One-man puppet Xi

Chapter 59 Self-harm
Forced to leave her parents, the little child's eyes are full of fear, fear of the strange environment, fear of the vicious father, and the mother who met her twice and gave herself hateful eyes of fear.

Since then I have been alone.

A life riddled with holes, I have come here like this. God's gift made me meet Han Qingrui, and God's willful punishment made me go astray from then on. .

Back at the house I rented, I leaned motionless on the window sill, watching the constant flow of people coming and going downstairs. The world is so lively, but why is there only one person.

"Tap...tap..." Tears flowed down without warning, and he clutched his chest so distressed that he couldn't breathe. After a while, he stood up and took out two pills from the medicine box.

I couldn't help laughing bitterly: "Hehe, I've been relaxed for two days, and all my efforts are in vain..."

He took the dagger, smiled and pressed his ring finger on the knife, and did not remove his finger until the blood flowed out.The blood was glaring, but the whole person felt a lot more relaxed.

In her previous world, there was never love, only partiality, abuse, deprivation, and darkness. She wanted to die countless times, but she always held a glimmer of hope in her heart, and still longed for that faint light.Until he met him, his smile and every word he said made him remember in his heart, he was like the sun in the sky, illuminating her world, but she became more and more greedy, getting closer to him Even want to own the whole at any cost.

It didn't take long for Mu Nan to come. In fact, he didn't approve of Lin Yuxi's coming home, and he was afraid that something would happen to him again, but he didn't expect that his premonition was right. When he saw Yuxi for the first time, her There was no light in the eyes, and the whole person returned to before the treatment.

"Xixi, are you okay?"

"Uncomfortable..." She spoke very slowly, sitting on the sofa with her head supported, without any expression on her face.

"Did your mother say something again?"

"What else can there be, but it's all old history, and I'm almost versed in it."

Mu Nan was even more worried, and his heart was more about the atmosphere. Lin Yuxi was ill, and his parents didn't do their best, and it was a disservice.

"Don't think so much, I think your condition is not right, go back tomorrow and check again."

"I'll go to work the day after tomorrow." The implication is that I don't want to be treated anymore.

"It's okay. Didn't the doctor say that a reexamination is needed? Let's go and have a look. If there is nothing, we can rest assured."

"Ok."

"Then I'll pick you up tomorrow, it's easier for us to drive up." Mu Nan was relieved, she didn't expect her to be so cooperative this time, and she was also very relieved.

"Thank you!" It takes about three hours to go to the hospital from here, and it is a long way to go and it is also a difficult way to get there.

No one expected to fall ill again within a few days after returning home. When they went to the hospital, the doctor forced them to be hospitalized. Others could be discharged from the hospital after four or five electric shocks. I also spent the most relaxed days in the past few years, and I slept very comfortably with nothing in my mind. Unfortunately, such relaxed days did not last long.

He stayed there for a while, and was finally re-admitted to the hospital under Mu Nan's persuasion. He has been treated for so long and he is about to recover, so he can't give up halfway.

Hurry up and send a wechat message to Brother Rui to tell him about his situation.

"Brother Rui, I have to be hospitalized again, and I have to work hard for you for a month. Please help me and tell my colleagues. Don't worry, when I come back, I will definitely let you see a brand new me."

Then I called the station manager and sent a WeChat message to the administrator on duty.Fortunately, Mu Nan has long been familiar with her interpersonal relationship and work unit, otherwise she really doesn't know what to do.The whole person seems to have been washed

"Brother Cheng Yi, I have to ask for leave for a month. The information has been sent to you, please."

Soon Cheng Yi replied: "Sister, the most important thing is to take good care of your body. I look forward to your return, come on!"

"Thank you bro."

After chatting with them, I felt a little more relaxed. I really didn't want to bother others, but in the end they bothered so many people, and they would be really tired if one less person went to work.

Han Qingrui hadn't replied yet, and Lin Yuxi had already fallen asleep when he replied.After seeing it, she didn't reply, because she didn't know what to say, so if she couldn't say what she wanted to say, she just didn't say it, so as not to cause him trouble.

In the heart of spring, there will be no flowers competing for hair, every inch of lovesickness and every inch of gray!

