It's like I'm not reborn

Chapter 179 Let's Break Up

This is true and another piece of shocking news.

I thought that Bai Yue was the source of all the incidents, but I didn't expect that there was an even more terrifying existence above her, who would trap Bai Yue as well.

"But it's not completely deleted."

Bai Yue sat down again, took out a pen and a small notepad, and began to explain while drawing pictures.

Seeing her like this, Shi Hai knew that the following would definitely be another piece of popular science.

"The first thing to know is that the brain is the most complex human organ, with as many as 860 billion neurons, and various memories are stored in different regions, so there are many types of amnesia."

"Well, I still know this, it is related to cognitive neuroscience."

During this time, Shi Hai read a lot of popular science books about memory, so he could understand what Bai Yue said.

"It seems that you have done a lot of homework yourself."

"Well, in fact, half of the reason is also because of curiosity, because many movies and TV shows have plots that describe the protagonist's amnesia, and every time I see this kind of plot, I can't help but wonder why the protagonist has amnesia, only I have forgotten who I am, but I have not forgotten how to talk, how to eat, how to go to the bathroom... Although it seems to be a design to facilitate the development of the movie, it should actually have a scientific basis."

Hearing Shi Hai's words, Bai Yue couldn't help but look at him more, because she started to study brain science for similar reasons in the beginning.

In fact, I don't have any lofty ideals and ambitions, just because I want to 'know myself'.

Bai Yue, who couldn't forget by nature, really wanted to know what it was like to have 'amnesia'.

At this time, Bai Yue had already drawn a human brain in his notebook, and then divided it into regions.

"Yes, memory is actually divided into perception, cognition, emotion, personality, behavior, and interpersonal relationship... Generally speaking, it is the knowledge learned, self-knowledge, judgment on something, and understanding of something. The mastery of a certain skill, and the people and things you know in your life."

"So you want to say that we get the full set of future memories, but only a part of them are reduced, right?"

"That's right, but because I haven't seen a reborn person, I can't be sure which part of my memory I lost... But you should already have some clues."

Shi Hai nodded and said.

"It should be a relationship."

"Is it really a human relationship..."

Bai Yue folded her arms thoughtfully.

She also seemed to have guessed Shi Hai's answer.

"Because from your experience, feelings seem to be the main factor affecting future development, and the so-called feelings are actually secondary emotions."

"Secondary emotion?"

"This is a theory in psychology. There is a person who divides emotions into eight types, namely, happiness, trust, fear, surprise, sadness, disgust, anger, and expectation. This is Plachek's emotional roulette. "

"oh oh……"

"The secondary emotion is formed by the fusion of two of them. For example, the combination of happiness and trust is 'love', and the combination of trust and fear is 'obedience', and so on. There are dozens of pairs of emotions. A combination of complex emotions is born."

"So that's it, I have increased my knowledge."

"Then since emotion is a secondary emotion, and emotion is a kind of brain memory...'emotions affect the future' can be interpreted as that what emotions affect is actually 'future-related memory'."

"It's amazing... so it's related..."

Before, Shi Hai thought that it was too idealistic for feelings to affect the future, but after hearing what Bai Yue said, he suddenly felt scientific.

This woman was indeed a pure scholar.

After listening to himself explain the whole process, he has already guessed to such a degree in such a short period of time, which is really admirable to Shi Hai.

However, Bai Yue's level was far from reaching the limit.

"But emotion is not an independent memory like knowledge, but an associative memory associated with other memories, because emotion itself is not born out of thin air. If there is no person you know or something you have experienced, people will not There will be mood swings, and there will be no feelings...Even if it is love at first sight, you have to 'see' to 'fall in love'."

"...Wait, I see what you mean!"

Given this level of hints, Shi Hai could understand what she was conveying.

Bai Yue was actually saying that human emotions are actually controlled by memory.

Love and hate, love and hatred, there must be a related object.

If you can't recall any memory of that person, your feelings for him will disappear.

