June is our farewell song

"Feel better now?"

Finding a relatively secluded corner around the commercial plaza, Chi Yu put down the vegetable basket she was carrying on the snow-covered bench, then wiped it on the chair with her hands wearing red gloves, and evened out a space for A place for two people to sit.Then he took out a pink oversized thermos cup from the bottom of the basket, took the round lid and poured hot water into it, but there was not enough water in the cup to fill it.She reached out and touched the boy's forehead and handed it to him.

The snow was still falling, but the big green umbrella next to the chair, which was supposed to be used to keep out the rain and snow, had already been put away and tied with a dark blue string.Yang Hao, who was at a loss in the cold, gradually regained his senses because of the small piece of warmth on his forehead.

The effect of the thermos cup is not very good, Yang Hao can feel it from the hot bottle cap.Correspondingly, when she reached out to take it, she clearly felt that her hand was cold.

"I don't like drinking water." Chi Yu smiled and waved her hand.

There were many white snow particles scattered on the girl's hair and black coat in sight. Before that, the two had no particularly close relationship. They were just people of the same age who had met several times in the same community. When she was in trouble and unable to extricate herself from negative emotions, she was willing to take the initiative to reach out and pull herself up.He will pour the only remaining warm hot water to himself just so that he can regain a little warmth in this cold winter.

Girls are hot inside and out.

Yang Hao took the lid of the cup she handed over in a daze, and put his hands around his mouth, the warmth of the water flowed down his fingertips, climbed up his shoulders little by little, and then sank into his heart.Anyone who doesn't like drinking water is a lie.Even though your hands are freezing cold, why do you have to leave these to others.

"Drink quickly, you have to warm up. You must be very tired after crying for so long. You need to replenish energy."

"Can hot water replenish energy?" The boy held the lid of the cup blankly and looked at the water waves swaying inside.

"I don't know," the girl smiled and gently rubbed her cheeks with her hands, "But you shed so many tears just now, you must be hydrated, right?"

"...What should you do? Your hands...are cold."

"Just move and it'll be fine, look." Chi Yu handed over the hand that she had just rubbed on her cheek to warm it up, and put it on the back of the boy's hand. "Isn't it warmer now?"

Why are there...such people...

When she sat down next to her, Yang Hao raised his neck and drank the hot water in the cup in one gulp. The warmth flowed across his throat and rushed to his heart, and he felt relieved for a moment.

Without any thought, he rushed to argue with the stranger, but he didn't have the courage to fight to the end. As a result, he was grabbed by the other party relentlessly and refused to let go. That ghost old man even said a few words. Without saying anything, he got out of the car without saying a word... Recalling the slap that was raised high but not falling and the wrist that was pinched, pain swept over him.What also came to mind clearly was the fear and unwillingness.

Chi Yu found that the boy's body was still shaking after drinking the hot water.

The red finger marks on her wrists have faded away, and the eyes on her dirty face are obviously red and swollen. Her hair is messy on her forehead, stained by snow and mud, and her forehead is red from the cold. Chi Yu subconsciously reaches out. I lifted up those pieces of hair to check if he had a fever. I looked closer and noticed his expression, aggrieved and...angry?It is about to overflow, like a child who is cared for by his parents after a fall. The comforted heart feels more painful than the bruised place.

Noticing that his forehead and face were a little hot, Chi Yu mistook him for a cold and something wrong with his body, and asked if he should be sent to the hospital.The boy shook his head desperately, Chi Yu puffed up and sat down again after checking, and asked, "What happened? Why are you here alone?"

"It's nothing... aren't you here alone?" Even though he tried hard to hide it, there was still a hint of crying at the end.

"I'm here to buy groceries. Mom is back today and is preparing New Year's Eve dinner." The girl smiled happily and cleanly.

"That's quite rare..." The boy lowered his head and looked at the white snow and black soil under his feet, as if he could see the mud on his face.

"I have to go back. It's getting late now. My parents are still waiting for me."

