rain like flowers

Chapter 166 Beauty
"Actually, I think my savvy is too poor, especially when it comes to emotions. I'm not a very talented person. I'm a hardworking person. Before I left college, I never thought about getting married, and I didn't even have the slightest idea of ​​marriage No.

But I just graduated. When I was 23 years old, my parents introduced me to someone. The aunt who introduced me wished me happiness. At that time, I was young. I felt embarrassed, surprised and fun. I met that boy. While eating a simple meal, the boy's family background is not bad, but he is probably too old.

At that time, I hadn’t got a job yet, and the boy didn’t send me a message, so I just let it go. Later, I slowly found a job, got busy with my career, and then went on blind dates one after another. In fact, sometimes I feel very inferior, really. I have low self-esteem, although it seems that my family is well-off, and I have no worries about food and clothing, but when it comes to men and women, I really have low self-esteem. "

Zhang Jingbo kindly poured a glass of wine for Liu Shanshan, very surprised, he was actually just asking a simple question, and didn't want to know too much, but he didn't expect Liu Shanshan to start a long speech, he changed from an active talker to a listener , why does a beautiful woman like her feel inferior?
"I think I'm still too poor in emotional understanding. I've been going around all the time. My parents once introduced me to a blind date. Only now do I feel that that man is really good to me.

If I had this kind of thinking and thinking now, I think my child would have been soy sauced. Every time that man invites me to eat and play, they are all paid scenic spots. I must have a bad temper at that time. Very capricious.

He wanted to take me to play, and I didn’t want to spend his money so I didn’t want to go. At the time, I sounded aggressive. Now that I think about it, I really regret it. It must have something to do with his work. At that time, I had to consider whether it was necessary to have two places.

After all, he crossed regions. At that time, he asked me on WeChat if I could get married if we kept dating. I listened to my mother at that time. My mother said that it would take at least one year to date a boy, so I said it would take at least one year.

He sometimes asked me insincerely if I could come to my house and see my parents, but I refused. Now that I think about it, it would be great if I met my parents with him at that time, and it would be nice if I married him. He was 26 years old at the time, and he was 32 years old. He was in a hurry to get married.

But I understood it too late at the time, and later hesitated about my parents’ forced marriage for the past two years. I heard that he married another woman after a month without contact with me. Later I realized that men don’t always go on blind dates with one woman. Blind date.

It doesn’t matter if you’re not engaged or married. It turns out that he and that woman got married after talking for more than half a year. Now that I think about it, if I had taken the initiative, had a better temper, and been more enthusiastic, even as my mother said, if I It's not bad to have sex with him when you meet him for the first time.

Maybe there will be children too, and now there are many marriages with children. It turns out that men are always in two boats, so I can't blame him. Anyway, the relationship between the couple has not been confirmed, and it is unclear. "

"How can you think like this, a woman's first time is so important, if there is no deep love, how can you hand it over easily? There is no need to wrong yourself for getting married?" Zhang Jingbo shouted anxiously.

"You don't even know now that I've been forced by my parents. They always think that if I see a man, I should sleep with him." As she spoke, Liu Shanshan had tears in her eyes. Whenever she thought of her parents, she would Some are hard to control.

Zhang Jingbo gently handed over the tissue, and let Liu Shanshan find out that he shouldn't be too harsh on Liu Shanshan, firstly, he is not qualified, and secondly, he thinks that a dogmatic woman like Liu Shanshan has few ways to vent her anger. If crying makes her feel better and relieves stress, that's fine too.

"But I also feel that if I marry that man, I don't know if I will be happy. He didn't ask me anything, whether I have a boyfriend, my relationship experience, even if I am a virgin, and how many men I have. He never asked me in that relationship, just like a gentleman, he never asked me.

In fact, I don't know much about him. Does he have a girlfriend, how many girlfriends he has had, and what kind of women he likes?I don't know, almost every time I eat and play, there is no in-depth communication at all.

Even if I get married, I don’t know what it will be like. I don’t know what kind of person he is. Confused.

It’s so easy to meet a man like Yang Jinhua from a similar family background a while ago, but he didn’t catch it. I seem to be like this every time. Every time they take me to eat and play, they don’t confirm the relationship, I don’t know. of.

Let’s talk about boyfriend and girlfriend, no, let’s talk about friends, no, every time we chat, eat and play, there are topics to talk about, and we are very happy, but every time it ends without a problem, sometimes I wonder if it’s true that I have nothing to do with them a physical relationship.

If I have a physical relationship, will I get married? I even thought that if I could take the initiative at that time, I could take the initiative to hold Yang Jinhua's hand, kiss him passionately, and even give him my body. My gentleman, you will be responsible to me, you will marry me, right?can you? "

"This..." Zhang Jingbo was very surprised. She didn't expect Liu Shanshan to be so confiding to him. She probably really regarded him as an elder, or even an experienced veteran who wanted to learn from him. If he was Liu Shanshan at this time His blind date probably won't be treated like this.

"This is not necessarily true. Only when people love themselves can they be loved by others. It doesn't mean that if you have sex with a man, he will marry you. Men are very powerful. Marriage is a very complicated thing. It is a matter between two people. The bonding of a family.

There is nothing wrong with falling in love and enjoying the pleasure of the body, but when it comes to marriage, every man will consider the cost, family background, and trade-offs in various aspects. It is not a simple matter. Don't take the body as a bargaining chip easily, and it will only hurt women. "

"Do you believe I'm still a virgin?"

“Honestly a bit”

"That's right, no one will believe me if I say it. It is said that parents understand their children, but it is not always the case. Parents don't understand me. They don't know what kind of man I like. They don't understand my love experience, emotional experience, and even My physical experience always introduces my partner intimately.

But they don't know me at all, and they won't ask me such detailed questions, maybe they will never, and it's the same with you, your parents won't know about you, right? "

Zhang Jingbo laughed loudly: "What my parents told me is to think before doing things, to think carefully before speaking, and to be responsible to the girl, and not to hurt the girl easily, as for other things, it is not safe."

(End of this chapter)