June is our farewell song

Chapter 254 Pure Black Art Festival ([-])

Lying alone in the room, the sound of the TV squeezed through the crack of the door little by little, and drilled into the ears softly and slowly.Gu Yuan raised his wrist and glanced at his watch. At 11:30, he got up and turned on the light. The white light tube was dazzlingly bright, and his vision was blurred. The world seemed a little unreal at that moment.

There was a crackling sound outside the window. The sudden rainstorm showed no signs of stopping. The temperature was getting lower and lower. Even though the floor heating was turned on in the house, you could still feel the chill continuously creeping in through the cracks in the window. .Gu Yuan picked up the coat hanging on the back of the chair and draped it over his body, pushed open the door and walked out. Qi Yu was still sitting on the sofa in the living room, maintaining the same posture as before more than an hour ago, with his arms around his legs, his chin Buried in her knees, Tangerine lay beside her, with a fluffy blanket on her body.

Gu Yuan walked to her side and found that the girl's eyes had already been closed, so he reached for the remote control on the tea table to turn off the TV, but just as his index finger touched the button, his wrist was held by a cold hand up.

"Don't close it."

"You're not even looking."

"I am listening."

"No one sits in front of the TV and just listens but doesn't watch it."

"Of course, me."

"Why don't you watch it?"

"tired."

"Then why don't you go to sleep? Since you are tired, go to bed early."

"...No....I'll just sit."

"...What are you doing..."

Seeing Gu Yuan turn off the TV, Qi Yu muttered dissatisfiedly.

"Why do you have to sit here?"

"I'm at home...it's the same...I have to listen to people's voices to fall asleep. Anyway...they don't care about me, I just sit in the room alone, turn on the TV, sit and listen, just like this slowly Falling asleep slowly, I have long been used to it..." Qi Yu whispered.

With a smile on her face, the girl said something that made people feel breathless.

"Then... I'd better open it for you."

Reach for the remote and turn the TV on again.

"Alas...it feels...as if it will only cause trouble for you, I..."

"no."

"...Isn't it funny? It feels... like a beggar sitting on the side of the road, unable to fall asleep without listening to the background sounds of the city."

Gu Yuan, who didn't know how to respond, was even more speechless now.

He could only sit beside her, leaning against the back of the sofa chair, and stare blankly at the picture composed of the flickering three-color picture tube on the TV.

"...Tell me, do you hate me?"

"No, what are you talking about?"

"I mean, at some point, did you ever hate me?"

"No."

"Never...never?"

"No."

"I don't believe it. You must have said that to comfort me."

"...Since you don't believe me, why do you still ask me?"

Gu Yuan curled his lips, and wanted to talk back as usual before saying something, but seeing the girl's pitiful look, he looked away again.

"I want you to be honest."

"Then... Maybe there was?"

"Sure enough..." Qi Yu buried his face in his knees, his long hair drooped down to cover his eyes, "Maybe, everyone...has already started to hate me...it's just that no one has said it. I know, I'm sensitive and extreme, easy to get into the wrong place, can't fully consider other people's feelings when doing things, and focus too much on results...but...I really like everyone...I can't do anything by myself... ...I don't want people to hate me..."

"Qi Yu..."

"I originally felt that you were in a bad mood, and wanted to come and chat with you to help you... But it turned out like this... I can't even do such a small thing well... So, no wonder people hate me ...Who would like a person with a bad personality and too many things...and...there is someone like Liu Qingsi...everyone will like her..."

"..."

"But...why...why you can't even be friends...you are my best friend, even you hated me...Feng Ziqiu wants to leave me...my mother doesn't want me...I really...really... ...Is it so... annoying..."

"Where did I say I hate you..."

"You said it, you just said it!"

"Didn't I be forced by you..." Gu Yuan turned around and looked at Qi Yu, "Everyone...wouldn't hate you, I don't think, at least we in the literature club wouldn't."

"How do you know? Are you a roundworm in their stomachs?"

"...Just assume that I know telepathy. I don't know how to explain it. Anyway, that's how I feel."

