me of last summer’s sultry night. I came home late. I forgot to bring my key. I knocked on the door and knocked on the window. Even our neighbor woke up and came out to watch what happened. Do not wake up.

The next day I asked him if he heard anything. But he said that he slept well at night and did not hear any sound.

I made fun of him several times about it, and he was still carefree. I am afraid that only a person like him can bear a sensitive and fragile person like me.

Today we talked about naming. He said that he hoped to name the child Hai, and wished him to be as profound and broad as the sea.

No matter how vast the sea is, it is still bound by gravity. I hope he is like the sky, free to go to the place he likes and do what he likes as he pleases. "

"November 13. The morning falls and the snow is clear, and the breeze

I have no desire to write for half a month, restless, I don't know if it is because of cooling, disturbed work and rest, lack of energy.

After learning that he was pregnant, I changed this diary and wanted to give it to him as a gift when the child was born. I am really ashamed that there are only a few pages in my diary.

He said he wanted to participate in the new mission of the army, for fear that I would object, he deliberately came up with a cut first and then played, but he really couldn't help it.

This mission is a pure new star exploration. It needs to pass through the Crowbasse star field, which is famous for education. I guess he wants to use public favors to buy something for his children. After all, the financial ability at home is still not enough to support Interstellar travel.

For some reason, I was anxious and didn't want him to leave. Maybe it's the birth of a child, I'm too nervous, I always look like this on weekdays.

May it be good. "

"1.3 He's gone, he's gone, never see him again"

"February 3

Morning and dusk turned upside down, and I don't know what eve tonight when I wake up.

Dreams, weak body, cold body, and tears.

He stood on the other side of the Styx, no matter how he called, he didn't see him respond.

Gou has lived so far, I should be grateful to God, because I am not a person in this world.

Not only do I not know the thanks, but instead resent God, it is time to punish me.

But why should this punishment fall on him?

Why not take my life?

Is it just because of that ridiculous, ridiculous experimental project?

Ridiculous, ridiculous! "

"March 1. There is sunshine

The things that had been obliterated in adolescence were pulled out one by one from the corner of memory. I thought I had forgotten it, but it suddenly became like yesterday.

I was born in a laboratory, where there are only two kinds of people, the experimenter and the subject.

The experimenter, always top hat, mask, gloves, white coat, always has a command sentence in his mouth.

Participants are, in the biological sense, countless people who are exactly the same as me, with the same face, the same voice, and the same DNA.

They are holding knives and we are fish.

Yes, I am a clone, and I was born as a laboratory mouse.

My original body is Song Huidan, the male son of the new technology era.

They firmly believed that Song Huidan's political success in those days must be because of his ability to manipulate and peek into the hearts of people, which made all the Zerg people crazily convinced him, and this ability exists in his brain.

The experimenter didn't mind that we knew our origins, and Song Huidan's portrait was hung in the corridor. After all, in their eyes, human clones exist only to conduct brain experiments to explore how the most mysterious brain produces this ability.

Song Huidan's body was frozen in ice, and the experimenter extracted genes from him to clone a white mouse for experiment.

The experimenters are all females. They look down on males and don't think that males will have higher intelligence than females. They made me think that the outside world is that females are higher than males.

The males have board and lodging in one place, and call each other by numbers, I am number 74.

The regularity of the visits of the experimenters, each person will inevitably take away two or more males. As the experimental group and the control group, few males can come back intact.

It's slightly different from other males, I even like to ask why, even if I get reprimanded and corporal punishment, I still don't change it.

Every clone is a precious non-renewable resource. Good steel must be used on the blade. They cannot hurt my body outside the laboratory.

I knew their bottom line a long time ago, so I acted recklessly.

Before long, I was taken away by a high-level experimenter.

In the laboratory, he flipped through my test records and asked me, why are you more like Song Huidan than the clone outside? No, you are better than him, and he can't achieve your achievements at your age.

He separated a small group of males and used them to imitate my daily behavior, but there was no second person like me.

As the experiment progressed, the words I accidentally revealed made the senior experimenters more and more convinced that I was the unique candidate they needed.

A person who has the ability to manipulate the mind.

Because I was too special, the experimenter who studied the mystery of the ability to "manipulate the human heart" through anatomy did not dare to stab me easily.

