June is our farewell song

After Lu Chen stumbled away, Gu Yuan received a call from Wang Yanyi, who of course came to ask about Liu Qingsi.After Gu Yuan told him the truth, there was a long silence on the other end of the phone.

Only the breathing of the two people was transmitted back and forth between the electric waves.

Finally he said, so be it.

Gu Yuan hung up the phone, walked up the stairs and returned to the ward by himself.

Qi Yu was the only one left on the chair at the door of the ward. She sat there with her head down, ignoring others when she spoke to her. The red marks came out one by one, like a red moon, swollen.

Gu Yuan walked into the room. Inside were the doctor and Qing Si's parents. The three of them stood in front of the empty hospital bed. The setting sun came in from the window beside the bed and sprinkled on their legs, making the shadows very long.

Uncle Liu looked very haggard, with sunken eye sockets and ravines on his face. Compared with before, he was darker and thinner. Aunt Jiang was not much better, her face was as pale as a A piece of paper, the eyes are also swollen obviously.

"Ah... you're back."

Uncle Liu's voice was hoarse and dry, as if an old bellows was forced to work.

"Hmm..." Gu Yuan nodded, and found that his voice was similar, but he didn't remember crying, nor did he remember shouting anything.

"This thing, here it is." Gu Yuan saw that he was still holding a diary, a picture album and a letter in his hand, "She gave it to us last night, saying that if... if not If you can take it back by yourself, let us bring it to you. We don’t know what’s inside, but she’s been writing and drawing since she was hospitalized, so maybe she wants to say something.”

what i want to say...

Gu Yuan looked at the diary and album, and finally his eyes fell on the letter.

Carrying the last thing Qing Si gave him, Gu Yuan left the gray-white hospital. He wanted to find a quiet place to listen to her talk. In the cold weather after the snow and early sunshine, the street was filled with endless coolness.Because it is the evening rush hour after get off work, the road is full of cars with red brake lights on, and the ears are filled with the sound of horns, traffic police whistles, people's voices and the wind.A certain emotion is like the wind on a calm sea, blowing slowly and unobtrusively.

He just stretched out the back of his hand to wipe his nose, and then walked on the road with the three things in his hands.

He didn't notice, it was just at the fork in the road not far away.A girl wearing a brown scarf and a red and white plaid shirt was looking down for a one-yuan coin from her bag at the moment with her head lowered.

The red light turns yellow, the intersection is congested, and the police stand on the round platform in the center and blow their whistles.

The girl flicked her hand upwards, and a silver arc appeared in her sight.

Gradually rise.

come down.

Gu Yuan felt a gust of wind blowing snowflakes, which melted the moment they touched the temperature of his skin, his face was icy cold, and his hands touched it, like two dry rivers.

When Gu Yuan walked to the big rock in the park by the river, there was a lot of noise there.

Because an older person appeared, the group of children looked over.One of them took advantage of the moment when other people looked away, kicked the person next to him away, and then successfully snatched a toy top into his hand.The child who was kicked screamed and threw himself into the arms of the child next to him, but was quickly avoided by the girl.

There were two other children standing on the stone and talking, holding the slanting tree beside them.

Gu Yuan stood on the grass, a little at a loss.

At this time, someone patted him on the shoulder from behind, and when he looked back, it was Lu Siyao.The girl was wearing an azure hoodie, with her hands in her pockets, her chin twitched slightly, then she walked to the square at the entrance of the park and sat down on a marble bench.

"The result has already come out." Lu Siyao said.

In the trash can in front were a lot of snack bags, fruit beer bottles, and a cake box... Gu Yuan took a deep breath, and the cold wind poured down his throat into his stomach, causing a burst of pain.

"The operation... still failed."

His eyes scanned the square, but he didn't see that annoying guy.

Where did he go after he disappeared from the hospital?

Lu Siyao didn't have any special reaction after listening to it, she just rested her chin in one hand, watched the sunset slowly sinking below the horizon, and said softly:

"I told you before, you have to think about this situation in advance."

"Um……"

"The success rate of the operation is only 20.00%, that is to say, this situation is the most likely to happen now."

"I know...I know." Gu Yuan rubbed his fingers on the album and the envelope, "But..."

"Although I know what you are expecting, this is reality." Lu Siyao's voice was like catkins flying in spring, "Reality is reality, filled with all kinds of pain and dirty dross, even if it makes people disgusted and scared Avoiding it is also a reality. It is something that must be accepted.”

"You said these..." Gu Yuan murmured, "I know everything, but..."

"Knowing and doing are two different things." Lu Siyao stood up and walked towards the river.

