Evil Emperor Zun

Chapter 1580
"You have seen how others treat you and me just now! You are a human being and I am not a human being."

"You still said that your experience is similar to mine. If you are in our class, you are the kind of girl that I can't even envy, okay? Everything is good, and someone is chasing you, the first echelon. What do you want? Understand me, fake or not, it's even more fake than those salesmen on the street calling me beautiful."

Yi Xin was a little helpless to find that what she said was actually revealing a "miserable" taste.She can't allow other people to be more miserable than herself, and it's sad when she thinks about it, because she is inferior in everything and is despised into the dust. The only thing that can make her rank ahead of others is that her campus life is worse than everyone else. Be miserable.Therefore, she has to keep this "leading advantage" in everything, how pitiful and sad it is.

"You don't understand how I have come here for so many years! I have done nothing wrong, but because of this face, everyone treats me as a monster! I usually sit there in the class without any trouble. Whoever didn't provoke anyone, someone would suddenly come and beat me for no reason. Some people cut my hair and laughed behind me while cutting it!"

"When we do experiments in class, we have to divide into two groups. I will always be the one left! Every time! Every time! I will be left behind! Then the instructor will randomly call someone to be my partner, and the whole class will Laughing at him, as if he's so unlucky!"

"I don't want to tell people my name. You know, people will think, oh, you have such a virtue, and you have such a nice name, and they will be surprised. I have to bear it once I give my name. I was so surprised once, that's why I really hated giving my name! I thought, my parents might as well have given me a dirty name! At least I don't have to make me so embarrassing again and again!"

"The first time I went to the club activity room, a few people looked at the list and discussed there, 'XXX (this is my name), must be a beautiful woman'. As soon as I heard it, I knew it was not good, and I really wanted to run away go!"

"Then the president started to call the roll call. When he called on me, I answered right. At first, no one could hear me because the voice was too soft, so the president called again, and I raised my hand. After the president confirmed that it was me Faced with disappointment, everyone in the club looked back at me, all of them surprised me, not to mention how wronged I was, on the surface I could only pretend that I didn't care, and then I will never go to the club again!"

"I'm not going in chronological order, just say what you think of. Every time I say a few words to others, they look at me with frowning eyes, full of dislike, as if looking at someone who will be at any time. Like a mental patient in a fit!"

"I would rather these people only look at my appearance superficially, and I don't want them to despise me in their soul just because of my appearance."

"I'm humble, I have no backbone, but I don't have the capital to turn around and leave proudly."

"I have been rejected since I was a child! I was rejected! The boys in the class joked with each other. When they want to hurt someone, they have to say that he likes me. They think it is the most malicious insult. In their eyes, I am just Like a mess to avoid! But have they thought about how I feel?"

"They also deliberately pushed people over and bumped into me, and the other person behaved as if they had encountered a virus. After experiencing it a few times, I became very scared, so when I saw this trend later, I quickly avoided it. In the end, they still had something to say, they laughed and said, you see, even XXX hates you."

"When I was young, I was bullied and beaten by boys in my class. Some people said that boys bullied girls just to attract girls' attention, but I knew it was not! That really is bullying! Bullying without mercy!"

"There are people who spit into my meal at noon every day, and I dare not tell the instructor, so I have to be hungry every day. One afternoon, I was so hungry that I squatted in the toilet and cried. I think it is too wronged, everyone. They are all human, why am I the only one living like this!"

"Another time, there were a lot of people in the cafeteria. I just found a seat with my meal in hand. The boy opposite told me directly, don't sit there, you are so ugly that it affects my appetite."

"Another time I went on an autumn outing. Students from two classes were sitting in the same car. A boy in the back row called me out of the blue. When I turned around, the classmate sitting next to him was from the next class. He glanced at me and said: Sure enough. ugly."

"Every new year, I send New Year's greetings text messages to others, and the replies I receive are always 'Who are you'. These people, they all deleted me, or they didn't save me from the beginning My contact information."

"I remember one time most clearly. When I was in the elementary school, there was a girl in the grade who was very nice, beautiful, and very kind to people. She didn't frown when she saw me like other people. I asked her for her contact information. She gave too. We talked a few times at the beginning, it was me trying to find something to talk about, the communication was not bad, she must know who I am."

"Later, we hadn't contacted for a while. When I wished her a new year, she also asked me who I was. I asked her, did you delete me? She said no, I never deleted the contact information .I summoned up the courage to say my name, but there was no reply from the other side.”

"I think it's funny, she never saved my contact information. For a person like me, maybe others think it's an eyesore to lie on the friend list."

"I have felt countless times! Countless times, if I could have a good-looking face, or at least a 'face to see', my life would not be what it is now!"

"I feel like I live like a disgusting piece of garbage. I feel sorry for others when I walk on the road now! I feel that I have dirty the street and their eyes. If I disappear completely All right!"

"Going to school every day is like living in hell. I don't know what torment I will suffer when I go out every day. I am in the mood to study. And I am quite stupid. Every time I fail in the exam, my classmates ignore me. Even the instructor is unwilling to teach me more!"

"When I go home with an unqualified report card, my father will scold me, why did you give birth to such an ugly thing! You can't do everything, you might as well die!"

"I'm not the same as you at all! You say you're rejected because you're too good and others envy you! But at least you're still a human being in their eyes, and you're still a very powerful person. I'm the one who is truly rejected by everyone People look down on you, people who are despised as scum! I would rather not be born from the beginning! What am I doing alive?"

"My youth, my dreams, everything I have, are all ruined on this face! I don't deserve friendship, self-esteem and love in this life!!"

