One-man puppet Xi

Chapter 48 Another bad memory

Looking at the circle of friends when I have nothing to do, I suddenly smiled indifferently, and there was a melodious sound of the guzheng in the mobile phone video. My sister was wearing a small white skirt and was sitting in front of the guzheng, but the sound of the guzheng was a little hollow.After watching the video for a long time and unable to regain consciousness, Lin Yuxi's heart can be said to be full of emotions.

The wechat voice rang, interrupting her thoughts. It was a wechat sent by Mu Nan. She couldn't help laughing at herself. He was the only one who could send a wechat at this time.

He asked: "What are you doing?"

"I just saw the video of my sister playing the guzheng, and I felt a little sour and uncomfortable."

She honestly expressed her feelings, Mu Nan has long been a person worth talking to, and a person who can talk about everything.Fortunately, apart from Brother Rui, there is also him who can take the initiative to chat with me.Many times, I really want to complain to Brother Rui, but I am afraid that it will upset him, so I can only hold it in my heart.

His brows knit together unconsciously, and he quickly typed out a line: "Why do you feel uncomfortable again? Did you think of bad memories again?"

Slowly recalling the past, Lin Yuxi didn't really feel much, and slowly typed out the not-so-good past: "I remember telling you before, the greatest interest since I was a child was actually painting, but unfortunately I have always been I didn’t have a chance to get formal training, and my sister laughed at me because of my lack of skills, and my self-esteem completely collapsed.”

That winter, I hid alone in a cold room, drawing an unattractive painting. My sister went up to snatch the album and laughed, followed by laughter from everyone in the living room.

No one knew how long Lin Yuxi had been crying in the room, and since then she has become more inferior and dare not show others. .

She continued: "My sister draws very well. At that time, she was also taught by a professional teacher, but my sister didn't want to learn. My mother forced her to go, just because she wanted her sister to learn a skill. No Thinking of her skipping class secretly, you don't know how much I envy her, I really want to learn how to draw, but I can only hide and paint secretly, because I'm afraid of being laughed at by them."

My heart is full of regrets, sometimes I secretly wish that I could exchange lives with my sister, so that she would not suffer so much.

"Really, you don't know how envious I am and even a little jealous. This is what I dream of. She can do it just by saying she likes it, and I can't get their support in my life."

Maybe in the final analysis, she is still that outsider, and it is normal to treat her differently.Moreover, most parents will not be able to achieve peace overnight, not to mention that Lin Yuxi is not a child raised by his parents, and lack of affection is inevitable.

Knowing that her mind was full of bad memories, Mu Nan was very worried, and said nervously: "The past can't be changed, Xixi, so let's not think about those things, okay? We just want to have fun, Look to the future!"

She smiled slightly, as if she was actually telling someone else's story, with a little sympathy mixed in.

She continued: "When I was in junior high school, I really wanted to learn guzheng, but my mother let my sister learn it so that she could get into a good university. My mother always wanted to train my sister to be a good student. She is a very good person, but she never cares about me, she just uses her mouth to say some sarcastic remarks. She just tells me that I have no money, and those things are too expensive."

"I really envy my elder sister. She has been a big lady since she was a child and is liked by everyone, but I will always be the one that my mother said has no brains, no filial piety, and no conscience."

For countless nights, she hid in her room, covered her mouth and cried heart-rendingly. She always secretly heard her family say that she had no conscience, no filial piety, no brains, and all kinds of ugly words.Lin Yuxi doesn't know how to talk sweetly because she has difficulty even in ordinary conversations, and she doesn't want her sister to coax everyone to praise her in various ways, so she is the one who has no conscience.

"Hey, it's too late in this life. In my next life, I must become an excellent painter and a famous guzheng artist."

She couldn't help sighing, it seemed that it was really meaningless to recall all kinds of things.

"Munan, do you think I'm pathetic?"

Mu Nan said: "No, don't think so, and don't even try to envy others. It's not too late for us to develop hobbies and hobbies." As long as we still have faith in our hearts, there is nothing we can't do.

"No, I don't want them to laugh at me, and I don't want others to say that I'm imitating myself." Now she doesn't want to have the slightest similarity with her sister, she has her own way of life.

He encouraged, and only hoped that Yuxi could listen to what he said.

"Don't worry about what they think, just do what you like, being happy is actually more important than anything else!"

"I know, I try my best to live out my best appearance now, and I don't need to envy others. Everything I do now is to make every day feel happy."

He said: "If you care about everyone's thoughts, your life will really be very tiring."

"I know, it's just that I grew up under their cold eyes, so sometimes I have to care about it..." Because there is already a shadow in my heart, even if there is sunlight shining in, there will still be dark places.The sun can't illuminate all places!
"So just do what you like, and I will always be the one who supports you."

Mu Nan will always be the one standing by Lin Yuxi's side. Whether it's happy or sad, he wants to listen quietly. No matter what time or status he has, he wants to accompany her in joy, anger, sorrow and joy!
As long as Lin Yuxi is happy, Mu Nan will be happy.

Lin Yuxi wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes. If someone had supported her earlier, would it be different? It wouldn’t be as useless as it is now, without even the most basic circle of friends, hobbies, and family alone for a long time .My favorite aunt did not dare to contact too much, because the family would scold her.

It's a pity to live this life, it doesn't make any sense.

"Do you know? Right now, I'm very eager to have a normal home in a real sense, a warm and loving home." Unfortunately, I probably won't be able to have it in my life.

"I remember a saying: the best things in life are always connected with the worst, and the extreme of happiness is often the beginning of sorrow. Happiness is short-lived, but sorrow is only temporary!"

"Yes, life is only valuable in struggle; only after suffering can we get better rewards." So should I believe that my future life will be very happy.Not to mention anything else, I am also very happy to have a good friend like Mu Nan by my side all the time!
Mu Nan finally breathed a sigh of relief: "That's the way to think, you should take a good rest now, and stop thinking about the past."

Born in such a family, no one can change, and those pains cannot be wiped out, but the future can be completely separated from them, and create a beautiful future of your own.

"Okay, I see, I'm fine, you can go to rest."

"OK, good night."

"Good night."

　Memories always hurt, but sometimes I really can't forget the pain.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)