One-man puppet Xi

Chapter 58 Understatement
No one has experienced the situation of falling asleep and waking up every minute, and having nightmares four or five times a night, so who is qualified to say these words lightly.

Few people in this world can truly understand depression.

Staying at home for two days is really unbearable, the whole person is full of negative energy, my mother is arguing and reading every day, saying something that is unacceptable, she really can't stand it, I really want to give myself a relief, so that I don't have to Feeling the darkness of this world.

That day, my mother was chatting with my aunt. Li Mei always had a sad face and felt that someone owed her millions. , Obvious dislike and disagreement.

"Sister, why do you say that the test is so bad this time?" Li Mei said a little annoyed.Without waiting for my aunt to reply, she continued: "She can only go to a vocational high school? How can the family have money to teach her high fees!"

Asking what to do, in fact, I have already decided in my heart to let my child go to a vocational high school.

My aunt was speechless and said that she had no money to let her elder sister learn guzheng and painting and pay high fees to go to high school to buy whatever she wanted, and let her younger brother learn calligraphy, so why not let Yan Qin learn something?

Although my aunt didn't like her attitude, she had nothing to say, but she still persuaded her: "No matter what, the child's book should continue to read, even if it is a vocational school, he should find a good one."

Hey, Yan Qin, I always tell you to leave them alone and study hard. When you are capable and want to do something, then stay away from them. Why don’t you listen to my advice? Who can do it now? help you?

"Do you know that some time ago, she had to apply for an ID card to run away with the men outside!"

Aunt Jinglei was speechless at all, and looked at her with an unquestionable face. How could a mother say such things to slander her own daughter.

"I knew she was fooling around outside in one day. This girl really has no brains and no brains at all. I'm afraid that she will be cheated by someone and regret it before it's too late!"

Her eyes were full of resentment, she didn't feel how shocking what she said, she didn't have the slightest doubt, and the whole thing she said was as true as she had seen with her own eyes.

Such indifferent words make outsiders think that the child has really done something offensive, but how many mothers in this world can tell people so calmly that her 14-year-old child is going to run with wild men outside?Don't you find it difficult to speak?Could it be that the child really disappointed her completely?
The aunt came back to her senses and looked at her with a somewhat unfriendly look: "It's impossible for her to do this!"

She roared firmly, how is it possible that her child is still so young?Is this a good thing to say as a parent?

"How do you know that the child will go with people outside? Have you asked her? Can you say these words casually? If you have anything to say, you should communicate with her carefully. It is too irresponsible to say these words casually."

Auntie looked at her heartbroken. It's hard to imagine that Yan Qin would be heartbroken if she stopped at this point. She really wanted to scold her irresponsible sister, but she couldn't do that now, or she would think that the child would sue them again. If it's like that, then it's time to scold Yan Qin for being brainless and filial.

He took a breath before speaking.

Little did she know that all of this had been heard in her ears, and she no longer had the courage to listen any more. She had heard too many ugly words and endured too much pain for so many years.

In the bathroom, she was firmly supporting the two corners of the sink with both hands, her small body was shaking violently, and she was enduring great pain, her head was so heavy that she still couldn't lift it up.

"Tap...tap..." Tears flowed down crazily, blurring his eyes long ago.She didn't have the courage to raise her head to look at her own ugly appearance in the mirror. She cried every day, every night, secretly, she really had enough!

She has always known that her mother's words are harsh, ugly and excessive, but she never thought that such words can be said with such affirmative tone.

You really never thought that I would be in pain!

Mom, why can't you love me a little after all these years?
After a long time, she turned on the faucet, put her face under the cold water and rinsed it, and she was a little more awake. She wiped off the water and tears on her face, and quietly looked at herself in the mirror.

The red and swollen eyes, the red bloodshot is so scary, the long-time piercing face is unbelievably pale, and the lips are dry and cracked.

"Ah.."

She smiled, but that smile revealed a bit of horror, and the whole bathroom became a bit cooler.

Looking directly at my own face through the mirror, it seems to see the essence through the phenomenon. . .That is infinitely sad!
In the seventh year of this family, she really didn't know how she survived all these years.

With tears in the corner of her eyes, she stepped out and greeted them nonchalantly through the kitchen.

"Mom, aunt, I'm leaving first, bye."

"Ah."

It is ridiculous and sad to think of those past events from time to time.

She almost committed suicide that day, but she was not reconciled!
What if you fail the high school entrance examination?
But why no one would have thought about how a child with excellent academic performance would suddenly plummet in his studies?
She just doesn't want to study anymore, she doesn't want to stay at home and endure so much pain, so she wants to choose another way out, she wants to go to vocational school so that she can stay away from them, she can go out to work earlier, so she doesn't have to look at their faces anymore .

Until now, she still doesn't regret her self-destructive choice, and no one has the right to say anything about her.

It's just that my heart still hurts every time I think about it.

For so many years, you can yell at me as much as you want, but why did you say that I would run away with men outside?If you are so sure, did you really see me having contact with men outside?But I don't even have three friends!

Wouldn't it be chilling to let my father follow me?

At the gate of the school where people come and go at night, how do I know that my family who never pick me up will pick me up on that day, I went home on time, his father didn't pick me up, I'm a fool, I'm really good Want you guys to tell me I'm fooling around there.

I don't even accept gifts from my only friend, Xiang Wan, just because you guys will question me.

Hit me and scold me for a picture of a childlike boy. .

A young child, really can't scold in his heart?

Since the year I came home, because of you, my good parents, deep in my heart, you have left an indelible pain in this life in an unexpected place.I have been overdrawn with tears for so many years, so later I learned to laugh heartlessly, which is all forced by you.

Forced to be stubborn, forced to be strong, forced to smile, forced to not care about anything!
(End of this chapter)