This passerby is too calm

Chapter 172
"What's more, I am not a person with a healthy heart. I have been enduring and suppressing the malice in my heart. Sometimes the malice in my heart makes me afraid. But I finally endured it. I want to understand Now, I advise myself that I don’t need to be friends with others. If I have good grades, it’s okay to be liked by teachers. I also have my own value, so why bother to please others all the time.

I thought I would just be a transparent person in the dormitory.Because my father was unwilling to give me living expenses, I looked for a part-time job outside.I know that other majors have a break on Saturdays and Sundays, but our medical school has always been full of classes throughout the week.There is a lot of academic pressure, and it is difficult to balance part-time work and studies. Sometimes I often come back from part-time jobs and stay up all night to catch up with homework until dawn.

Because I am very busy, when I am busy, I have no time to worry about those sensitive feelings in my heart.I tell myself to be happy, but they stick with me, you know?They won't let me go!I have been avoiding them, but they are still picking on me.I basically don’t go back to the dormitory, I’m out all day, and when I go back at night, I’m reciting at the desk below, and Wang Yu plays his TV series outside, or plays games, very loudly, all the time. After eleven o'clock, every time after eleven o'clock, I felt a sense of relief, thinking that I could finally endorse the book, but Wang Yu and the others said that the light I turned on shook them, and the sound of pages turning was noisy. Watching him fall asleep, the sound of me going to bed is too loud, and the sound of me walking and kicking is annoying.

It seems that nothing is right, as if as long as I move, the dormitory will be in a very subtle and stagnant atmosphere.And I was the least likable person.

Every time I came back late, the door of the dormitory was tightly closed, and I had to bring my card every time I went out, because I knew they would not open the door for me.Once I forgot to bring my card and knocked on the door of the dormitory for a while, but no one opened the door for me. I didn’t know that I could ask the uncle downstairs to open the door. I am not so mature, so I can handle things, so I hugged The dead mobile phone sat in the stairwell all night.When class was about to start the next day, they opened the door to wash up. I just returned to the dormitory. I heard them chatting and complaining about the knock on the door last night. I didn't know they heard it, but no one was willing to come down and open the door for me.

I don't know what I did wrong to let them do this to me.Many times I can hardly restrain myself, but I still tell myself that my grades are pretty good, and my future will not be bad, that is, the past two years, it’s good that it’s over, it’s good that it’s over , I want to live a better life than them, and don't want people to bully me anymore! "

"But you know what? They ruined my future. They easily ruined what I had worked so hard to stick to with such a playful smile. Even though the freshman part-time job was so tiring, I didn't give up a little bit of my studies. I stayed up all night every day to complete my homework. , I will go to every class and never miss. Grades are my last pride, the last straw I cling to, and my future is so easily ruined by them."

"theft?"

"It's so easy to say. It's so easy to say. Just because I'm poor, do they have to steal things? I've always been like my grandma said, I'm poor and I don't know anything. Poor studies, I will save on clothes and food, but I will never save money for my studies.

At the beginning of last semester, the teacher asked us to buy an experimental model. Because the price was very expensive, many students were reluctant to buy it, including several of my roommates.I am sometimes surprised that they can spend hundreds or even thousands of dollars on a pair of shoes and a piece of clothing, but they are reluctant to buy a piece of experimental equipment.In their words, even this equipment can be seen in the laboratory, and it’s okay not to buy it.In our dormitory, only Li Jingyu bought it at first.

Later, I also bought it. I saved money for a long time, and I saved money and bought a second-hand set at the end of the semester.I took the model to the dormitory and prepared to do experimental homework on the newly obtained model.And do you know what happened?

When I first entered the dormitory, everyone looked at me like a trial in court, looking at me like garbage, and scolded me: I'm sick, why take other people's things and don't tell others!I was completely confused.Only then did I know that Li Jingyu put the model outside the dormitory two days ago because it took up too much space, but he couldn't find it these two days and lost it.When they saw the model in my hand, they thought I had it, and took it without Li Jingyu's permission.

