It's like I'm not reborn

Chapter 157
For Shi Hai, this was much more exciting than when he knew that XX was a reborn person.

Because other people's rebirth experience is just "listening to a story" for Shi Hai.

But when something abnormal happened to him, he would have a sense of excitement that he had also become different.

Not to mention the special ability of 'immortality' which sounds very handsome.

It is estimated that every teenager fantasized that he would become an immortal body like Wolverine when he was a child.

Shi Hai is no exception.

It can only be said that men are still teenagers until they die.

Therefore, he is actually a second-year-old patient now.

I really want to know if I have the awesome "death-free gold medal" or "blood-locking hack" issued to me by God.

"Xiao Yao, have you confirmed it! Even if you don't come to save me, I won't die!"

Xiao Yao, who was pressed by Shi Hai on the shoulder, turned his eyes away and said in a low voice.

"Haven't tried it yet."

"what the hell……"

Shi Hai was immediately discouraged, feeling that his excitement was in vain.

He thought that Kaname had already tried to ignore him.

"Then why don't you give it a try? This is likely to be a breakthrough, right?"

As a result, Kaname's answer was unusually serious.

"Because I can't help you."

"That's it?"

Shi Hai raised his left eyebrow, looking puzzled, because he thought that if it was Xiao Yao, there might be other reasons.

However, it turned out to be an unexpected truth, which left Shi Hai speechless.

Because he always felt that if it was Xiao Yao, he could give up and save him.

It is even possible to secretly watch the drowning Shihai from the shore.

This is more in line with Kaname's image of a little devil.

As if seeing through Shi Hai's thoughts, Kaname touched her chest and asked back.

"So in your heart, senior, am I actually such a cold-blooded person?"

"Uh... I didn't mean that, but I think if it was you, you should verify to see if this idea is true..."

"My curiosity is not as strong as yours, senior, and obviously even you, senior, can't do the experiment with your own life, but you asked me, an active female high school student, to do such a cruel thing, don't you think so? Is it too much?"

Shi Hai was rendered speechless by the diss.

And after listening to her words, Shi Hai noticed something that should have been noticed long ago.

Because when talking to Xiao Yao, she can always express clearly in a very organized manner, which makes Shi Hai feel very comfortable, so he ignores the fact that Xiao Yao is just a JK (female high school student).

Although Xiao Ruo used the title of 'senior' to call Shi Hai, most of them were in a teasing tone, more like calling him for fun.

And she is not like Jian Sichun who was reborn from the mature age of 30 and returned to youth, so Shi Hai can sometimes see that Jian Sichun and the others are deliberately pretending to be tender, but for Xiaoyao, this has been from the beginning. For young girls in adolescence, there is no such thing as pretending to be tender.

Even if Kaname repeats it hundreds of times in the time loop, counting the time, it is only a year or so.

It's just that she acted too rationally, spoke in a very orderly manner, and always played tricks on Shi Hai like a little devil, and her whole person exuded an unfathomable atmosphere, so Shi Hai had an illusion.

I mistakenly thought she was really mature...

But maybe, she was just pretending to be mature.

It may be because her family is not around, so she became independent very early. In order not to worry others, she is very good at hiding her emotions...

This is the same as Shi Hai.

"I didn't just say that I liked you senior, I didn't just talk about it casually. When I thought that you might really die because of me, my heart was pierced like a knife."

"Really……"

Can't see it at all.

From Kaname's expression since he was a child, there is absolutely no feeling of 'heartache' at all.

But the reason Kaname gave was quite convincing.

"Of course it's true. If I didn't save you, and you really died because of it, and the time loop ended at this time, your death would become a reality?"

And Shi Hai nodded in the most objective manner as if he didn't care whether he would die or not.

"Well, it should become like that, but you don't need to feel guilty, because you don't have the obligation to come and save me."

Then Kaname exploded.

She excitedly conveyed her thoughts to Shi Hai with a fierce momentum.

"But I can't accept that kind of future! You are my first love, the person I like! Knowing that your life is in danger, but not going to save you... It's like I killed you, isn't it? If you are really right If you are desperate, I will definitely have a psychological shadow! Why not just let me be trapped in the time loop!"

"oh oh……"

"Besides, if you just want to confirm whether you are immortal, why don't you try it yourself, senior?"

"As you said, I really can't do an experiment with my own life... I don't want to die yet."

But Shihai is not afraid of death at all.

It's just that when he thinks that after his death, his mother will really become a lonely family, and that she may have another mental breakdown due to the loss of her son, Shi Hai really can't make fun of his own life.

At least we can't let a white-haired person send a black-haired person to happen.

Taking his own life to experiment is a betrayal of his family who loves him.

What's more, there are women around him who have a strong love for him, and they will definitely not allow Shi Hai to do dangerous things regardless of his own safety.

Therefore, in fact, Shihai's life no longer belonged to him.

If you have a family, a lover, and a child...

Just have to live.

When you want to die, you can't die.

In other words, this is the power and freedom of death being taken away.

And if you really want to say it, the reason of 'the time has not come' is also very nonsense.

Assuming Shi Hai is determined to kill himself, such as stabbing his heart with a knife, it may be the first time that an accident occurs, such as being discovered by someone, or the knife suddenly breaks, and is forcibly interrupted.

Then do it again?What about the third time?What about the fourth five six seven eighty nine times?
It is impossible to have an accident every time and lead to suicide failure, right?
Maybe it's really possible...

Shi Hai really wanted to give it a try and die.

Do experiments through "fate" to analyze the laws of fate.

But only if no one comes to stop him.

It is impossible to think about it.

"Well, in the end, you and I are still more emotional in nature."

"That's right, we are all of the same virtue, just like Bai Yue... Even this kind of place is so similar, it seems that I may really be her sister."