The same is still the case of electric shock, with an indwelling needle on the wrist, and a prick in the buttocks the next day, which is extremely painful.The most painful is when the intravenous anesthetic is injected. Fortunately, the pain can be endured quickly and I even hope to experience it a few more times, enjoying the pain. What a perverted idea, but isn’t depression all about self-abuse?

It's just that every time I look at the long needles, I can't help but feel scared and creepy.

At noon, Lin Yuxi had just come out of the electric shock, and he was still in a coma before the anesthetic had passed.Everyone sat in the ward without saying a word, Mu Nan looked at the comatose Yu Xi and felt very distressed.

He looked at the elder sister for a while and said, "Eldest sister, take a look at Xixi, I'll go out and do some shopping and I'll be right back."

"Okay, you go."

My brother and everyone watched him leave. In fact, they had already persuaded him to let him go home. It would be good if his family would take care of his younger sister. If not, her mother could also take care of her. But Mu Nan didn't want to leave no matter what.And their behavior is even more meticulous than their relatives.It's a pity that the two of them are not boyfriend and girlfriend. If only Yan Qin could have this boyfriend, she would be guaranteed for the rest of her life.

A pity, a pity.

Opposite the hospital was a big shopping mall, Mu Nan walked in straight away, and went to a boutique to pick out what he wanted to buy.After visiting one after another, he finally bought what he wanted.She also breathed a sigh of relief, she should be happy to see it.

Back in the ward, Yu Xi had already woken up, lying on the hospital bed and looking at them in confusion, it seemed that he had forgotten many things, but luckily he still knew them.

She smiled and asked weakly, "Why are you all here?"

The elder brother jokingly said: "Isn't it because you are afraid that you will forget us, so hurry up and stay with us."

Really relieved to see her wake up.

"See what I bought for you?"

"what?"

Mu Nan helped her up and handed her the bag.Yu Xi curiously opened two bags, and inside were two exquisite dolls, her eyes could shine brightly, these exquisite dolls were her favorite, she kept countless of them at home, and hugged them every night sleep.

"Thank you, I like it very much." She said excitedly.

"I know you like it, so you won't be afraid when you sleep with it at night."

"Look, Mu Nan is still caring."

The little nephew next to him ran over and secretly smiled and said, "Auntie, I'm ashamed, I still like dolls at such a big age."

"Little boy, is your butt itchy?"

"You know how to bully me. Hmph!"

"Who made you the youngest? Hahaha, didn't your mother bully me when I was young, boy, bullying you, you're not bad."

"A little bit!!!"

In countless nightmare nights, she could only hug the doll to sleep, so that she was not alone.Unexpectedly, Mu Nan would prepare this gift for her.

"Put one in the hospital for hugging, and take the other back to the elder sister's house for hugging."

"it is good."

"Are you still feeling uncomfortable now? Are you still dizzy?"

"A little bit, the important thing is that the hand hurts..."

Looking at Lao Gao's hand, which was already swollen from the IV drip, I felt extremely uncomfortable.

"I can't help it, your blood vessels are too thin, that's why you suffer..." Every day, the nurse took a long time to insert the needle, she was very speechless.There is no way to swell up, and it should be much better after a while.

"fine!"

"Lie down a little longer. Your sister and I are going back first. We still have things to do at home." The elder brother said.

"Okay, you guys go back quickly."

"gone."

The brothers went back first, and Mu Nan guarded Yu Xi by himself, playing around with her.As long as she's fine, he'll be fine.

I just hope she gets better soon and don't make this poor little girl suffer anymore.

"Do you want to go out for a walk?"

"Is it okay?" She was a little excited when she heard it. The hospital is so boring and depressing. It's hard to stay here.

"Okay, you can rest for a while, and I will take you to play later, okay?"

"it is good."

Lying on the bed and talking to Mu Nan, I felt much more at ease.Listening to him will make me feel very comfortable, probably because I trust him with all my heart now.She will never forget that this is another window opened for her by God.

In the afternoon, Mu Nan took her to the shopping mall opposite, seeing her excited like a child, she must be suffocated these days, it's good to take her out to relax once in a while.