I told them I bought it myself, but none of them believed it.We almost had a fight at first.Because I bought second-hand ones, I don’t even have an invoice, because my hometown has always paid in cash, and I haven’t changed this habit since I went to college. Even as a substitute tutor for other children, I asked my parents to give me cash , When I bought the model, I gave it directly in cash.

No matter how I explain it, I can’t explain it clearly. In addition, I am stupid, and they don’t want to listen to my explanation. They think I am sophistry.Because in their perception, I am poor, so I can't afford such things. I am poor, and I can't buy things that they are reluctant to buy.Because I was poor, no one believed my justification.

They just put me on the pillar of shame so naturally, I didn't bother to defend at first, because I had made up my mind to treat my roommates as strangers, and their thoughts, guesses, and malice didn't matter to me.

but you know what?On the second day, news about me spread all over the class. They all said that I was a thief, and they all spread about my petty theft.At that time, a rush of blood rushed to my forehead, and my heart was beating very fast in those few days. I was so angry that my whole body was shaking. In the end, I was still affected. They called me to testify and wanted to give an explanation in the dormitory, but no one listened to me. They were unwilling to even get together to listen to my explanation.

Everyone looked at me blankly, taking my words as fart.I got angry later, and I got very angry, so they reluctantly listened.

I thought it was over, but it didn't.None of them explained to the class that they had wronged me.It also spread the word that I was short-tempered.Even because of that payment slip, I told others everywhere that I was rich, but I usually pretended to be poor, to cheat the school and the country's stipends, as well as subsidies for poor students.The bill of payment is evidence.

They even acted like a joke, and reported to the counselor and the college when I applied for the most critical announcement of the National Encouragement Scholarship.

Even if it was not found in the final investigation, I met the standards, but in order to convince the public when I promoted the best, my quota was still taken away.I have worked hard for a semester!Did you know that I lost my place in the insurance research institute?That's what I keep pushing myself to death every day, until I'm tired enough to vomit!
They still laughed so happily, every time they went back to the dormitory, they treated me like a transparent person in front of me, laughing and joking. "

Xu Zhipeng raised his head to look at Chen Mo, his fingers ran along his hair across his cheeks, then slid down and rested on his thighs weakly.

"At that moment, I knew that I was finished. The beautiful childhood dream was shattered. Everything turned into a Shura hell. Everyone was a ghost, and so were my roommates. They were laughing and laughing so hard that I wanted to put Their faces are torn apart! The fierce malice in my heart can no longer be suppressed! All I see is the blood and decay of malice, and I want to make them this color. Like a person who has been Like a pressurized pressure cooker, the boiling temperature has reached the critical point, and I have been pressing it hard to prevent it from bursting.

Until this semester, I couldn't hold back anymore. The mental pressure made me unable to study hard at all. With more courses, I couldn't spare time to do tutoring.In the mid-term exam two days ago, my grades plummeted...but Wang Yu got the fourth major in the exam. I knew that something in my heart could no longer be suppressed.

He was the one who took the lead in reporting me, he was the one who isolated me all the time, he was the one who kept bringing up my so-called theft in last semester, and maliciously said from time to time that he had lost something, and from time to time Beside me, the yin and yang are strange, implying that I stole it.He also said that I am so ugly, why don't I die. "

"It's so easy to say, so I thought..."

"Send him to die?"

Chen Mo answered.

"Ah."

"You hate me and want to get rid of me because of him?"

"Ah."

"Then why did you stop at the last moment?"

Xu Zhipeng glanced at Chen Mo, then slowly glanced away, staring at a place in a daze, without answering.

The air was quiet for a while, Chen Mo sighed, and watched Xu Zhipeng continue to speak slowly.

"Then you prepared all of this, prepared to fight them to the death, and exchange your life for theirs?"