"Well……"

"And, even if everyone hates you, even if there is such a day, I won't hate you."

Gu Yuan stretched out his hand to pat her on the head, but when he raised his hand halfway, he felt something was wrong, so he shook it, and finally landed on the girl's shoulder.

"I promise."

"...you, when did you learn to comfort others?" Qi Yu raised his head, tears glistened at the corners of his eyes, but the corners of his mouth turned up slightly, "This is... Chi Yu taught you, right?"

"What's the matter with her..."

"Because...it feels like when you are with her, you are like another person." Qi Yu said, "Gentle, considerate, and considerate, when you are with us, you will only be talkative and lazy. Two people."

"You didn't know how to say these words before, so she taught you these things..."

"What... These are just different aspects of people. Everyone is like this. They show different faces in front of different people. I am like this, and so are other people."

"However, it's a good thing, something has changed."

"Hey... are you listening to me?"

"Just like in TV dramas, if there is a change, the plot will change and there will be ups and downs."

Gu Yuan's gaze fell on the TV screen following Qi Yu's words. On weekend nights... the TV station seems to always broadcast these things, pile up those troubles that everyone has in real life, stir them up and down, and chanted them upside down, The ups and downs of the three-stage rhythm are used to interpret the waves of contradictions and conflicts between the characters.

"Compared to these adults who are trapped by life, there may be very few things we can think about and things to think about at our age."

"But...why are we...still so distressed..."

Qi Yu whispered softly in his ear.

"Why... all of us... are like this..."

"This is the real world, it's terrible, but everyone has to live like this, don't you think? Hmm—?"

There was no response, Gu Yuan turned his head to look at her, only to find that the girl had fallen asleep with her head down, facing the TV, sitting on the sofa with her legs crossed, her head in her knees, talking, sleeping caught.

Glancing at the clock on the wall, it was past twelve o'clock.

... By the way, it's already very late.

Carrying a pot and so many ingredients, I wandered around the boss outside, and walked outside for so long under the heavy rain.

This guy is really tired.

The circles of his eyes were red, and he didn't know whether it was because of the tears he said just now, or because he cried secretly when he was in the room.

It doesn't seem right to let her sleep here. Although the temperature in the house is not low, she must catch a cold just wearing this shirt.

Move her to the guest room.

"Don't... don't touch me. I... I can walk by myself, and I don't want to sleep yet."

When the hand touched her shoulder, the girl woke up.

"So you weren't asleep."

"No... just... just thinking about something else."

"another thing?"

"It's... Qing Si's disease."

When it was time to respond immediately, Gu Yuan fell silent.

Tangerine stretched out a long way beside her, and the cat's throat let out a soft meow.

"what exactly is it?"

"I...don't know." Gu Yuan sighed, turned his head to look at the TV screen, "I didn't ask her directly, and she didn't tell me, but when I was in the hospital during the day, I felt that she was lying, I don't know why the doctor didn't point it out, and I don't know her current condition, but... she won't be able to sustain the fainting disease, so she should..."

Gu Yuan's voice became smaller and smaller, because from the corner of his eyes, he noticed that the girl's face dimmed little by little with his words.

"It turns out...it's true..."

"what……?"

"When I was in the hospital today, I went to the bathroom. When I came out, I passed a closed room and heard the voices of Qingsi's parents. Because they were familiar people, I leaned over and listened. Seeing them say, what needs immediate surgery, and even the surgery has a success rate of less than 20.00%... I'm not sure if they are talking about Qing Si, although there is a moment when I think of a terrible result, but it is not would like to believe..."

"Surgery..." Gu Yuan frowned.

"Will she..."

"Don't think too much, wait, later."

"Um……"

"Gu Yuan."

"Ok?"

"Chi Yu... What did he say to you?"

"Don't you want to hear it?"

"I think...at least...should...still care about you as a friend."

"I didn't say anything, just some very short words, probably saying that I want to separate."

Under the girl's surprised eyes, Gu Yuan just stood up and walked quickly to the bedroom.

"It's late, rest early."

"Of course, it's just a suggestion."

(End of this chapter)