"The reason why the memory related to our interpersonal relationship is removed is actually to obliterate our emotions, and then affect the future!"

"That's right, that's it."

Everything about rebirth that has been worrying for a long time now becomes clear.

To use the metaphor of a detective novel, the method and motive of the crime have been revealed.

And after that, the famous detective Bai Yue was about to find out the 'murderer'.

"Then, let's not say who erased my memory, but your memory is very likely to be erased by me."

Shi Hai's thinking had already caught up with Bai Yue's rhythm, and he murmured.

"In order to lead to a different future..."

"That's right, this is also an inference based on the existing basis, assuming that the person you fell in love with first was me, and I had an accident, and you sacrificed yourself to save me, but I can't accept this result, so you When I transmitted my memory back to the past and tried to change the future, I found that because our feelings for each other have not changed, the future will not change."

"So you removed my feelings for you, and set the transmission point of memory at nine years ago, avoided the process of meeting and acquainting me, and successfully changed the direction of the future."

"That's it."

"..."

reasonable.

It can only be said to be very reasonable.

Rather than saying it is speculation, it is better to say that this is mostly fact.

Although Shi Hai and Bai Yue are no longer acquainted with each other at this moment, the discussions and inferences made by these two people are probably in line with the original incident.

Because even if they don't remember, they themselves haven't changed.

"However, in fact, even if the object is not me, as long as the precondition is met, that is, the 'emotional factor', it will also trigger a similar future, so I repeated the same operation again, so after that, you met One new woman after another..."

"And at this time, you don't know who erased the memories related to the future. As a result, you couldn't stop them in time at the beginning, and it turned out to be like this now..."

"Well... so it seems that you are not lying when you say that you have affairs with multiple women and I have something to do with it."

Bai Yue bowed her head and apologized to Shi Hai without apology.

"Sorry, I made you a scumbag, half of my fault."

Shi Hai didn't know what expression to use to respond, so he could only scratch his cheek and said.

"There's no need to apologize...but do you really understand?"

"Of course, and I think your approach is the best solution."

Bai Yue continued.

"Considering that women will become quite extreme when they get involved in emotional issues, so if you fail to respond well to them, it is very likely that you have now become a piece of meat that you can't fight together."

"It means, will I be dismembered..."

Shi Hai shuddered, but Bai Yue was noncommittal.

"My mother taught me that no man who has a relationship with multiple women ends well, and they're able to compromise now in part because you only have nine years to live."

"It's really convincing..."

"So I have to thank you. No matter what, you worked hard to see me, otherwise I might never have the chance to know these things in my life."

It's very sincere when you say thank you.

It can be seen that she is really grateful to Shi Hai.

Shi Hai felt from the bottom of his heart that he could understand her, because he was also feeling the same way at the moment.

The long-standing doubts were finally answered, and Shi Hai finally felt refreshed.

Although now a new question arises...

"So, if you erased my memory, who erased your memory?"

"Who knows, but one thing is certain, she wants to stop the original me, and the original me has a very clear purpose, that is to keep you alive."

"Is your purpose really to save me?"

"..."

Before meeting Bai Yue, Shi Hai thought it might be true, but after meeting Bai Yue, Shi Hai didn't think so at all.

She is very similar to herself, a rationalist who believes in absolute rationality, so she will never act impulsively.

Then Shi Hai could already think of what decision Bai Yue would make after going through reincarnation.

"Your goal should be 'don't let Shi Hai save yourself'. In fact, you just want everything to return to the original point, and you will bear the result of dying nine years later, rather than letting other people die instead of you. Wrong."

"……good."

Bai Yue also directly gave an affirmative answer.

"If it were me, I would probably think so."

"Sure enough... Then, the person who stopped you, could it be the person who doesn't want you to die?"

"I don't know, I can't think of anyone who would want me to live... At least there should be no such people around me now."

"Maybe that person is me?"

"……you?"

Bai Yue first glanced at Shi Hai suspiciously, then immediately denied it.

