The road from Africa to Europe

Chapter 618 Self-regulation
no no no!Be transparent again?Live like that life?The original owner's breathing became a little short, as if part of her heart was suddenly grabbed by someone's hands, it hurt so badly!

She put her hand at the position of her heart. There was nothing wrong with her heart, but she felt a tingling pain. It was not a physical pain, but a psychological pain.Although it had nothing to do with her body, she still felt some pain in her heart. It was too difficult to live as a transparent person.

The original owner was in a trance, as if he had returned to the past again, but the perspective was a little different, and he switched to a third person's perspective, watching the past memories with the eyes of outsiders.

Perhaps it was because of a different angle that she got different conclusions when she looked at the same thing. She suddenly became clearer as if she had been enlightened, and found that her life at home in the past was indeed like a transparent person in the later stage. .

I saw that she was in the late stage of her illness, and none of the masters in the mansion remembered her. They all lived according to the original life, and none of the so-called relatives visited the small courtyard. Her small courtyard is like It was a forbidden place in the mansion, as no one had reminded her. As the person in power, she should have waited for the news of her death.

After the last stage of her life, she was basically unable to eat. In this case, she lost weight rapidly, and she was as thin as a malnourished person, and finally died like a skinned skeleton.

She now realizes that her food is the worst among the masters in the mansion, and probably the food of the second-class maids is better than hers. Of course, she has never known this, but she can see it clearly from the third perspective , she has long been abandoned.

After being ill, she needs treatment, nutrition, and better care from the servants, but the people around her probably know that she can't survive, and they all think about how to get out of that worst courtyard as soon as possible.

The original owner sensed one thing from the third perspective: Is she living such a miserable life?So is it necessary for her to be indifferent and worry about those people?I'm afraid that in the eyes of those people, what I have done is quite ridiculous, right?
Ling Xiao smiled slightly at this moment. Regarding the problem that the original owner has been thinking about her own people, the only way is to let her give up completely. In this case, she moved her hands and feet to let the original owner look at the past life from the perspective of God.

Let her wake up completely from the fantasy of her family, and let her know the fate of being a transparent person. She is often unknown, and no one will even think about her life and death, or in the eyes of some people, it is better to die .

The original owner just looked at that little girl in a daze. She would know immediately if she was dead, and would be discovered only when she was cold. The original owner felt chills all over when she thought of this scene. She didn't want to be a transparent person anymore.

If it is true as Ling Xiao said, if she doesn't change, wouldn't she be ignored everywhere again?Thinking of this kind of life that no one cares about and no one pays attention to, she doesn't want to live like this.

She couldn't help thinking why she was willing to be a transparent person?In the past years, just to live, I tried my best to be forgotten by others, otherwise the mistress-to-be who has been pressing on her head will think of more ways to suppress herself.

She didn't know what she had done wrong at the beginning, so she met an embarrassing young lady, and later found out that she was the candidate for her fiance's husband-in-law, but her status was not as good as that of a concubine, so she thought about it at first. Suppressing her own arrogance, but everyone else acquiesced to this behavior, and felt that she should let her know her position early.

Unable to resist, she could only learn to turn herself into a transparent person. Gradually, her original bright appearance became normal, and her originally silent temperament became even more silent.Ah!When the original owner thought about this, he suddenly felt that he was really stupid. Why did he still think about that family?Did they treat themselves as a family?
At that moment, she suddenly realized that even though she had already left that family, their honor and disgrace had nothing to do with her, how stupid she was to still think about their situation, no wonder Ling Xiao was unwilling to warn that family .

Thinking clearly, she lightly tapped her forehead with her fist. They don't miss her, but she always misses them. The two sides are not equal at all. The previous thoughts are really stupid. Why can't I think about it so much?

In the past years, because I wanted to protect myself, I had to work hard to restrain all the good things about myself. Now I don't need to hide everything about myself.Being a transparent person in the past does not mean that she is willing to be forgotten by others in the years to come, she does not want to live like that.

Ling Xiao has been paying attention to the situation of the original owner. The other party seems to be very shocked. The feeling of wanting to cry is gone. The whole person is in that very unhappy feeling. It can even be seen that the original owner seems to have thought through something. The dull face became a little brighter.

what!It's really great, it seems that she has done a good job with her own hands and feet, she pretended not to notice anything, and was going to beat the original owner again, so that she would not soften her heart again.

He said to Da Lang: "One must have a thought when one is alive. If she is like your aunt, she will be sent to Qingxiu. People will soon forget her, and she will never remember to send food. Might starve to death."

