June is our farewell song

The carriage on the way back was surprisingly empty. Gu Yuan found a place by the window and sat down. The intermittent conversation with Yang Hao just now combined with the shark pendant in his hand knocked on his heart one after another.The sickly pale energy-saving lights hit the face, and the closed compartment gave people the illusion that time had stopped here.

The sky is getting late, the top of the head is blue and purple, and the bleakness of the small southern town cannot be completely dispelled even by the spring when everything recovers. Gu Yuan can't help but think of those two evenings when they fell asleep under the wishing tree, as the sun completely set, He felt a chill in his heart, and a feeling of wanting to cry but not out of sadness lingered in his body. He was not a person with weak feelings, so he couldn't understand this complex emotion about "twilight comes".

It was already six o'clock in the afternoon, dinner hadn't been settled yet, and Gu Yuan hardly ate anything at noon.He leaned against the window to clear his head through the bumps, got off the train at a stop in the middle, turned around the corners of the small shop street next to the station, and finally stood blankly on the street with a heavy schoolbag on his back .

There is no decisiveness at all, when did I become like this?

He was carrying his schoolbag and was about to go back, but when he turned around, he saw a person looking at him with his head tilted.The girl was holding a gift bag that seemed to contain clothes or shoes, and her expression was the same as her own, full of inquiry and puzzlement.

"Why are you here?"

Gu Yuan was at a loss, and Lu Siyao was obviously confused by this sudden encounter.

"I... come here to return the shoes." The girl in front of him looked at him shallowly, her eyes narrowed slightly, and her eyelashes were plated with a layer of dark blue gold in the setting sun, "What about you, why are you here?"

"Um... I just want to fix dinner." Gu Yuan said so, his stomach growled cooperatively.The girl's eyes slipped from his face to the lower half of his body and back again, then sighed in a very inconspicuous way, and said:

"Let's go together, I'm hungry too."

After Lu Siyao finished speaking, he looked behind Gu Yuan, he turned around and saw a huge golden M.

"Is it here?"

"What? Do you have higher requirements?"

Gu Yuan stood at attention, shaking his head like a rattle sold for children at a stall nearby.

Lu Siyao only ate a little and then put it down, sipping the warm orange juice in small sips.

"What?" Gu Yuan raised his head and asked.

"It doesn't taste like when I was a child, so I won't eat it." She pouted slightly, and the light in her eyes was like the sunset glow in the sky.Gu Yuan suddenly realized that the girl might have already had dinner, so he nodded in agreement, "It's really not that bad..."

"Not very tasty."

After thinking for a long time, I couldn't find a suitable word, and finally had to use the simplest "delicious."

"Do you think it's not delicious?" Lu Siyao showed a surprised expression on seeing his performance like this.

Gu Yuan didn't know how to respond, he just lowered his head and smiled silently.

"I just feel that the taste is different from what it used to be." Lu Siyao quickly understood what was going on, "It's not that it's not delicious, it's just that the taste is different from what we used to eat."

"The feeling of eating in the past..." Gu Yuan recalled the scene when the two of them ate fast food together in the past. It's better not to have any purpose in other meetings. Getting stuck in the past at this time will inevitably deform the behavior of both of them. He is not sure what will happen at that time, so he said, "No, isn't it the same taste?"

"You actually think so."

Gu Yuan was confused, the girl in front of him looked at him with her chin resting on her face, the expression on her face was unpredictable.

"What am I thinking?"

"When you ate foreign fast food for the first time, you complained that it was too salty and said it was terrible."

"When you ate for the first time?" Gu Yuan scratched his head, "Really?"

"You don't remember, what happened in the past." Lu Siyao lowered his gaze a little, "Although you always say that you have a good memory, in fact you have already forgotten many things."

Gu Yuan didn't know what to say in response to Lu Siyao, and the scene became deserted.Gu Yuan suddenly felt sad. In the past 18 years, more than 80.00% of the time he had talked with the girl in front of him, but many memories were blurred in just a few years.The Lu Siyao he knew talked a lot and liked M Ji's ice cream, not the weird and beautiful girl that other people thought was wild and unconstrained and not close to fireworks,
These are obviously things hidden deep in the mind.But I don't know why, memory is like a string of broken beads, jumping around on the ground, occasionally picking up one, the luster is dazzling, but it's just lonely.