"These things are beautiful."

"The things in the boutique are not beautiful. Let's see if there is anything you like."

"It's all fancy but not useful, just look at it, and it's useless to buy it now." Continue to stop and go, the greatest joy of girls is not shopping but shopping.

Enjoy the process of shopping, and it's better to go for a walk than to stay in the hospital.I just hope I can get out of the hospital sooner.

I hold my phone every day but I can't wait for his news. Every time I have an electric shock, I am afraid that he will forget what to do.Unfortunately, a lot of things between them have been forgotten, but this relationship between them has not been forgotten.

God, for my poor sake, don't make me forget these precious things again.

This time God seems to have heard her prayer.

They were walking in the park, looking at the beautiful night scene, enjoying the feeling of the breeze brushing their cheeks, Mu Nan only felt that it would be nice to be able to walk with her.

He can always see through her thoughts, and he also clearly knows that this girl only has that man in her heart, but he has already fallen into this relationship, how can he escape completely?
"Xixi, are you hungry?"

"A little hungry."

"Then I'll take you to eat delicious food?"

"it is good."

During this period of time, he has done enough work. He knows where the food is delicious and where the fun is.I do all this just to hope that Yuxi can be happy.

Lin Yuxi, how do you know that you have failed such a good man in your life.You don't ask for anything and silently guard by your side, but why don't you just glance at him, maybe he will be more suitable than Han Qingrui.

"Munan, I can't seem to remember anything in my mind now, you must help me remember those things, or I will be finished." Lin Yuxi kept telling him, even though he said all these things It's been done countless times, but she doesn't know.

Mu Nan assured her: "I will remember you, if you don't remember anything, just ask me, I will remember everything you told me, don't worry, my memory is very good. "

"I'm at ease with you here."

Mu Nan laughed a little embarrassedly, this sentence touched him deeply.As long as it can make her feel at ease, peace of mind is better than anything else.

"Don't worry, I'm here for everything."

This is his guarantee that no matter what method or identity he takes in this life, he will stay by her side and never leave her.

"It's best to have you. It's just that you want to go home and see if you have sisters here." I really feel sorry for letting him take care of himself.

"I'm fine at home. I play everywhere. I can take care of you here. It's good. We'll go back together when you're better."

"As long as it doesn't delay you, it's fine."

The next afternoon, I was having dinner at my eldest sister's house. She still had an indwelling needle in her hand and couldn't eat. Unexpectedly, Mu Nan had just picked up the rice bowl to feed Yuxi. The aunt directly gave the spoon to the two-year-old granddaughter to eat by herself, and took the rice bowl. Feeding Yu Xi spoonful by spoonful, the appearance is more careful than feeding a child.It was funny to see Mu Nan for a while, but also relieved, no matter what, Auntie and the others are sincere to her,

After waking up from the electric shock the next day, she was in a vast expanse of whiteness. Looking at the equipment and facilities next to her, it must be in the hospital. She sat up slowly, and Mu Nan hurried over to support her.

"Xixi, you're awake."

"Munan, where is this? Why am I here?"

"This is in the hospital..." Mu Nan replied softly, without any surprise, because since the first month of treatment, she has asked this sentence no less than five times, and her memory has faded away, and no one knows how much she still remembers , Forgot how much, I am afraid that one day even he will forget.But it doesn't matter, as long as she knows that he is with her.

Lin Yuxi no longer remembers that she was in the hospital, let alone why she got sick, or even what happened yesterday, as if yesterday was gone in her life.

But she still remembers Han Qingrui, but she doesn't have any memories of the 19 to 21 years old.Other memories are vague, and occasionally Mu Nan can recall them with a reminder, but the memories of the middle years are completely gone.Can't even remember what just happened.

Mu Nan is very worried, but now as long as the disease can be cured, he will not hesitate.

After carefully explaining what happened in the past few days, Lin Yuxi also probably knew that he was hospitalized for depression.

I am also glad that I have told Mu Nan about the keys of the house, the password of the bank card and mobile phone, and so on, so I am not so confused.It's just that it hurts to think that you can't remember the passwords of all the software.

(End of this chapter)