Spring apricots around the palace wall

Chapter 247 Xuanjing ([-])

I still don't believe it.Ah Yan did it on purpose, she just wanted to piss me off.

"If Xuansu is my own, will the queen mother turn to me and let you be a concubine to take care of me?"

She smiled: "If the emperor is not his own, why do you think the empress dowager treats him as her own? Do you know how his nominal biological mother climbed onto the dragon bed behind the empress dowager's back, so How did the Queen Mother humiliate her in public?"

I tried my best not to fall down, and looked straight at her, I asked: "Who dares to talk about the matter of the emperor's birth mother, how do you know?"

She didn't answer my question, and continued: "Xuan Jing, what you planned will never come true."

"But you are still pregnant with this child," I pursed my lips and said with a smile, "You hate me, but you still love me."

Not only is she alienated from me, but she also hates me, hates me for using her, hates me for causing her to suffer a lot, that's why she said these words when I was so weak.

She closed her eyes, her fan-like eyelashes trembling slightly.

"This child is my life-saving talisman. Xuan Jing, you should be thankful that the Empress Dowager Yu really cares about your wishes and trusts you so much because she truly treats you as a flesh and blood. She will do her best to make your last days comfortable and satisfied." .”

I know, I have always regarded her as my mother, no matter how my biological mother died, I don't want to associate it with the Queen Mother.

Everything was going in the direction I expected, but what did I have in the end, Ah Yan only said lightly, "The emperor and the empress dowager Yu are the biological mother and child", and everything I did became a joke.

In the end, all I have is the lingering relationship with Ah Yan during this period, but I left behind a posthumous child.

But if we get married normally, I will marry her as my princess early, maybe I will be lucky enough to see the birth of a child.

I'm not satisfied, I'm not reconciled...

I laughed and laughed, the dull pain in my chest became more and more intense, a mouthful of blood gushed into my throat, I couldn't hold it back, I vomited scarlet all over the floor.

"I've forgiven you a long time ago, Xuan Jing, I don't hate you," she stood in front of me, watching me vomit blood, her voice became softer and softer, "I still can't figure it out, do you really have me in your heart?"

I always look at her face at night, draw her outline with my fingertips, and call her name in my dreams.

But if I have her in my heart, I will make a mess of her life.

She said she didn't hate me, but she retaliated against me like this.
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At the end of my life, Empress Dowager Yu held my hand, and I glanced at Empress Dowager Ruan behind her, and deliberately asked: "Mother, what does my biological mother look like?"

I saw Queen Mother Ruan frowned slightly.The Empress Dowager Yu said softly, "She is beautiful and very good."

If the Empress Dowager Yu really liked my mother, she wouldn't have kept silent for so many years.

But I still thank her for saying this about my biological mother at this time.

"Where's my father?"

"Your father loves you very much. You are his first child, and he loves you the most."

I think it should be the same, regardless of the concubines, the first child is always loved more.

Before closing my eyes, I seemed to see Xuan Su, he stood there and did not come forward.

Having been brothers with Xuan Su for so many years, I naturally understand that his tense expression is a manifestation of his pain.

It seems that once I die, he won't hate me anymore.

I suddenly regretted that that day, I should have woken up in time so as not to hear such a conversation between Aunt Yu and others.

if i never heard...

Then maybe I will take medicine well, take good care of my body, live a few more years, and see what Ah Yan and I's child looks like.

Xuan Su and I are still brothers, he will bless me, and he will be full of children and grandchildren.

But... there is no if.

(End of this chapter)