Only when I became an adult, my brain development stopped, and then the next batch of "white mice" could be cloned through my cells.

In the area of ​​the laboratory building, I became the freest one. Every female could not hurt me, but also protected me.

The male sons with other numbers, that is, "Hassan Song", secretly denigrated and excluded me. They think that I am a different kind, but everyone knows that we are all different kinds.

The introduction text under Song Huidan's portrait is written in Pinyin, and the women firmly call him in the same manner as when the females were dominant 200 years ago: Hassan Song.

When I was in the laboratory building like a sponge absorbing water and absorbing outside knowledge, the male sneaked away. It is said that he ran to the residential area outside the laboratory building. Later, he was shot to death by armed men, just like an unused male who had been dissected. Enter the lower incinerator for harmless treatment, and finally put it into the sewer that discharges garbage between the buildings.

I am curious about the world of knowledge, and my indifferent attitude towards clones, on the contrary, I have gained the trust of senior experimenters. He occasionally confided in useless complaints with me.

After a few times, I found out, and I reminded him of his child.

That kid was Kirsty Lane, the posthumous son of his late husband. He told those trivial things over and over again, and I read my book casually.

Later, I met Kosty, and he was well protected, not knowing the sinister world. I naively thought that this institute only exists for scientific research.

With the acquiescence of the senior experimenter, I was sneaked away several times by Kirsty.

This stupid kid, Kirsty, thought he had slipped very successfully. He didn't know that there were more than a dozen armed men equipped with advanced weapons and well hidden behind him. Once I had any intention to escape, I would kill him on the spot.

But, for the last time, Costi took me away without following the armed men. At first I thought it was a test, and I observed it in detail for a long time. I didn't know my opportunity had come until I saw the laboratory building burning in the fire and the explosion sounded across the sky.

I left Costy and ran forward blindly. I dared not stay where I was, and I dared not call out loudly, for fear of where they would emerge from, and then catch me back, and wait for them to become fish on their chopping board in adulthood. Let it be slaughtered.

I observed the crowds for three days, and then I dared to go deeper after making sure that there was no danger.

When they found out that I was a male, I thought I was going to be beaten to death by a tall female, but they sighed and said: How can the male worm be reduced to this point?

It took a long time for me to realize that the outside world is different from the laboratory building.

At that time, I thought there would be no more tragedies in my life, but in the end, it just came a little later.

Looking back over my life repeatedly, I hope to find out what mistake caused his departure. The deeper I dig, the more I feel that my survival was a mistake. It was I who killed him and caused him to be young but never see his family again.

If you don’t meet, you won’t know each other. If you don’t know each other, you don’t want to love. If you don’t love each other, you can...

I can not do it. "

"April 18th. Heavy rain

I used to be afraid of nightmares at night, but now he no longer enters my dreams. Does God deprive me of the only chance to see him? "

"May 1st. The sun shines brightly

I saw him holding our baby and said to me, come on, our family will leave you. "

"May 4th. Overcast

The weather was bad, but I was in a particularly relaxed mood. When I saw Kirsti, he was almost unfamiliar without cooking for a long time.

Costi and I said that he is going to take a doctorate in biology, and that the new direction of scientific research is cognitive science. By recruiting experimenters to experimentally study the working mechanism of the brain or mind, compared with the barbaric behavior that only knows to do craniotomy before. Much better.

After listening to him talk about many new experimental instruments, such as X-rays, it is possible to know which areas of the brain have which functions.

I can't remember too much, I am very excited today.

When I give him the so-called "manipulation of human mind" ability to take notes over the years, I will be completely free.

But you must not let Lake see that he would be jealous.

I will give him this diary in it too, lest Lake think I have anything to do with him.

I miss you so much, Lake. "

"May 6th. Sunny, 20℃-29℃

I stayed here for two more days, but learned of his death.

The valuable information he gave me became an isolated copy, and I could even hide it and sign my own name.

The person who talked and laughed with me the day before yesterday, how can I go?

Emotions are really incomprehensible things that can make one person die for another.

Forget it, let me study the relationship between cognition and behavior.

In order not to contaminate his handwriting, I can only write this article on paper and place it in this book.

What is the picture?

Kirsty Polly's 25-year-old book"