"Hehehe—" Xu Zhipeng laughed lowly, his voice hoarse. "I made all the preparations, including killing them, and then I committed suicide myself. I made all the worst preparations."

"Hehehehe—" Xu Zhipeng laughed again, which was a bit piercing and desolate.

"But unfortunately, it failed, as you can see.

I know that you will definitely not let me continue to do it, and I will not regret my previous decision if I do it all over again, I will still go to this step.I also know exactly what my previous behavior was, and I am ready to bear the consequences.I won't resist, and I won't do anything to you. The luck in this life has never favored me.I think it was my destiny to be discovered by such a coincidence this time.Call the police, or whatever. "

Xu Zhipeng said with a low smile and self-deprecating smile.There was no monstrous hatred and killing intent in those dark eyes, no interest in life, and no light.

It was past ten o'clock, the corridor was very quiet, and the dormitory was also very quiet, except for the sound of the plastic bag that Chen Mo just took down and put on the table "cracker-cracker".

Neither of them spoke, and the dormitory was very quiet for a while.

After a long time, Chen Mo suddenly said softly:

"Have you ever been to a place like an amusement park?"

"Ok?"

"Walk."

"what--?"

……

Xu Zhipeng didn't realize it until he was dragged to the school gate to brush his face. It was so late, and they couldn't leave the school gate without reporting.

"I'm asking for leave. I'll swipe away later. Just follow me."

"You take someone like me out together, you are not afraid..."

"You can't beat me."

"..."

Xu Zhipeng was still in a daze until he got into a taxi at the school gate.

Did he really come out like this?He has always been an obedient student, this is the first time he has been so unruly.

"Hey, if it weren't for the fact that the walls of our school are not easy to climb, I would like to show you to experience it."

Hearing this, Xu Zhipeng blinked in a daze, and looked at Chen Mo with complicated eyes.In his investigation, or in the eyes of many people, Chen Mo seems to be a very good, very good student.The feeling of a sunny five-good youth who absolutely listens to the teacher and does not make mistakes.

As if feeling Xu Zhipeng's gaze, Chen Mo turned his head to look at Xu Zhipeng, smiled and said:
"Everyone has two sides. The world is not black and white. Many things have complex gray sides, and so do people. It's like sometimes good intentions and malice happen, just a moment in the mind."

"A person is like a balloon. You can't fill it with air all the time. If you get too inflated, you don't have to patch the outside of the balloon all the time. You have to deflate yourself properly. Otherwise, the pain will be doubled if you get too inflated. Sooner or later It's going to explode, and it will be even more tragic when it explodes. You are too obedient and framed yourself to death."

Xu Zhipeng looked at Chen Mo blankly.The light outside the car shines into the car through the light, reflecting the light and shadow of the beautiful city neon, which is very special, with a sense of halo and trance.

"Don't think about anything now, fear, fear, resentment... or anything else, let me let go of all emotions, empty my head, and now we just want to play. Let's go, let you let go!"

……

A decompression hall in Wudaokou, City A.

"Snapped!"

"Boom boom boom!"

"Tear--!!!"

"Dong Dong Dong!!!"

Sitting aside, Chen Mo looked at Xu Zhipeng, smashing the empty wine bottle at Lin Lang's wall over and over again, his eyes relaxed slightly.The sharp eyes are relaxed, and the line of the upper eyelid forms an extremely soft and clean arc, which contrasts with the light-colored eyes below which are cold and ethereal with gentleness.

At first Xu Zhipeng was unwilling to smash it, he took it to demonstrate, maybe also guided by a venting atmosphere, Xu Zhipeng gradually tried to let go, dumping his emotions on the object.

It's like a switch has been flipped.They kept tearing the paper, crumpling it into a ball and throwing it around, smashing wine bottles at the wall, picking up pillows to join the crowd, and hitting each other with pillows.

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