The more she talked, the more excited Song Panlei became, her shoulders trembled uncontrollably, and her breathing became extremely rapid.When she typed the last line, she couldn't speak any more and lay down on the table and cried bitterly.For so many years, she has lived too wronged and wronged.

After every sentence of hers, there will be a lot of exclamation points, and many places even occupy more than half of the screen.Sometimes she would knock out a series of "Ah!!", which was extremely suppressed desperate roar.

But in reality, she couldn't say it, she couldn't shout it out, because she didn't feel qualified even to vent.

Yi Xin had to admit that her empathy was too fragile after all.Compared with her own experience, it is completely insignificant. Just looking at this paragraph of narrative, she can feel a strong sadness.

"Senior sister... there are only two of us here, so you can cry well." Yi Xin returned to sit next to her and patted her back lightly, "Maybe it will be much better if you cry. "

"Actually, you are really strong. You have experienced so much pain, but you are still very kind. You neither thought of revenge against those people in the past, nor hated the world. When I give you a little warmth, you are willing to believe again and again."

"You are willing to tell me so much, it is proof that you have never really closed your heart. All you need is someone who can be by your side, listen to you, and understand you. I am willing to do such a Man, I hope to make you feel that you are still cared about and cared about."

Hearing her gentle comfort, Song Panlei suddenly cried louder.That's right, after stumbling around for so many years, what she has been waiting and looking for is to have such a person appear...

"Some things..." Yi Xin carefully considered his words, "Although I also think that people should not be judged by their appearance, I have to admit that the general environment is indeed like this."

When I was just an ordinary girl, no matter how good I was at studying, other people only regarded me as a nerd.Until recently, she started to learn how to dress up and became beautiful, and everyone's attitude towards herself was different.She has personally experienced this change, so she knows that having a good-looking face can indeed make the whole life much smoother.

"So when we can't change the eyes of others, we can only work hard to change ourselves. In fact, even now, I still have a lot to work on. I hope that we can accompany each other to become better people."

"A senior sister told me that running can keep you fit and increase your self-confidence. I'm already trying it now, and it's really useful. But...running alone is very tiring after all. Can we form a partner to run together? Woolen cloth?"

In this passage, she carefully avoided the term "weight loss" so as not to irritate Song Panlei again.

After confiding and crying, Song Panlei's mood did look much better.She wiped her tears and seemed to want to say something, but in the end she just dragged out the keyboard and typed.

"But I was in poor health when I was a child, so I kept taking medicine. It's hormones. It's very difficult."

What she wants to express should be "it's hormone fat, it's hard to lose weight". It seems that she has already recognized ugliness, but being fat makes her feel inferior even more than being ugly. Even in communication, she deliberately avoids related words.

"And I have such a virtue, unless I go for plastic surgery, I'm hopeless. Or forget it, you can just chat with me." As she spoke, she seemed to be depressed again.

Yi Xin thought for a while, and tried to persuade her from another angle: "Senior sister, let me put it this way, and see if it makes sense."

"Since you feel... so painful that you can't live, it means that you feel that your current situation has reached the bottom, right? But at least it means that no matter how bad the situation is, it will not get worse! So next As long as you are willing to work hard, you will definitely move upwards. Now that you have...the determination to give up everything, can you make good use of this determination to create a better future for yourself? "

These words are more popular, that is, "I am not afraid of death, what else is there to be afraid of."

Song Panlei stared at her. From the eyes of the little girl in front of her, for the first time, she didn't see disgust.Her eyes were clear and pure, full of kindness, and Song Panlei began to believe that maybe she could really pull herself out of the abyss.

Even if they always talk about life being gloomy, if there is a chance to make everything better, people will still be eager to seize it.Now Song Panlei is eager to believe in a miracle, perhaps the only one in her life.

With a little time left for lunch break, Yi Xin took Song Panlei to the playground to try running.Song Panlei was panting from running, and she was about to die after running half a lap.Yi Xin didn't force her either.This is just the first time, so haste makes waste. In future running training, let's slowly help her improve her standards.

While sitting by the track to rest, Yi Xin helped her with her homework again.

As a first-year student, she tutored her third-grade homework, and she was able to teach it well.In addition to admiration, Song Panlei found that under her explanations, many points of knowledge that I did not understand before became much clearer, which was even better than what the tutor taught in class. .

With her help, Song Panlei began to believe for the first time that maybe her homework would really improve, and maybe her life would really get better.

"I really envy you." Song Panlei said softly.When Yi Xin looked suspiciously at her, Song Panlei took out the jade slips again, and evaded those unspeakable words into words.

"I really envy you. You are thin and good-looking, and you are still a top student. You are simply a winner in life."

This time, it was Yi Xin's turn to be surprised.

Once upon a time, she felt that her life was very depressing, and she had nothing but study every day.At that time, she was the only one who envied this and that. She never thought that one day, she would be the envy of others.

Sure enough... as long as you are willing to work hard and improve yourself, any ordinary person can have a colorful life.

That night.

After Song Panlei took a shower, when she was looking at the jade slips, she suddenly found that there were a lot of new news notifications on the screen.

No one ever took the initiative to chat with her, and the only text messages she could receive were some advertisements.Why... so much news suddenly came out?
Song Panlei opened it tremblingly, and just glanced at it, her eyes suddenly turned red.

Those were all kinds of encouraging text messages. Although she didn't know the people who sent the messages, they were encouraging herself without exception and conveying warmth to a stranger like herself.

She had never, never had such kindness in her life.

"...Thank you, Xinxin." Song Panlei's tears rolled down one by one, "Thank you...for everything you have done for me."

(End of this chapter)