This passerby is too calm

Chapter 171 169. I guess

"How do I know where you put Dong XZ, or how do I know that you want to kill Wang Yu?"

"Or, how do I know that you want to attack the other people in your dormitory, and even considered attacking me?"

Chen Mo said softly.

Xu Zhipeng's pupils shrank sharply when he heard the last sentence, and he raised his head to look at Chen Mo with wide eyes.

"My guess."

After mobilizing the atmosphere to the extreme, Chen Mo suddenly said something, which stunned Xu Zhipeng.

"Don't be surprised, I'm really just guessing what I'm doing by looking at me like this."

However, it was speculated based on the investigation of Xu Zhipeng's detailed information for more than ten years, the experience of assisting in handling cases for more than ten years, and a lot of experience in criminal psychology.

Xu Zhipeng moved the corner of his mouth.

"I……"

He didn't expect that he was almost overwhelmed by a sentence I guessed.

"Xu Zhipeng was born in a mountain village in F County, J City, L Province. He was the only college student in the village who was admitted to university the year before last. He was also the number one scholar in the county, and the top few in the urban area. F County is a child of someone else's family in the personal population. .

His mother died early, and his father was a lumberjack, but because he was fond of gambling, the family had no savings, and even lost all the money in the family because of a big bet in the early years, and owed a whole lot of debt.In the same year, your mother tried to divorce your father, but she was unsuccessful and was beaten violently. In the same year, your mother drowned and passed away. The local police ruled that the death was accidental.You have a younger brother and a younger sister under you, because your father doesn't care about things, and after your mother left, you basically brought them up with your own hands, and the relationship is very good...

Because your father often went out to gamble and was not at home when you were young, you were basically brought up by your mother, and your mother hoped that you would go to university well.When you wanted to go to school when you were young, your father didn't agree, and it was your mother who knelt and beat you to ask your father to agree.Until the moment of your mother's death, your mother has always been your spiritual support. She is the only person in the mountain village or family who understands and supports you.

You hate but also fear but also love your father, because you suspect the cause of your mother's death, suspect that she died not normal at all, you have doubted your father, and you have doubted everyone in the village.You think they are executioners, but they are people who are very close relatives to you.

You have been growing up in a contradictory mood and living environment since you were a child. You have always had resentment and fear in your heart, as well as a sense of 'guilt'.You deeply remember that incident when you were a child. You hate that adults don’t tell you anything. You want to study medicine because you want to know the truth. When you guessed the truth about your mother’s death, did those people in uniform lie to you? ...

So you chose the medical school of University A, because your mother once told you that when she was studying, she also wanted to be admitted to University A... Don’t look at me so strangely, you are in the QQ space many years ago It was written that..."

"You...how do you know this..."

As Chen Mo spit out every single word, Xu Zhipeng's eyes slowly seemed to set off huge waves little by little, as if a torpedo had been thrown into deep water and exploded from the bottom of the lake, spreading out a huge giant bubble, spreading little by little And open.The frozen ice layer on the lake was completely exploded, cracked inch by inch.To say that when Chen Mo took out those things before, he was just shocked, accompanied by a sense of loss and despair.

Deep in my heart, there is a feeling that it is so true, a feeling that I can't resist fate, and I am trampled under the soles of my feet by fate.A kind of feeling that if he is discovered, he will be discovered, call the police or what, he will completely give up his life feeling, his eyes are still cold, the difference is that he no longer has the slightest vitality.

He has always been restrained, hiding himself deeply, hiding and sealing his heart, his eyes are gloomy and frozen.But at this time, Chen Mo's words were undoubtedly like a heavy blow, directly overturning the layer of ice that he protected himself and hid himself in the end.

These words……

How did he know these things?
Those words...he never said them to anyone.

This is the secret that he once buried in his heart. He has never told anyone in this life, and it is impossible to tell anyone. The biggest secret in his life is the great terror that tortured him day and night countless times when he was a child.

Unexpectedly, at this moment, in a strange city, a student from a university who they didn't know before today suddenly said it...

Xu Zhipeng couldn't recover from the shock for a long time.

The whole person seemed to be covered in a hood, and everything was buzzing.