"Impossible. Your feelings for me should have been deleted in the first round. You have no reason to sacrifice your life for me."

"Um……"

Shi Hai was also temporarily silent.

Bai Yue was right, Shi Hai was not a kind and bad person.

Looking at Bai Yue carefully now, Shi Hai knew that he did not fall in love with her at first sight.

But after this conversation, he could really feel that he and she got along very well.

Similar to a confidante, like-minded people, will naturally develop into 'best friends'.

Probably after a long time of acquaintance, it is very likely to develop into a lover, or even a husband and wife relationship...

But in the case of not having a deep relationship, it is hard to say that Shi Hai would give his life to save her.

"Just thinking about it proves you won't."

"Okay... then who could it be?"

"It's probably people you and I don't know at this stage, and most of them are people I met in a later cycle."

"A new character who hasn't appeared yet..."

"That's it."

After this exchange, the time saved is very little, and there are about 5 minutes left, and the plane that Xiaoyao will take is about to arrive.

Holding the coffee cup that was still warm, Bai Yue began to speak from his heart.

"...This is the first time I have met someone who can talk to me for so long. Most of them fell silent after listening to a paragraph of my speech."

"This... Objectively speaking, most people don't like to talk about such serious academic topics."

"Yeah, and I can't explain it in a humorous way. That's why I can't get along with most people."

"Since you have self-knowledge, don't you mean to change?"

"I don't feel like I need to pander to people for that."

"It's really my own way."

"So... maybe that's why you and I hit it off, because you're a good listener."

"Well, and I didn't feel bored listening to it, but felt that it benefited a lot."

Bai Yue took a sip of coffee, and his expression softened.

When it comes to the relationship between men and women, Bai Yue doesn't know anything about it. She has never liked any man since she was born, and because her parents divorced since she was a child, there is no father-daughter relationship between her and her father.

However, when facing the man in front of her... the man named Shi Hai, she felt a sense of peace of mind.

This was an emotion Bai Yue had never felt before...

The initial stereotype has long since evaporated.

Obviously objectively speaking, he is now a playboy who has unclean relationships with several women.

However, she couldn't hate it at all...

Even if it continued like this... Bai Yue also felt that she might really fall in love with him.

Bai Yue didn't hide this thought, she just said it outright.

"Probably... After getting along with you for a long time, I will fall in love with you too."

"Uh……"

"Sorry, this sentence must have troubled you."

"That's not true, it's just that I don't know how to respond."

"You don't need to respond, I said 'we've been together for a long time', and we've only known each other for less than two hours now."

"I see……"

"Yes, you should understand what I want to say."

"Now, let's make a straightforward conclusion..."

But this... is it really good?
"Maybe they can't understand you, but I agree with your thoughts, and I, like you, don't take my life very seriously."

"Are you the same..."

"Well, the reason why I'm alive and doing research is simply because I want to understand myself."

"Because you can't forget?"

"That's right, I can't forget... In fact, forgetting is the brain's self-protection mechanism. Human beings can heal their soul, or personality, by forgetting annoying things."

"This... Then don't you live in pain forever?"

"Yeah, it should be so, but even if I didn't forget this function, I never felt pain."

"Isn't your heart hurt... no... it won't be hurt?"

"Well, so I also suspected that my brain may be defective, and I may be born without emotions..."

Are you an emotionless 'monster' who just has a human appearance but no human heart?

Today, Bai Yue got the answer.

"No, you are not."

"Well... I know now that even I can fall in love with someone."

It's not that I don't have feelings, it's just that I haven't met someone who can make my heart beat.

Although it wasn't love at first sight, maybe he and I... Bai Yue and Shi Hai really had some kind of fate.

It is a very lucky thing to meet the right person in this life.

"Knowing this is enough, you live with them, and I am welcoming the ending that belongs to me."

Bai Yue finally smiled, a relieved and carefree smile.

"You won't stop me."

"..."

"Thank you."

Bai Yue and Shi Hai, between them...

Nothing started, it was over.

(End of this chapter)