The original owner was shocked when he heard this, and two words kept appearing in his mind: starve to death, starve to death.Could it be Ling Xiao deliberately scaring himself?This thought came to the original owner's mind, but he soon remembered that he was eavesdropping, and Ling Xiao was not telling her, but explaining the truth to Da Lang.

She didn't dare to show her head now, because she realized that she had done something stupid again.How much she couldn't think about it before, why did she want Ling Xiao to warn her family?It's not because she feels that Ling Xiao is a fairy-like existence who can do anything well.

But after this time, she realized that Ling Xiao was very kind to her, but it didn't mean that Ling Xiao was willing to help her realize her wish everywhere. She obviously didn't want to reveal her fairy identity.

Then she thought about it, and knew that she was thinking too much.After waking up, she told herself not to be presumptuous in the days to come. It is very lucky to be able to live well now, and she thought about how she should live well.

I don't know why she felt that Ling Xiao talked to Da Lang, not only to Da Lang, but it seemed that she hadn't given up on herself, and her trembling body gradually returned to normal, but Ling Xiao's words still gave her a little more thought .

I heard Ling Xiao continue to say: "Da Lang, your aunt still has a big problem, that is, she doesn't want to fight for more things for herself, and keeps waiting for others to guess her mind. It's really bad for her like this. .

Not everyone can guess what others are thinking, and if so, there would be no need for language as a tool of communication.In this regard, she is not good at communicating with other people, and many problems are the gap between people who do not understand and communicate with each other, and this gap will increase little by little, making things out of hand. "

She looked at Da Lang, and these words were not only for awakening the original owner, but also for Da Lang. During these times, she naturally felt Da Lang's condition, so she felt that the child was too tired to live.

Da Lang's current life is much better than before, but maybe because he has been living a depressed life before, Da Lang precociously does not look like a child, so that he is very obedient and obedient.

Ordinarily, he should be very happy to meet this kind of child, but Ling Xiao knows that it is better for the children to be more lively, and Da Lang is too well-behaved and sensible. Such a child means that he has lived too hard.

The time in his life when he should eat, drink and have fun is very gray. In his childhood, there was a lot of forbearance and helplessness, which affected his character to some extent. Fortunately, it is not too late, and there is still a chance to correct his character.

Ling Xiao tried his best to add a bit of beauty to him in his few childhoods, which would help him build a more complete personality in the days to come. He must always grow up and recall the memories of his childhood. There is also the brightest brilliance, not all gray.

Otherwise, even if he has the filter of time when he grows up, he won't be able to find too good a scene.To create a beautiful and happy day, this is what she tried hard to give to the original owner and her two children.

For this reason, she originally planned to talk to Song Shi, but found that Song Shi's brain circuit was completely different from her own, so she had to talk to Song Shi again, which made Song Shi cry.

Then she rejected the original owner's request, which caused the original owner to cry too. She finally understood a sentence: people are divided into groups, and things of a kind flock together. No wonder the relationship between the original owner and the Song family quickly became good.

She was a little helpless and found that her thoughts were indeed different from those of the ancients. The ancients probably wanted to listen to her and had other things to do. Instead, they were not as deeply touched by this world. Viewing is really important, and this dynasty has increased the confinement of human thought.

Then, we should not talk too much about Dalang, lest Dalang be influenced too much by himself, and later on Dalang and the people around him will completely disagree with each other, which will make his life too painful, Dalang naturally doesn’t know Ling Xiao's thoughts.

He listened to his uncle's words very carefully, thinking about things in his heart. He is actually the kind of child who doesn't like to talk very much, and this habit was developed at home because his grandparents didn't let their family talk at all. Over time, he developed the habit of not talking.

But now his uncle told him to learn to speak and learn to communicate. In fact, he still remembered that his father was not a talkative person. Most of the time, he needed other people to guess his thoughts, and sometimes he guessed wrong.

Although there is a poem that says: There is a heart-to-heart connection, but most of the time there is no connection between people. Guessing is just a wrong guess. It is better to say it directly, and there is no need for everyone to guess.

He remembered what his uncle said, and he will often speak in the future. Anyway, their family left the original big family and had a small family. They lived a different life from the original life. In this kind of life, he felt sincerely happy.

Although he still felt sad because of his father's death, the heart-piercing pain was much better. He was glad that his uncle found them, otherwise their family might not be alive, or they wouldn't know where to go. where.

After living such a quiet and warm life, he felt a little sad in his heart, why didn't he meet his grandfather before his father died?Otherwise, the father can be saved, and their family will be complete.

