June is our farewell song

Shortly after the operation began, an unexpected person showed up.

Lu Chen.

When he stepped on the light and hurried footsteps across the wet path leading to the inpatient department building in the hospital, and passed the huge sweet-scented osmanthus tree, bits and pieces of snow were falling from the gray sky.

He raised his head and looked at the gray roof submerged in the misty snow in front of him, and felt a few drops of scorching warmth in his eyes.The late winter monsoon mixed with snowflakes, blowing on the body, the wet chill seemed to penetrate directly into the muscles and bones through the clothes, and the body shivered uncontrollably.

Driven by the gust of wind, the leaden gray dark clouds in the sky slowly wandered across the sky, wandering without end or return. In the dimly lit hall, Lu Chen seemed to see a vague figure in the haze. She was standing At the bright end of the corridor, she stretched out her hand to hold something from a long distance, and the cold wind swayed the corner of her clothes.He also stretched out his hand, wanting to hold her outstretched hand, but it was nothingness after all, and his arm could only fall down empty and bottomless.

Gu Yuan was shocked and a little disturbed when he saw Lu Chen appearing from the elevator. He was not worried about his outrageous behavior, but worried about his appearance itself—an event that was not planned.What Yang Hao did in succession before made him startled, and he always felt that there would be some ulterior purpose hidden behind those things that were not in the planned plan.But after knowing that he came here by himself after learning the news from his classmates, Gu Yuan heaved a sigh of relief.

Then there was a long silence and waiting.

Gu Yuan had never felt that four hours were so long. He leaned against the window of the ward, watching the snowflakes falling one by one, wet the glass and the window sill, and then disappeared into the world like smoke and dreams with the wind, becoming Can't see and can't find.His body seemed to be no longer his own. He seemed to be able to see his own body through his eyes. He seemed to hear someone singing in a trance, but when he looked out of the window, he could only see a foggy area. He couldn’t see anything clearly. The voice was light and close to the ear.

Feng Ziqiu was sitting on a chair outside the ward, and Jiang Lu and Chen Ying next to him were close together, fingering the buttons of their cuffs. Qi Yu and Miss Zifeng didn't know where they had gone, but they could vaguely hear the noise next door. Voices came from the empty ward; Lu Chen sat against the wall, hugged his legs tightly, and then looked up at the pale white ceiling.The air is damp and dreary,
In those almost absurdly long four hours, he recalled all his high school life in the past three years, and the fragments of life that he lived with day and night were slowly pieced together in front of his eyes, and there was more or less one of them here. Or the shadows of several people, but it is difficult for him to match the shadows in those fragments with the people in front of him, because although they have the same appearance, the same voice, and even the same habits, they don't seem to be the same person.

Such a strange feeling made Gu Yuan feel a little uncomfortable, and this discomfort suddenly intensified when Lu Chen opened his mouth to break the silence.Although everyone present didn't like this oppressive silence, they all felt irritated when it was broken. Originally, everyone was only troubled by their own troubles, but when the silence was broken, hidden in each The uneasiness in the heart of the person spreads across the boundary and begins to affect other people.

"That... how long will the operation last?"

Even if he asked very carefully and deliberately lowered his voice, he couldn't stop the negative emotions from spreading.

"About four hours." Gu Yuan glanced at him and replied, then paused and added, "If everything goes well."

"Four hours..." Lu Chen looked down at his watch, three hours had passed, "When it's over, will she want to eat?"

"Ah?" Gu Yuan frowned, "After the surgery, we have to wait for the effects of the anesthesia to wear off."

You shouldn't feel hungry for a short time.

That's what he should have said, but he hesitated.

Lu Chen opened his eyes wide and looked at him, did he hope he could say something?Looking at the expression on Lu Chen's face, he was about to cry. He completely lost his appearance as a sunny boy who was popular in school. His hair was drooping on his forehead, and he had layers of dark circles under his eyes. In fact, he looks more like a terminally ill patient.It's pointless to let him stay here and wait, it's better to let him go out for a breath of fresh air, be blown by the cold wind, eat some snow, maybe he can relax a bit.

He pursed his chapped lips and said:
"Hmm...maybe. Are you going out to get something to eat?"

"I think so too." Lu Chen said and stood up, "You think it would be better for me to buy something."

"Pineapple buns." Gu Yuan thought for a while, then replied, "Go to that store in the city, it's been about half an hour, and there is still time."

Although Qing Si definitely won't be able to eat anything for the time being after the operation, and it doesn't matter what she buys, but Gu Yuan still chooses something she likes to eat, and it takes about an hour to go back and forth to that store, which happens to be the time when the operation ends .

"Okay, then I'm leaving."

Gu Yuan felt that he would always remember that in the hospital in the late winter of that year, Lu Chen walked over and hugged him tightly, then took his own clothes, walked out of the small door of the ward, and disappeared into his world scenario.That hug was so hard that it suffocated him who was already weak at that time, but strangely, he felt an indescribable warmth from Lu Chen's body.Lu Chen's tears fell from his collar to his neck, it was indescribably hot.

Although he didn't look back all the way when he left, Gu Yuan still felt the reluctance in his heart.As he walked out of the long corridor and left the ward, his figure blended into the snow that seemed to never stop like mist.