Sure enough, no good thing in this world lasts long. When Yang Hao heard this sentence, he didn't feel so surprised or regretful. He just felt that it should be like this. Compared with the way his heart was beating wildly and his cheeks were burning, when the girl was carrying him, After Basket stood up, for some reason, he felt calmer.

"Actually, I..." My mind was a little confused, but I hesitated when I only said three words.

After all, the other party is someone whom I am not familiar with yet. I only know her name is Chi Yu.It's somewhat inappropriate to dump the bitter water like this.Although he is still very young, Yang Hao also understands that family scandals should not be made public, especially after the experience of being laughed at many times when he spoke out about it.So he just sat there, looking coldly and not paying much attention, watching the girl leave blankly.

Chi Yu heard him speak and turned slightly to the side, looking like she was listening carefully.

So I chose to continue talking.

"I told you before that my dad is not here...he came back today."

"Yeah." "But I don't feel happy, on the contrary, I'm a little...scared." Yang Hao lowered his head and looked at the ground, "I also thought about what it would be like when he came back, and I remember it happened when I was very young. Happy times, but now...when I saw him walking in front of me, I realized that the memories were beautified and distorted..."

"Don't you like him?"

"It's not so much that I don't like him, it's better to say that I don't want him to come back at all. I think my mother thinks the same way. In the past few years, we have endured hardships, been despised and spurned by others... and what those people said... ...It’s really hard to accept, and all of this is because of him.” Yang Hao raised his head and hid the tears in his eyes, “My mother can’t stand this, but she still has to go out to work. When she comes home every day, she locks herself in the room and doesn’t come out. Sometimes she eats I don’t eat either. I was also bullied at school, and there were all kinds of rumors, I really..."

"Well……"

"I have gradually gotten used to it, but when I see him again, it seems that the initial shame and anger are back. I can't explain clearly, but I just don't want him to come back. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I swallow my anger, Even if I try to please others, the result will be the same. Maybe it’s because I am very annoying..."

"Well, actually no."

"Is that right?"

"Yes."

"It's just that you think so." Yang Hao smiled, and then the smile slipped away, "Even I hate this kind of handwriting. I pulled you to tell you this for no reason..."

"No really, I'm serious." Chi Yu smiled and waved her hands, "I'm leaving, it's getting late, goodbye"

"See you……"

This is probably the first time, facing your emotions like this, right?

He always puts himself in the position of the victim, complaining miserably about everything happening around him.

I shyly try to please others, only to be bullied in turn, and I don’t dare to resist because there are so many people.She didn't dare to speak out in the face of criticism and accusations from her relatives, so she could only let her mother stand outside. When she returned to school, she didn't have the courage to argue when others pointed her out. It was an endless nightmare.

Attributing the source of all malice to that man, now that I think about it, I actually have my own reasons.I was too concerned about everything around me and ignored the dry handwriting on my emotions. I am courageless and cowardly. I am still confused and living in a hazy state.

Changes must be made.

A gust of wind blew snowflakes, and the rain seemed to have stopped. In the distance, you could see the sun peeking out from the gaps in the clouds on the horizon. Yang Hao was sitting in the shadow of the shopping mall building. The confusion in his eyes became less and less, and the black color slowly Filled pupils.

"Eh-" From a distance, I suddenly saw Chi Yu crossing the zebra crossing and running all the way through the snow, leaving footprints all over the ground, "I remembered, you still have something you haven't returned to me. .”

Yang Hao was stunned for a moment before realizing that he was still holding the lid of the girl's thermos in his hand.

His face flushed slightly and he hurriedly handed it over.

The girl took it, covered it solemnly, and stuffed the huge pink thermos cup horizontally back into the bottom of the vegetable basket.

"Then this time, goodbye for real."

"Um……"

The girl's back in the sight gradually blurred into a ball under the soft light of the street lamp.

What a good man... He clenched his fists as he thought.

I want to change, but it takes time.

Lots and lots of time.