Raising his head, he looked at Chen Mo in shock with only a pair of eyes. Under the knotted bangs, a pair of dark eyes with pupils trembling constantly.His lips squirmed, as if he wanted to say a lot, but when he opened his mouth, there was only "—" a silent hoarse electric frequency sound.It was a silent tear after the emotion reached a certain level.

Chen Mo's words brought Xu Zhipeng's thoughts back to the afternoon five years ago in his memory. The sun was shining brightly, but when he looked at the corpse in the stinky ditch, he felt cold all over his body, as if a leech had drilled into his body. Running around, no matter how squeezed, they couldn't get out.

He looked at the smoking uncles around him and felt like devils, everyone's expressions were distorted into hideous looks, ghosts and ghosts, including himself.

The evil spirits born in the ghost village have dirty blood in their veins.

"That may be the reason for your present character, and why you are prepared to take such extreme revenge."

"Are you wondering why you know such details?"

"Because I have thoroughly investigated you, I have investigated everything that can be found about what happened to you over the years." Chen Mo said without concealing it.

"We didn't know each other before, why did you suddenly think of investigating me?"

"It was an accident, but I'm glad I chose to investigate and stop you. Just be my holy father. I don't want to watch a person go to hell step by step and destroy myself with my own hands."

Looking at the man with red eyes in front of him, after a long time, Chen Mo sighed softly.He briefly talked about what happened when Wang Yu bumped into him that day, and his subsequent guesses because of their words.

Xu Zhipeng lowered his head slowly, inserting his hands with rough knuckles and even some deformities from doing farm work when he was a child, into the clumped hair ends, bending his fingers hard, pressing down on the knotted knots of hair, tightly clasping the white hair scalp.He lowered his head and fixed his eyes on a spot on the floor.After listening, the lips that had been tense all the time suddenly parted into a smile.

"So that's how it is...I didn't expect to be defeated by him again. How could it be so unlucky to meet such a nosy person like you?"

Without hearing Chen Mo's response, Xu Zhipeng continued on his own:
"My mother has always been a very gentle person..."

"In my memory when I was young, my dad beat people when he was drinking, and asked my grandma for money, but my grandma didn't give it, so he beat and kicked my grandma crazily. My memory is like this when I was young. .My mood has always been a kind of violent mood that follows my father.

But my mom was the one who healed me.Even if she was seriously injured, she would run over and hug me who was crying and crying bitterly, and said that she should study hard in the future, work hard to get out of this mountain village, and go outside for her.She always told me a lot of stories about the big cities outside, saying that the outside is very big and beautiful... Then she put me to sleep little by little, just like dreaming. In a big city, people are kind and not violent. Everyone respects each other and is cultured and cultivated.

It's like a sweet dream from my childhood.

But I didn't expect my dream to be like this in reality...

I knew from a very young age that my grandma did not marry my grandpa normally.Did my father beat me when I was unhappy, but it is normal for a man to beat a woman in the village. I forced myself to feel normal, but with the sound of punches to the flesh, I trembled every time I heard it.I am a very weak person, although I feel sorry for my grandmother, but when my father beats my grandmother, I never dare to fight.

I only dared to apply the crushed grass to my grandma when she was lying on the ground dying, and when she cried out for pain, just like when I was playing house with my friends.That is ordinary grass, not a herbal medicine at all, and I know now that it is useless at all.

But every time I do this, when my grandma wakes up, she is always very gentle (,,ω)ノ"(っω｀.) Touching me and saying: Be good, we Zhipeng don’t cry, we Zhipeng It’s amazing. The herbal medicine I found is very effective. Once the herbal medicine is applied, the pain will fly away. Grandma doesn’t have any pain at all. I know she still hurts, and she is lying to me. I will always feel wronged and scared Listening to my mother's words, she said: We Zhipeng is really good, and we will definitely become very good doctors in the future.

My grades are very good. Many people say that I am very smart, but I know this is because of my grandmother.My mother said that before my father and I, she liked reading very much, and her grades were also very good.She likes A University, and also dreams of entering A University.If she hadn't followed my father, she would have passed the exam, after all, she is so smart.Every time I get the report card, I am very happy when I get the first place in the exam, because I know that my grandma will be happier than me, and she will reward me with various delicious food in different ways.

