Doctor: start with the heart

Chapter 142 Housewarming Party - Sun Chang's Secret?
Six pm.

Inside a villa in the core business district of Qianlitun.

At this time, Zhao Xu was sitting on the sofa in the living room, and Sun Chang and the girls were busy with dinner. It was a joyful thing even for them to be able to move to a villa in such a good core area.

In fact, if Sun Chang and others get together, they can also live in such a villa, but the cost is that more than half of their salary has to be used to pay the rent.

But now, being able to live in such a house, the rent is saved, and the money saved can be used for other things, so the girls are very happy at this time.

Zhao Xu looked at the decoration of the villa again. It was in a modern and simple style. It was very simple, but it looked very stylish.

Moreover, from the living room to the kitchen, there is an open structure, and the lighting is also very good, giving it a bright and majestic feeling.

As for the house, what you look at is nothing more than decoration, lighting and ventilation. If these three points are done well, the house will definitely be very easy to live in.

Of course, such a good villa has a lot of monthly rent, but the cost of these rents is also included in the housing subsidies planned by Zhao Xu.

When Zhao Xu was still studying in Beishi, there was a saying that spread widely, that is, living in Beishi is not easy.

This sentence is from the Tang Dynasty saying Chang'anju, it's not easy to change, but the meaning is the same, like Sun Chang and the others, who are already the attending doctors of the First Affiliated Hospital, in terms of income, at least More than 20 yuan, not to mention how high this income is, but at least it can be regarded as a middle-income group.

But in the face of housing prices starting at [-] square meters in Beishi, owning your own house has almost become a luxury.

It is already very good to be able to rent a good small apartment for four to five thousand a month.

There are even more migrant workers, all renting cubicles in urban villages.

Sun Chang, who was watching Su Xiao and the others busy in the kitchen, saw Zhao Xu sitting on the sofa, seeming to be thinking about something, so he walked over, sat opposite Zhao Xu, and asked, "What's the matter? I see that you look restless and unable to sit still...?"

"It's nothing, after dinner, you can play, I have something to do tonight."

Zhao Xu said slowly.

He really can't sit still. There are two reasons for this. Now in this villa, there is only one man, Zhao Xu, and the other four girls are Sun Chang, Su Xiao, Lu Chen and Fang Wei. If he can sit still There are ghosts.

On the other hand, at eight o'clock tonight, when Zhang Guoer's second round started, he promised Zhang Guoer to go to the scene to watch the match.

Zhao Xu didn't plan to come here at first, but before get off work, Sun Chang and Lu Chen blocked Zhao Xu with words again, so he had to come here first, and then watch Zhang Guoer's game.

But it's still early. After eating, it will take half an hour to go to the TV station.

"Is there something else to do at night? We also said that we will have a party here at night, sing and relax. The family KTV left by the original owner is still very professional."

Sun Chang was a little disappointed when Zhao Xu said that he had something to do tonight.

"Sister, there is a question I've been wanting to ask for the past two days, but I haven't asked it all the time."

Zhao Xu looked at Sun Chang and couldn't help but say.

"What you want to ask is, why do you insist on having some kind of collective life, and you still have to come with me?"

Sun Chang said.

"Yes, this is not like your usual style, senior. I do find it a bit strange."

Zhao Xu nodded and said very puzzled.

"Actually, I don't have to pull you in, but if you don't come, no one else will come."

Sun Chang said with a sigh.

"Then it doesn't make sense, you and Su Xiao don't have a good relationship with them, do you have to live together?"

Zhao Xu was even more incomprehensible.

"Since it's you, I won't hide it from you. In fact, I had depression before, and it was very serious. The reason why I want to live with everyone is to have people around me at any time after work, and to be more lively. Prevent me from having those extreme thoughts. My symptoms, when I am alone alone, will attack very badly. Some extreme thoughts are beyond my control. "

Sun Chang sighed, looked at Zhao Xu and said seriously.