"Then, since you don't want to watch me die, and I might not die, why do you still say that to me?"

After listening to all the analysis, it seems rather strange to look back at Kaname's 'I'll die with you'.

Knowing that Shi Hai might not die, it is unreasonable to ask him to die in love.

"Because this is what Bai Yue failed to do, and at the same time, this is also what the other women around you failed to do... That is to 'accept your death calmly'."

Indeed it is.

So far, the reborn people around Shi Hai all want to change the future so that Shi Hai can avoid death.

No one is willing to accept the fact that 'Shihai is dead' as a reality.

"There is no way to do this. After all, people can't accept the passing of important people in a flat way. It's just because there is no way to change it, so we can only try to accept it."

"But since you have obtained the ability to change the future, you will definitely want to try to change the future."

"You see that many stories have this kind of plot, right? In order to save the one they love, they will pay all the price or something... Isn't they 'paying for love' now?"

It's really romantic.

However, this is not true for Kaname.

"It's because of this that I invite you to die for love... because no one would invite you, senior, right? I'm the first person to say such a thing to you, right? Hee hee~"

"It is indeed the first one..."

But ordinary people would not say such things at all, and the reborn women who appeared beside Shi Hai would not even say such things, and they would not even mention them.

They value Shi Hai's life more than Shi Hai himself, and they also dream of welcoming the future with Shi Hai.

Martyrdom or something is not considered at all.

However, Kaname brought it up...

She is really different.

"So, senior, do you know where I am different from them?"

"This is..."

Shi Hai looked at Xiao Yao again.

skin color?body size?Distribution of facial features?

She was certainly not referring to these external things.

So is character?IQ?emotional intelligence?

Probably not...

Not on the outside, not on the inside...

But things that can clearly distinguish her from them...

What could it be?

Shi Hai couldn't think of the correct answer for a while.

Kaname didn't hold back, and simply announced the correct answer.

"Let me tell you the answer directly. The biggest difference between me and them is that I have never experienced the future of being alone with you, senior."

"what……"

"Have you noticed? In the future they experienced, you and senior were the only ones for each other, so in their eyes, senior, you should be a super dedicated and peerless man... But when I met you, Senior, you are already a bastard with a harem."

Yao's evaluation of himself since he was a child, Shi Hai also discovered in turn, that it was actually Xiao Yao's existence that was too abrupt.

The rest of the respawns were loaded back in time from 'different branch endings'.

But Kaname is a new character based on the files that others have already read.

In other words, no one knows what the future of this route is, not even Kaname himself.

"So I have no special identity at all, not your 'sister', 'lover' or 'wife', not even a 'toy', 'maid' or 'pet'."

"Of course, I'm not even a junior, after all, I haven't been admitted to the university you went to... But I don't want to be a small character who is nobody, so I try to use the title of 'senior' to try to draw Get closer to you and me."

"But it's actually useless. On the contrary, every time I call you senior, I feel that I'm actually trying to forcibly close the relationship, and I feel very uncomfortable..."

Xiao Yao smiled bitterly.

"What a boring pride, isn't it?"

Shi Hai suddenly had an urge to protect her.

The little devil has turned into a lovable and wronged little angel.

He began to feel sorry for the girl in front of him.

"They have all loved you, but I haven't... So it's only natural that I can't make you fall in love with me, senior, because I'm not really loved by you like them, and I'm not bound to be loved by you like them." The confidence you fell in love with..."

"But it's unfair, right? Why is their simulation time so long, and I only have five days? If you give me enough time, I will definitely be able to get together with you..."

"It seems that it's just wishful thinking. I can never monopolize you like them again."

However, Kaname is still not reconciled, the proud girl does not want to be left behind.

And at the same time, she also discovered that it was impossible to continue to collude with them.

"So I want to do what they can't do, and find a way to make you remember me firmly."

"Is it the conclusion that they died together?"

"That's right, I can't not save you, but... to face death with you, I think I can do it, and this is after I know that one of the women around you has the same birthday as you , I just thought of it suddenly."

It should be Zhu Lingjie.

"I do have the same birthday as her."

Kaname couldn't help muttering.

This is simply the imperial heroine, isn't it?

No wonder she was the only one married to Shi Hai...

But this kind of one is not envious at all.

"And I don't want to be born in the same year, the same month, and the same day, but I want to die in the same year, the same month, and the same day!"

"But what if I don't die?"

"I don't want to think about this kind of thing to find trouble. I just want to die with you. As for who will survive, or the two will die together, or both will survive... I will leave it to you." Let fate decide."

"Is it a gamble..."

"But if you are the senior and you die, and I survive, I will still die with you."

"Then I..."

"If you don't die, senior, but I die... um... I don't force you to die with me, but... by then, you will never forget me again... Hehe laugh."

"I see……"

This is what Xiao Yao said, the strong feelings he wanted to leave behind for Shi Hai.

"Then, senior, you too."

"me too?"

"Is it true that you don't want to experiment with yourself because you don't want to die? Senior, are you the kind of person who is afraid of death?"

"I'm really not afraid of death...I was discovered by you."

"Sure enough, it means that senior, you only live because the people around you want you to live. In fact, you think that 'living for someone' is very 'unfree' in itself! "

"It's all yours to say."

"So...why not be self-willed? Put all worries behind you and do what you want to do...No one can stop you, and you don't belong to anyone."

Xiao Yao had never been so serious when she confessed her love just now.

"Senior..."

First, after habitually calling her senior, Kaname said seriously.

"Shi Hai, you only belong to yourself, no one can 'kidnap' you."

"..."

Shi Hai was silent.

The most frightening thing is that he was really persuaded...

To go to death with her so capriciously... seems quite chic.

(End of this chapter)