After the exam that day, I went home with my report card. My father and grandfather were all there, and the smell of smoke filled the whole house.Everyone's face was very serious. Later, I heard from the aunt next door that I knew that my grandma had run away.

It is said that my father owed a lot of debts from gambling, and someone wanted to chop off his hands, and he wanted to drag my mother over to pay off the debt.My mother refused to do anything, and divorced my father, saying that she was not tied up after a beating and ran away.

As a child, I can't ask anything, and adults don't want to tell us. The family is in a very gloomy atmosphere.

A few days later my mother found it, in a ravine.

do you know?Unrecognizable when found.Everyone told me that my mother drowned accidentally, but they are all fucking nonsense, such a shallow ditch, even a child can't submerge half of his body in it, how could he drown someone!But everyone said it was drowned, I know it was not, anyone with a conscience who saw that corpse knew it was not, it was not a natural death!How to explain so many pinch marks on her body?

I was holding the biology paper with full marks. At that time, my whole body was chilling, and my mother couldn't close her eyes.I wanted to rub the bruises on the wound and apply herbal medicine as usual, but I couldn't even touch Grandma's body.I know I will never have a chance to save my grandma, and my grandma will never wake up and coax me again.My mother is gone.

Those who were torn and bitten by those demons are gone.

I looked around at the people who buried my mother hastily, and I saw that everyone looked like a devil, like a man-eating monster.But they are like ordinary people, wearing human skin.But they are all devils!I also know that the light in my heart is dead, and the violent emotions accumulated in the past have also turned into demons, and there is a ghost living in my heart.

I have always been sober, knowing that people have all the malice towards the world in their hearts, and so do I.

As you said, if it were left to other people, they might not be as extreme as I am.I myself am somewhat divided.I always remember the kindness, generosity, and kindness that my grandma taught me...

I do that all the time too.

It's just that my kindness is an impenetrable shell, which wraps me and suppresses the devil trapped inside.

You can say that I am simple and honest, but I am not really a nice person.I'm even a little sick, but I want to be a good person, a normal person who can integrate into society.Just like my grandma expects, grow up well, take a good look at this big world, and take a look for her.

When I first came to University A, I really wanted to get along with everyone.

Maybe I won't get along with people.

I brought some bacon from our village, which was a rare snack when I was a child. On the first day of school, I came to a new environment and tried to make friends. I took out bacon from a snakeskin bag and wanted to give it to me. My roommates share.I will always remember the scene at that time.

Wang Yu pushed the bacon away, and with a disgusted expression, he backed away as if he saw something disgusting, with a look of disgust on his face.He said: What are you taking? It smells so strong, so disgusting, it stinks too much.Others started making the same expressions as him.Then I opened the windows and doors, saying it was to let the wind out and let the air in.

At that moment, I seemed to have an illusion, and felt that I saw a ghost with a hideous face again.

I suppressed the violence, and I told myself that they might not be used to this taste, just like what my grandma said, don't do things that embarrass others.I put the bacon away and never took it out in front of them again.

I really don't know if it's just me or if people in big cities are like this.My previous sweet dream seemed twisted into a gigantic, hideous nightmare, a black grimace filling the sky.

I have been working very hard to get along with them, very hard.I will take the initiative to bring them breakfast and help them pick up the express delivery, but when I have a stomachache and want Li Jingyu to bring me a cup of millet porridge, he shirks that he has no time.I asked other people again, and they said they were playing outside, and then I didn't ask any more.But later when they were playing outside and asked me to help them get the courier, it was still so natural to send WeChat.

I tried so hard to integrate into them, but found that the other three were getting closer and closer.I think about it.

We are obviously in the same class, but when they go to class together every morning, they never go with me.When I left, I turned off the lights directly, as if I was not in the dormitory.Sometimes I get up early, wash up, and wait for them. When they open the door, they will leave as if they didn't see me.

But when I was a freshman, because I had the best grades, they would ask me about anything academically.But in normal times, the three of them were playing and chatting, and I turned around and tried to add a sentence. As soon as I opened my mouth, the few of them stopped talking. "

"You know in situations like this, anyone can be crazy. I have a lot of times when negative emotions take over my mind."

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