But he thought about it again, if grandpa hadn't met his mother being pawned, how would he know that the blood relatives of the clan were suffering?He still remembered what the proprietress of the inn said. Back then, his uncle felt that their mother and child were too pitiful, so he came forward to save them.

If he blamed his uncle for showing up too late because of his father's death, then he had no conscience and was simply insane.He absolutely couldn't think that way, thinking of this, he peeked at his uncle.

Finding that Ling Xiao wasn't looking at him, he couldn't help but secretly heaved a sigh of relief, because he felt that he had done something wrong, seeing that Ling Xiao was being cautious and smiling slightly, for fear of offending his uncle.

He remembered that the proprietress of the inn had noticed Ling Xiao's extraordinaryness a long time ago, so she told him in private, telling him not to offend his uncle and grandfather, and telling him that he was very lucky to be able to find his relatives, and with a knife, their family was talented able to live well.

The proprietress was the kindest person he had ever seen besides his uncle and uncle. After they followed their uncle back to the inn, they helped their family move in and persuaded his mother to stand up properly.

He didn't know much about it before. He only knew that his mother was deeply affected by his father's death. His mother collapsed after his father's death. At that time, he was very scared, afraid that his mother would also leave. .

Later, Niangqin survived, and before they were happy, Niangqin was let out by the pawn. He was so angry, but grandpa, grandma, and the others didn't care what the two brothers thought, and locked them in the firewood room.

It was too late when he broke free, and his mother was tied up in a sedan chair and left the village. He took his younger brother and chased after him. Fortunately, he met a good man who picked them up for a ride, so his brother arrived at the last moment, right outside Yuanwai's house. Catch up with mother outside.

I followed my uncle to the vicinity and just rescued them. At that time, the two brothers hugged their mother and cried loudly. They were afraid!The father died, and if the mother disappeared, they would be orphans.

Da Lang still noticed something else. At that time, they didn't know his uncle, but it was because of him that they were not immediately driven away. Then he found out that his uncle didn't know what he had said to Yuan Wai, so he asked him to release him. Kai Niangqin didn't even start a fight.

This made Da Lang admire his great uncle very much. He was willing to learn more from his uncle and wanted to become as good as his uncle.That's why his mother was still crying just now, but he hurried out when he heard his uncle tell him to study.

Ling Xiao stroked Da Lang's little head, and said that this child is also talented in learning, so she asked her to take time to enlighten him first, and then invite another teacher when he is older.

After all, there are too many differences between her thoughts and the ancients. For example, because she has seen many high-ranking people on TV since she was a child, she has no awe of the royal staff, and she doesn't care about it.

But the original owner and the Song family should not have this kind of thinking. They are the most ordinary people and have no ability to transcend time and space. If it is too dangerous to have such thoughts of ignoring the king, it is better to let the ancients teach them.Of course, she deliberately pretended not to notice that the original owner was eavesdropping, and began to enlighten Da Lang.

The original owner who was standing outside the door calmed down a lot at the moment, so she naturally didn't plan to go in, because she knew that Ling Xiao didn't want to talk to her at all just now, and she also remembered that Ling Xiao would not be very happy if she had to help her. She was a little ashamed of Ling Xiao, and backed away quietly when she heard the lecture started.

After leaving the study, she walked back to her room to do the rest, and bit her lips lightly. She wanted to think about her future carefully, and go through her mind again with what she just heard.She always felt that what Ling Xiao said was not only for Da Lang, but also for herself.

Speaking of which, when she started a new life, she found that she didn't know what to do. She had no other ideas before, she just wanted to live well, but when she really lived easily, she felt that she was a bit out of place with this world .

This is because she is used to being a little transparent, wishing that no one would pay attention to her all the time, just let herself shrink in one place and live, but her plan was pointed out by Ling Xiao just now: If it has always been like this, it may eventually be possible Will be forgotten, as she was in the past.

This possibility made her feel scared. If she lived in such a humble way again, wouldn't she still be ignored at any time in the days to come?In other words, she is often ignored, so she naturally doesn't want to be like that again, how can she prevent others from ignoring herself?

She recalled the days when Ling Xiao was in this body. She dared to leave that home at a young age and started a new life. The only difference was whether there was a Daoist or not. Now that the Daoist is by her side, even if she couldn't catch up It turns out that it can't be too good.

The original owner told herself repeatedly in her heart: She is not the Miss Six who was sacrificed by her family, no one knows her past, and can completely throw everything in the past into the sky.

(End of this chapter)