"Huh? Depression? Need someone to watch? Is it this serious?"

Sun Chang's words were like a bomb shaking Zhao Xu's brain. He felt as if his head had been hit by a sledgehammer, and there was a short blank in an instant.

He couldn't imagine that in the First Affiliated Hospital, Sun Chang, a workaholic known for his high responsibility, extreme self-discipline, and excellent professional ability, would suffer from such severe depression.

"You just need to know, Su Xiao and Lu Chen, don't tell them, I don't want them to look at me strangely."

Sun Chang said calmly.

This calm expression, in the eyes of others, does not look like depression at all.

But in Zhao Xu's view, this was terrifying.

Because the worst kind of depression is the kind that looks most normal to people.

Many patients with extremely deep depression are very sunny and optimistic on the outside, and sometimes actively enlighten and help others, but their hearts are already riddled with holes and deeply trapped. In despair and abyss, want to end his life at any time.

"Uh...Sister, or else I'll tell the courtyard to give you a vacation, you have a good rest, travel or something, don't worry, I'll pay for it."

Zhao Xu was a little scared. Sun Chang was by his side and had always played a very important role.

At work, Sun Chang was his right-hand man. In life and emotions, and even in dealing with others, Sun Chang acted as a life mentor. Zhao Xu couldn't imagine that such a Sun Chang would suffer from severe depression.

What's more, what Zhao Xu couldn't imagine was how uncomfortable he would be if something unexpected happened to Sun Chang.

This is horrible!

At this moment, for Zhao Xu, life was a horror movie and a black comedy.

"Look at your scare. I just want to tell you my real situation. In fact, I can still control it. It's not that serious. The reason why I want to live with Su Xiao and the others is to prevent myself from being alone and from being alone. I have time to think wildly, so maybe I will get better after a while."

Sun Chang said with a slight smile.

Looking at her like this, no matter who she is, it is completely impossible to imagine that she is a patient with deep depression.

Perhaps Sun Chang's self-discipline is too strong and too proud. She can't tolerate being a patient, but the more she is like this, the worse her symptoms will become.

"Living with others and not allowing yourself time to be alone, senior sister, is this useful? Seriously, do you want to take a break."

Zhao Xu thought for a moment, then said seriously.

"You let me travel alone, that is to give me time to think wildly. What if I jump into the sea when I travel to the sea?"

Sun Chang said half-jokingly and understatedly.

"You can treat my matter normally. We are doctors, who can have a completely normal mentality!"

After a pause, Sun Chang said with some emotion.

There is a lot of pressure and a huge workload. You have to face various inspections at the top, colleagues who are also full of negative energy in the middle, and all kinds of strange and difficult patients below, and the work has almost taken up all the time. Time, no personal breaks of your own at all.

If things go on like this, it's no wonder that there are no psychological problems!

Everyone's psychological endurance is like the strings of a piano, there is a limit.

If this string is in a tight state for a long time, it will definitely be broken one day.

To what extent is the general mental state of clinicians so bad? Perhaps no one dares to do this statistics and investigation.

In other words, the living environment of clinicians is already in jeopardy. This is not alarmist talk, but reality!

"That's true, but this is the general environment, and there is no way to change it."

Zhao Xu said slowly.

"Student, in fact, I want to thank you. Since I came to the research center, I feel that I have recovered a lot. If I live with Su Xiao and the others for a while, I may be able to recover even more."

Sun Chang said sincerely.

Since she came to the research center, her workload has not been as heavy as in the emergency department, and the conditions and treatment in all aspects are better than before. This is what Sun Chang is grateful to Zhao Xu from the bottom of her heart.

"After I took over the research center, I have always wanted to do this. I can't control and change other things. But in the research center, I hope everyone can work happily."

Zhao Xu sighed and said slowly.

"Well, everyone can feel your heart."

Sun Chang said with a knowing smile.