Gu Yuan didn't know why Lu Chen was crying. At that time, the operation hadn't come out yet.But in Gu Yuan's eyes, his fading back is like a sad scene in a movie that is stretched by time and never ends.

At that time, Gu Yuan suddenly felt uneasy, his eyes switched over and over again between the wind and snow outside the window and the people sitting outside the ward, and he clenched his hands tightly into fists.He tried to find peace of mind in this way, but it was all to no avail.In the ward that had made him feel secure for the past few months, his fear and insecurity grew.

Since Lu Chen left, he was the only one left in the ward, and the atmosphere became silent and strange.After a while, Gu Yuan heard the indistinct singing and talking from the next room.The voice was a little louder than before, and he could tell that it was indeed the voice of Qi Yu and Jiang Zifeng. The two seemed to be arguing about something.No, it's a quarrel, it should be Qi Yu's unilateral emotional agitation, sister Zifeng's voice is still very peaceful and gentle, but it doesn't seem to have any effect.

The quarrel between the two didn't last for a long time. It didn't take long for Gu Yuan to see Qi Yu's figure appearing in the corridor, and then he opened the door and walked in, occupying a corner of the room. Sister Zifeng followed , but stopped at the door of the ward, with helplessness written in his eyes.

Strange to say, when the time approached the deadline, Gu Yuan felt much calmer instead.

He stood in front of the window sill and looked at the osmanthus tree with withered leaves in the cold wind in the courtyard outside. The snow stopped slowly, the sun emerged from the thick clouds, and in the evening sky, the sky was full of residual clouds and warm. The yellow light spread to the sky thousands of miles away. Looking back, I saw Sister Zifeng's blurry, warm and radiant face under the sun. Sister Zifeng was always smiling.Looking at her smile, Gu Yuan felt as if something was touched in his heart instantly, he blinked vigorously and squeezed out the excess tears from the corners of his eyes.

The peace was not broken until the doctor came in.

In fact, when they saw that he came in alone, everyone already knew the result.But people are so stupid and stubborn, even if the truth is already on the table, they must be told by others before they are willing to give up.Seeing Jiang Lu walking out of the ward with the weeping Chen Ying in his arms, Feng Ziqiu leaning against the door and bowing his head in silence, Qi Yu pounced on the doctor, grabbed his collar and questioned him in tears, Gu Yuan's memory here became blurred and distant .

He didn't know whether he really couldn't remember clearly or he didn't want to remember that scene, and he didn't want to remember his mood at that time.He only remembered that he walked outside the building of the inpatient department alone, sat on the steps, and watched the light of the evening that was burned red by the entire glow of the sky, but there was no warmth when it shone on the person's body. feel cold.

On such a dusk, he saw Lu Chen running from the path, covered in snow.

With his back to the sun, the boy's coat and hair were covered with white snowflakes, and the tip of his chin was dripping with sweat or melted snow.Gu Yuan remembered that he would always remember the aroma of pineapple buns wafting from Lu Chen's body at that time.

He remembered that Lu Chen, who was out of breath, asked something and answered himself, then he looked up at Lu Chen, and Lu Chen also looked at him, with a smile on his face, asking if he was lying.

"You're playing that kind of game where it's obviously good news, but you have to say it's bad news, and then tell the truth to surprise me, right?"

"..."

Gu Yuan didn't answer him, but closed his eyes silently.

He heard the metal zipper of the coat dragging on the ground, and then the sound of the plastic bag being ripped open.

He opened his eyes and saw Lu Chen sitting down beside him, holding the bag just now in his hand, which contained a total of six steaming pineapple buns, glowing golden orange in the setting sun.

Without saying a word, Lu Chen reached out and took out one, and started to eat it.

He ate very quickly, almost finishing one in four mouthfuls.

Then he picked up the second one.

Then came the third.

When he picked up the fourth one, Gu Yuan grabbed his wrist, Lu Chen paused, and then swung it violently.

The weak Gu Yuan didn't have the strength to resist at all, he fell down the steps and sat down in front of Lu Chen, facing him.

Lu Chen stuffed the fourth pineapple bun into his mouth.

Gu Yuan saw his red eyes and bulging and swollen cheeks.

He finished the fourth and picked up the fifth.

And finally the sixth.

He held it to his mouth with a trembling hand, took a bite, and chewed vigorously. Gu Yuan saw his jaw writhing exaggeratedly from side to side, his nose, eyes, and ears were all red, and there was a hoarse sound in his throat. the sound of.

Like eating a wax-encased stone, he chewed for a long time.

He tried to swallow it, but failed.

So he grabbed the snow on the soil in the flower bed next to him and stuffed it into his mouth.

The melted snow overflowed from the corner of his mouth, forming two streams on both sides of his chin.

He finally swallowed.

After eating the last pineapple bun, Lu Chen stood up and looked down at Gu Yuan.

Red eyes, and cheeks throbbing as if they were cramping.

After a brief silence, he wanted to leave, but after only a few steps, his stomach began to violently grip his stomach. The energy exhausted from running long distances in the wind and snow made him unable to stand still. A certain switch was turned on, and Gu Yuan I saw the sadness gushing out, and Lu Chen who was crying bitterly in the sadness, vomiting and crying hoarsely.

It was as if he wanted to vomit out his heart and soul.