"Where are you going?" Gu Yuan suddenly left after speaking halfway, and Gu Yuan looked at Lu Siyao in surprise.

"Go buy today's dinner, and don't you have something to do?" Lu Siyao turned around with her hands behind her back, her legs crossed in front of her in an X shape, her upper body slightly leaned forward, and her eyes fell on the letters and albums in Gu Yuan's hands. And in the diary, "Those things are left to you by her."

"Ah... yes."

"Although I'm a little curious about what's inside, I think you should prefer to watch it slowly by yourself. I'm also a little hungry, so I'm going to buy some food and create a space for you to be alone." Lu Siyao said Then turned back, raised his right hand and waved, "I will be back at the right time, that's it, see you later."

After Lu Siyao left, Gu Yuan's eyes fell back to his hand.

Diaries, albums and letters.

Which one should I look at first?

The diary must have the most information, but should we read it first... What will be in the picture book?This seems to be the picture album she was drawing when I went to see her before. Speaking of which, the picture was still on the table in the study last time.Letter... Let's read the letter first.

Gu Yuan put his finger on the sealing strip of the envelope and wiped it lightly.

"By the time you read this letter, I'm no longer here."

"Oh... I wanted to give you this letter myself."

I thought it would start like this.

But the first sentence that caught my eye was:

"Today is also a good day!"

Good weather... Gu Yuan raised his head to look at the sky, and there was a steady stream of wind in his ears.

"It's weird to write to someone you're about to see, but there are some things that are hard to say face to face. It's true for you, and it's true for me."

"It's going to be our last meeting soon... It's a bit regretful to think that it will be the last time, but it's still very happy to meet! Every time we meet, I have this feeling, from the first time to the last time, I don't know if you still remember it Do you remember the scene when we first met? The first time we met was in the summer five years ago, in [City of the Cat’s Sky], at dusk, when the sunset was like shining powder falling from the sky, the face was on the side of the pillow On the arm, the squinting boy looks like a sleeping cat."

"I must not remember it. After all, it was so long ago five years ago, and we didn't talk to each other, but I remembered it for a long time. Later I heard that you were interested in the paintings on the wall, and I was happy like I overturned the palette in my heart, but found that you were only interested in the one next to it, and I was a little disappointed. After that, I met you countless times in the store, but I didn’t talk to you. Although I thought about what to do, but In the end, I just watched you from afar."

"Because your relationship is so good that there is no room for me to intervene."

"However, it's great that I came to the same high school and joined the same club!"

"It's been great to be with all of you!"

"It's a pity that I fell ill when I entered the third year of high school... I wanted to work hard with everyone. But after that, I kept going in and out of the hospital, and the time spent in the hospital became longer and longer, even exceeding the time in school. Although my parents and the doctor didn't tell me anything at that time, I also understand that my physical condition is not very good."

"So, when I got the medical report, I made a willful decision."

"I want to go back to school."

"I don't want to take my regrets with me to the afterlife."

"I want to take another look at those places."

"An activity room where everyone gathers for dinner after helping Xiaoying get rid of her troubles."

"The kitten Joey who likes to lie on the window sill and peek at the bun-like moon outside."

"The tape left on the floor, the traces of the witch's divination house."

"There is also the track that helped me complete the 3000-meter race. I still feel incredible."

"Sitting on the grass outside the observatory and watching the stars together, there are also strange drinks."

"There must be something hidden in the clock tower at midnight, right?"

"Sit under the wishing tree and watch the sun rise and set, you must experience it!"

"Obviously I'm leaving soon, but my heart is full of things in this world."

"Those unforgettable landscapes are all trivial details."

"Man is a strange animal, isn't he?"

"Do you remember what I said?"

"Is it more or less than these?"

"Please remember these firmly!"

"Go and eat the best pineapple bun in the world for me."

"See for me the most beautiful sunrise and sunset in the world."

"See the fireworks and fountains at the amusement park for me."

"Be sure to record it with a pen. If you can, send me a copy and let me have a look."

"Then make an agreement like this, don't go back on your word!"

"so be it."

"Right, one more thing."

Gu Yuan turned the letter paper to the wrong side.

"Not here, look inside the envelope."

"Yes, yes, it's here."

"It's still too shy to write on paper."

"The dragon should hide in the clouds."

"Did you understand? If it was you, it should have been conveyed. If you don't know, go and watch "Little Scenery under the Moon"."

"Well, this is really goodbye."

"I'm sorry for always hitting you with books before."

"We can't go on together anymore, sorry."

"Goodbye."