Maybe it's because he has been hiding himself for too long, now Sun Chang can't see any depression on the surface, but only in the middle of the night, when he is alone, those things in his heart, the disappointment with this world, The powerlessness towards self and the negative emotions accumulated little by little at work will suddenly erupt.

Sun Chang knew before that, from a psychological point of view, this kind of complete depression cannot be done, and a way to release and ease must be found.

But her image in the outside world is too perfect, self-disciplined, motivated, and strong, she is the common example for all female doctors!
Therefore, she dared not do anything that did not conform to her perfect image.

"Well, they're about to finish dinner. Whatever you have to do in the evening, we'll talk about it after dinner."

After Sun Chang finished speaking, he stood up and called the others to prepare dinner.

Seeing Sun Chang go over to prepare dinner, Zhao Xu was not at peace.

He really did not expect Sun Chang to come out today.

Who would have imagined that Sun Chang, who looks so strong and perfect on the outside, is so fragile on the inside? !
Maybe everyone in this world wears a prepared mask. Only the truly brave can face their own hearts!

After a while, the dinner was ready. Zhao Xu sat at the dining table, looked at the table full of dinner, which looked very sumptuous, and then looked at the four beauties sitting at the dining table, each with a different style, Zhao Xu Suddenly there is a feeling that this life is not in vain.

Of course, he is not a swollen horse, nor can he open a harem, but as a man, it feels good to have these four beauties cooking for him and admiring the beauties.

"Leader, why don't you say something?"

Seeing that everyone was ready, Su Xiao smiled and said to Zhao Xu.

This year can be said to be her lucky year. Now that the employment situation is severe, she was able to stay in the First Affiliated Hospital and entered a national-level research institution such as the Stem Cell Research Center. Now she enjoys such good accommodation benefits. , she is also very satisfied.

Of course, she knew in her heart that whether it was intentional or not, it was because of Zhao Xu that she was able to enjoy all this now.

But to her pity, Zhao Xu seemed to have his own heart.

"Well... I don't have anything to say. Since you will live together in the future, get along well and don't quarrel or anything..."

As he spoke, Zhao Xu felt as if he had become the head of a big family.

puff~
Hearing Zhao Xu's words, Lu Chen couldn't help laughing first, and Jiang Xiaoqi also smiled.

Seeing Zhao Xu sitting among the four women, looking very uncomfortable, the two of them found it funny. This was completely different from the calm, rational, confident and powerful Zhao Xu in the hospital and on the operating table.

"We are all good sisters, how can we quarrel? Of course, if some people want to quarrel, I will accompany them at any time."

Lu Chen glanced at Su Xiao, and said meaningfully.

"That's right, they are all good sisters, and they are all of high quality. How could they quarrel like shrews on the street?!"

Seeing that Lu Chen spoke directly at himself, Su Xiao said unwillingly to show weakness.

Seeing the two people's sword-striking and fighting back and forth, Zhao Xu unnaturally expected that if he saw these two beauties quarreling, even fighting, pulling their hair and clothes What, what a beautiful thing!

Cough, far away.

Zhao Xu pulled back his wandering thoughts.

"Everyone is well aware of the current living conditions of young people in Beishi. Since the establishment of the research center and I took over, I have tried my best to create a good working environment and give everyone good treatment. Of course, my ability is limited, but In the three-acre land of the research center, I still hope that everyone will work happily."

Zhao Xu said in a leadership manner.

Those who can join the research center are the elite among the elite. For these people, drawing big cakes and beating chicken blood are very low-level means.

Only when these people really see and enjoy the benefits, and feel that they can develop well in the future, these people will work hard and dedicate all their ingenuity.

"Well, I believe that under the leadership of the team leader, the research center will definitely become a holy place that all young doctors in the country dream of joining!"

Jiang Xiaoqi, who had never had a sense of presence, suddenly followed Zhao Xu's words.

She joined Su Xiao before and after. Although she was a little earlier than Su Xiao, she also had no foundation in the research center, so she was always observing.

(End of this chapter)