Although they are close at hand, what separates them is nothing but a plastic red dinner plate covered with oil-absorbing advertising paper, and there is a river in the middle that both of them try to pretend to be invisible. For no reason.

"Why don't you return this thing for me." Lu Siyao picked up the gift bag from under the table and put it on the table. Gu Yuan saw the Nike icon on the box in the bag, "Give it back to Ye Jun and tell me if I need it." Let’s go, let’s give it to those who need it more.”

Gu Yuan took the bag and squeezed it lightly, making a rattling sound.

"I know, I'll pay him back."

"Whatever, it doesn't matter whether you throw it away or burn it, as long as you let him know that I didn't take it."

"Really? Then I'll take it myself?"

"You can't fit it at all." Lu Siyao laughed, "37 and 43 are three centimeters apart."

"There is always a way." Gu Yuan also laughed, "It's like although I have been in constant trouble for the past six months, I think there is always a way."

"Is it really."

Lu Siyao looked out at the blue-black ink-like night with her cheeks in her hand, and said softly.

"At least you have to believe it yourself."

"But not all troubles have solutions, just as not all problems have answers."

"I know it too." Gu Yuan's eyes were bright, facing the orange street lights outside the window and the neon on the plaque, "Actually, I don't believe it myself, but I have to think this way."

Lu Siyao looked at him calmly, without nodding or shaking his head, without surprise or understanding, there was no wave in the ancient well.

They stared at each other for a long time, Gu Yuan turned his head away first.

"Where did you find that bracelet?"

When the sky outside slowly changed from blue-black to dark red reflected by neon lights, Gu Yuan heard Lu Siyao's voice again.He looked back to find the rusty shark pendant had fallen out of his pocket, and it happened to be hanging on the edge of the gift bag. The rusty shark head was dangling in the orange light.

"Ah, this...I picked it up on the school's boulevard, when I was looking at the exam list in the afternoon. I picked it up because it looked familiar at the time. I don't know who dropped it."

"That's good, that's good." Lu Siyao said, "I thought it was the one I threw away and came back to find me."

Gu Yuan was stunned for a moment, although he hadn't seen her wearing that bracelet before, he didn't expect Lu Siyao to throw it away.

"Why did you throw it away? Didn't you like that bracelet very much before?"

"I'm just used to it, and I don't like it much. I tried not to wear it for a while before, and found that I can do without it, so I threw it away."

"It's just a habit..." Gu Yuan swallowed the second half of the sentence silently.

"It's useless to keep it, I won't wear it anymore." Lu Siyao leaned down slightly, looking at the rusty shark pendant from the side, "Its owner must have the same idea as me, so it is Throw it away."

"Because I found that I can do without him, so I threw it away." Gu Yuan raised his head, the light fell into his eyes, and lit two orange warm round lanterns, "I was told today that I have too much self-awareness, and I always use myself Think about the problem as a starting point, but I feel that compared with you, it seems to be a little worse."

If it was Qi Yu, the former Qi Yu, he would be so angry when he heard such words, and then he would reply.But she was Lu Siyao, so she just smiled and nodded affirmatively.

When he pushed open the heavy glass door and came to the street, Gu Yuan heard a sigh. Behind him, Lu Siyao stretched out facing the colorful light billboard in front of him. Her peaceful pink cheeks were so beautiful, too beautiful to sigh .

"Goodbye then."

"Ah."

When Gu Yuan left, he heard Lu Siyao say something clearly behind his back.

"Don't forget."

Gu Yuan stopped and paused for a few seconds before turning his head to look at her, holding up the bag in his hand and saying:

"I'll return the shoes."

"No, I didn't mean that." Lu Siyao laughed, "I mean, don't forget the farewell gift for the last meeting, I will prepare it for you too."

Gu Yuan froze for a moment, then nodded.

"I'll be ready, when we meet for the last time."

When is the last time, is it the next time?

Gu Yuan walked home alone, thinking about the answer to this question.

Not all questions have answers.

He suddenly remembered Lu Siyao's words.

Gu Yuan raised his head, the sky at night was a bit gloomy, the dirty clouds pressed down very low, making people feel breathless.